all my friends are queer – Détails, épisodes et analyse

Reaction to The Originals Season 5, Episode 6. Of course the three stooges of this cursed episode are men. My girl deserved SO MUCH BETTER TREATMENT 😭

It's like... If I only saw TERFs as my impression of the feminist movement, I would have hated it. Just as I hated the men's rights activism movement for the extremists I saw online in my early 20s. I learned a lot from this documentary, and it has expanded my views in healthy ways. I stopped identifying as a feminist online when I felt the movement was too cringey--something people would misjudge me on. I didn't want to be viewed as a radical or be placed alongside them, but I never stopped taking a feminist stance or supporting some important women's rights issues. I've always been an activist. Rather than renounce feminism, I'll adopt men's rights activism, too. I have already done that in many ways in the past 5-10 years, it's just something I can now say with confidence. The concept of dialectics revolutionized my world view. If you think they can't coexist, you're wrong. If they could work together, all the progress they (both sides) claim to be nearly impossible would be happening already.

Aside from the usual weekly recap and goal-setting, this week I'm digging into and recounting the events leading up to my mixed manic episode last year and the factors (social, medical, behavioral) that contributed to a psychotic break.  Notice that as I speak about these events, at times I start to question myself (even gaslight myself, which I just learned was a thing), get confused, trip over my words, repeat things... these are some of my warning signs that I am triggered, and so you will hear me talking myself through that and fact-seeking to confirm what's true in my retelling of events. | ➡️CW: bipolar 2 disorder, mania, potential ADHD and self-medicating, medical marijuana, dating and trauma bonding, CPTSD, psychosis, delusions, paranoia, panic attacks, reference to depressive episode | ➡️TW: medical fatphobia, mention of weight-loss medication, mention of abusive relationship, disordered eating, mistreatment by police (PLEASE *tell me* if I need to add other trigger warnings) | Support my fundraiser for mental healthcare: https://www.gofundme.com/f/rae-survival-fund

Reconnecting with my mom has been tough and my brain is messy right now, but there's one thing I know for sure (that she taught me): my faith is rooted in my love for my family. I speak on many topics here, including: how my lack of emotional intelligence/awareness, unstable housing, and neglectful healthcare practices impacted my mental health as an adolescent (age 15-26); coming to terms with my abusive relationship (with my mom's help); talking myself out a guilt spiral; codependency; how working in a queer space saved my life. | #TWCW: abusive ex, suicidality, addiction, housing instability, houselessness/homelessness, healthcare neglect, eating disorder (*please let me know if I need to add another warning*) | https://www.gofundme.com/f/rae-survival-fund | #amfaq #emotionalintelligence #abusesurvivor #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #depression #anxiety #cptsd #bipolardisorder #livedexperience #unstablehousing

How procrastination and financial anxiety is affecting my safety planning and continuity of mental healthcare. Also, fuck capitalism and fuck our healthcare system. #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #depression #anxiety #CPTSD #bipolardisorder

CW: CPTSD, how I eliminate my triggers, find closure, and heal TW: abusive ex-boyfriend, sexual abuse, (Please tell me if I need to add other TWs!) #TWCW #CPTSD #PTSD #triggers #trigger #healing #emotionalhealing #emotionalintelligence #mentalhealth #therapy #gototherapy

A little bit about me and my vision for this podcast.

it's a lonely feeling to look around at a virtually non-existent support system. EVERYTHING has changed over the past two years. it's hard to know which direction to choose to move forward. discussion about complex and abusive family dynamics. life has really taken my history of fighting against the odds and put me to the test. in some ways, I feel like a failure... pero, I chose to make these impossibly painful life experiences shape me into a better person and role model. maybe I'm less of a failure than I give myself credit for?

TW: discussion of rape (if there's any trigger warnings I'm missing, please tell me in the Q&A section and I will update it!) CW: recapping the events that led up to my mortifying psychotic episode last year, and all of the messiness that goes along with it. I recently mass deleted a ton of triggering videos and photos from this time period so I don't get bombarded with the memory notifications this year (coping ahead DBT style) and it forced me to face the experiences I have been repressing for nearly a year. I'm really looking forward to reprocessing in EMDR for the next 3 months, I'm hopeful it will give me relief and help me manage my PTSD symptoms more effectively.