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| He Thought it Was a Headache - Now My Husband is Dead | 13 Oct 2026 | 00:59:55 | |
What happens when the person you've loved almost your entire life is suddenly taken from you? My guest today is Ashley Leatham, who lost her husband, Scott, a 39-year-old firefighter, to a rare and aggressive cancer called NUT carcinoma. What started as persistent headaches turned into a devastating diagnosis, and just five months later, Ashley was holding her husband's hand as he took his final breath. They had known each other since they were 12. They built a beautiful life, raised two children, and imagined growing old together. Then everything changed. Ashley opens up about the unimaginable pain of watching her husband fight for his life, the heartbreak of telling their children he was dying, and the final moments she'll never forget. In this episode:
This conversation is a powerful reminder that tomorrow is never promised, the people we love are everything, and even in our darkest moments, there can still be a reason to keep going. Key Moments: 00:00 The heartbreaking final moments of Scott's cancer battle 03:01 A childhood friendship that became a lifelong love 07:50 The headaches that revealed a deadly cancer diagnosis 12:44 The hospital visit that changed everything 16:14 The rare cancer diagnosis and desperate fight to survive 20:11 When chemotherapy led to a terrifying emergency 23:05 Seven organs failing and the fight to stay alive 27:28 The devastating cancer prognosis that shattered their hope 30:18 How facing death changes what matters most 35:16 The powerful life lesson Scott left behind 38:55 The suspected cancer risks inside the fire station 43:23 The heartbreaking news that Scott had weeks to live 46:16 The final family memories before saying goodbye 49:09 Holding her husband's hand as he took his last breath 52:35 The painful reality of grief after losing a spouse 56:06 Finding purpose and hope after unimaginable loss Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Nick & Cassie: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/dsnyash/ | |||
| I Was Almost a Killer, Here's How I Got There... | 29 Sep 2026 | 00:53:38 | |
There’s a point where you can’t blame your past anymore. You have to look in the mirror and decide who you’re going to become. My guest, Shane Goodbar, has lived both sides of that truth. Shane was sexually abused as a child, learned to hide behind a mask, and eventually found escape through alcohol and drugs. What started as a way to numb the pain spiraled into addiction, broken relationships, multiple DUIs, jail, and a moment where he came terrifyingly close to taking another man’s life. But this isn’t just a story about addiction. It’s about accountability, recovery, fatherhood, faith, forgiveness, and what happens when you finally stop seeing yourself as the victim of your own life. In this episode:
What stayed with me most was Shane’s willingness to own all of it. Not excuse it. Not hide from it. Own it. Because no matter how lost you’ve become, your past doesn’t have to be where your story ends. But eventually, you have to take the first step. Key Moments: 00:00 The man behind the mask 03:18 Hiding childhood sexual abuse 06:02 When drugs became the escape 09:41 Living two different lives 13:15 Addiction starts taking over 17:46 The relationship that changed everything 21:07 Becoming a father changes the path 24:49 The lie he told himself about fatherhood 27:07 His fourth DUI and arrest 30:04 Ten days after leaving jail 33:09 When rock bottom finally hit 36:03 Facing the man he had become 39:01 Learning to love himself again 42:03 The identity crisis facing men 45:12 Finding God after years of pain 48:26 Why surrender finally brought peace 51:03 His message to anyone still lost 53:02 What recovery actually gives you Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Shane: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sr_goodbar/ | |||
| This Voicemail is All I Have Left of My Mom | 22 Sep 2026 | 01:34:47 | |
There are some phone calls that divide your life into a before and an after. My guest, Kylie Hammonds, was just 26 when she received one of those calls. Her mom, Tabitha, had died suddenly, leaving Kylie and her brother searching for answers about what happened that night. Kylie takes me inside the events surrounding her mother’s death, the fentanyl discovered during the investigation, the questions surrounding her father, and the painful reality of grieving her mom while also grieving a father who was still alive. In this episode:
But this conversation became about so much more than loss. Kylie shares what three years of grief, anger, prayer and healing have taught her about forgiveness, giving yourself grace, and how easily we convince ourselves we’ll have more time with the people we love. Later, Kylie’s boyfriend Michael Curtis joins us to share how watching her navigate this unimaginable loss inspired him to create Forevermore, a platform designed to preserve the voices, stories and memories of the people we love. And at the very end, Kylie plays the only voicemail she has left of her mom. It’s only a few seconds long, but when it’s the only chance you have to hear someone you love again, a few seconds is everything. Key Moments: 00:00 The phone call that changed everything 05:13 Flying home without knowing the truth 10:03 Why her brother warned her at the airport 15:07 The heartbreaking scene inside the house 20:05 Strangers caught entering her mom’s office 24:48 Her father’s story starts falling apart 29:10 The addiction Kylie never fully understood 33:07 Fentanyl changes the entire investigation 38:22 The discovery that changed how she saw her dad 42:04 Grieving a father who is still alive 49:21 What grief taught her about surviving loss 57:30 The tragedy that shaped Michael’s view of loss 1:02:00 How Kylie’s grief sparked a bigger idea 1:12:00 Using AI to preserve a loved one’s voice 1:17:00 The questions that uncover your life story 1:25:16 Hearing a loved one’s voice after they’re gone 1:32:12 What she’d give to hear her mom again Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Kylie: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kylie_knh/ Connect with Michael: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/michaelrrcurtis/ | |||
| He Thought it Was a Stomach Ache - Now My Husband is Dead | 15 Sep 2026 | 00:59:21 | |
In this episode, I sit down with Nick Rogers and his wife, Cassie, two people whose lives were shattered by the unimaginable loss of their spouses to cancer. Nick takes me through his wife Anna’s battle with aggressive breast cancer, the moment they thought she had beaten it, and the devastating reality of watching it return and spread. He also shares the impossible decisions he had to make as a father while trying to protect his two young daughters from losing their mom. Cassie’s story is different, but equally heartbreaking. Her husband Cody went from seemingly healthy to being diagnosed with metastatic pancreatic cancer, and just 66 days later, he was gone. Before he died, Cody told Cassie something incredible: he was already praying for the man who would one day love her and help raise their children. In this episode:
And somehow, through grief, faith, and circumstances that are almost impossible to explain, Nick and Cassie found each other. This conversation is about losing the person you thought you’d grow old with, parenting through grief, trusting God when nothing makes sense, and slowly discovering that life, and even love, can exist after unimaginable loss.
00:00 Two spouses lost to cancer, one unexpected love story 03:18 The cancer diagnosis that changed everything 07:04 Finding faith through aggressive cancer treatment 10:19 When chemotherapy made death feel real 13:17 Cancer remission and a new beginning 16:32 The symptoms that revealed a brain tumor 20:07 When cancer came back even more aggressively 24:03 Facing the reality that Anna could die 28:26 The final months of Anna’s cancer battle 34:44 She fell asleep and never woke up 38:09 Telling two young girls their mom was dying 41:40 66 days from pancreatic cancer diagnosis to death 45:00 The scan that revealed a death sentence 49:32 Cody’s final message of faith 51:21 Why Cody prayed for Cassie’s future husband 54:28 Finding love after losing a spouse 56:48 Anna’s message to Cassie before she died Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Nick & Cassie: | |||
| I Gave Him the Best Week of His Life - Now My Cousin is Dead | 08 Sep 2026 | 00:50:08 | |
A few days before 16-year-old Landon took his own life, he spent what felt like one of the best weeks of his life with his cousin, Landon Ashworth. They ate way too much sushi, played golf, shot guns, laughed, talked about life, and dreamed about the future. When the week ended, Landon told him how much he needed it. He seemed happy. He seemed okay. Then came the phone call that changed everything. I sit down with filmmaker, actor, writer, and creator Landon Ashworth for an incredibly raw conversation about suicide, autism, grief, survivor’s guilt, and the things we sometimes don't see until it's too late. In this episode:
Landon opens up about experiencing suicidal thoughts himself and why he now isn’t afraid to directly ask someone if they’re thinking about taking their own life. We also talk about the painful reality of trying to help someone find their way out of the darkness, why emotional pain can feel impossible to escape, and the importance of finding something worth holding onto. This conversation is heavy. But more than anything, it’s about choosing to keep going. Key Moments: 00:00 The week before everything changed 03:03 When Landon’s future fell apart 06:25 The week that made him feel okay again 10:02 The phone call no one expected 13:43 The guilt of missing the signs 17:02 The suicide warning signs he missed 20:23 The reality of masking autism 24:00 Why other people’s opinions mean nothing 29:39 What an autistic brain can feel like 34:29 The Hollywood advice Landon couldn’t accept 38:00 Why vulnerable people started finding him 41:37 Turning Landon’s suicide into Go On 45:01 Finding a reason to stay alive 48:02 How to get out of emotional hell Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Landon Ashworth: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/landonashworthdirects/ #SuicidePrevention #AutismAwareness #SurvivorsGuilt | |||
| I Found a Lump in the Shower - Now I'm Fighting for My Life | 01 Sep 2026 | 00:42:36 | |
When I called Mya Ludwig a few weeks ago, I expected a hard conversation. She had been diagnosed with breast cancer, undergone a double mastectomy, and was halfway through chemotherapy. Instead, I hung up feeling like Mya had somehow helped me. So I knew I needed to bring her back to the podcast. Mya opens up about the moment she discovered the lump, what treatment has really been like, and how losing her hair challenged the way she saw herself. But what impacted me most was her perspective. She refuses to let cancer become her identity or allow fear about tomorrow to steal the life she still gets to live today. We talk about learning to put yourself first, finding joy in incredibly difficult seasons, and how a traumatic brain injury years earlier taught Mya lessons she never imagined she'd need again. And making this conversation even more special, Mya's brother Adam joins us again, bringing the same joy and personality we loved the first time. In this episode:
This conversation reminded me that we don't always get to choose what happens to us. But we do get to choose how we show up through it. Key Moments: 00:00 The Lump Maya Knew Was Cancer 03:18 The Attitude Toward Cancer That Changed My Life 07:44 Why Cancer Forced Maya to Finally Put Herself First 11:02 Why Maya Refuses to Feel Sorry for Herself 14:44 Refusing to Let Cancer Take Over Her Life 18:02 What Someone With Cancer Actually Needs From You 21:04 Losing Her Hair Changed How Maya Saw Herself 25:40 The One Thing Maya Does on Her Darkest Days 29:26 Maya’s Brother Adam Returns to the Podcast 31:20 How Adam Reacted to Maya’s Cancer Diagnosis 34:01 The Joy Adam Brings Everywhere He Goes 38:19 Adam’s Unfiltered Take on the Raiders 41:29 Adam’s Message to Anyone Going Through a Hard Time Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Mya: IG: @minimamamya (https://www.instagram.com/minimamamya/) | |||
| Most Heartbreaking Story I've Ever Heard | 25 Aug 2026 | 01:06:52 | |
In this episode, I sit down with Matthew Griffin, who spent 21 years serving in the military and law enforcement. During those years, Matt saw things most of us will never see. But one call would stay with him for decades. As a young police officer, Matt responded to the accidental death of two-and-a-half-year-old Benny Jr., the son of a friend. Matt was the first officer on scene and performed CPR, but Benny didn’t survive. What followed was years of guilt, nightmares, drinking, and the belief that if he had reacted just seconds sooner, maybe he could have saved him. The trauma didn’t stay at work. Slowly, Matt began losing himself, his marriage, his identity, and eventually his desire to keep living. In this episode, we talk about:
This conversation is about what happens when the people we expect to save everyone else are quietly falling apart themselves. And why sometimes surviving starts with giving life one more hour. One more day. Key Moments: 00:00 The Police Call That Changed Everything 03:03 Meeting Benny Jr. Days Before the Tragedy 10:24 The Guilt That Haunted Him for Years 18:02 The Hidden Mental Health Crisis in Policing 24:18 When Undercover Police Work Took Over His Life 27:31 Losing His Marriage, Home and Identity 32:14 Taking Accountability for Who He Became 36:04 His Chief Checked on Him, Then Died by Suicide 42:04 The Phone Call That Saved Matt’s Life 48:47 Why Checking In on Someone Could Save a Life 53:22 “If Today Is a Good Day to Die, So Is Tomorrow” 59:44 The Check-In Every Leader Should Be Doing 1:03:29 What Matt Would Say to Someone Considering Suicide Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Matt: | |||
| We Were So Proud He Lost Weight - Now My Dad is Dead | 18 Aug 2026 | 00:42:28 | |
In this episode, I sit down with Olivia Burnett, who lost her dad, Kevin, to stage four colon cancer at just 24 years old. He was her Superman, the person who gave her confidence, made her feel unstoppable, and always reminded her that she was “golden.” Within months of his death, grief pulled Olivia into a darkness she never expected. She tried therapy. Medication. Exercise. Friends. Family. Everything people tell you to do when you're struggling with depression. But nothing seemed to break through. Eventually, Olivia found herself sitting on her bed with a bottle of pills in her hand, believing suicide was the only way out. Then two words entered her mind: Hold on. That tiny piece of hope was enough. In this episode, we talk about:
This conversation isn't about pretending everything gets better overnight. It's about what can happen when you hold on long enough to see what comes next.
00:00 My Dad Was Healthy Then Everything Changed 04:06 The Signs of Stage 4 Colon Cancer We Missed 08:02 The Night I Watched My Dad Die 11:12 The Future Cancer Stole From Us 15:03 How My Dad Faced Death Without Fear 19:03 Finding Yellow Socks in the Darkness 22:09 Why “Choose Happiness” Isn't That Simple 25:16 When Grief Turned Into Severe Depression 28:03 The Night I Almost Ended My Life 31:16 Turning My Pain Into Purpose 35:46 How I Finally Climbed Out of the Darkness 39:34 The Small Decisions That Saved Me 41:06 What My Dad Would Say to Me Today
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| We Were Just Setting up The Nursery - Now She's Dead | 11 Aug 2026 | 01:05:16 | |
There are some stories you hear that stay with you long after the conversation ends. This is one of them. In this episode, I sit down with Nathan Wieser, a husband, father and author of We Did It, to talk about a journey through pregnancy loss, infant loss, miscarriage, PTSD, grief and a fight to become a father that lasted more than a decade. Nathan and his wife Lucy endured loss after loss. But nothing could prepare them for the day their daughter Mary died during birth, while Lucy herself was fighting to stay alive. Nathan remembers sitting alone in a hospital hallway waiting for one thing: to hear his daughter cry. The cry never came. What followed were years of grief, trauma and fear before they found the courage to try again. Then came Otto. Born at just 26 weeks and weighing only two pounds, Otto spent 121 days in the NICU fighting through emergency surgeries, sepsis and moments when his parents didn't know if he would survive. In this episode:
This is an incredibly raw conversation about losing children, surviving trauma, marriage, fatherhood and finding hope when life has given you every reason to stop believing things can get better. This conversation gave me a lot to think about as a father. I think it will do the same for you. Key Moments: 00:00 Waiting for a Cry That Never Came 06:22 The Diagnosis No Parent Is Ready For 12:38 The Moment Everything Went Horribly Wrong 18:04 Telling His Wife Their Baby Had Died 24:19 Could They Ever Try for a Baby Again? 28:17 Losing Their Twins Without a Heartbeat 31:12 The Phone Call That Saved His Life 36:45 Meeting His Two-Pound Son for the First Time 41:42 The NICU Nightmare Begins 47:25 His Heart Stopped Again 49:13 The Miracle Doctors Couldn’t Explain 52:06 They Finally Got Home... Then Lost Everything 54:15 Walking Through Hell to Find Their Miracle 58:28 The Best and Worst of the Medical System 1:00:36 Why He Gave Up Alcohol for His Son Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Nathan Wieser: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/nathanwieser/ We Did It by Nathan Wieser (Author): https://www.amazon.com/We-Did-perspective-enduring-miscarriages/dp/B0FLVTTHPY/ | |||
| My Family Keeps Dying & I Can't Explain It | 04 Aug 2026 | 01:13:16 | |
In this episode, I sit down with Jaclyn Rose, a mental health advocate whose life has been shaped by unimaginable loss. Jaclyn shares the heartbreaking story of losing her uncle to suicide, her father to addiction, and years later, her older brother to the very same battle. Rather than allowing grief to harden her heart, she chose to understand it. This conversation challenged the way I think about addiction, mental health, suicide, grief, and what it truly means to love someone who is suffering. We talk about the silence that often surrounds these struggles, why shame keeps so many families trapped, and how healing begins when we stop asking, “How could you do this to us?” and start asking, “What pain were you carrying?” In this episode:
If you've ever lost someone to suicide or addiction, love someone battling mental illness, or are carrying grief that still feels too heavy to name, I hope this episode reminds you that you are not alone. Key Moments: 00:00 The Text Message That Changed Everything 05:12 Seeing Her Uncle After Suicide at Just 9 Years Old 09:08 Why Silence Makes Grief Even Worse 16:17 The Birthday That Changed Her Relationship with Her Dad 20:01 The Truth About Her Father's Addiction 24:03 Reuniting With Her Dad One Week Before He Died 31:00 How Grief Turned Into Anxiety, Addiction & Survival 34:19 Why Time Doesn't Heal Trauma 36:05 Can You Love Someone Who Keeps Hurting You? 43:03 What Addiction Really Feels Like 46:41 Her Brother Started Following the Same Path 50:10 Loving Someone Without Enabling Them 54:08 "I Got My Son Back"... Or So We Thought 59:20 The Second Phone Call That Broke Her Heart 1:02:00 Saying Goodbye Without Shame 1:07:48 The Biggest Gaps in Mental Health Treatment 1:10:04 Why We Need to Change the Way We Talk About Grief Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Jaclyn Rose: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/wellnesswithjac/ | |||
| We Thought She Was Just Struggling With Friends, But It Was Something Much Worse | 28 Jul 2026 | 01:18:07 | |
As a parent, there are certain things you never think you’ll have to face. Watching your child fight for their life is one of them. In this episode, I sit down with Jheri South, a mother of seven whose story is filled with heartbreak, addiction, mental health struggles, suicide attempts, and an unbelievable determination to keep fighting. Jheri shares how her seemingly picture-perfect life unraveled when her husband’s crystal meth addiction tore their family apart. Years later, she would face every parent’s worst nightmare when her daughter Grace attempted to take her own life and collapsed into her arms having seizures. What follows is a raw conversation about suicide, autism in girls, ADHD, neurodivergence, parenting teenagers, and what our children may be carrying without us ever knowing. In this episode:
This conversation gave me a lot to think about as a father. I think it will do the same for you. Key Moments: 0:00 I Thought My Daughter Was Dying 6:36 Leaving Home at Just 15 10:02 When My Kids’ Mental Health Changed 16:01 The Loneliness Nobody Saw 23:26 The Mindset Shift That Changed Everything 29:16 The Suicide Attempt That Haunts Me 35:22 The Night My Daughter Tried to Die 40:02 “Are We in Heaven?” 47:32 Parenting vs. Connecting With Your Teen 54:22 The Hidden Damage of Seeking Approval 58:02 Are You Borrowing Your Self-Confidence? 1:04:02 Your Thoughts Aren’t Always True 1:06:57 Breaking Free From External Validation Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Jheri: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/jherisouth/ | |||
| He Thought it Was a Stomach Ache - Now My Brother is Dead | 21 Jul 2026 | 00:34:51 | |
In this episode of the Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Rebecca Doyle, who shares the heartbreaking story of losing her only brother, Edward, to an unexpected complication from cancer treatment at just 28 years old. What started as stomach pain quickly became a Stage 3 cancer diagnosis, months of chemotherapy, and a phone call that changed her life forever. Rebecca opens up about watching her brother die over FaceTime, the grief she buried to stay strong for her young daughter, and how years of unresolved trauma, postpartum depression, and unimaginable loss eventually pushed her to the brink of suicide. This is an honest conversation about grief, survival, faith, and finding a reason to keep living when life feels impossible. In this episode:
If you've ever lost someone you love, struggled with suicidal thoughts, or wondered if healing is possible after tragedy, I truly believe this conversation will remind you that you're not alone. Key Moments: 00:00 The Phone Call That Changed Everything 03:39 "Edward Is Going to Die Today" 06:12 Why Her Brother Meant Everything 09:38 The Stage 3 Cancer Diagnosis 11:57 The Chemo Complication That Killed Him 16:02 When Grief Became Suicidal Thoughts 19:44 The Night She Tried to End Her Life 21:40 Her Second Suicide Attempt 24:51 How Does Someone Reach That Breaking Point? 27:55 Why She Couldn't Stop Blaming Herself 30:30 What Her Brother Would Say Today 33:28 The Truth About Therapy No One Wants to Hear Connect with Tyler : Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ #SuicidePrevention #GriefRecovery #HealingAfterLoss | |||
| I Was at a Sleepover When I Got the Worst Call of My Life... | 14 Jul 2026 | 01:08:21 | |
Some stories leave you speechless. This is one of them. In this episode, I sit down with Kelle Bott for one of the most raw, emotional, and unforgettable conversations we've ever had on the Rollercoaster Podcast. At just 18 years old, Kelle watched her father take his final breath. In a matter of seconds, the person she believed was invincible was gone, and the grief that followed completely changed the course of her life. What started as a way to numb the pain through alcohol quickly became a devastating addiction filled with withdrawal, hallucinations, relapse, isolation, and the belief that she would never be okay again. But Kelle's story doesn't end there. She courageously shares her journey through addiction recovery, entering treatment, losing a baby through miscarriage, becoming pregnant again, and making the heartbreaking decision to place her son for adoption so he could have the life she dreamed of giving him. This conversation is about grief, alcoholism, sobriety, recovery, trauma, motherhood, open adoption, healing, and finding hope when life feels impossible. Kelle's vulnerability is extraordinary, and her story is one that will stay with you long after this episode ends. In this episode:
If you've ever experienced loss, struggled with addiction, questioned your worth, or wondered if life could ever get better, this conversation is for you. Key Moments: 00:00 The Last Night I Ever Had With My Dad 04:27 COVID Took My Dad So Fast 09:00 The Impossible Decision to Let Him Go 14:00 The Promise My Dad Never Got to Keep 19:10 When Grief Turned Into Alcoholism 24:15 Alcohol Took Control of My Life 29:35 Detox Saved My Life 35:20 The Wake-Up Call I Couldn't Ignore 40:40 I Got Pregnant 90 Days Sober 45:30 I Almost Chose Abortion 49:20 Hiding My Pregnancy From Everyone 52:05 The First Time I Held My Son 53:30 His Father Overdosed in My Hospital Room 55:45 My Final Night With My Baby 58:10 The Hardest Goodbye of My Life 1:03:40 How I Found Hope Again 1:07:00 If You're Struggling, Hear This Connect with Kelle Bott: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kellebott/ Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ | |||
| We Had the Perfect Family - Now My Husband & Daughter Are Dead | 07 Jul 2026 | 01:12:42 | |
Some stories stay with you long after the conversation ends. This is one of them. In this episode, I sit down with Julie Garlock to hear the unimaginable story of losing her husband, Troy, and their young daughter, Elsie, in a devastating car accident that changed her life forever. What followed wasn't just overwhelming grief, it was a journey through trauma, addiction, healing, faith, survival, and finding purpose when everything seemed lost. Julie opens up with incredible honesty about the years she and Troy spent battling addiction, the unconventional healing modalities that transformed their lives, the heartbreaking phone call that shattered her world, and the miraculous survival of their daughter, Mabel. We also have a deeply vulnerable conversation about suicide, meditation, grief, plant medicine, trauma, and the powerful role gratitude has played in helping Julie continue moving forward. Whether you agree with every perspective shared or not, I believe you'll walk away challenged, encouraged, and reminded that hope can still exist in the darkest moments. If you've ever lost someone you love, struggled with addiction, questioned your faith, or wondered if healing is possible after unimaginable pain, I hope Julie's story reminds you that you're not alone. In this episode:
This is a conversation about heartbreak, resilience, healing, and discovering that even after unimaginable tragedy, hope is still possible. Key Moments: 00:00 The Last FaceTime Before Everything Changed 03:00 How Addiction Nearly Destroyed Their Family 06:05 The Family Trip That Changed Everything 08:14 The Goodbye She Didn't Know Was Goodbye 13:20 Four Missed Calls Changed Everything 17:39 The Second Devastating Loss 21:15 The Miracle Doctors Couldn't Explain 27:00 The Father-Daughter Bond That Lives On 30:02 The Healing Tools That Changed Everything 33:17 Does Grief Ever Really Go Away? 36:52 Her Suicide Attempt During Addiction 41:12 How Plant Medicine Changed Troy Forever 46:45 The Ceremony That Gave Her Hope Again 50:28 What Really Led to Her Suicide Attempt 55:15 The Moment Everything Changed 1:00:05 Finding Hope After Unimaginable Loss 1:03:10 The Truth About the Fatal Crash Connect with Julie Garlock: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lettertomyloves/ Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ | |||
| We Put Seatbelts on Everyone Except My Daughter... | 30 Jun 2026 | 00:39:29 | |
Some stories leave you speechless, and this is one of them. In this episode, I sit down with Janairy Quintero, whose life changed forever after what should have been a simple family camping trip. When an ATV accident left her hand hanging by only a few veins, she made one split-second decision that likely saved her daughter's life. What followed was nearly two years of reconstructive surgeries, relentless infections, unimaginable pain, and ultimately the heartbreaking decision to amputate her hand. But this conversation isn't about tragedy. It's about resilience. It's about perspective. It's about refusing to let life's hardest moments define who you become. Janairy shares what it was really like to relearn everyday tasks with one hand, how she navigated the emotional weight of losing part of herself, why she never blamed her husband for the accident, and the mindset that allowed her to find gratitude even in the middle of unimaginable suffering. Whether you're facing trauma, loss, chronic illness, disability, or simply walking through a difficult season, I believe Janairy's story will remind you that your circumstances don't have to determine your future. In this episode:
Key Moments: 00:00 The ATV Crash That Changed Everything 03:45 My Hand Was Hanging by a Few Veins... 07:16 Why I Chose to Amputate My Hand 10:29 The Split-Second Decision That Saved My Daughter 12:25 Why I Never Blamed My Husband 14:21 Living Through 20+ Surgeries 16:35 Learning to Live With One Hand 18:18 The Everyday Things You Never Appreciate 20:39 What Everyone Takes for Granted 23:01 Did This Happen for a Reason? 25:10 Helping Other Amputees Find Hope 27:09 Why Losing a Limb Made Me Stronger 29:04 The Mindset That Changed My Life 31:17 Helping My Husband Let Go of the Guilt 33:19 Working Out Without a Hand 35:45 When Your Injury Becomes Your Identity Connect with Janaira Quintero: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/janairy_q/ Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ | |||
| Life Was Perfect, But I Was More Sick Than I Could Ever Imagine | 23 Jun 2026 | 01:14:14 | |
What makes someone throw away everything they've spent 10 years rebuilding? In this episode of the Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Corey Warren, a recovery advocate, business owner, and former addict whose life was shaped by addiction, prison, relapse, and ultimately redemption. Corey shares how a single decision at a high school party led to a 20-year battle with heroin and alcohol addiction. He opens up about the armed robbery that nearly cost him 30 years of his life, the alcoholism that left his organs failing, and the devastating relapse that happened after he had seemingly beaten the odds, 10 years sober, a thriving business, a loving family, and everything he once dreamed of. But this conversation goes far beyond addiction. Corey reveals the deeper struggle that fueled it all, the desperate need to belong, be accepted, and find his identity in the approval of others. We talk about recovery, relapse, faith, purpose, and the dangerous lie that success alone can heal what's broken inside. If you've ever battled addiction, lost your way, or wondered if it's possible to rebuild after hitting rock bottom, Corey's story is proof that your darkest chapter doesn't have to be your final one. In this episode:
Key Moments: 00:00 The Beer That Cost Him Everything 06:15 Chasing Acceptance Through Drugs 11:30 The Day He Injected Heroin for the First Time 15:20 Funding Addiction With Stolen Money 20:40 Dopesick, Desperate & Out of Options 24:25 Facing 30 Years in Prison at 18 28:20 Why Getting Clean Didn't Fix the Real Problem 33:00 The Seizure That Should Have Saved His Life 36:30 The People Who Paid for His Addiction 40:05 The Brutal Reality of Early Sobriety 44:30 The Sobriety Strategy That Actually Works 47:20 Building a New Life After Addiction 50:45 Success Nearly Destroyed His Recovery 55:30 One Beer Became a Nightmare 59:10 The Relapse That Changed His Life Forever 1:02:30 The Unexplainable Moment That Shook His Faith 1:06:00 Why He Finally Surrendered to God 1:09:30 The Biggest Lie Addiction Tells You Connect with Corey Warren: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/icoreywarren/ Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ | |||
| I Was Living the Dream, Then Everything Changed | 16 Jun 2026 | 00:36:40 | |
Support the Show & Shop DayxDay Apparel Here: https://dayxdayapparel.com/ What happens when you've achieved everything the world tells you should make you happy but you still feel completely empty inside? In this episode of the Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Keith Hale, entrepreneur, author, and men's mental health advocate, who shares the story of the day he attempted to take his own life. From the outside, Keith looked successful. He had built businesses, accumulated wealth, and lived the life many people dream about. But behind closed doors, he was battling feelings of unworthiness, loneliness, and a deep sense that no one truly saw him. Keith takes us inside the moments leading up to his suicide attempt, the spiritual experience he had while sitting in that garage, and how surviving that day completely transformed his relationship with God, himself, and his purpose in life. We also dive into the identity crisis facing so many men today, the dangers of tying self-worth to success, and why vulnerability may be the key to healing. If you've ever struggled with your mental health, questioned your purpose, or felt like you had to carry the weight of the world alone, this conversation will stay with you long after it ends. In this episode:
Key Moments: 00:00 The Success That Hid the Pain 04:05 The Fear of Looking Weak 08:03 The Moment God Showed Up 11:25 Why God Let It Happen 14:23 The Pain Behind Success 18:11 The Voice That Lies to You 22:01 Buying 10 Luxury Cars 25:31 Who Are You Really? 28:28 Life After the Suicide Attempt 30:04 How God Answers Prayers 32:29 A Message for Anyone Suicidal 35:12 What He's Grateful He Didn't Miss 36:03 The Purpose He Almost Lost Forever Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ | |||
| I Was a Psych Student, Then I Was Stuck in an Ab*sive Relationship | 09 Jun 2026 | 00:53:22 | |
What happens when the very things you swore you'd never become are the things that slowly take over your life? In this episode of the Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Natalie Stavola, a recovery coach, filmmaker, and survivor whose life was shaped by childhood trauma, abusive relationships, addiction, and years of self-destruction. Natalie shares the harrowing moments that changed her forever, including having a gun held to her head by a man she loved, battling alcoholism and cocaine addiction, and finding herself trapped in cycles of abuse she never thought she would tolerate. Despite studying psychology and criminology, she discovered firsthand that understanding trauma and escaping it are two very different things. Together, we explore how childhood wounds can shape our adult relationships, why addiction is often rooted in pain, and what it really takes to heal after years of running from yourself. Natalie also opens up about the spiritual awakening that helped her get sober and the work she now does helping others find hope in their darkest moments. If you've ever struggled with addiction, experienced abuse, battled your inner demons, or wondered whether healing is possible after trauma, this conversation will stay with you. In this episode:
Key Moments: 00:00 The Moment He Put a Gun to My Head 05:05 When I Became My Own Worst Enemy 08:12 Why I Never Fit In Anywhere 12:15 Looking for Good in a Broken World 15:06 Why Pain Can Become Your Purpose 18:07 The First Drink That Changed Everything 24:06 The Dangerous People We Choose 26:49 Why Some People Never Ask for Help 31:32 Can You Save Someone From Addiction? 35:04 The Relationships That Nearly Destroyed Me 37:20 He Put a Gun to My Head 40:13 Why I Went Back to Him Anyway 45:01 The Day My Healing Finally Began 47:44 The Protest That Broke Me Open 50:10 When I Could No Longer Hide My Trauma Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Natalie Stavola: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/nataliestavola/ | |||
| The Worst Day of My Life | 02 Jun 2026 | 00:45:35 | |
What do you do when the person you've loved for 20 years decides they no longer want to live? In this episode of the Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Tommy O'Mara to talk about the day that changed his life forever. After two decades together, Tommy came home expecting an ordinary morning with the woman he loved. Instead, he found Cynthia unconscious on the floor after she had intentionally taken her own life. Tommy shares the heartbreaking moments of performing CPR on his partner, watching paramedics fight to save her, and the crushing guilt that followed after her death. In the months that followed, he found himself carrying her medications in his car and questioning whether he wanted to keep living himself. But this conversation isn't just about loss. It's about surviving the unimaginable. It's about learning to live with grief, finding support after suicide, overcoming guilt, and discovering that life can still hold joy after tragedy. We also explore addiction recovery, mental health, spirituality, healing after suicide loss, and Tommy's belief that love continues long after death. If you've ever lost someone you love, struggled with grief, or wondered whether life can get better after heartbreak, this episode is for you. Key Moments: 00:00 - I Thought She Was Sleeping, But She Was Already Gone 03:42 - The Brutal Assault That Started Her Downward Spiral 06:04 - "I'll Never Be Pretty Again" 08:21 - The Woman Who Saved My Life 12:15 - Finding Hope After Unimaginable Loss 16:08 - The Morning I Found Her Unconscious 18:09 - The Moment They Covered Her Face 21:33 - Why I Still Talk to Her Every Day 24:49 - Can We Communicate With Loved Ones After Death? 27:03 - Why I Started Believing in More 30:19 - My Journey Through Addiction and Recovery 33:10 - Was Her Death Part of a Greater Purpose? 38:35 - The Truth About Suicidal Thoughts 41:27 - What To Do When You Want to Give Up 43:16 - The Power of Grief Support Communities Connect with Tyler: IG: @tyler.hall (https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/) | |||
| We Were About to Get Married, Now My Fiancée Is Dead | 25 May 2026 | 00:37:51 | |
Every morning at 6:45am, Baylee would get the same text from her fiancé, Jared. He would meet her in the parking garage before work, walk her inside, give her a hug, a kiss, and remind her that she was loved. It was a simple routine they never thought twice about. Until one morning, that text never came. In this episode of the Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Baylee Barnes as she shares the heartbreaking story of losing her fiancé to suicide and the phone call that changed her life forever. Just weeks before this conversation, Baylee was planning a future with the man she loved. Then, without warning, everything changed. Together, we talk about grief, suicide loss, men's mental health, faith, healing, and the invisible battles so many people fight behind closed doors. Baylee courageously opens up about the signs she never saw, the guilt so many loved ones carry after loss, and how she's finding the strength to keep moving forward one day at a time. If you've ever lost someone, struggled with mental health, or wondered how to support someone through unimaginable pain, I hope this episode reminds you that you're not alone. In this episode:
Key Moments: 0:00 - The Morning Everything Changed 3:06 - The 6:45am Text That Never Came 7:30 - "Bailey... He's Gone" 12:43 - Why She Shared This Story So Soon 16:04 - A Video That Changed Everything 20:45 - Their Final Vacation Together 23:27 - Feeling Defeated vs Finding Hope 28:24 - Crying in the Sauna & Cold Plunge 31:27 - The Powerful Note Everyone Should Write 34:27 - A Message for Anyone Considering Suicide 36:14 - The Three Words That Could Save a Life 37:18 - The Reason to Stay One More Day Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Baylee Barnes: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/baylee0821/ | |||
| I Thought Mold Was Making Me Sick, But It Was Something Much Worse | 19 May 2026 | 00:46:12 | |
What do you do when a doctor tells you that you have 15 months to live and less than a 10% chance of surviving the next two years? In this episode of the Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Doug Cartwright, a sales coach, entrepreneur, and one of the most spiritually grounded people I've ever met, who was diagnosed with Grade 4 Glioblastoma, the deadliest, most aggressive form of brain cancer, just weeks before we recorded this conversation. Doug walks us through the symptoms that were dismissed as anxiety, the emergency brain surgery that saved his life, and the vision he had that completely changed how he sees death, faith, and what it means to truly live. If you've ever faced a moment that shattered your sense of the future, this conversation will stay with you. Please consider supporting Doug’s GoFundMe linked below: Key Moments: 0:00 “I Thought I Was Going to Die Today” 5:38 Waves of Panic & Impending Doom 9:03 He Thought He Had DPDR Disorder 14:09 The Phone Call That Saved His Life 18:45 “My Life Will Never Be the Same” 21:36 Living Like Every Day Could Be His Last 25:18 The Power of Saying I Love You 29:12 Brain Cancer Became His Greatest Test 33:10 Can You Keep Your Heart Open in Hell? 38:32 How to Change Without Trauma 41:14 The Experimental Cancer Vaccine in Germany 43:02 The Truth About Death Nobody Talks About 44:13 The Message He Wants to Leave Behind Connect with Me: IG: @tyler.hall (https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/) Connect with Doug Cartwright: | |||
| She Was My Best Friend, Now My Sister is Dead | 12 May 2026 | 01:27:26 | |
What happens when the person trained to save lives loses someone they couldn’t save? In this episode of the Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Dr. Marlon Rollins for one of the most powerful conversations we’ve ever had about suicide, grief, trauma, mental health, and healing. Dr. Rollins spent years working as a crisis director and mental health professional helping people through suicidal crises, until the unthinkable happened. His sister, Amber, took her own life, leaving behind a 13-year-old daughter who was the first person to find her. This conversation explores the devastating reality of suicide loss, survivor’s guilt, depression, addiction, firearms, trauma, parenting, social media, and why so many people suffer in silence. We also discuss suicide prevention, warning signs, purpose, connection, and the urgent mental health crisis impacting children, teens, veterans, nurses, and families around the world. If this episode moved you, please share it with someone who may need it. Key Moments: 0:00 The Call That Changed Everything 6:02 The Coroner Called Me Next 12:48 The Suicide Prevention Grant 18:40 His 13-Year-Old Niece Found Her 23:35 “Losing My Sister Was a Gift” 30:31 Learning to Heal Himself 36:11 The Suicide Myth We Believe 42:42 She Heard the Gunshot 49:19 Did His Sister Plan Her Suicide? 56:32 Suicide in Kids Is Exploding 1:00:54 Why Community Saves Kids 1:07:24 Find a Bigger Why 1:14:13 Do People Regret Suicide? 1:20:17 Why Suicide Keeps Increasing 1:24:39 Mental Health Is Finally Changing Connect with Me: IG: @tyler.hall (https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/) Connect with Dr. Marlon Rollins: IG: @drmarlonrollins (https://www.instagram.com/drmarlonrollins/) | |||
| The Worst Day of My Life... | 05 May 2026 | 00:45:07 | |
Nothing prepares you for the moment your parents call screaming that your little brother is gone. In this episode of the Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with twin brothers Jake & Joe Sharp as they relive the night their 16-year-old brother Sam died by suicide while they were serving church missions in Mexico. What followed was a pain neither of them knew how to survive. The phone call, the confusion, the anger, the guilt, and the devastating reality of returning home to a family forever changed. But this conversation is about more than loss. It’s about mental health, teenage depression, shame, hope, and the reminder that the people smiling the most are sometimes hurting the deepest. Jake & Joe share who Sam really was beyond his struggles: a light, a comedian, a brother, and someone deeply loved. If you or someone you love is battling suicidal thoughts, please know this episode was made for you. If this story moved you, share it with someone who needs hope today. Key Moments: 00:00 The Call That Changed Their Lives Forever 05:04 They Were in Mexico When It Happened 09:04 The Panic Before the Phone Call 13:23 Who Sam Really Was Behind the Smile 17:00 Why His Death Still Makes Them Angry 19:18 The Morning After Everything Changed 22:05 Why Teen Suicide Is Exploding 27:13 The Dangerous Lies Teens Believe 30:35 The Note Sam Left for His Brothers 34:24 The Suicide Prevention Message Everyone Needs 38:36 The Happiest People May Be Hurting Most 41:05 Their Message to Teenagers in Darkness Connect with Me: IG: @tyler.hall (https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/) Connect with Jake & Joe Sharp: IG: @jduofit (https://www.instagram.com/jduofit/) | |||
| What My Kids Saw the Next Morning Still Haunts Me | 28 Apr 2026 | 00:57:56 | |
I thought I understood what domestic abuse looked like until I heard Erica Muniz’s story. In this episode of the Rollercoaster Podcast, Erica shares the reality of surviving a 15-year marriage, one that began with control and silence, and escalated. From being isolated from her family to enduring moments that nearly cost her life, her story is confronting, raw, and impossible to ignore. But this isn’t just about trauma, it’s about faith, resilience, and finding the strength to finally break free. If you or someone you love is experiencing abuse, this matters. Watch now and share this with someone who needs to hear it. Key Moments: 00:00 He Dragged Me by My Hair 03:12 The First Signs I Ignored 08:24 Locked in a Closet Pregnant 11:18 It Gets Way Worse 15:42 Dragged Across the House 19:18 “You Don’t Deserve the Bed” 23:28 The Boiling Water 26:18 Asking “Why Me?” 29:07 The Doctor Knew Something Was Wrong 33:20 The First Time I Fought Back 35:20 When it Stopped (Temporarily) 41:08 In the Car44:18 My Husband’s Reaction Today 47:02 What a Real Man Looks Like 50:56 Advice for Others 53:09 The Story That Shook Me 56:16 Turning Pain Into Purpose Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Erica: Instagram: @erica_muniz_86 (https://www.instagram.com/erica_muniz_86/) | |||
| The Best Day of My Life Tragically Became the Worst... | 21 Apr 2026 | 00:56:55 | |
I was standing in front of the mirror, fixing my tie, minutes away from going live on CNBC. Then my phone rang. In a matter of minutes, my entire world collapsed. In this episode of the Rollercoaster Podcast, I step out of the interviewer's seat and into the most vulnerable conversation of my life, sitting down with Aleksei Archer of the Morning Glory Podcast to share the story of the day that split my life in two. From selling my company and living what most people would call the dream to a sudden medical emergency that nearly took my wife from me, and did take our unborn child. I talk about the moment I got the call. The panic of being miles away and completely helpless. The trauma that doesn't leave you. And the night I genuinely didn't know if I was going to lose everything that actually mattered. But there's a turning point in this story. One that quietly rearranged everything. How I see life, how I hold faith, and what I now understand about what's truly worth protecting. This episode is about love, loss, trauma, and the perspective that only comes from almost losing it all. If you've ever moved too fast, chased the wrong things, or taken the people you love for granted, this one will stop you in your tracks. 👇 Which part of this story stayed with you the most? Key Moments: 0:00 The Call That Changed Everything 2:07 Living the Dream, Until That Morning 8:28 First Experience of Trauma & Shock 11:23 Losing Our Unborn Child Mid-Crisis 14:11 Breaking Down Mid-Flight 17:12 The Terrifying Moment in the Hospital Room 21:43 The Moment Everything Changed 23:48 The Miracle We Weren’t Supposed to Have 26:28 Why Money No Longer Matters 30:30 Faith, Loss & Mental Health Struggles 35:33 The Suicide That Shook My Community 41:16 Supporting Someone in Their Darkest Moment 44:10 Why We Need to Talk About Suicide 47:02 The Loneliness Epidemic No One Talks About 52:07 The Difference Between Support & Real Brotherhood Connect with Me: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tyler.hall/ Connect with Aleksei Archer: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/alekseiarcher/ | |||
| We Got Married 3 Months Ago, Now My Husband is Dead | 14 Apr 2026 | 00:49:31 | |
They were only married for 3 months and 3 days and then everything changed. Today on the Rollercoaster Podcast, I sat down with Gracie Laufenberg to hear the story of a love that felt like it lasted a lifetime and the moment it was taken from her in an instant. From believing in love at first sight to building what she calls a perfect marriage and the phone call that shattered her world, this conversation will stay with you. Gracie opens up about the day her husband, Don, left for a flight and never came home, the moment she checked his location, and the words she’ll carry with her forever. This episode is about love, loss, faith, and finding strength when your future disappears overnight. If you’ve ever faced grief, heartbreak, or unimaginable loss, this one is for you. If you feel it in your heart to support Gracie, here is the link to her GoFundMe page. ❤️ https://gofund.me/b87e4b424 👇 What part of Gracie’s story hit you the hardest? Key Moments: 0:00 The Day I Met My Husband 3:48 The Moment I Knew He Was The One 7:36 The Proposal That Changed Everything 10:02 The “Perfect” Marriage We Built 15:04 I Checked His Location… 17:42 The Words That Broke Me 20:18 Seeing My Husband One Last Time 22:46 The Crash We Somehow Survived 27:40 The Last Call I’ll Ever Have 32:36 What Life Looks Like Now 37:32 Trying to Understand Why 42:28 Learning to Live With the Pain 45:00 Living Without My Future 47:30 The Message Everyone Needs to Hear Guest Info: | |||
| I Knew I Was Going to Die... | 07 Apr 2026 | 00:57:26 | |
I didn’t expect this story to hit this hard. Because it starts with success and ends somewhere no one thinks they’ll ever go. In this episode, I sit down with Brad White, who was making over $100K a year, building a business, and living what most people would call the dream until one decision pulled him into addiction, and everything began to collapse. What started with pain pills turned into a spiral of opioids, meth, and a life he couldn’t recognise, losing his home, his marriage, and eventually becoming homeless. But there’s a moment in this conversation that stopped me… A moment where he looks around and realises: this isn’t who I’m meant to be. If you’ve ever wondered how addiction really takes hold and what it takes to fight your way back, this episode will stay with you. Watch till the end and share this with someone who needs it. Key Moments: 0:00 From $100K Success to Losing Everything 3:12 The First Pill That Changed His Life 6:28 Building a Business While Secretly Using 9:41 When Drugs Started Taking Over Everything 12:55 I Knew I Was in Trouble 16:08 The Addiction I Couldn’t Escape 19:22 From Success to Homeless in 4 Years 22:36 Surrounded by the Wrong People 25:48 I Was Going to Die 32:18 Walking Away With Nowhere to Go 35:42 Why Rehab Didn’t Feel Safe 38:55 Starting Over With Nothing 42:10 Living With Addicts While Trying to Stay Clean 45:27 Fighting Temptation Every Single Day 48:41 The People Who Saved My Life 55:10 The Turning Point That Changed Everything Guest Info: IG: @bwhite1 (https://www.instagram.com/bwhite1/) | |||
| My Dad Died - What Happened to My Mom Next Broke Me | 31 Mar 2026 | 00:53:36 | |
I woke up to 15 missed calls and in that moment, something in me already knew. Nothing prepares you for the call that changes your life forever. In this episode, I sit down with Aleksei Archer, who shares the devastating morning she learned her father had died by suicide, and the quiet signs she now wishes she had seen sooner. This isn’t just a story about loss. It’s about guilt, awareness, and learning how to show up for the people we love before it’s too late. In this episode:
If this conversation hits close to home, send it to someone you care about…and don’t wait to reach out. Key Moments: 00:00 The Call That Changed Everything 03:12 The Accident That Didn’t Add Up 06:03 I Woke Up to 15 Missed Calls 10:24 The Guilt Hit Me Instantly 13:09 My Life Split Into Before & After 17:48 How to Spot Suicidal Thoughts Early 20:05 10 Men Lost…Why This Keeps Happening 23:03 Commit vs Died by Suicide Explained 26:05 When Grief Becomes Complicated 31:06 The Simple Habit That Could Save a Life 35:22 Do People Who Die by Suicide Want to Die? 38:10 The Dangerous Short Window Before Suicide 44:15 The Hard Questions That Could Save Someone 47:08 How to Hold Space Without Fixing 50:12 What I Wish I Did Differently Guest info: YouTube: @MourningGloryClubPodcast Instagram: @mourninggloryclub @alekseiarcher (https://www.instagram.com/alekseiarcher/) | |||
| My Son's Routine Procedure Turned WORST Nightmare... | 24 Mar 2026 | 00:57:25 | |
I thought it was just a routine procedure, until we got the call that changed everything. In this episode, I sit down with Danielle and Joey Orr, parents navigating a journey no family should ever have to face. What started as a simple hospital visit quickly turned into something far more serious, leading to a diagnosis that would completely reshape their lives. Their son Joey has already defied the odds since birth, facing Down syndrome, heart complications, and now childhood leukemia. And yet, his strength will leave you speechless. We talk about the fear, the unknown, the late-night phone calls, and what it really looks like to fight for your child every single day. This is a story about resilience, faith, family, and holding on when everything feels like it’s falling apart. If this story moves you, and you feel called to help, you can support Joey and his family here ❤️ Watch this. Share this. It matters. Key Moments: 00:00 It Was Just a Routine Procedure… Then the Call Came 03:12 The Moment You Hear Your Child Has Cancer 10:15 He Didn’t Cry Then They Took Him Away 16:20 Life in the NICU: Fear, Waiting, and No Control 19:45 Raising a Child with Down Syndrome, What No One Tells You 25:00 The Joy in the Chaos, Meet Joey 30:40 The Routine Surgery That Changed Everything 33:50 The Call Every Parent Dreads at Midnight 36:10 Walking Into Oncology And Knowing It Was Cancer 41:05 The 24 Hours That Turned Into a Nightmare 44:20 What It’s Really Like Inside Childhood Cancer Treatment 50:00 The Emotional & Financial Toll No One Sees 56:10 1 in 600 Million: Why Their Marriage Survived Guest Info: Instagram: @joeysfightclub (https://www.instagram.com/joeysfightclub?igsh=MWswMnZpMTdmb2V4Yw==) Facebook: Joey's Fight Club (https://www.facebook.com/share/1ChPdrjH8m/) | |||
| I Missed My Chance to Say Goodbye... | 17 Mar 2026 | 01:03:09 | |
Carl Angelo was never supposed to be a rapper. He grew up in a Filipino immigrant family that came to America chasing stability, sacrifice, and the promise of a better life. Like many first-generation kids, the expectation was clear: follow the safe path, build a career, make the family proud. But he felt something pulling him in a completely different direction. In this episode of The Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Carl Angelo as he shares the deeply personal journey behind his music, his viral rap video, and the painful choices that come with chasing a dream no one else around you fully understands. He opens up about family pressure, identity as a Filipino-American, the struggle between security and passion, and the moment he realized nobody was coming to save him. This conversation explores courage, sacrifice, and what it really means to choose your own path. If you’ve ever felt torn between honoring your family and honoring yourself, this episode will hit close to home. Watch, share, and let me know what resonated with you. Key Moments: 00:00 The Viral Rap Video That Changed Carl Angelo’s Life 03:12 Telling My Immigrant Parents I Wanted to Be a Rapper 06:18 The Hidden Pressure of Filipino Family Expectations 12:05 The Truth About the American Dream for Immigrants 15:08 Are Poorer Countries Actually Happier? 18:12 How Karaoke Parties Shaped Carl’s Love for Music 21:02 The Moment I Realised I Had a Rap Talent 27:06 Why I Haven’t Gone All-In on Music Yet 33:05 What Happens When You Finally Commit to Your Dream 36:08 Why Social Media Can Change Everything for Artists 42:05 I Became the Person I Needed Growing Up 48:00 The Painful Choice Between Family and My Dream 51:22 Missing My Grandmother’s Final Moments 54:15 When Choosing Yourself Feels Like Betrayal 01:00:48 The Message I Want Filipino Kids to Hear Guest Info: Instagram: @carlangelomusic (https://www.instagram.com/carlangelomusic/) YouTube: @carlangelomusic (https://www.youtube.com/@carlangelomusic) | |||
| This Routine Procedure Almost Killed My Wife | 10 Mar 2026 | 00:48:08 | |
It was supposed to be a routine surgery. On August 6, 2021, Shantelle Tate kissed her young son goodbye and walked into the hospital expecting to be home the next day. Doctors told her it was a simple procedure they perform all the time. But something went terribly wrong. What followed was a medical nightmare that would nearly cost Shantelle her life. A surgical complication led to sepsis, emergency surgery, and a medically induced coma that lasted an entire month. During those 30 days, her family was called in more than once to say goodbye. In this emotional episode of the Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Shantelle and her husband Brandon Tate as they share both sides of the story, the terrifying moments in the hospital, the fight to survive, and the perspective that changed their lives forever. This conversation explores survival, faith, trauma recovery, and gratitude for life. If this story moved you, please like, subscribe, and share it with someone who needs hope today. Key Moments: 00:00 A Routine Surgery That Almost Killed Her 05:32 It’s Just Gas: The Warning Doctors Missed 08:02 She Didn’t Wake Up for a Month 10:21 Trapped Inside a Coma Nightmare 13:50 Learning to Walk Again in the Hospital 16:27 Life After a Month in a Coma 19:42 “You Flatlined Three Times” 24:41 Realizing a Month of Life Was Gone 29:10 The Hard Truth About Friends 35:15 Being Told She Might Not Wake Up 38:18 Why Trauma Changes Everything 43:59 When They Knew She Might Survive 46:18 Her Message to Anyone Fighting to Survive Guest Info: IG: @shantelle_b_tate ( https://www.instagram.com/shantelle_b_tate/) | |||
| When His Parents Died, He Had No Where To Go Except... | 03 Mar 2026 | 01:10:46 | |
This is going to feel different than anything we’ve done before. Today, I sit down with Mya-Lisa Ludwig and her 52-year-old brother Adam and what unfolds is one of the most beautiful conversations we’ve had about special needs, caregiving, sibling love, and finding purpose after grief. Adam lives with Mya, who became his full-time caregiver after the heartbreaking loss of their parents. But this isn’t just a story about autism, dementia, or navigating skilled nursing care. It’s about protection. Patience. Faith. And what happens when a sister decides, I was made for this. This episode is about unconditional love, resilience after loss, and the sacred responsibility of caregiving. If you’ve walked through grief, supported a special needs sibling, or felt called to care for someone you love, this one will stay with you. Watch, share, and let me know what hit home. Key Moments: 00:00 This Is Different Than Anything We’ve Done 03:02 I Became His Protector: The Boxing Glove Moment 08:49 Losing Their Parents & The Burden He Carried 11:04 What Life Looks Like Living With Autism 15:00 The 12-Hour Sleep Schedule That Changed Everything 20:21 The Lunch Routine That Saved His Life 23:05 Caring for Parents With Dementia & Pancreatic Cancer 29:25 The Truth About Being a Full-Time Caregiver 34:28 “I Was Made For This” - A Divine Calling? 38:18 Living With an Angel Every Single Day 44:50 The Best Thing About Adam 47:40 The Moment That Built His Confidence 52:28 What Makes Him Proud To Be an Uncle 56:41 The One Thing That Still Hurts To Talk About Guest Info: IG: @minimamamya (https://www.instagram.com/minimamamya/) | |||
| My Husband Didn’t Die Suddenly… I Watched Him Disappear for 6 Years | 24 Feb 2026 | 00:58:30 | |
If you looked at her life from the outside, it was perfect. A brilliant Harvard-trained doctor. Four beautiful children. A marriage built on love. And then, slowly… it wasn’t. In this episode of The Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Andrea Suchin, caregiver, entrepreneur, and co-founder of Wuggle. For six years, Andrea watched subtle changes in her husband Craig, slowly unravel into something far more devastating. What began as small personality shifts spiraled into financial chaos, misdiagnosis, rage episodes, and ultimately a diagnosis of behavioral frontotemporal dementia (FTD). Craig showed symptoms for nearly six years. For the final four, Andrea became his full-time caregiver, managing medications, protecting their children, advocating when doctors dismissed her concerns, and standing by him until his final breath. This is a story about dementia, caregiver burnout, anticipatory grief, and the trauma of watching a mental death before a physical one. But it’s also about purpose. Andrea shares how survival mode led to the creation of Wuggle, a sleep solution now helping caregivers around the world. If you’re navigating caregiving, dementia, exhaustion, or profound loss, this conversation is for you. Watch, share, and join The Rollercoaster Community. Key Moments: 0:00 The Night I Knew He Was Dying 3:45 Caregiver Surgery… Then Crisis 9:05 The Hospice Call That Never Came 12:40 His Final Words to Me 15:10 Holding Him After His Last Breath 18:05 Relief, Guilt & Grief Collide 24:15 22 Credit Cards & $170K Debt 30:00 The Devastating Diagnosis: FTD 36:00 Caregiver Burnout Nearly Broke Me 39:10 The Sleep Breakthrough That Saved Me 42:30 From Grief to Mission: Creating Wuggle 45:40 The Text That Changed Everything 51:00 Anxiety, Migraines & Better REM 54:20 The Trauma Caregivers Don’t Admit | |||
| I Lost My Mother at 17 and Then I Lost My Way... | 17 Feb 2026 | 00:49:18 | |
What happens when the people meant to protect you become the ones you have to run from? In this raw and deeply personal episode of the Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Willie Wolfgramm to uncover a story of survival that most people wouldn’t make it out of. Willie takes us inside the darkest corners of his past: being thrown down stairs by a drunken stepfather, being chased through a field by a truck, and the crushing weight of a culture that told him showing emotion was a fatal weakness. We dive deep into the day he lost his mother to cancer at 17 and the decade-long spiral into addiction and homelessness that followed. This conversation is about childhood abuse, grief, the cycle of trauma, and the miracle of finding a path forward when you’ve hit absolute rock bottom. If you’ve ever felt like you weren’t enough, Willie’s transformation is your wake-up call. Watch now and share this with someone who needs to feel less alone. Key Moments: 0:00 I Watched Him Beat My Mother 4:05 The Beliefs I Had to Unlearn 6:40 My Earliest Memory of Abuse 9:04 Running Away to Survive Another Day 11:08 Chased Down by a Truck in a Field 13:59 Contemplating the Road to End the Pain 18:51 Breaking the Cycle with My Own Kids 21:29 How Childhood Trauma Shows Up in Marriage 24:58 Meeting Wayne: What a Real Man Looks Like 28:45 Moving in While My Mom Fought Stage 4 Cancer 32:36 Your Mom Passed Away This Morning 34:54 Walking into a House That Felt Cold 38:09 Just Keep Moving. Don't Show Emotion. 42:49 The Spiral into Drugs and Alcohol 46:03 Finally Loving the Man in the Mirror Guest Info: IG: @willie.wolfgramm (https://www.instagram.com/willie.wolfgramm/) LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/willie-wolfgramm-a95127a4 | |||
| We Thought He Was Bipolar, But It Was Something Much Worse | 10 Feb 2026 | 01:04:23 | |
Nothing prepares you for the moment you realise the person you love is slowly disappearing, even though they’re still right in front of you. In this episode, I sit down with Lindsay Kelly, a mother of six whose life changed when her husband’s undiagnosed progressive multiple sclerosis began showing up not just in his body, but in his mind. Rage. Memory loss. Personality changes. Doctors who couldn’t explain it. And years of being told it was “just a marriage problem.” Lindsay takes us inside the breaking point, the night she said she was done, the hospital room where everything finally made sense, and the quiet moment at home when she realised she had become a full-time caregiver overnight. This conversation is about invisible illness, caregiver burnout, faith, resilience, and what it really means to stay when walking away would be easier. If you’ve ever felt alone in your marriage, your faith, or your fight, this episode will sit with you. Watch now and share this with someone who needs to feel less alone. Key Moments: 0:00 When My Husband Suddenly Wasn’t Himself 3:12 The First Sign Something Was Seriously Wrong 6:01 Walking On Eggshells Inside Our Own Home 9:07 The Moment I Thought About Leaving 12:55 Doctors Couldn’t Explain His Rage 16:24 The Hospital Call That Changed Everything 19:58 “Your Husband Has A Broken Brain” 23:41 When MS Explained The Personality Shift 27:18 Becoming A Full-Time Caregiver Overnight 30:47 The Day I Realised I Was Completely Alone 34:26 When Faith Was The Only Thing Left 38:02 Two Years Of Crying Every Single Day 41:55 What Caregiver Burnout Really Looks Like 45:36 Why Assisted Living Saved Our Family 49:12 The Reality Of Loving Someone With MS 52:58 Why I Started Sharing This Online 56:21 The Messages That Proved I Wasn’t Alone 59:44 “Alone Doesn’t Have To Mean Lonely” Guest Info: IG: @lewkelly06 (https://www.instagram.com/lewkelly06/) | |||
| The Hotel Call That Changed Our Lives Forever | 20 Jan 2026 | 00:47:59 | |
What do you do when your worst fear comes true… and no one even knows the truth? In this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Adriana Sansam, a mother whose life changed forever when her husband died alone in a hotel room from an accidental overdose. One moment he was on a work trip. The next, she was racing for answers, convinced something was wrong before anyone confirmed it. Adriana opens up about loving a recovering addict, hiding his addiction from everyone, and the devastating phone call that left her raising three young children alone. But this isn’t just a story about addiction and grief. It’s about breaking the stigma, telling the truth, and turning shame into purpose. If you’ve been touched by addiction, mental health struggles, loss, or single parenting, this conversation will stay with you. Listen now. Share this with someone who needs it. And subscribe for more stories that change lives. Key Moments: 0:00 “I Knew Something Was Wrong” 3:12 Married to a Recovering Addict 6:05 The Phone Call That Confirmed My Fear 9:02 “He’s Dead”, Hearing the Words 12:10 Who He Was Beyond the Addiction 15:08 Understanding the Mind of an Addict 18:04 Explaining His Death to Our 5-Year-Old 21:06 When Shame Turned Into Silence 24:18 The Message That Changed Everything 27:30 Why I Finally Told the Truth 30:12 Did He Have a Reason to Keep Going? 33:40 When the Past Blocks the Future 36:10 “I Don’t Need More, I Need You” 39:05 Speaking to Him After His Death 42:18 A Message to Fathers Battling Addiction 45:30 Watching My Son Look for His Dad Guest Info: IG: adrianasansam (https://www.instagram.com/adrianasansam/) | |||
| One Split Second And My Life Was Never The Same | 13 Jan 2026 | 00:44:59 | |
What happens when the thing that defines you is taken away in a single moment? On this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Mahi Crabbe, a former full-time musician who nearly lost his life in a brutal rock-crawling accident that crushed his hand and shattered his identity as an artist on November 3, 2018. In a matter of seconds, Mahi went from touring and playing sold-out shows to lying in an ambulance, convinced his career was over. The injury didn’t just threaten his ability to play guitar, it forced him to confront deeper questions about purpose, faith, manhood, and how to provide for the family he always dreamed of building. We talk about the night everything changed, the fear of starting over, the anger he carried toward God, and how losing his “guitar hand” ultimately led him to build an entirely new life as a business owner and father. If you’ve ever had your plans ripped away, your identity shaken, or your faith tested, this conversation will hit home. Watch this episode to see how losing everything became the beginning of something bigger. Key Moments: 0:00 The Day I Lost My Hand 3:02 My Hand Was Hanging By Skin 6:05 Life Flashing Before My Eyes 9:10 “That’s His Guitar Hand” 12:36 Waking Up, My Identity Was Gone 15:32 I Couldn’t Be A Musician Anymore 18:39 From Hospital Bed To Truck Driver 21:30 Growing Up Without A Father 24:23 Becoming The Man I Never Had 26:50 The Night That Changed My Faith 29:40 From Leaving Church To Returning 33:03 Why God Took My Hand 35:41 My Family Came Back To Church 37:55 From Homeless To Business Owner 40:14 Why Hawaii Heals The Soul 42:49 My Message To Every Man Watching Guest Info: IG: @mahilive (https://www.instagram.com/mahilive/) | |||
| I Fought God to Save My Brother - Here’s What Happened | 06 Jan 2026 | 01:02:16 | |
What happens when faith meets unimaginable loss and the miracle doesn’t come the way you prayed for it? In this deeply raw episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Shayna Weston, a woman whose life was shattered by a relentless sequence of grief that few could survive. In the span of a single year, Shayna walked beside her brother as he fought terminal cancer, held onto hope for a miracle, whispered goodbye as he took his final breath, then returned home only to lose her beloved dog… and shortly after, face her father’s devastating stage four pancreatic cancer diagnosis. This conversation isn’t about tidy answers or surface-level faith. It’s about the brutal reality of grief, the anger we feel toward God, the moments we bargain, break, and beg and the quiet, unexpected ways healing and redemption can still emerge. Shayna opens up about caregiving, anticipatory grief, losing multiple loved ones, wrestling with faith, forgiveness, and what it truly means to surrender when control is gone. It’s honest, heartbreaking, and somehow still filled with hope. Watch this episode to understand grief on a deeper level and if you’ve ever lost someone, questioned your faith, or felt crushed by loss, this conversation will remind you that you’re not alone. Key Moments: 0:00 The Call That Changed Everything 3:14 “You Have One Week Left” 6:07 When Hope And Reality Collided 9:21 The Moment I Knew He Was Dying 12:08 Singing Through Terminal Cancer 15:02 Doctors Said It Was Impossible 18:36 The Treatment That Shouldn’t Have Worked 21:48 When I Began Fighting God 24:31 “I’m Scared To Die” 27:26 Choosing Faith Over Fear 30:19 The Breath That Never Came Back 33:08 Watching My Brother Take His Last Breath 36:11 Grief Hits In Slow Motion 39:04 The Silence That Broke Our Family 42:12 Losing My Dog Right After Losing Him 45:03 When Grief Turned Into Anger 48:29 The Diagnosis That Came Next 51:42 Stage Four Pancreatic Cancer 54:56 “I Don’t Want To Fight Anymore” 58:08 Learning To Let Go Guest Info: IG: @shay_weston_ (https://www.instagram.com/shay_weston_/) | |||
| He Lost His Friend and Father to Suicide... This Was the Breaking Point | 30 Dec 2025 | 00:46:48 | |
What happens when suicide keeps showing up in your life… before you’re even old enough to understand it? In this episode of The Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Stanley Stark, a man whose life has been shaped by loss, silence, and hard truths most men never say out loud. From losing a close friend as a teenager to the devastating phone call that his own father had taken his life, Stanley opens up about how unprocessed grief, broken family dynamics, and emotional isolation quietly pushed him toward recklessness, anger, and self-destruction. But this conversation isn’t just about tragedy. It’s about what happens when a man finally stops running. We talk openly about men’s mental health, suicide prevention, integrity, faith, and why so many men suffer in silence until it feels unbearable. Stanley shares the lessons grief taught him, the power of forgiveness, and how community and honesty can save lives. If you’ve lost someone to suicide, struggled with your mental health, or wondered how to be a better man in a broken world, watch this episode to be reminded that you’re not alone and it’s never too late to choose a different path. Key Moments: 0:00 I Buried a Friend Yesterday… 3:30 The Note His Friend Left Behind 6:25 Holding a Gun at 15 and Asking “Why” 8:55 The Session That Shut Him Down 12:18 The Lie That Killed His Hope 15:01 A Broken Father-Son Bond 17:48 Trying to Start Over… One Last Time 21:17 The Call That Changed Everything 24:22 The Details No One Warned Him About 28:24 The Suicide Statistics Men Ignore 31:02 Why His Pain Became His Purpose 35:10 The Silent Addiction Destroying Men 39:13 Why Being Approachable Can Save a Life 41:35 “Suicide Doesn’t End Pain... It Passes It On” 45:12 The One Truth Every Man Needs to Hear Today | |||
| I Was Abused But Thought It Was Love… Every Woman Needs To Hear This | 23 Dec 2025 | 00:35:32 | |
What do you do when the person you love becomes the person you fear most? In today’s episode, I sit down with Lyndsey Hackford, a woman whose story left me shaken, heartbroken, and in absolute awe of her strength. For 18 years, Lyndsey lived inside an abusive marriage that slowly stole her voice, her identity, and nearly her life. What started as subtle manipulation spiraled into control, isolation, physical violence, and moments where she genuinely didn’t know if she would survive the night. Her children witnessed things no child ever should. And yet, Lyndsey found a way out. In this conversation, Lyndsey walks us through the moments that changed everything: the fear, the near-death experiences, the police intervention, the escape, the trial, and the long, painful road to rebuilding her life. If you’ve lived through trauma, domestic abuse, emotional manipulation, or you’re trying to support someone who has, her story will stay with you. Watch this episode to hear Lyndsey’s message of hope, courage, and reclaiming your life, no matter how dark things have been. Key Moments: 0:00 “I Hit the Wall So I Wouldn’t Hit Mom” 3:00 The “Support” That Was Actually Control 6:02 How Her Religion Was Used Against Her 9:19 The Moment She Realised Her Worth Was Gone 12:00 The Day He Admitted He Wanted to Hit Her 14:44 The Shame and Threats That Kept Her Silent 17:39 A Year of Sleep Deprivation and Surveillance 20:10 “Just Let Me Leave”… and the Violent Response 23:06 “Look at That Face, How Could I Love That?” 26:00 The Escape Attempt That Finally Worked 29:31 The Jury Trial And Her Kids Taking the Stand 32:53 Why Abusers All Share the Same Patterns 33:23 Her Message to Women Still Living in Fear Guest Info: IG: @lyndseyh6723 Facebook: @lyndsey.jackson.125 | |||
| The Day He Pulled The Trigger - What Happened After Will Give You Goosebumps | 16 Dec 2025 | 00:42:37 | |
What do you do when the pain gets so loud that you don’t want to be here anymore? What happens in the moment when life almost ends… and something pulls you back? In this powerful episode of The Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Wes Wright, who opens up about the day he attempted to take his own life and the split-second moment that changed everything. Wes walks us through the fear, exhaustion, and silent suffering that led him there, the near-death experience that followed, and the long road back toward faith, accountability, and purpose. This conversation goes far beyond a suicide attempt. We talk about men’s mental health, depression, identity, faith, redemption, and the lies that convince people they are alone or beyond repair. Wes shares the hard lessons he learned about responsibility, healing, and why pain doesn’t mean your story is over. If you’ve ever felt broken, lost your sense of purpose, or questioned whether life can get better, this conversation will meet you right where you are. Watch this episode to hear Wes Wright’s story and be reminded that hope is still possible. Key Moments: 0:00 The Day He Planned To End His Life 2:45 Sitting Alone With A Gun And No Hope 6:10 Dialling 911 Not Knowing If He’d Survive 9:10 “God Still Gave Me A Choice” 13:40 The Lie That Almost Destroyed Him 16:20 The Ten-Minute Danger Window 20:40 “I Wanted One Last Goodbye” 23:10 Doctors Say Can’t Explain This 27:30 The Therapist Who Changed Him 31:10 “My Son Died… Then I Tried To” 34:20 Why Suicide Doesn’t End Pain 37:05 The Three Lies That Trap You 40:10 A Message To Anyone Struggling Guest Info: IG: @wesfunbro Tiktok: @wesfunbro | |||
| Two Tragedies, One Family… How I Survived Losing Them Both | 09 Dec 2025 | 01:32:48 | |
There are moments in life that split everything into “before” and “after.” And for Ben Longshore, it began with one sentence from his father: “Take care of your mom and sister.” Hours later, he learned there was no pulse. In this raw and deeply human conversation, I sit down with my cousin Ben, someone I’ve known my entire life, as he opens up about the night his dad unexpectedly passed away, the weight of being 16 when everything changed, and the choice to step into a role he never asked for. His story doesn’t end there. Seven years later, another tragedy struck our family, forcing him to face grief all over again and ask the questions no one wants to ask: Why now? How do you keep going? Where is God in all this? This episode is about loss, faith, resilience, family, and the quiet strength you don’t know you have until life demands it. If you’ve walked through grief, felt responsible for others, or wondered how to rebuild after tragedy, this conversation will stay with you. Watch this episode to hear Ben’s powerful journey and be reminded that even in the heaviest moments, hope still has a voice. Key Moments: 0:00 The Last Words His Dad Ever Said 3:00 The Day That Changed His Life Forever 7:04 The Moment He Knew Something Was Wrong 12:18 The Night Before Everything Went Wrong 17:10 The Prayer That Shifted the Room 21:45 Telling His Sister Their Dad Was Gone 25:40 How the Community Showed Up Overnight 30:12 The Spiritual Perspective That Saved Him 35:40 The Father-Son Moments He Still Misses 39:54 Dreams, Football, and a Life Rewritten 43:02 Why Showing Up Matters More Than Words 49:35 The 30-Hour Drive They'll Never Forget 51:20 Seven Years Later, Another Tragedy Hits 55:24 “Nick Is in the Hospital”: Reliving Old Trauma 59:58 The ATV Accident That Changed Everything 1:03:49 Praying for a Miracle That Didn’t Come 1:07:22 Helping His Sister-in-Law Survive the Impossible 1:12:28 The Organ Donor Story No One Expected 1:17:08 How That Meeting Changed Their Family Forever 1:23:56 How He Leads His Family Differently Now 1:28:40 Why “Stepping Up” Matters More Than Ever Guest Info: IG: @ben.longshore | |||
| The Most Haunting Childhood Story I’ve Ever Heard… | 02 Dec 2025 | 01:11:33 | |
What happens when your childhood is spent dodging bombs instead of playing outside? What does survival do to the human spirit and how do you rebuild when everything familiar disappears overnight? In this episode, I sit down with Dr. Guitta Harb, who escaped war in Lebanon as a young girl and was forced to grow up before she ever had the chance to be a child. From hiding in dark underground shelters to leaving her home at 2 am on a secret ship with no promise of return, her story is raw, vulnerable, and deeply human. We dive into the identity struggles that come with being caught between two cultures, the trauma stored in the body, and the moment she realised fear didn’t have to dictate her future. She shares how survival turned into purpose, graduating dental school at 21, becoming a mother, and building a life rooted in gratitude and resilience. This conversation explores war trauma, anxiety, identity, mental health, survival mode, fear, resilience, the immigrant story, and finding your why. Watch this episode to feel hope again proof that pain can become purpose, and your past doesn’t have to define your future. Key Moments: 0:00 Robbed of a Childhood 2:12 Life in a Warzone: Fear Every Single Day 5:45 “Pack Your Bags. We’re Leaving Tonight.” 8:10 The Secret Ship That Changed Everything 12:12 Lost Between Two Worlds 17:30 Learning English… Without Knowing a Word 22:38 How She Learned to Belong in America 25:09 “I Refuse to Be a Victim” 30:44 The Anxiety That Never Fully Left 33:26 Parenting After Trauma 36:12 What Chaos Does to the Nervous System 40:55 Turning Pain Into Purpose 45:40 Why So Many Suffer Alone 48:12 The Power of Finding Your Why 52:33 Why Young People Give Up Too Soon 55:17 How to Survive When Life Breaks You 59:55 Raising Strong Kids in a Fragile World 1:04:10 How She Found Healing Slowly 1:08:20 Why She Still Believes in Hope Guest Info: Website: https://drguittaharb.com/ | |||
| The Body Part That Saved My Family From Being Killed | 18 Nov 2025 | 01:09:44 | |
What happens when the moment that should have destroyed you… becomes the moment God uses to save your life? This episode with Ruslan KD is one of the most intense, emotional, and faith-shifting conversations I’ve ever had. Today, I sit down with Ruslan KD, creator, pastor, rapper, and one of the fastest-growing Christian voices online, to unpack a story that begins in a war-torn country, where a single detail from his childhood literally saved his family from being killed. From fleeing ethnic cleansing in Azerbaijan, surviving abuse, and falling into drugs, crime, and violence in San Diego, Ruslan opens up about the battles that shaped him. We talk about fatherlessness, trauma, identity, masculinity, addiction, and the moment God stepped in and completely rerouted his life. His transformation from chaos to calling is a raw reminder that redemption is real and that God’s ways, even when they feel restrictive, are actually pathways to freedom. If you’ve wrestled with identity, faith, or the pain of your past, this conversation will breathe hope into you. Watch this episode to hear a story you’ll never forget. Key Moments: 0:00 The Moment That Saved My Life 1:42 Growing Up Armenian in a War Zone 4:52 The One Detail That Meant Life or Death 7:48 My Family Fell Apart Overnight 10:38 How I Slid Into Crime at 11 13:22 Gangster Rap Became My Role Model 15:52 Running From a Kid With a Knife 18:40 We Had to Move or I Wasn’t Going to Make It 21:41 Wrestling With Faith, Trauma, and Identity 24:45 Why I Finally Surrendered Everything 27:28 Breaking Old Habits and Building New Ones 30:09 Why God’s Boundaries Lead to Freedom 33:14 The Danger of Letting Your Job Define You 36:12 The Only Identity That Actually Holds 39:16 My Imposter Syndrome While Writing This Book 42:40 How to Pursue Success Without Losing Yourself 46:01 Why Most People Misunderstand Calling 49:02 The Problem With Hustle Culture 52:18 What I Wish I Knew at 16 55:47 Advice for Kids Growing Up Without a Dad 59:01 Why God’s Ways Aren’t “Restrictions” 1:02:22 How to Build an Identity That Lasts 1:04:14 The Power of Community When You’re Lost 1:07:54 The Simple Advice That Saved My Life Guest Info: IG: @ruslankd YouTube: @RuslanKD | |||
| The Moment I Thought My Ex-Husband Was Going To Kill Me | 11 Nov 2025 | 00:56:15 | |
What happens when the man you love becomes the one you fear? This is Jennifer DeTracy’s powerful story of surviving abuse, reclaiming her identity, and finding peace through forgiveness. In this raw and emotional interview, Jennifer shares how her “Cinderella” love story turned into years of manipulation, control, and violence. From bruises she tried to hide to the night she finally escaped, she opens up about the pain, confusion, and courage it took to leave. But her story doesn’t end there. Jennifer reveals how faith, forgiveness, and personal growth helped her rebuild her life and become a voice for women finding strength after abuse. Today, she’s living proof that even after the darkest chapters, redemption is possible. Watch this episode to hear Jennifer’s powerful message of healing, courage, and second chances and be reminded that it’s never too late to start again. Key Moments: 0:00 The Signs I Missed Before the Abuse Began 2:34 How a “Perfect” Man Slowly Became My Abuser 5:12 The Subtle Red Flags No One Talks About 7:46 The Moment I Realised I Wasn’t Safe Anymore 13:45 How Manipulation Made Me Doubt Reality 17:19 The Night I Finally Fought Back 21:47 Why I Chose to Forgive the Man Who Hurt Me 25:32 How I Reclaimed My Mind and My Power 29:10 The Call That Changed Everything 33:45 How to Recognise an Abuser Early 36:25 Forgiveness Doesn’t Mean Forgetting 40:30 The Secret to Long-Term Success 44:00 Building a Life of Freedom, Not Fear 48:58 The Product That Changed Everything 52:10 The Truth About Starting Over 56:08 The Power of Sharing Your Story Guest Info: IG: @jenniferdetracy | |||
| The Night I Lost Both Parents & What Happened Afterward | 04 Nov 2025 | 00:55:44 | |
What do you do when your whole world disappears overnight? When a single phone call changes everything you thought you knew about life, faith, and purpose? In this powerful episode, I sit down with Nathan DeTracy, a former IFBB Pro bodybuilder whose life was forever altered when he lost both parents in a tragic car accident at just 23 years old, only days before 9/11. What followed was a decade-long battle with grief, addiction, and identity, hidden behind a flawless exterior of success and discipline. Nathan shares how he went from broken and lost, drowning in pain and denial, to rebuilding his life through faith, purpose, and service. He opens up about how bodybuilding became both his escape and his armor, and how hitting rock bottom forced him to finally face the truth beneath the muscle. Together, we explore the power of surrender, redemption, and finding meaning in unimaginable loss. Today, Nathan channels that journey into helping others transform their health and mindset through Make Wellness, a company redefining how we approach fitness, peptides, and true well-being. If you’ve ever faced grief, addiction, or identity loss and wondered if healing is even possible, watch this episode. It might just change how you see pain, purpose, and the fight to rise again. Key Moments: 0:00 The Phone Call That Shattered My Life 5:40 When Reality Finally Hit 8:37 Escaping the Pain Through Addiction 13:04 Losing Everything and Finding God 15:20 How Bodybuilding Became My Survival 20:32 The Miracles That Changed My Atheist Heart 23:10 The Woman Who Saved Me 27:18 Rock Bottom & Bankruptcy 32:15 Losing $100K a Month Overnight 35:05 The 5 Pillars of Real Health 39:04 Why Supplements Don’t Work 44:02 The Truth About Ozempic & GLP-1s 49:20 Nature’s Alternative to Injectables 54:50 How to Join the Movement Guest Info: IG: @nathandetracy LinkedIn: Nate DeTracy | |||
| How A Notorious Shot Caller Found Purpose After 20 Years In Hell | 28 Oct 2025 | 01:55:37 | |
What if your best friend pulled the trigger right in front of you and you couldn’t stop it? This isn’t a movie scene. It’s the moment that changed everything for Carlos Vasquez. In this raw and unforgettable episode, I sit down with Peter Meyerhoff and Carlos Vasquez, two men who once ran California’s most dangerous prison yards as shot callers. What begins as a story of broken homes and lost fathers spirals into gang life, violence, and survival inside maximum-security prisons. Carlos recounts the moment his best friend played Russian roulette and died before his eyes, a trauma that sent him down a path of armed robberies, betrayal, and decades behind bars. Inside, Carlos became a leader in a world ruled by fear and strategy, not strength. Peter opens up about his own time in the system, where loyalty was an illusion and every friendship could turn deadly. Together, they reveal what prison life really demands and how both men found redemption through truth, forgiveness, and faith after years of darkness. Watch this episode to witness one of the most gripping redemption stories ever told and to see how even in the darkest places, purpose can be reborn. Key Moments: 0:00 The Russian Roulette That Changed Everything 1:25 Entering Maximum Security Prison at 19 5:16 Running Away at 13 and Finding the Streets 8:15 The Deadly Game That Ended Everything 13:31 The Lie of Loyalty in the Streets 17:23 The Setup That Sent Me to Prison 20:35 Realising Loyalty Doesn’t Exist Here 23:27 How Violence Became My Identity 27:45 Why I Was Scared to Become a Father 31:22 Ten Years of Violence to Earn Respect 34:13 Becoming a Monster to Live 39:48 I Stopped Thinking About Freedom 43:47 Trust No One Behind Bars 46:54 Inside the Prison Drug Trade 50:21 When Guards Become Gangsters 53:00 The System That Fuels Violence 56:02 Prison Hustle vs Corporate Life 1:01:09 When Ego Finally Breaks 1:05:50 Rebuilding Purpose From the Ashes 1:10:20 How Pain Turned Into My Mission 1:15:25 Why Forgiveness Sets You Free 1:18:09 The Prison Lessons That Apply to Life 1:21:03 When Power Becomes Poison 1:24:14 The Turning Point That Saved Me 1:27:00 Relearning What Loyalty Really Means 1:33:45 How to Rebuild a Life After Prison 1:36:27 Peter’s First Days of Freedom 1:39:05 The Shock of Returning to the Real World 1:44:28 What Prison Taught About Humanity 1:47:11 Why Most Men Never Truly Heal 1:52:27 From Violence to Vulnerability Guests Info: IG: @peter_meyerhoff Website: https://petermeyerhoff.com/ Website: https://carlosvasquezofficial.com/ | |||
| My Former Husband Took His Own Life & Autism Is Taking My Son's | 21 Oct 2025 | 00:38:28 | |
What do you do when the person you love most takes their own life, and your child’s world collapses with them? This episode is a raw and emotional journey through grief, survival, and the unrelenting strength of a mother who refused to give up. In this powerful conversation, I sit down with Tiffany Sumner, whose life changed forever on May 25th, 2020. That day, her former husband, battling depression, addiction, and undiagnosed bipolar disorder, ended his life, leaving behind two children, one of whom was later diagnosed with profound, non-verbal autism. Tiffany opens up about navigating the unimaginable: her son’s violent regressions, the pain of separation when he had to move into a group home, and the deep loneliness of motherhood in crisis. Yet through the heartbreak, Tiffany found purpose. She’s now a powerful voice for mental health awareness and autism advocacy, using her story to bring hope, healing, and visibility to families who often suffer in silence. This is not just a story of tragedy. It’s one of faith, resilience, and redemption. Watch this episode to witness how one mother turned unimaginable pain into purpose, and why her message of hope could save lives. Key Moments: 0:00 The Day That Changed Tiffany’s Life Forever 2:05 The Moment She Learned Her Former Husband Was Gone 6:00 The Hidden Pain Behind Male Suicide 8:22 Why So Many Signs Go Unnoticed 12:06 When Faith Becomes the Only Thing Left 14:37 Raising a Child With Profound, Non-Verbal Autism 18:04 Living Between Love, Fear & Survival 21:15 The Pain Siblings of Autistic Children Carry 23:05 Inside the Reality of Level-Three Autism Care 26:08 “I’ve Never Heard My Son Say I Love You” 28:42 The Truth About Living With Profound Autism 32:06 Why Tiffany Refuses to Stay Silent 34:45 The Viral Moment That Changed Everything 37:16 A Message for Every Mother Who’s Struggling Guest Info: IG: @tiffanysumner Website: https://hausofmedia.com/ | |||
| Inside The Mind Of A Killer: The Murder That Changed Everything | 14 Oct 2025 | 00:47:57 | |
In this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Peter Meyerhoff, a former high-ranking prison shot caller who once held power within one of the most feared groups behind bars, the Aryan Brotherhood. Peter gives a raw, unfiltered account of life inside the system, revealing the inner workings of prison hierarchy, the brutal politics of control, and how violence was used to maintain order. He recounts in detail the day he helped facilitate a murder inside the prison walls, describing the planning, the execution, and the psychological cost of being part of such extreme acts. As someone who lived and enforced the code of the yard, Peter offers rare insight into how loyalty, fear, and survival shaped every decision he made. This conversation exposes the dark reality of prison life most people never see, where every move is strategic, and every alliance can mean life or death. Watch this episode to hear a chilling inside look at the power, structure, and mindset of prison leadership from someone who lived it at the highest level. Key moments: 0:00 The Day Everything Went Too Far 2:00 Inside the Mind of a Prison Shot Caller 4:45 The Most Brutal Thing I Ever Witnessed 7:12 Why I Helped Plan a Prison Murder 9:40 Realising I’d Just Thrown My Life Away 12:55 Eleven Months in the Hole Changed Everything 15:30 How a Single Decision Destroyed My Future 18:45 The Moment My Childhood Ended 21:30 The Accusation That Ruined My Life 24:10 How Addiction Turned Me Into Someone I Hated 26:45 The Things I Did Just to Get One More Fix 29:40 Why I Got 12 Years for a Crime Others Got Probation 32:15 Facing God After Years of Hate 34:22 Overdosing on Fentanyl and Coming Back to Life 37:10 The Conversation That Made Me Believe in God 39:40 From Aryan Brotherhood to a Biracial Family 42:00 What I Want My Kids to Know About Their Dad 44:30 Learning to Forgive My Family and Myself 46:10 The Message Every Broken Person Needs to Hear Guest Info: IG: @peter_meyerhoff (https://www.instagram.com/peter_meyerhoff/?hl=en) Website: https://petermeyerhoff.com/ | |||
| I Told the Anxiety Expert Something I’ve Never Admitted Before | 07 Oct 2025 | 00:58:20 | |
What if the only way to truly live was to accept the things you fear most? In this raw and deeply personal episode, we unpack how radical acceptance can transform the pain of anxiety, addiction, and shame into peace, purpose, and power. In this conversation with licensed therapist Rachael DeKoning, we explore the hidden connection between anxiety, addiction, and the fear of losing control. Rachael shares how her battle with alcoholism and crippling anxiety became the catalyst for her healing and why the willingness to feel everything is the real path to freedom. We dive deep into the emotional cost of denial, the danger of living a “safe” but joyless life, and how radical acceptance helps you reclaim your life even if that means accepting heartbreaking realities like losing someone you love. You’ll also hear an honest, unscripted “mini therapy session” as I open up about my own struggles with social anxiety and identity, revealing how growth often means outgrowing old versions of yourself. If you’ve ever felt trapped by fear, shame, or anxiety, this conversation will remind you that healing begins with acceptance. Watch this episode to rediscover what it means to have a life worth living. Key Moments: 0:00 What Makes Life Worth Living 3:51 Radical Acceptance Changes Everything 5:23 Inside the Vicious Cycle of Anxiety 10:47 How Alcohol Rewires the Brain 13:10 The Shame That Finally Broke Me 16:37 Why Familiar Pain Feels Safe 22:58 How to Befriend Your Anxiety 25:30 When Anxiety Is Just Information 28:24 Why Connection Gets Harder With Age 31:18 Learning to Sit With Discomfort 35:02 Why Nice Guys Burn Out 37:53 Why I Crave Deep Connections 40:00 How Sobriety Forced Me to Start Over 44:15 What If You’re Not Anxious, You’re Just Done? 48:10 The “Parts” Within You 51:00 Finding the Self You Lost 54:55 The Power of Being Misunderstood 56:10 Rachael’s Message to Anyone Losing Hope Guest Info: IG: @rach2978 (https://www.instagram.com/rach2978/reels/?hl=en) TikTok: @therapistinrecovery (https://www.tiktok.com/@therapistinrecovery) | |||