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Host Jake Deptula and Family Law Attorney Michele Locke sit down with Justine, a former military wife and domestic abuse survivor, from episode three of lovelustfear, "You're Never Allowed to Leave Me." They discuss the challenges military spouses face in abusive relationships, the complexities of navigating the court system, and the biases that can impact legal outcomes. They also explore the journey of finding love and healing after trauma, the power dynamics within abusive relationships, and the vital importance of sharing survivor stories.

Topics: abusive relationships, power dynamics, military spouses, survivor stories, healing, love, toxic relationship, military, support, court system, biases, listening, comfortable environments, survivors, domestic violence

Justine - Episode Link
"You’re Never Allowed To Leave Me"
https://podcasts.apple.com/nz/podcast/lovelustfear-justine-youre-never-allowed-to-leave-me/id1735876283?i=1000653439092
https://open.spotify.com/episode/5bNWUWoj1deSI8kcANsGpo?si=7945e7c09356460e

links
Michele Locke
https://www.michelelocke.com/
https://www.instagram.com/attorneymichelelocke/
Military Spouse Support 
https://www.militaryonesource.mil/
Talk: 1.800.342.9647
Military OneSource is your 24/7 connection to information, answers, and support to help you reach your goals, overcome challenges, and thrive. As a member of our military family, you are eligible to use this Defense Department-funded program anytime, anywhere. Turn to Military OneSource for tax services, spouse employment help, webinars and online training, relocation, and deployment tools, and much more.
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

Justine - Episode Link
"You’re Never Allowed To Leave Me"
https://podcasts.apple.com/nz/podcast/lovelustfear/id1735876283
https://open.spotify.com/episode/5bNWUWoj1deSI8kcANsGpo?si=7945e7c09356460e

guest + story | submission information 
If you have a dating or relationship story to share, want to participate in a discussion here on lovelustfridays, or have a topic you’d like us to cover, contact us below.
E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com
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Introducing – Haunted Detective

A true crime podcast that investigates the Macabre side of the world. Kelsey Childs and her friend Pamela J explore Paranormal mysteries nestled within the strangest crime cases you will ever hear about. From human doll makers and odd hauntings to people who vanished without a trace, the Haunted Detective podcast is a series that will make you question everything.

The Murder of Pravin Varughese: Police Negligence & Racial Discrimination

Kelsey and Pamela are going to be deep diving into the murder of Pravin Varughese; a case that has involved horrific displays of racial prejudice, police negligence and just overall bizarre court rulings. 

OFFICIAL FB PAGE FOR PRAVIN & AND PETITION 
https://www.facebook.com/ justiceforpravin/ 
https://www.change.org/p/united-states-supreme-court-justice-for-pravin

Become a supporter of this podcast:
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Following her divorce, Kenzi returned to her hometown and ventured into online dating, where she developed a promising friendship with romantic potential. However, the situation took a dark turn when Kenzi found herself subjected to his disturbing and abusive behavior.

chapters

(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:42) about kenzi
(02:26) kenzi’s story
(22:00) questions & answers
(29:22) closing thoughts
(30:19) charity & organizations
(30:49) submit your story
(31:00) disclaimer

quotes

“I started to really realize like, okay, I'm going to have to leave this marriage because if I don't leave this marriage at some point, I'm not so sure I'm going to make it out at all.” - Kenzi

“I have got to rebuild my life. And I finally get to this point where I want to start the process of exploring dating.” - Kenzi

“And he just looks me dead in the face. And he says, If you're not going or staying the night, I might as well just go ahead and get this over with.” - Kenzi

“I'm just like, God, please let me get my shoes on and get the fuck out of here, like, please, just let me get the fuck out of here safe, like, please don't let anything happen to me.” - Kenzi

“And what I would tell them is that you have no idea what somebody is going through until you are standing right in their shoes and you're put into the exact same situation. You don't know how you would react. You don't know how you would act. You don't know what you would say.” - Kenzi

guest links | kenzi

Inside The Case | Podcast
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/inside-the-case/id1679471501

Instagram | Kenzi Durbin
https://www.instagram.com/thisiskenzi_/

music | sounds

Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Franco Gonzalez, Jan Hill, Alex Wit, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, and TheoJT from Pixabay

Spacetime by Mountaineer

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National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

story submission information 

If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.

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Affairs are prevalent but rarely talked about relationships. The podcast, Cheating: When Love Lies, is a deep dive into the complex emotions surrounding these secret unions.

Creator and host, Jillian Hamilton, delves into this taboo topic and asks the hard questions about affairs: how common are they, who's having them, and why? These questions illicit unexpected answers that reveal both men and women as people actively seeking something - validation, escape, understanding, vengeance, thrill, love, sex, and romance - outside of marriage or committed partnerships. Cheating: When Love Lies resists the condemnation of affairs as uniquely wrong or bad and instead considers their usefulness in learning as much about relationships as we learn about our ourselves.

On the podcast, Jillian Hamilton narrates short fictional stories about cheating based on true life events. The narration is followed by a roundtable discussion with everyday people who share their unique perspectives. Jillian also interviews cheaters and betrayed partners. These interviews are raw and real-and at times maddening or heartbreaking.

Listen now to Cheating: When Love Lies. Are you ready for the truth?

Apple Podcasts
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/cheating-when-love-lies/id1575403464
Spotify
https://open.spotify.com/show/51sjxVIFw6QhbtuwIg8166
Amazon Music
https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/d862fa78-ec68-43fe-ad28-9df4d0fc8268/cheating-when-love-lies
Instagram
https://www.instagram.com/cheatingwhenlovelies/
Websites
https://www.jillianhamilton.online/about-podcast-cheating-when-love-lies
https://www.podcastone.com/pd/Cheating-When-Love-Lies

Despite longing for love and affection, Kaitlyn becomes caught in a cycle of toxic relationships marked by sexual assault, emotional abuse, and physical violence.

chapters

(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:21) about kaitlyn
(02:11) kaitlyn’s story
(19:02) questions & answers
(23:30) closing thoughts
(24:18) charity & organizations
(24:48) submit your story
(24:59) disclaimer

quotes

“I thought that it was going to be, like, a romance novel because he painted that picture for me.” - Kaitlyn
“We didn't have boundaries. those, between him and I, those didn't exist.” - Kaitlyn
“He would wake up and decide that he wanted to be mad at me for something that he dreamt about, and he would take it out on me.” - Kaitlyn
“I had to get stripped of everything that I'd ever known. So those basic emotions that we get when we're children. I got stripped down to those emotions. in therapy, it was like, you think you understand guilt but you need to learn just happiness.” - Kaitlyn

music | sounds

Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres (002-003) by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, and TheoJT from Pixabay

Spacetime by Mountaineer

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Cleveland Rape Crisis Center
https://clevelandrapecrisis.org/
Cleveland Rape Crisis Center supports survivors of rape and sexual abuse, promotes healing and prevention and advocates for social change.

Futures Without Violence
https://www.futureswithoutviolence.org/
For more than 30 years, FUTURES has been providing groundbreaking programs, policies, and campaigns that empower individuals and organizations working to end violence against women and children around the world.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

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If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.

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L.A. Not So Confidential is a True Crime and Forensic Psychology podcast hosted by two Los Angeles - based psychologists currently working in the criminal justice field. Dr. Shiloh & Dr. Scott have a unique perspective on True Crime as residents of the center of the entertainment world and the birthplace of the Noir Crime Genre.

Listen on Apple
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/l-a-not-so-confidential-the-premier/id1293032240

Listen on Spotify
https://open.spotify.com/show/21dpgZ5V9I9m2RI8tB8Nr2

Listen on Amazon Music
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Website
https://www.la-not-so-confidential.com/

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TikTok
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Lena, compelled by her strict upbringing, marries a culturally appropriate man who promises to provide for her needs. But after discovering his success and adoration are a facade, she finds herself trapped in a marriage of deception, control, and abuse.

chapters

(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:46) about lena
(02:47) lena’s story
(33:10) questions & answers
(37:59) closing thoughts
(38:50) charity & organizations
(39:19) submit your story
(39:30) disclaimer

quotes

“I came from a traditional Armenian family. my cultural heritage is from Turkey. my grandparents were both survivors of the Armenian genocide. my parents were first generation, I'm second. And I was raised in a very strict household.” - Lena

“My father would say conflicting statements like you can do anything you want to do in life as long as you put your mind to it. Whereas my mother on the other side would say a girl's place is in the home taking care of her family.” - Lena

“He took me to the most extravagant Restaurant. he was dressed to the nines, and he got me flowers and gifts, and you're beautiful. You're perfect. I've never imagined myself with anybody so wonderful as you and I think that we could build a future together.” - Lena

“It progressively got worse and worse and worse. he started to degrade me, and he got very controlling. He told me what I could wear, how I could wear it. how to wear my makeup, how to wear my hair, And he told me what type of underwear to wear, and if I didn't do it, then there was going to be some form of emotional punishment.” - Lena

“And she said, ‘You've got 30 minutes to get your cats in their carriers, get your purse on your back, and get out of the house or I'm going to call the police.’” - Lena

“...if you're in a situation where you're dealing with a narcissist and you're married to that, start planning, look for a way out. stash money away, get your jewelry, and hide it. And when the time is right, it's going to present itself and you get the hell out when you know you're supposed to leave and don't look back.” - Lena

music | sounds

Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Leigh Robinson, and Alesiadavina from Pixabay

Spacetime by Mountaineer

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The Midnight Mission - TMM (Downtown Los Angeles, CA)
https://www.midnightmission.org/
https://www.instagram.com/themidnightmission/
Phone: 1.213.624.9258
The Midnight Mission is the oldest continuously operating human service organization in the Los Angeles region. Centered in the Skid Row area of downtown Los Angeles, The Midnight runs one of the most efficient direct service operations in the country. With only five executive managers throughout its 100-year history, The Midnight has been a consistent beacon of light for those with nowhere else to turn.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

story submission information 

If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.

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Hosts Natalie and Paige use straightforward storytelling to spotlight cold cases, missing persons, and suspicious deaths— often incorporating original audio from the victim’s friends and family. The podcast also includes monthly interviews about the true crime genre as a whole, whether that’s discussions on ethics, survivors sharing their stories, or other relevant topics.

Connect with them at themurderdiariespodcast.com or on socials @themurderdiariespod

Listen on Spotify
https://open.spotify.com/show/55kyDPfEhaYMsEuTjChWE4?si=646fb6c4b8c24fc2

Listen on Apple
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-murder-diaries/id1475609603

Laura reconnects with her grade school sweetheart sparking a wave of nostalgic romance. However, the warmth of their reunion soon fades as she becomes subjected to his abusive and destructive behavior.

chapters

(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:46) about laura
(02:46) laura’s story
(23:18) questions & answers
(26:32) closing thoughts
(27:44) charity & organizations
(28:14) submit your story
(28:25) disclaimer

quotes

“We went to fifth-grade camp. we were hanging out all the time, and I kind of got one of my crushes, you know, and I guess he did too, and then we ended up connecting…So we were boyfriend and girlfriend.” - Laura

“We were joking about how we dated when we were younger and we still had the same sort of sense of humor, and the things that made us get along. I felt a special connection to him.” - Laura

“We'd get into arguments and he would. Grab me by my throat and squeeze and choke me and look into my eyes….It was like something else took over him and sometimes I just see him enter a room and he would look like that and I was like, Oh, I better not talk.” - Laura

“And, he was in there with a girl and he looked shocked and she didn't, because she didn't know about me, apparently she's just sitting there. I walked up to him and I was like, Oh, hi. And he looked at me like, Oh, And I said to her, hi, I'm his girlfriend.” - Laura

“I saw more and more examples of healthy relationships like around me and I started recognizing it and being like this is just I can do better than this…” - Laura

“I think that rationalizing is a problem. You can't try to justify other people's behavior. You can't try to rationalize other people's behavior. If you're doing that, there's a problem.” - Laura

music | sounds

Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres 002 by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Fae Spencer, and Alesiadavina from Pixabay

Spacetime by Mountaineer

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NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness)
https://www.nami.org/
NAMI is the nation’s largest grassroots mental health organization dedicated to building better lives for the millions of Americans affected by mental illness. NAMI works to educate, support, advocate, listen and lead to improve the lives of people with mental illness and their loved ones.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

story submission information 

If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.

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Sadie finds herself drawn to a drug-addicted "bad boy" with a criminal past. When her efforts to rehabilitate him fail, her addiction to this abusive and dangerous man threatens to end her career, her family, and her life.

chapters

(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:42) about sadie
(02:53) sadie’s story
(24:43) questions & answers
(29:30) closing thoughts
(30:33) charity & organizations
(31:03) submit your story
(31:14) disclaimer

quotes

“I was with him for almost fifteen years. And then one day this one thing happened and I felt like something snapped inside of me. Like something died instantly. And I was like, I'm done.” - Sadie

“...he was very honest with me about his drug use and he had a pretty extensive, criminal history. And I felt like, because he was honest with me right away and he asked me to hold my judgment I felt like, I can do that.” - Sadie

“I went all in on this relationship. I thought he has the potential to be something really, really great. Something that I felt like only I could see. And I thought that I could help him get to that point, and other people were like, no, he's dangerous, he's a bad person.” - Sadie

“And then he sent me a text message and it said, you were smart to lock the door.  And I was like,  please just leave, please don't do anything. Will you please just leave? And he said, you let me in the house or I will rip the door off the house. Let me in or I will just tear this door off.” - Sadie

“I've had to, forgive myself, recognize, and this is a huge part of being a therapist too, is recognizing that I am a human, just like everyone else, and that I make mistakes just like everyone else, because people think, ‘Oh, a therapist, like you're supposed to have it all together, You're supposed to know how to do everything.'” - Sadie

music | sounds

Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Samuel Kamau, and Yevhenii Kovalenko from Pixabay

Spacetime by Mountaineer

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https://www.cadamn.org/keep-me-safe
Keep Me Safe provides a safe and nurturing place for children to visit their non-custodial parents. We strive to provide a positive, healthy, and nurturing environment where children and their caregivers can be assured that supervised parenting time and exchanges will be conflict-free.

CADA’s (Committee Against Domestic Violence) mission is to provide safety and support to victims of domestic and sexual violence through education advocacy and shelter.

National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/

story submission information 

If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.

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