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Welcome Back to The Rainbow Connection - with Kristin Mundy
15 Sep 2026
00:42:00
"Welcome Back to The Rainbow Connection - with Kristin Mundy"
Kristin Mundy welcomes listeners back for Season 2 of The Rainbow Connection. Looking back on 55 episodes of Season 1, she reflects on how far she's come since her nervous first recording with her friend Parisa, and shares what's changing this season, including more solo episodes and a wider range of stories from loss moms at every stage. She also opens up about recording this episode just days before her daughter Vienna's fifth heavenly birthday, and what five years of grief has actually taught her.
We talk about:
What Season 1 taught Kristin, and how she's grown as a host since episode one
What's different this season, including more frequent solo episodes and a wider range of guest stories
Why September is one of the hardest months of Kristin's year, with Vienna's birthday on the 22nd and her earthside daughter Senna's birthday on the 21st
What five years of grief has taught her about thresholds, grace, and making her own rules
An update on the Held Through Certification for practitioners, launching in early 2027
Where to find deeper support, including the free community, Mother Like No Other, The Nest, and The Haven
This episode is a reminder that grief doesn't get smaller with time, it just gives you more room to breathe.
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"A Mother's Intuition Is Data" — Cara Groves on the Stillbirth of Her Son, and Pregnancy After Loss
15 Sep 2026
01:14:03
Cara Groves is a family doctor in the West Lincoln region of Ontario. In April 2025, at 38 weeks pregnant, Cara and her husband Sean's son Callum was born still, suspected to be caused by a rare hypocoiled umbilical cord her own OB had never seen before. Three months later, Cara was pregnant again. Her son Dale was born in March 2026, less than a year after his brother, and delivered by the same OB.
We talk about:
The hypocoiled cord found at 30 weeks, suspected as the cause, that no one could fully explain
Laboring for four days at the hospital, and the moment her OB told her Callum was gone
Choosing to spend the night with Callum after he was born, and the family members who met him
The decision to try again just three months later, and getting pregnant faster than expected
Being induced at 37 weeks with Dale, one week ahead of when she lost Callum
The same OB and nurse from Callum's birth being there for Dale's delivery
The half marathon her friend organized in Callum's name
The gap Cara sees in bereavement training for medical providers, and her push to help close it
This episode is a reminder that grief and love can exist in the same body at the same time, and that birth, even after loss, can still hold moments of peace.
Get to know Cara:
Cara Groves is a family doctor in the West Lincoln region of Ontario. She lives in Hamilton with her husband Sean, their dog Berkeley, and their son Dale. In April 2025, Cara and Sean's first son, Callum, was born still at 38 weeks. Outside of work, Cara is a longtime distance runner who ran cross country and track at Dalhousie University.
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"This Is Who I Am Now" — Maycie Buniotto on Grief, Identity, and Pregnancy After Loss
15 Sep 2026
01:24:48
Maycie Buniotto lives in Colorado with her husband. In February 2025, at just shy of 32 weeks, her daughter Romy was born still, following weeks of worsening growth restriction and a suspected placental and umbilical cord issue that doctors could never fully tie together. Maycie also shares about the two miscarriages before Romy and the one after, the fertility clinic that finally looked at her story as a whole, and where she's at now, nineteen weeks into an IVF pregnancy.
We talk about:
A severe growth restriction diagnosis that kept getting more serious by the week
The last ultrasound where Romy was moving, and the one where she wasn't
Choosing to labor and deliver Romy naturally instead of by C-section
The night spent with Romy, and turning their nursery into a grieving sanctuary
Two more pregnancy losses before turning to a fertility clinic for answers
Rebuilding trust in her own intuition through an anxious, closely monitored pregnancy after loss
How The Haven has held her through both losing Romy and carrying her second baby
This episode is a reminder that grief and love can exist in the same body at the same time, and that even in the hardest seasons, there's still room for hope.
Get to Know Maycie:
Maycie Buniotto lives in Colorado with her husband. In February 2025, her daughter Romy Olivia was born still at 31 weeks, 5 days. Maycie has spent the last 11 years working in cancer care, and is now exploring a career change into interior design.
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Where are they now: Brianna Miller on Grief, Reality TV and Motherhood After Loss
04 Aug 2026
01:20:42
The Rainbow Connection welcomes back Bri Miller almost a year after her first recording. She was pregnant then, with her rainbow baby, Maverick. Her daughter, Caroline, was diagnosed in utero and passed away shortly after birth in 2023. This time, Bri and Kristin talk about the coping strategy nobody expects: reality TV, and how it carried her through hospital stays, the darkest months of grief, and the newborn trenches that followed.
We talk about:
Life one year into mothering her rainbow baby, Maverick
Watching TV in the hospital during Caroline's diagnosis (below deck, obviously)
Coming home the night Caroline died and turning on Netflix anyway
"Train," the code word Bri and her husband used to pause and grieve
Why reality TV felt safer than scripted shows (no surprise stillbirth plotlines on Vanderpump Rules)
Laughing again for the first time after loss
True crime, escapism, and why the most horrifying content is somehow the most relaxing
Finding unexpected comfort in the medical drama The Pit
Carrying grief into everyday motherhood, one Bravo scandal at a time
Healing doesn't have to look profound to count. Sometimes it just looks like turning on the TV.
Get to know Bri: Bri Miller is mom to Caroline, born still in 2023, and Maverick, her rainbow baby. Since Caroline's death, Bri has focused on building community with other loss moms. She's now figuring out what's next, work, school, maybe growing her family again, all while staying present with Maverick and keeping Caroline close.
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“Learning to Feel Safe Again” — Katie on Miscarriage, Breathwork, and Motherhood After Loss
21 Jul 2026
00:55:44
Katie shares her experience of miscarriage, the emotional impact of early pregnancy loss, and the path that led her to becoming a mother to her two rainbow babies. Through her story, we explore what it means to navigate pregnancy after loss, to reconnect with the body, and to move through grief while still holding space for hope. Katie’s journey into breathwork and yoga nidra is deeply intertwined with her healing, and her work now supports women through fertility, pregnancy, postpartum, and motherhood after loss.
We talk about:
Experiencing miscarriage in a first pregnancy
The emotional and physical impact of pregnancy loss
Navigating grief while continuing to move forward
Pregnancy after loss and the complexity of holding fear and hope
Rebuilding trust in the body after miscarriage
The role of breathwork and nervous system support in healing
Motherhood after loss and what it looks like day-to-day
The identity shift that comes with loss and becoming a mother
Supporting other women through TTC, pregnancy, and postpartum after loss
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to know Katie:
Katie is a breathwork and yoga nidra facilitator based on Vancouver Island, supporting women through every stage of motherhood — from trying to conceive to postpartum. Her work is deeply rooted in her own lived experience with miscarriage and pregnancy after loss, and she is passionate about helping women reconnect with their bodies, regulate their nervous systems, and feel supported in the messy, complex realities of motherhood. She lives with her husband, their two rainbow babies, and their beloved fur baby.
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“How Do You Prepare for the Unknown?” — Nancy on Loss, Fear, and Pregnancy After Loss
14 Jul 2026
00:59:46
Nancy shares the story of her son Callum — a pregnancy that began with surprise and joy, and slowly unfolded into uncertainty after a CMV diagnosis. In this episode, she walks us through what it was like to navigate pregnancy loss, the fear of the unknown, and how her experience shaped the way she approached pregnancy after loss. She also shares about her earthside sons and what motherhood after loss looks like for her today.
We talk about:
Receiving a CMV diagnosis during pregnancy and what that meant
The emotional shift from joy to fear in pregnancy
Navigating the unknowns of pregnancy loss
Grieving an angel baby while continuing forward
The complexity of pregnancy after loss
Holding fear and hope at the same time
Motherhood after loss and raising earthside children
How loss changes your identity as a mother
Finding moments of grounding and connection again
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and love live side by side — and that even after loss, there can still be space for hope.
Get to know Nancy:
Nancy is a mother of three, including her angel baby Callum and her two earthside sons, Declan and Landon. She lives in Oakville, Ontario with her husband Cody, and works as an elementary school teacher. Outside of work, she loves spending time outdoors with her boys, reading, gardening, and playing soccer — finding joy in the everyday moments of motherhood after loss.
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“Learning to Trust My Body Again” — Pregnancy After Loss and Healing with Ummul Patrawala
07 Jul 2026
01:22:33
Ummul Patrawala shares her journey through multiple pregnancy losses, including the stillbirth of her daughter Sakina at 38 weeks, and how those experiences shaped her understanding of the deep connection between trauma and the body. In this episode, we explore motherhood after loss, the physical and emotional imprint of grief, and how her rainbow baby helped her begin to rebuild trust, connection, and safety within herself. This conversation is a powerful reflection on healing after stillbirth, pregnancy after loss, and the evolving identity of motherhood in the after.
We talk about:
The story and meaning behind Ummul’s name and identity as “the mother of all mothers”
Navigating stillbirth and the loss of her daughter Sakina at 38 weeks
The physical impact of grief, including autoimmune conditions, IBS, and chronic pain
PTSD and the body’s response to unresolved trauma after pregnancy loss
Rebuilding trust in your body during pregnancy after loss
The emotional complexity of welcoming a rainbow baby
Motherhood after loss and holding both grief and hope at the same time
Supporting women through the invisible impact of trauma on the body
Learning to listen to your body instead of disconnecting from it
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to know Ummul:
Ummul Patrawala is a mother to three boys and five angel babies, living in Mississauga, Ontario. After experiencing profound pregnancy loss, including the stillbirth of her daughter Sakina at 38 weeks, her path shifted in a deeply personal way. Today, she is a psychotherapist who supports women navigating the physical and emotional effects of trauma — including chronic pain, autoimmune conditions, and pelvic health challenges. Her work is rooted in helping women reconnect with their bodies, rebuild trust, and feel seen in experiences that are often overlooked.
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“Grief Lives in the Body Too” — Sara Rian on Loss, Intimacy, and Healing After Loss
30 Jun 2026
01:23:32
Sara Rian, a poet, therapist, and mother based in Metro Detroit, joins me to share her story of losing her mother to suicide — and the profound way that loss shaped her understanding of grief, love, and connection. In this episode, we explore how grief lives not just in our minds, but in our bodies, and how experiences of loss can impact intimacy, identity, and the way we move through motherhood and healing.
This is a conversation about what it means to live after loss — to carry it, to feel it, and to slowly find your way back to yourself.
We talk about:
Navigating grief after losing a parent to suicide
How grief lives in the body and impacts daily life
The connection between grief and intimacy
Feeling disconnected from your body after loss
The role of poetry and expression in healing
Holding both love and grief at the same time
Identity shifts after profound loss
The unspoken parts of healing and moving forward
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and love can coexist. And that even in the aftermath of loss, there is space for connection, healing, and coming home to yourself.
Get to know Sara Rian:
Sara Rian is a poet, self-published author, licensed therapist, mother, and wife living in Metro Detroit. Her journey with grief began after the loss of her mother to suicide in 2018 — a loss that continues to shape both her personal life and her work. Through her writing, Sara creates space for others to feel seen in their grief, reminding them that they are not alone in their love or their loss. As both a mental health professional and a grieving daughter, she brings a deeply compassionate and honest voice to the conversations we often struggle to have.
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“It Took Everything to Get Here” — Miranda Stout on Infertility, Loss, and Motherhood After Trauma
23 Jun 2026
01:42:02
Miranda Stout shares her story of navigating infertility, pregnancy loss, a complicated pregnancy, birth trauma, and a NICU stay — and what it means to now be parenting her two living sons after everything it took to get here. In this episode, we talk about the long road to motherhood after loss, the lingering impact of trauma, and the slow shift from survival mode into something softer. This conversation holds space for both the grief that stays and the life that continues to unfold.
We talk about:
Miranda’s experience with infertility and the early challenges of trying to conceive
Navigating pregnancy loss and the emotional toll it carries
A complicated pregnancy and birth trauma
The experience of having a baby in the NICU
What survival mode looks like in motherhood after loss
The lingering presence of trauma, even in “normal” life
Parenting living children while carrying past grief
The transition from surviving to slowly feeling safe again
Holding both gratitude and grief at the same time
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to know Miranda:
Miranda Stout is a wife, boy mom of two, and interior designer based in Ottawa, Ontario. Her path to motherhood has been anything but straightforward — shaped by infertility, pregnancy loss, a complicated pregnancy, birth trauma, and a NICU stay. Through it all, she has found her way into a life that feels both hard-earned and deeply meaningful, holding space for the messiness and beauty that can exist side by side.
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“They Never Really Leave Us” — Abbie on Grief, Healing, and Life After Losing Rowan
16 Jun 2026
01:24:55
Abbie shares the story of her son Rowan — a pregnancy that felt calm, grounded, and deeply connected, until everything shifted. In this episode, we talk about pregnancy loss, grief, and the identity changes that come with motherhood after loss. Abbie opens up about how Rowan shaped not only her journey as a mother, but also her work, her purpose, and the way she now moves through the world. We also talk about her rainbow baby, and what it looks like to hold both grief and joy in the same life.
We talk about:
Experiencing an unexpected pregnancy after infertility and PCOS
A peaceful, connected pregnancy during the quiet of COVID
The moment everything changed and navigating pregnancy loss
How grief reshapes identity and motherhood after loss
The concept of “before and after” loss — and living in both
Carrying your baby with you in your body, your work, and your life
Finding purpose and moving into grief-informed care
Parenting a rainbow baby while honouring an angel baby
The ongoing nature of healing after pregnancy loss
This episode is a gentle reminder that grief and love can live side by side — and that even after loss, motherhood continues in its own sacred way.
Get to know Abbie: Abbie is a massage therapist, nurturer, and mother currently living in Southwest Florida. Originally from rural upstate New York, she brings a deep sense of care and presence into both her work and her life. She is a mom to her daughters and her son Rowan, who passed away — an experience that has shaped her compassion, her purpose, and the way she supports others through grief and healing. Abbie believes in slowing down, finding beauty in the simple moments, and living with gentle intention.
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"We Chose Love" — Fernanda on Saying Goodbye, Grief, and Motherhood After Loss
02 Jun 2026
01:16:15
Fernanda shares the story of her daughter, who was diagnosed during pregnancy with metatropic dysplasia — a rare and life-limiting condition. After weeks of uncertainty, testing, and slowly losing hope, Fernanda and her partner were faced with an impossible decision: to continue the pregnancy knowing their daughter would suffer, or to say goodbye.
In this episode, Fernanda speaks openly about choosing to say goodbye to her daughter at 27 weeks, the three days she had to hold her close and prepare her heart, and the sacred, life-changing moment of meeting her after birth.
She also takes us into the depths of grief — what it truly looks like to live in the aftermath of loss — and the hard, intentional work it took to survive. Finally, she shares about her rainbow baby, Theo, and how becoming his mother helped bring her back to life while still carrying love for her first baby.
We talk about:
Receiving a rare diagnosis during pregnancy
The emotional weight of waiting for answers
Making an impossible, compassionate decision
Carrying her daughter and preparing to say goodbye
The sacred experience of birth after loss
What grief actually looks like in the months after loss
The role of therapy, routine, and medication in healing
The deep desire to become a mother again
Pregnancy after loss and the fear that comes with it
Meeting her rainbow baby and learning to feel again
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and love are never separate — and that even in the darkest moments, there can still be connection, meaning, and a path forward.
Get to know Fernanda:
Fernanda is a creative, graphic designer, and community leader based in Berlin, Germany, where she lives with her husband and their son. Originally from Santiago, Chile, she has built a life rooted in creativity, movement, and connection. Her journey through pregnancy loss and motherhood after loss has deeply shaped the way she sees the world — and the way she shows up in it today.
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“You Were Always Meant to Be Held” — Dr. Greer Kirshenbaum on Nurturing, Neuroscience, and Parenting After Loss
26 May 2026
01:04:17
Dr. Greer Kirshenbaum, neuroscientist, author, and doula, joins me for a deeply grounding conversation on how early experiences shape both baby and mother — especially in the context of pregnancy after loss and raising a rainbow baby. We explore the intersection of science and instinct, and what it really means to nurture, connect, and rebuild trust in motherhood after loss. This episode offers a powerful reframe: that the closeness you feel called to offer your baby is not only valid — it’s biologically essential.
We talk about:
How early experiences shape brain development in babies
The neuroscience behind attachment and connection
Parenting a rainbow baby after pregnancy loss
Rebuilding trust in your body and instincts after loss
The impact of nurturing on maternal mental health
Letting go of fear-based parenting narratives
Why closeness is not “spoiling” — it’s protective
The intersection of grief, healing, and motherhood after loss
How to feel more grounded and confident in your parenting choices
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that the way you love and nurture your baby truly matters.
Get to know Dr Greer:
Dr. Greer Kirshenbaum is a neuroscientist, author, and educator dedicated to transforming how we understand early development. Trained at the University of Toronto, Columbia University, NYU, and Yale, she brings together cutting-edge research and her lived experience as a mother and doula. Through her work, Greer helps families understand how nurturing the mother–baby relationship supports both infant brain development and maternal mental health. She is the author of The Nurture Revolution and leads a global movement empowering parents to raise emotionally resilient children through connection and care.
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“We Were Expecting Three” — Elle Margetson on Losing Her Triplets and the Journey to Her Rainbow Baby
19 May 2026
01:22:44
Elle Margetson shares the story of her triplets — a pregnancy that began with surprise and quickly became something much bigger than she ever imagined. After conceiving with the help of medication, Elle discovered she was carrying three babies — a moment that shifted everything.
But as her pregnancy progressed, complications arose, and she was faced with infection, medical dismissal, and ultimately premature labour. Her babies were born far too soon — each one alive, each one deeply loved — and each one lost in the days that followed in the NICU.
In this episode, we talk about pregnancy loss, neonatal loss, and what it means to become a mother in the midst of unimaginable grief. We also talk about pregnancy after loss, postpartum mental health, and the complex journey of welcoming a rainbow baby while still carrying the love for the babies who came before.
We talk about:
Conceiving after infertility and PCOS
Discovering a triplet pregnancy
Medical gaslighting and infection during pregnancy
Premature birth and NICU experiences
Losing each of her babies after birth
Grief and identity in motherhood after loss
Pregnancy after loss and the fear that comes with it
Postpartum anxiety and mental health after bringing a baby home
Finding purpose through supporting other loss moms
Holding grief and hope at the same time
This episode is a reminder that grief and love do not exist separately — they live side by side, shaping the way we move forward.
Get to know Elle:
Elle Margetson is a grief therapist, loss mom, and the creator of The Loss Mama Method. After losing her triplets following premature birth in 2021, Elle turned her experience into a mission to support other women navigating pregnancy loss, neonatal loss, and motherhood after loss. Through her work in Superconscious Grief Therapy, she helps mothers release guilt, calm overwhelm, and reconnect with themselves. Based in the UK, Elle has supported over 120 loss moms worldwide — offering a space where healing and remembrance can exist together.
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“His Life Was a Gift” — William, Loss, and the Story Behind Held Through
12 May 2026
01:00:22
In this solo episode, Kristin Mundy reflects on the emotional weight of Mother’s Day after loss while sharing the story of her son William, whose life and passing deeply shaped the creation of Held Through. Through her own experiences with miscarriage, stillbirth, and infant loss, Kristin speaks openly about navigating loss within the medical system, the importance of informed choices, and the sacred moments we get with our babies.
We talk about:
Grief after Mother’s Day and Bereaved Mother’s Day
Kristin’s pregnancy and loss with William
Navigating a life-limiting diagnosis during pregnancy
The difference between informed and unsupported loss experiences
Advocacy, options, and decision making during pregnancy and loss
Creating meaningful, sacred time with your baby
The impact of birth and postpartum experiences on grief
The gaps in care for women experiencing loss
The creation and purpose behind Held Through
Supporting mothers, loved ones, and practitioners through loss
This episode is a reminder that even in the most heartbreaking circumstances, there can be moments of connection, love, and meaning — and that no mother should have to walk through loss without support.
Get to know your Host: This is a solo episode with Kristin Mundy — birth, postpartum, and bereavement doula, childbirth educator, and founder of The Doula Life. Based in Hamilton, Canada, Kristin supports women through pregnancy, loss, and motherhood after loss with a compassionate, trauma-informed approach. Her work is rooted in her own lived experience of loss and her mission to ensure no mother feels alone in any part of her journey.
If you enjoyed this episode, please don’t forget to subscribe, rate, and review—it helps get these stories and resources into the hands of the women who need them most. And please share it with someone who could use this kind of support. Your support means so much.
“She Made Me a Mother First” — Samantha Vera Cleland on Loss, Love, and Life with Her Rainbow Baby
05 May 2026
01:09:12
Samantha Vera Cleland shares her journey through pregnancy loss, beginning with an early miscarriage that was minimized by others, and continuing into her pregnancy with her daughter Vera — a baby she already saw as her rainbow after loss. In this episode, Sam opens up about the anxiety of pregnancy after loss, the emotional weight of navigating milestones, and how her identity has evolved as both a bereaved mother and a mother to her living son. Her story is an honest reflection on grief, healing, and the complexity of motherhood after loss.
We talk about:
- Experiencing early miscarriage and the impact of dismissive language around loss - Why “chemical pregnancy” doesn’t reflect the depth of grief - The anxiety of pregnancy after loss and daily testing for reassurance - Navigating the myth of a “safe zone” in pregnancy - Holding the identity of both a bereaved mother and a present parent - The emotional reality of postpartum after a rainbow baby - Learning to carry grief and gratitude at the same time - The evolving definition of motherhood after loss - Supporting families through baby loss and changing the narrative - Finding moments of connection with both babies — here and not here
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist and that even after loss, motherhood continues in so many forms.
Get to Know Samantha:
Samantha Vera Cleland is a mental health social worker, bereaved mother, and advocate for families navigating pregnancy and infant loss. After the death of her daughter Vera, Sam’s identity shifted in ways she never expected — shaping how she sees motherhood, grief, and healing. Now parenting her living son, she is passionate about changing the narrative around baby loss and supporting other families through their own journeys. She lives with her husband and their beloved pets, finding comfort in connection, family, and the quiet moments at home.
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“Nothing About It Felt Easy” — Lindsay Hall on Twin Loss and the Road Through Pregnancy After Loss
28 Apr 2026
01:05:41
Lindsay Hall joins me to share her story of infertility, a twin pregnancy, and the devastating loss of her daughter Rosalind after childbirth. In this episode, Lindsay opens up about giving birth to both twins, bringing Josephine home while navigating postpartum grief, and how motherhood after loss asked more of her than she ever expected. She also reflects on her later pregnancy after loss with her daughter Scarlett, and how fear, grief, and hope followed her into that chapter as well.
We talk about:
Infertility and fertility treatments
Discovering a twin pregnancy
Giving birth to twins and experiencing postpartum loss
Losing Rosalind and bringing Josephine home
Navigating postpartum grief while parenting
The long-term impact of loss on motherhood
Pregnancy after loss with Scarlett
Fear, resilience, and continuing forward after loss
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to Know Lindsay:
Lindsay Hall is a mother of four daughters — three earthside and one angel baby — living in Windsor, Colorado with her husband, Bruce. She works part time in the education non-profit space and spends the rest of her time mothering and delighting in her girls. Lindsay’s story reflects the quiet strength it takes to continue forward through loss, grief, and pregnancy after loss.
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“I Chose to Hope for Her” — Constance on Lucy, Advocacy, and Pregnancy After Loss
23 Apr 2026
01:06:30
Constance joins me to share the story of her daughter Lucy who passed shortly after birth due to a life-limiting diagnosis of congenital diaphragmatic hernia (CDH). In this conversation, Constance reflects on receiving Lucy’s diagnosis at the 20-week anatomy scan and navigating a medical system that often felt clinical and outcome-focused, rather than centred on her baby’s life.
We talk about what it means to continue a pregnancy with a life-limiting diagnosis — to choose presence, advocacy, and deep connection, even in the face of uncertainty. Constance shares about Lucy’s birth, the time they had together, and the heartbreak of saying goodbye.
She also opens up about how this experience reshaped her faith, identity, and understanding of motherhood, and what it looked like to step into pregnancy after loss, eventually welcoming her rainbow baby while continuing to honour Lucy as a foundational part of her story.
This is a conversation about intentional love — about mothering a baby for their entire life, no matter how long that life is.
We talk about:
Receiving a CDH diagnosis at the 20-week anatomy scan
Navigating medical care that felt impersonal and outcome-driven
Choosing to continue the pregnancy after a life-limiting diagnosis
Advocating for Lucy and her birth experience
Birth and time with a baby who passed shortly after
Grief, faith, and rebuilding identity after infant loss
Pregnancy after loss and holding fear alongside hope
Welcoming a rainbow baby while honouring Lucy
Motherhood after loss and living in both grief and love
This episode is a reminder that even the briefest lives are deeply meaningful and that the love we carry for our babies continues to shape us, forever.
Get to know Constance: Constance is a stay-at-home mom and military spouse living in Georgia. She is a former professional ballerina who danced with Ballet Austin in Austin, Texas, before stepping away from the stage to become a mother. Life after loss has taken her through grief, rebuilding her faith, cross-country moves, and the realities of military life — all while mothering her children and honoring the daughter who changed everything.
Connect with Kristin: 📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven 🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim 🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life
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“Your Body Is Not Broken” — Fertility Acupuncturist and Expert Anne Matthews on Fertility and Trying to Conceive
14 Apr 2026
00:59:47
In this episode, I sit down with Anne Matthews, a fertility acupuncturist and Traditional Chinese Medicine practitioner based in Oakville, Ontario, to talk about fertility, IVF, IUI, and what integrative support can look like while trying to conceive.
For many women — especially those navigating pregnancy loss — trying again can feel overwhelming. It’s not just about ovulation charts or embryo transfers. It’s about trust, nervous systems, grief, and hope living side by side.
Anne shares how acupuncture and Traditional Chinese Medicine can work alongside Western fertility treatments to support hormone balance, egg quality, uterine health, and emotional regulation. We also talk about the mental load of fertility treatments and how to care for your body without slipping into blame or shame.
We talk about:
How acupuncture supports IVF and IUI
The connection between the nervous system and fertility
TTC after miscarriage and rebuilding trust in your body
Integrating Eastern and Western medicine
Supporting egg quality and uterine environment
The emotional weight of trying to conceive
Advocating for yourself in fertility care
Why your body is not broken
This episode is a grounded, empowering reminder that fertility support can be layered, holistic, and compassionate.
Get to Know Anne:
Anne Matthews is a Traditional Chinese Medicine practitioner and fertility acupuncturist based in Oakville, Ontario. With advanced training in Chinese medicine and nutrition, Anne specializes in supporting women through fertility challenges, IVF and IUI cycles, and integrative reproductive care. Her approach blends evidence-based practice with whole-person support — helping women feel informed, empowered, and cared for while trying to conceive.
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“Grief Changed Us” — Mahaley & Ravi Patel on Infant Loss, Marriage, and Pregnancy After Loss
07 Apr 2026
01:30:15
Mahaley and Ravi Patel join me to share the story of their daughter, Saachi.
After complications during birth led to meconium aspiration, Saachi spent five days in the NICU before her parents said had to say goodbye. In this episode, Mahaley and Ravi gently reflect on those early days — the hope, the uncertainty, the sacred time they were given — and the heartbreak of leaving the hospital without their baby.
Mahaley, a licensed marriage and family therapist specializing in perinatal mental health, grief, trauma, and infant and child loss, speaks openly about what it was like to be supporting families through birth trauma and NICU experiences while navigating the loss of her own daughter. Losing Saachi profoundly deepened and redirected her work — shaping how she now holds space for bereaved parents and ultimately leading her to write her book, Your NICU Story, a resource born from both clinical expertise and lived experience.
Ravi shares honestly about fatherhood in grief, the strain and strengthening of their marriage, and what survival mode truly looked like in those first months.
Over time, their story expanded to include pregnancy after loss, surrogacy, and the arrival of their rainbow babies — all while continuing to honour Saachi in their everyday lives.
We talk about:
Saachi’s birth and her time in the NICU
Meconium aspiration and unexpected birth complications
The sacred and painful experience of saying goodbye
Grieving differently within a marriage
Supporting one another when both partners are hurting
How losing a child reshapes identity and professional calling
The creation of Your NICU Story and supporting other NICU families
Pregnancy after loss and cautious hope
Parenting rainbow babies while carrying enduring love
This episode is a reminder that a baby’s life — no matter how brief — can alter the course of a family forever. Saachi’s life continues to ripple outward, shaping the way her parents love, parent, work, and serve other grieving families.
Get to Know Mahaley:
Mahaley Patel, LMFT, PMH-C is a licensed therapist specializing in perinatal mental health, grief, trauma, and infant/child loss. She holds a Bachelor of Arts from UCLA and a Master’s degree from Pepperdine University. With a compassionate and client-centered approach, Mahaley is dedicated to supporting individuals navigating their journey to and through parenthood. She also serves on the bereaved parent advisory board at Monroe Carell Jr. Children’s Hospital at Vanderbilt and runs a child loss support group for grieving parents. Beyond her professional work, she is a wife, a mother of four, and a bereaved parent, bringing both personal and clinical experience to her practice.
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“I Thought 12 Weeks Meant We Were Safe” — Alexa Conlon on Stillbirth, Grief, and Motherhood After Loss
31 Mar 2026
01:10:09
Alexa Conlon joins me to share the story of her son, Kayde, who was stillborn after a pregnancy that appeared healthy and full of hope. In this episode, Alexa reflects on the shock of stillbirth, the unraveling that followed, and what it means to continue mothering—both the children she holds and the one she carries in her heart. We explore healing after stillbirth, the complexities of motherhood after loss, and the quiet resilience that so many loss mothers embody.
We talk about:
The shock and disbelief that often accompany stillbirth
Letting go of the illusion of “safe” milestones in pregnancy
Grieving a baby while parenting living children
The long, non-linear path of healing after stillbirth
Creating space for grief without trying to fix it
Honouring a baby’s legacy through advocacy and community support
The quiet strength of mothers who carry both love and sorrow
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist—and that love continues, even after goodbye.
Get to Know Alexa: Alexa Conlon is a nurse, mother of two earthside children, and a loss mom honoring her stillborn son, Kayde. Based in Alberta, Canada, she is the founder and host of Beyond the Birth Story Podcast and the Founder & Coordinator of The Kayde Foundation, a non-profit offering perinatal loss support services. Alexa shares her story with honesty and heart, believing deeply in the quiet strength of mothers who carry both love and sorrow.
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“Our Hearts Were Already So Invested” — Deanna on Miscarriage and the Long Road to Pregnancy After Loss
24 Mar 2026
00:43:28
In this episode, Deanna shares the story of her miscarriage during an already emotionally heavy season — planning a wedding in the middle of COVID, navigating infertility, and finally seeing two pink lines. Her pregnancy loss unfolded quickly, quietly, and just days before a major life milestone, forcing her to carry grief alongside celebration. We talk about trusting intuition, the complicated nature of early miscarriage, and how pregnancy after loss reshaped her understanding of motherhood, healing, and care.
We talk about:
Experiencing miscarriage just days before a wedding
Early pregnancy loss and the validity of early grief
Trusting intuition and body awareness during pregnancy
Navigating milestones while grieving
Pregnancy after loss and becoming a mother
How loss changes identity and life direction
Bringing lived experience into motherhood and caregiving
Holding grief and gratitude at the same time
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief doesn’t follow timelines — and that even early loss can leave a lasting mark. It’s a story about honoring intuition, making space for sorrow, and finding your way into motherhood after loss.
Get to Know Deanna:
Deanna is a registered nurse, mother of two, and perinatal support provider living in Newtonville, Ontario. After experiencing miscarriage and pregnancy after loss, her personal journey deeply shaped the way she shows up for families in the early stages of parenthood. Through her work, she brings empathy, presence, and lived understanding to the care she offers parents navigating both joy and grief.
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“We’re Not Meant to Disappear” — Dr. Gertrude Lyons on Motherhood, Loss, and Reclaiming Self
17 Mar 2026
01:19:09
In this episode of The Rainbow Connection, Kristin sits down with Dr. Gertrude Lyons for a rich, grounding conversation about motherhood, identity, and what so many women quietly grieve after becoming mothers. Together, they explore how loss, transformation, and mothering intersect — and how many women find themselves navigating not only grief for the babies they’ve lost, but for parts of themselves that have shifted, softened, or disappeared along the way. This episode invites listeners into a more expansive understanding of motherhood — one that honors devotion without demanding self-erasure, and makes room for healing, spirituality, and becoming again.
We talk about:
Motherhood as a transformational initiation
The quiet grief of identity loss many mothers carry
Rewriting inherited narratives of sacrifice
Holding motherhood and selfhood at the same time
Loss, healing, and expansion after life-altering transitions
Why motherhood doesn’t require our disappearance
Reclaiming creativity, spirituality, and wholeness
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and growth can coexist — and that even after loss, there is space for truth, expansion, and remembering who you are.
Get to know Dr. Gertrude Lyons:
Dr. Gertrude Lyons is an author, coach, and speaker devoted to expanding how we understand motherhood, identity, and creation. Through her coaching, retreats, workshops, and her book Rewrite the Mother Code: From Sacrifice to Stardust, she challenges limiting beliefs around motherhood and gently dismantles the narrow roles women have long been placed in. Her work invites a more expansive truth — that all women mother, that mother energy is accessible to all of us, and that motherhood is deeply connected to spirituality, community, and creation. At the heart of her work is a celebration of women as powerful creators, reclaiming their fullest expression of life.
📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven (use code RAINBOW to save $100) 🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim (use code RECLAIM to save $100) 🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life
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“I Didn’t Know Life Could Change This Fast” — Alana Fear on Stillbirth, Grief, and Pregnancy After Loss+
10 Mar 2026
01:00:22
In this episode of The Rainbow Connection, Alana Fear shares the story of her son, Warren, and the shock of experiencing stillbirth after a healthy pregnancy. She reflects on how quickly life can change, the grief that follows when the future you imagined disappears, and how loss reshapes your relationship with hope. Alana also opens up about her pregnancy after loss, navigating fear, cautious optimism, and the reality of carrying new life while continuing to grieve the child who should be here.
We talk about:
Experiencing stillbirth after a healthy pregnancy
The loss of innocence that comes with pregnancy loss
Navigating grief when life felt “perfect” before loss
Pregnancy after loss and holding hope carefully
Living as a mother to both the son she lost and the daughter who came after
How loss reshapes trust in your body and the future
Finding grounding in simple, ordinary moments after grief
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that love does not end when a baby dies.
Get to know Alana:
Alana Fear lives in Etobicoke, Ontario with her husband, Matt, and their dog, Walter. She is a mother to her son, Warren, whom she lives to remember, and is currently pregnant with her daughter, due this November. Alana finds meaning in the simple things — a warm cup of tea, time in nature, music that meets her in the moment — and finds comfort through journaling, creativity, and storytelling.
📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven (use promo code RAINBOW to save $100) 🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim (use promo code RECLAIM to save $100) 🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life
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“There Was No Safe Zone” — Kristen Dunbar on Stillbirth, Faith, and Pregnancy After Loss
03 Mar 2026
00:54:51
Kristen Dunbar shares the story of losing her baby to stillbirth at 38 weeks — a loss that arrived suddenly and changed everything she thought she knew about pregnancy, motherhood, and faith. In this episode, Kristen reflects on listening to her intuition, navigating pregnancy loss without answers, and continuing to mother her living children while grieving the baby she could not bring home. Together, we talk about healing after stillbirth, pregnancy after loss, and what life looks like when joy and grief exist side by side.
We talk about:
- Experiencing stillbirth late in pregnancy - Intuition and recognizing when something feels wrong - The shock and anger that can accompany pregnancy loss - Grieving while continuing to parent other children - Faith and meaning-making after stillbirth - The loss of certainty in pregnancy after loss - Motherhood after loss and continuing to show up - Healing without answers
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to know Kristen:
Kristen Dunbar is a wife, mother, and homeschooling mom living in Lafayette, Louisiana. She and her husband have been married for nearly 21 years and are raising seven children on earth while honoring the babies they lost through chemical pregnancies, miscarriage, and stillbirth. A former educator, Kristen transitioned to homeschooling and full-time motherhood after a pregnancy-related stroke, grounding her life in faith, service, and family.
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“When Hope Feels Terrifying” — Lindsay Jackson on Navigating Recurrent Loss, Stillbirth, and Life After Amelia
24 Feb 2026
01:21:00
In this tender and emotional episode, Lindsay Jackson shares the story of her daughter Amelia, who was born still just one week shy of seven months. Lindsay walks us through her pregnancies — a miscarriage, an ectopic pregnancy, and finally her long-awaited baby girl — and the moment everything changed at her anatomy scan. Through fear, intuition, medical trauma, and the sacred weeks she carried Amelia against all odds, Lindsay offers an honest and deeply human look at pregnancy loss, stillbirth, and healing after heartbreak.
We talk about:
• Lindsay’s first miscarriage and the difficult, drawn-out process that followed • Navigating an ectopic pregnancy and the emergency decisions she was forced to make • Becoming pregnant again after loss and the terror of every ultrasound • The moment her anatomy scan revealed devastating news • How Amelia continued to hold on for six more weeks • Hearing “there’s no heartbeat” and walking into labor with a broken heart • The physical trauma and multiple surgeries that followed her loss • How she and her husband are beginning to consider their future — including surrogacy • What hope looks like when life keeps dropping you to your knees • The ongoing process of healing while still honoring her daughter’s life
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can be sacred.
Get to Know Lindsay: Lindsay Jackson is a marketing professional living in Fort Lauderdale, Florida with her husband of four years and their beloved 14-year-old dog. Originally from Georgia, Lindsay has spent the last several years navigating a long and deeply emotional journey through miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, and the stillbirth of her daughter, Amelia. Her story is one of courage, intuition, and the daily work of choosing hope even when the path ahead feels uncertain. Lindsay’s openness, honesty, and resilience offer comfort and connection to anyone walking the road of pregnancy loss or motherhood after loss.
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“You Don’t Know About the 1% Until You Are the 1%” — Joy Harrington on Infant Loss and Pregnancy After Loss
17 Feb 2026
01:02:33
In today’s episode, I’m joined by mother and coach, Joy Harrington, who shares the powerful story of her son, Sterling — a beautiful baby boy who died shortly after birth from early onset Group B Strep. Joy brings us into the shock, trauma, and unraveling that followed, and the long path toward healing, pregnancy after loss, and welcoming her rainbow baby, Stella. Now pregnant again, Joy also talks about intuition, spirit baby connections, and the grounded peace she feels in this pregnancy.
We talk about:
- Joy’s pregnancy and home birth with Sterling - The signs that were missed and the shock of losing him within hours of birth - Navigating trauma, marriage strain, and the search for answers - How infant loss reshaped her motherhood, identity, and marriage - Her spiritual experiences and the belief that Sterling wasn’t “done” - The infertility journey that followed and the eventual conception of her rainbow baby - How pregnancy after loss felt physically, emotionally, and spiritually - What bringing Stella home healed — and what it didn’t - The grief differences between partners and rebuilding connection - Her current pregnancy and the profound sense of knowing she carries with her
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to Know Joy:
Joy Harrington is an Arizona-based mother of three, currently pregnant with her fourth baby, and the host of The Resentment Trap — her signature program supporting high-functioning women in healing resentment within their marriages. After losing her son, Sterling, in 2022 to early-onset Group B Strep, Joy’s life, motherhood, and marriage were reshaped in profound ways. Her story weaves together grief, redemption, spiritual connection, and the courageous journey of pregnancy after loss. Today, Joy shares her lived experience to help other women feel seen, supported, and less alone.
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“I Had to Learn How to Hope Again” - Bethany Womack on Stillbirth, PTSD, and Birth After Loss
10 Feb 2026
01:21:40
In this deeply moving episode, Bethany Womack invites us into her decade long journey through recurrent miscarriage, preeclampsia, emergency birth, postpartum PTSD, NICU trauma, and the heartbreaking loss of her son Gabriel. She speaks honestly about the emotional and physical toll of pregnancy loss, the impossible decisions she faced, the grief that reshaped her, and the long, winding path toward her rainbow baby, Teddy, born after years of fear, healing, and rebuilding trust in her own body.
Her story is a powerful testament to the truth that joy and grief can coexist — and that motherhood after loss unfolds in many forms.
We talk about: - Recurrent early miscarriages and the shock of becoming “the statistic” - Bowen’s traumatic birth, preeclampsia, hemorrhage, and postpartum PTSD - Navigating a 22-day NICU stay during Hurricane Harvey - The emotional and physical devastation of losing Gabriel at 20 weeks - The sacred, heartbreaking moments of saying goodbye - How trauma shaped her next pregnancies and birth choices - Anxiety, hypervigilance, and learning to feel safe in her body again - The long journey to her rainbow son, Teddy, and his 28-day NICU stay - Grief within marriage and how she and her husband supported each other - What it meant to finally leave the hospital with a living baby after so much loss
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can be sacred.
Get to know Bethany:
Bethany Womack lives in Houston, Texas with her husband, Mark, and their three sons, Bowen, Jack, and Teddy, while lovingly holding the memory of their son, Gabriel. Her journey through motherhood has carried her through recurrent miscarriages, preeclampsia, traumatic birth, postpartum PTSD, and the tender complexities of NICU life. A photographer and storyteller at heart, Bethany shares her experiences with honesty and warmth, helping other loss mothers feel seen in their pain and reminding them that joy and grief often live together. She is passionate about creating space for women to feel less alone in the aftermath of loss.
Instagram: @bethanybwomack
Connect with Kristin
📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Membership: thedoulalife.ca/haven 🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim (use promo code RECLAIM to save $100) 🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life
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“Where My Motherhood Began” — A Solo Episode with Kristin Mundy on Miscarriage, a Health Crisis, and Grief
03 Feb 2026
00:59:15
In this solo episode of The Rainbow Connection, Kristin Mundy shares more of her personal motherhood story — including her first miscarriage, a significant health crisis, and the early experiences with grief that shaped who she is today. Kristin reflects on where her motherhood truly began, long before holding a baby in her arms, and how loss quietly influences identity, timing, and becoming. This episode offers an honest look at the parts of the journey that are often unseen, and why slowing down and telling the fuller story matters.
In this episode, Kristin shares:
- Why she felt called to record a solo episode and revisit her own story - Her experience with her first miscarriage
- Finding herself paralyzed and navigating a major health crisis
- Being diagnosed with Transverse Myelitis and Lupus
- The decision to start chemotherapy on her baby's due date
- Living in the “before” and “after” of loss - What a viral post revealed about visibility, grief, and untold parts of the story
This episode is a gentle reminder that motherhood doesn’t always begin the way we expect — and that grief, healing, and becoming often start long before the moments the world can see.
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“Every Pregnancy Was a Happy Pregnancy” — Carmen Grover on Miscarriage, TFMR & Finding Joy Again
27 Jan 2026
01:07:19
In this episode of The Rainbow Connection, I sit down with Canadian mom and pediatric nurse, Carmen Grover, to talk about her eleven pregnancies — including early miscarriages, TFMR, the second-trimester loss of her daughter Kaia Bell, and the long, complicated road of pregnancy after loss. Carmen speaks so beautifully about the memories that tether her to each of her babies, the moments that nearly broke her, and the ones that helped her begin to heal. This is a tender story of grief, motherhood after loss, and finding hope again.
We talk about:
- Carmen’s first pregnancy and the early losses that followed - The heartbreaking diagnosis that led to the TFMR of her daughter Kaia Bell - How writing became a way to hold, honor, and remember each of her babies - The complexity of pregnancy after loss and learning to celebrate again - Parenting living children while grieving the ones you never got to raise - How partners grieve differently and the strain loss can place on a relationship - What it looks like to honoUr all of her babies as her family grows - The unexpected ways her children continue to teach her about love and grief - Finding healing through community, ritual, and small everyday moments
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to Know Carmen:
Carmen Grover is a Canadian mom to eleven babies — four in her arms and seven she carries in her heart. A pediatric nurse and gifted storyteller, she speaks openly about miscarriage, second-trimester loss, TFMR, and the complex emotions of pregnancy after loss. Carmen’s writing and quiet rituals have become the way she continues to honor each of her babies. She shares her journey in hopes that no parent walking through grief ever feels alone.
Instagram: @adiarytoourbabies A Diary to my Babies: Find Carmen's book here
Connect with Kristin
📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss: thedoulalife.ca/haven 🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life
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“Every Ounce Mattered” — Colleen Meehan on Pregnancy Loss, Preeclampsia, and Life After Kyleigh
20 Jan 2026
01:17:47
In this episode of The Rainbow Connection, Colleen shares the story of her daughter, Kyleigh, conceived after years of infertility and IVF. Her pregnancy — filled with hope, anxiety, and countless ultrasounds — took a sudden turn when decreased cord blood flow and rapidly escalating blood pressure revealed severe preeclampsia. At just 27 weeks and 5 days, Colleen delivered baby Kyleigh, who entered the world fighting with every ounce of strength she had. Colleen and her husband held her, loved her, and spent sacred hours with her in the NICU before she passed. This is a story of pregnancy loss, premature birth, motherhood after loss, and the deep imprint one tiny life can leave on the world.
We talk about:
• The long journey through infertility, IVF, and finally seeing a positive pregnancy test • Anxiety during pregnancy after years of trauma and uncertainty • Decreased cord blood flow, preeclampsia, and conflicting medical advice • The maternal-fetal medicine doctor who helped save precious hours with Kyleigh • The emergency C-section at 27 weeks and Kyleigh’s beautiful birth • Meeting their daughter — her long legs, her fighting spirit, and her tiny movements • The moment everything changed in the NICU • Holding her, baptizing her, and the sacred time gifted through the cuddle cot • The community who showed up with love, cards, and gestures that meant everything • What life looks like now and the ongoing reality of postpartum after loss
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, is forever sacred.
Get to Know Colleen:
Colleen lives in the quiet hills of Sayre, Pennsylvania, with her husband and their two dogs — and, most recently, a pair of very loved pigs. She has been with her husband since they were sixteen and now teaches sixth grade at a small, close-knit school just over the New York border. When she’s not in the classroom, you can usually find her on the porch with a good book. Colleen is the proud mother of her daughter, Kyleigh, whose short but powerful life continues to shape her heart and her work in the world.
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“She Arrived Almost to the Minute He Left” — Krista Wilson on Preterm Labor, Saying Goodbye, and Welcoming Her Rainbow
13 Jan 2026
01:11:01
In this deeply moving episode, grief coach and mother of three, Krista Wilson, shares the story of her son, Harrison, who was born at 23.5 weeks after an unexpected preterm labor during a winter trip to Whistler. Krista recounts the ambulance ride down the Sea-to-Sky Highway, the NICU moments she will never forget, and the heartbreaking choice she and her husband had to make when machines became the only thing keeping Harrison alive.
She also opens up about her pregnancy after loss, including a high-risk journey marked by cervical sutures, nine weeks of hospital bedrest, and the emotional birth of her rainbow baby, Julia — born almost to the minute Harrison passed. This is a story about infant loss, pregnancy after loss, and the extraordinary resilience of a mother’s love.
We talk about:
- The night Krista went into preterm labor at 23.5 weeks - The ambulance ride through a snowy mountain highway - Meeting Harrison, holding him, and saying goodbye - Pregnancy after loss while navigating trauma, fear, and hypervigilance - Nine weeks of strict hospital bedrest for her rainbow pregnancy - Julia’s premature birth and the cord around her neck - The moment Krista realized Julia arrived almost exactly nine months after Harrison’s death - How grief ultimately shaped Krista’s calling to support others through pregnancy and infant loss
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to know Krista:
Krista Harrison lives in Richmond, BC with her husband, John, and their youngest daughter, Jaina. After raising two biological children and fostering four others over 25 years, Krista felt called into grief work following the loss of her son, Harrison, and the high-risk pregnancy that brought her rainbow baby, Julia, into the world. Today, she is a life and grief coach specializing in pregnancy and infant loss, supporting families through some of the most tender and transformative moments of their lives. Krista brings warmth, lived wisdom, and deep compassion to every woman she supports.
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“The Baby Who Saved My Life” — Channing Hart on Loss, Love, and Pregnancy After Loss
06 Jan 2026
01:02:13
In this powerful episode, Channing Hart shares the heartbreaking story of losing her sons—Leo, who she and her husband lovingly chose to release at 16 weeks after a Jacob syndrome diagnosis, and Oliver, who was stillborn at 26 weeks following severe intrauterine growth restriction, reverse blood flow, and rapid decline. While navigating her grief and fear in pregnancy after loss, Channing also faced a shocking diagnosis of papillary thyroid carcinoma at just eight weeks pregnant. Through impossible decisions, profound love, cancer treatment, and the quiet work of rebuilding her life, Channing speaks openly about grief, survival, motherhood after loss, and the hope she now holds for trying to conceive again.
We talk about:
Channing’s surprise first pregnancy and the TFMR decision for her son Leo
Navigating stigma, grief, and family dynamics after termination for medical reasons
Becoming pregnant again and receiving a cancer diagnosis at eight weeks
Severe IUGR, reverse blood flow, and the loss of her son Oliver at 26 weeks
The agonizing decision between labor & delivery and a D&E for Oliver
Post-loss cancer surgery, healing, and the meaning she found in timing
How she honors both her sons daily and keeps their memories woven into her life
The role of community, connection, and storytelling in her healing
Moving toward trying to conceive after loss with fear, courage, and hope
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist—and that birth, even in loss, can be sacred. Channing’s story invites us all to slow down, soften, and honor the complicated, courageous truth of motherhood after loss.
Get to Know Channing:
Channing Hart lives just outside Washington, DC with her husband and their two cats, Boots and Joni. She is the mother of two angel sons—Leo, who she and her husband released at 16 weeks, and Oliver, who was stillborn at 26 weeks in February 2025. Channing is also a recent thyroid cancer survivor, diagnosed at eight weeks pregnant with Oliver, and now finds deep purpose in connecting with other mothers navigating cancer during pregnancy. With a background in Studio Art, she finds joy in interior design, photography, cooking, and time spent near the ocean. She is profoundly grateful for the community of mothers she’s found through The Doula Life, walking this path of grief and healing together.
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“I Needed to Be a Mother” — Laurel Schaffman on NICU Loss, Fetal Growth Restriction, and Pregnancy After Loss
01 Jan 2026
01:15:13
In this tender episode of The Rainbow Connection, Laurel Schaffman shares the heartbreaking and beautiful story of her son Miles, born at 24 weeks after severe fetal growth restriction and complications that led to his passing just two days later. Laurel speaks honestly about their NICU time, navigating grief, and the overwhelming return home to a quiet nursery. She also invites us into the truth of pregnancy after loss, the fear that surfaced when she conceived again, and the careful, monitored journey that brought her rainbow baby Theo safely into her arms. Through her story, Laurel reflects on motherhood after loss, honoring Miles, and learning to live in the present with her son on earth.
We talk about:
The whirlwind beginning of her first pregnancy and the first signs of concern.
Receiving devastating news at 24 weeks and the decision to deliver early.
The two precious days Laurel and Josh spent with Miles in the NICU.
The disorienting early grief, funeral arrangements, and advocating for her son even after his passing.
The longing to try again and the emotional complexity of pregnancy after loss.
Navigating fear, frequent monitoring, and finding the right support team.
Setting boundaries during PAL and choosing who to tell — and how.
The redemptive, carefully planned C-section that brought Theo safely into the world.
How motherhood after loss reshapes everything: language, presence, gratitude, and identity.
Honoring Miles while raising Theo, and learning to mother both her boys in different ways.
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to Know Laurel:
Laurel Schaffman is an elementary school teacher and mother from West Hartford, Connecticut. She is the mom of two beautiful boys — her angel baby, Miles, and her rainbow baby, Theo. Typically a private person, Laurel found that walking through pregnancy loss, NICU loss, and pregnancy after loss opened her heart in new ways. She now shares her story so other women walking this path know they are not alone, and so Miles’ life continues to be honored through the ways she mothers.
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“Heaven Felt So Close” — Julie Wells on Losing Her Son Gabriel and Navigating Pregnancy After Loss
23 Dec 2025
01:00:49
In this tender and faith-rooted episode, Julie Wells shares the story of her son Gabriel, who she lost at 14 weeks after a traumatic and mishandled ER experience. She walks us through the early joy of his pregnancy, the sudden shift into contractions, her water breaking in the hospital hallway, and the heartbreaking moment she delivered him after a sneeze. Julie speaks vulnerably about holding Gabriel, naming him through tears, and navigating the deep grief that followed — as well as the regret and acceptance that came with his burial. She also opens her heart about pregnancy after loss, fearfully approaching the 14-week mark again, and the miraculous, spiritually-charged birth of her rainbow baby girl, Amayah, born after a fast labor while her husband was sick with norovirus. This is a story of grief, motherhood, faith, and the thin places between earth and heaven.
We talk about:
The early symptoms, sickness, and intuition Julie had during Gabriel’s pregnancy
The ER experience where her concerns were dismissed and minimized
The moment her water broke, the instant grief, and giving birth in the hallway
Holding Gabriel, naming him, and finding meaning in the sacredness of his life
Navigating postpartum grief without a baby in her arms
Wanting to conceive again and becoming pregnant a month later
The fear of reaching (and passing) 14 weeks in her rainbow pregnancy
The powerful birth of her daughter Ameya and the “veil” feeling thin between worlds
How she honors Gabriel today — scones, ducks, keepsakes, and connection
Walking alongside other loss moms as a way of honoring her son’s life
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to know Julie:
Julie Wells is a Minnesota-based mama to three: her toddler son, her angel baby Gabriel, and her rainbow baby girl, Ameya. A former certified midwife for developing nations and a full-time mother, Julie carries a deep passion for maternal health, faith, and creating everyday adventures with her little ones. Her heart for loss families shines through everything she does — honoring Gabriel by supporting other mothers walking through pregnancy after loss.
Instagram: @mrs.juwells
Connect with Kristin:
📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca 🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven 🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother 📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life
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“She Was Loved Every Second” — Kristine McNeil on the Loss of Her Daughter Banks and the Path to Her Rainbow Baby
16 Dec 2025
01:06:33
In this tender and courageous episode of The Rainbow Connection, Kristine McNeil shares the story of her daughter Banks, the profound loss that reshaped her life, and the emotional landscape of navigating miscarriage, trying to conceive after loss, and pregnancy after loss. Kristine opens up about the early signs she tried to ignore, the intuition she wishes had been heard, and the grief that followed the moment everything changed. She also reflects on the journey toward her rainbow baby—what it meant to carry both fear and hope, how she rebuilt trust in her body, and the ways she continues to honour Banks in her motherhood today. This episode holds space for the complexity of stillbirth, pregnancy loss, healing after miscarriage, and the transformative path of motherhood after loss.
We talk about:
- The early signs and intuition that something wasn’t right - The devastating moment of losing Banks - Navigating grief, trauma, and the unraveling that followed - The fear and emotional weight of trying to conceive after loss - How pregnancy after loss changed the way she trusted her body - Rebuilding connection with herself while honouring her baby - The birth of her rainbow baby and the emotions that came with it - Motherhood after loss and living with both grief and gratitude - The ways Banks continues to shape her life - What healing now looks like for Kristine
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist—and that birth, even in loss, can be sacred.
Get to Know Kristine: Kristine McNeil lives in Greenville, South Carolina with her husband, Shawn, and their three beautiful children Earthside—Cadence, Sutler, and Cash. She also carries the love of her daughter, Banks, who lives forever in her heart. Kristine is a devoted mother, a lover of home decorating, and someone who finds joy in cheering her kids on from the sidelines and spending time with the people she loves most. Having walked through profound grief, she approaches life with gratitude, tenderness, and a commitment to finding beauty and purpose in every moment.
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“He’s Still Here” — Shelby Corallo on Grief, Signs, and the Journey to Hope
09 Dec 2025
00:55:26
Shelby Corallo shares the story of her son, Luke, born at 22 weeks after a long and deeply hoped-for pregnancy following two years of IVF. In this episode, Shelby invites us into the joy of finally becoming pregnant, the sudden and traumatic turn that led to preterm labor, and the sacred hours she and her husband spent holding their baby boy. She reflects on grief, signs, and the ongoing journey of healing as she navigates life, motherhood, and pregnancy after loss with courage and honesty.
We talk about:
Two years of IVF and the joy of finally seeing a positive pregnancy test
A sudden hospital visit and the shock of preterm labor at 22 weeks
Giving birth to Luke and the sacred hours spent holding him
Leaving the hospital without a baby and the layers of early grief
Learning to say her son’s name and claim her motherhood after loss
Finding comfort in signs like rainbows and cardinals
How grief shows up differently for partners
Therapy, coping, and caring for yourself after loss
Navigating the fear and hope of trying to conceive again after pregnancy loss
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to Know Shelby:
Shelby Corallo lives in Peterborough, Ontario, and works as a resource consultant in Durham Region. She is a wife, a dog mama, and the loving mother of her son, Luke. Shelby shares openly about loss, healing, and the quiet ways her baby continues to be part of her life. When she’s not lakeside soaking up the views, she finds comfort in cooking, cozy TV shows, and moments that help her feel close to her son.
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“The Wisdom in the Waiting” — Tallia Deljou on Grief, Healing, and the Path to Her Baby
02 Dec 2025
00:59:17
Tallia Deljou shares the story of her son, born at 22 weeks, and the transformative journey that followed — through miscarriage, grief, and the slow reimagining of what motherhood could look like after loss. In this heartfelt conversation, Tallia opens up about rebuilding trust in her body, choosing not to become pregnant again, and finding peace and purpose in the waiting as she prepares to grow her family through surrogacy.
We talk about: - Navigating multiple pregnancy losses and a 22-week delivery - The shock, grief, and meaning-making that followed loss - Rebuilding trust in her body and marriage after trauma - Choosing not to get pregnant again and honoring her boundaries - Exploring surrogacy and learning to wait with hope - The spiritual and emotional lessons of loss and surrender - Creating Mothers Rising, a space for moms-in-waiting - Healing through community, reflection, and inner work - Learning to give hope a place to live again
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.
Get to know Tallia: Tallia Deljou is a life coach and writer on emotional health. Grounded in positive psychology and Internal Family Systems, her work offers insight, frameworks, and tools to help people navigate their inner landscapes, heal emotional wounds, and find their way forward. As a loss mom, she brings a deep understanding of grief, resilience, and the courage it takes to rebuild— weaving her lived experience into everything she teaches and creates.
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“Loving Him Meant Letting Him Go” — Sue Balaz on Adoption, Reunion, and Becoming a Mother Again After Loss
25 Nov 2025
01:25:31
Sue shares the extraordinary and deeply human story of becoming a mother at just 17, and the impossible, selfless choice she was forced to make — to give her baby up for adoption. From the isolation of a maternity home in the 1980s to the moment she held her son again 18 years later, Sue reflects on the heartbreak of loving from afar, and the profound healing that reunion brought.
Her path to motherhood took many winding turns. After reconnecting with her firstborn, she experienced a miscarriage — a loss she didn’t have the opportunity to process until many years later, something so many women quietly carry. Eventually, Sue welcomed her rainbow baby, and found redemption and fullness in a chapter she had once feared she’d never reach.
In this conversation, Sue opens up about grief, forgiveness, adoption, reunion, miscarriage, and the love that asked her to let go… only to find its way back home.
We talk about: - Becoming pregnant at 17 and being sent to a maternity home - The emotional weight of giving her baby up for adoption - Writing letters to her son during pregnancy - Reuniting with him 18 years later - Meeting his adoptive mother and finding unexpected connection - Experiencing miscarriage years later and grieving it in hindsight - Welcoming her rainbow baby Nick - How her story shapes the way she now supports families through loss
Sue’s story is a powerful reminder that motherhood is not defined by proximity, timing, or circumstance — but by love, in every form it takes.
🕊 This one is for the mothers who’ve had to love from afar, and for the love that always finds its way home.
Get to Know Sue: Sue lives in Burlington, Ontario with her husband Joe and their two spoiled cats. She is the proud mother of two young adults, Nick and Hailey, who are both emerging artists in the film and musical theatre industries. Sue is a doula specializing in surrogacy births and pregnancy & infant loss, a certified Grief & Loss Coach, and a long-time facilitator of grief support groups. When she’s not supporting families or working as an Executive Assistant, she can be found long-distance cycling with Joe.
“You’re Not Doing It Wrong” — Rachael Shepard-Ohta on Postpartum Anxiety, Sleep, and Reclaiming Rest After Loss
11 Nov 2025
00:45:49
Rachael Shepard-Ohta, the founder of Hey Sleepy Baby, joins me for an honest and deeply validating conversation about postpartum anxiety, sleep after loss, and what it means to create safety — for both yourself and your baby — in those sleepless early months.
Rachael shares her own experience with postpartum anxiety, how it shaped the work she does now, and why so many mothers silently struggle with sleep. Together, we talk about the myths that make mothers feel like they’re “doing it wrong,” the pressure to sleep train, and how to tune out the noise and listen to your own instincts again.
We talk about: 🌙 The link between postpartum anxiety and sleep deprivation 🌙 Why mothers after loss often struggle with hypervigilance and safety fears 🌙 The science behind co-regulation and why closeness matters 🌙 Safe sleep setups — from bedside bassinets to the safe sleep 7 🌙 How to navigate online overwhelm and conflicting advice 🌙 The role of temperament in baby sleep (and why it’s not your fault) 🌙 Simple, realistic ways to reclaim rest and reduce nighttime anxiety 🌙 Letting go of guilt, bad-habit fears, and the myth that you’ll “spoil” your baby
This episode is a balm for every mother who has ever questioned if she’s doing it wrong. It’s a gentle reminder that there’s no one right way to sleep, to parent, or to heal — and that both you and your baby are wired for connection, not perfection. 🤍
Get to Know Rachael
Rachael Shepard-Ohta is an Infant-Parent Mental Health Specialist, Certified Sleep Consultant, and former Educator. She founded Hey Sleepy Baby in 2020 and hosts two podcasts — No One Told Us and You’re So Right. Rachael lives in San Francisco with her husband and their three young children.
“Grief Is Just the Other Side of Love” — Simona on Losing Her Son Saul, Healing, and Breaking Generational Silence
04 Nov 2025
01:04:40
Simona shares the story of her son, Saul, born still at 19 weeks, and the deep unraveling that followed. From the early days of IVF and endometriosis to the heartbreak of stillbirth and the silence that came after, she invites us into the complexity of love, loss, and lineage.
We talk about:
Navigating endometriosis and IVF before pregnancy
The day she learned Saul’s heart had stopped
Grieving far from family and finding support online
Discovering her mother’s own unspoken stillbirth
Breaking generational silence around grief
The power of embodiment, yoga, and breathwork in healing
Learning to mother herself and honor her inner landscape
The compassion she found — and the care she wished she’d received
The friendships that deepened and those that fell away
What it means to hold hope for her future rainbow baby
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that love, even in loss, continues to grow.
Saul, this one is for you 🕊
Get to Know Simona:
Simona lives in Berlin, Germany with her husband. Originally from Romania, she works as a user experience designer and is deeply devoted to her healing journey — attending an online Sangha (meditation community) and being an active member of the Healthy Grieving group for nearly two years.
When she isn’t tending to her adult responsibilities, you’ll find her wandering the streets of Berlin, practicing yoga, exploring somatics, or rating ramen restaurants and ice-cream shops across the city. She proudly holds a 2,758-day (and counting!) Duolingo streak in German and Portuguese — and humbly admits that English is not her first language.
Losing her baby boy, Saul, in the summer of 2023 opened a portal into the world of grief. Her path since has been tender and transformative, as she continues to hold hope for her rainbow baby. Through this experience, she’s learned not to hide her inner landscape, to honor her loss out loud, and to be steadfast in calling herself a mother — even when the world doesn’t always recognize it.
Simona is slowly becoming a student and advocate of grief, devoted to practicing this sacred, embodied way of healing.
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“We Think It Won’t Happen to Us” — Dr. Jessica Zucker on Loss, Shame, and the Movement to Normalize It
28 Oct 2025
00:48:37
Dr. Jessica Zucker joins Kristin for an honest, compassionate conversation about miscarriage, shame, and the lifelong work of normalizing women’s experiences.
Jessica opens up about her own second-trimester loss, what inspired her to write I Had a Miscarriage: A Memoir, A Movement, and how one New York Times essay became a viral campaign that changed the way we talk about reproductive loss. She also shares her journey through breast cancer, her latest book Normalize It, and the lessons she’s learned about grief, womanhood, and resilience along the way.
We talk about:
The story behind the I Had a Miscarriage movement and its impact worldwide
Why shame thrives in silence—and how storytelling helps it dissolve
The cultural discomfort around grief and why “at least” statements cause harm
How to truly show up for someone after loss (and what not to say)
Why pregnancy loss education should begin in sex ed
The ripple effect of sharing our stories and normalizing pain
The importance of acknowledging hidden griefs—from miscarriage to menopause
How Dr. Zucker continues her mission to support women after loss
This episode is a gentle invitation to move closer to the parts of our stories that hurt—and to discover how connection, compassion, and truth-telling can help us heal.
Get to Know Dr. Jessica Zucker Dr. Jessica Zucker is a Los Angeles–based psychologist specializing in reproductive and maternal mental health. She is the author of I Had a Miscarriage: A Memoir, a Movement and Normalize It: Upending the Silence, Stigma, and Shame That Shape Women’s Lives, and the creator of the viral #IHadaMiscarriage campaign. Her writing has appeared in The New York Times, The Washington Post, Vogue, and more.
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“Grief Doesn’t End at Birth” — Cathy Nguyen on Losing Sage, Secondary Losses, and the Journey of Mothering Again
21 Oct 2025
01:24:12
Cathy shares the sacred and devastating story of her daughter Sage, stillborn just days after a healthy ultrasound at 36 weeks. In this raw and powerful episode, she walks us through the shock of hearing “I’m sorry, there’s no heartbeat,” the 30-hour labor she endured, and the precious five days she and her husband spent with their daughter in the hospital. Cathy also opens up about her subsequent pregnancy with her son River—a complicated, fear-filled journey marked by early labor, infections, and the exhaustion of navigating pregnancy after loss.
Now, as a mother of both Sage and River and pregnant once more, Cathy reflects on resilience, legacy, and the daily balancing act of holding grief and joy side by side.
We talk about:
The innocence of first pregnancy and the devastation of stillbirth
Choosing induction, enduring a 30-hour labor, and advocating for an empowering birth even in loss
Spending five days with Sage, and the importance of acknowledgment and memory-making
The secondary losses of strained relationships and misguided support
The emptiness of leaving the hospital without her baby
Navigating TTC, delayed cycles, and the complexity of pregnancy after loss
River’s birth and the overwhelming relief of hearing his first cry
The coexistence of joy and grief in mothering both a living and non-living child
Honoring Sage’s legacy while raising River and preparing to welcome another baby
This episode is a deeply moving reminder that grief is never just one goodbye — motherhood after loss means holding the “should-have-beens” alongside the living present.
🕊️ Sage, this one is for you.
Get to Know Cathy:Cathy Nguyen is a podiatrist, yoga teacher, and mother to her daughter Sage and son River. Born and raised in Perth, Australia, Cathy shares her motherhood journey openly, weaving grief, resilience, and advocacy into her life and work.
🌈 The Haven – Pregnancy After Loss Support Program (use promo code RAINBOW to save $100)🕊 Mother Like No Other – Loss Community (use promo code MOTHER to get your first month for only $11)📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life
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“She’s Still With Me” — Emily Green on Spirit Babies, Loss, and Learning to Trust Again
14 Oct 2025
01:24:35
Emily Green, known to many as Emily the Medium, shares her profoundly moving story of becoming pregnant with her long-awaited daughter, the magical signs that led up to conception, and the heartbreaking miscarriage that followed. In this episode, Emily reflects on what it was like to experience loss as a spirit baby medium, how her daughter continues to communicate with her through dreams, signs, and synchronicities, and how we can all cultivate a deeper connection with our babies in spirit.
We talk about:
How Emily first discovered her gift of connecting with spirit babies
The magical dreams, dragonflies, and synchronicities that surrounded her pregnancy
Navigating the push and pull of uncertainty throughout her pregnancy
The heartbreaking day she learned her daughter had passed
Moving through grief as both a mother and a medium
The circular love between parents and their spirit babies
Practical ways to keep the “portal” open for signs and connection
Reframing intuition and learning discernment in grief
This episode is tender, spiritual, and a reminder that love transcends time and space— our babies are always with us.
🕊️ this is for you, baby girl.
Get to Know Emily:Emily Green, also known as Emily the Medium, is a spiritual teacher, intuitive guide, and author who has supported thousands of families in connecting with their spirit babies. Through her sessions, podcast, and book, she helps parents navigate loss, conception, and connection with the souls of their children.
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“It Wasn’t Supposed to End This Way” — Danielle Lampman’s Story of Rosie, Stillbirth, PTSD, and the Road to Mothering Again
07 Oct 2025
01:54:19
Danielle Lampman opens her heart and shares the devastating story of her daughter Rosie, born still at 37 weeks. In this tender and courageous episode, Danielle walks us through the night everything changed, the birth and goodbye that followed, the trauma and PTSD that rippled through her first year of grief, and the long road to welcoming her rainbow baby.
We talk about:
The night Danielle realized her baby girl had stopped moving
Giving birth to Rosie and choosing to let family and friends meet her
The beauty and heartbreak of including her daughters in saying goodbye
Navigating the early days of grief and postpartum without a baby in her arms
Living with trauma, panic attacks, and PTSD symptoms after stillbirth
Finding answers through pathology and the questions that remained
The journey of trying to conceive again and facing infertility after loss
Becoming pregnant with her rainbow baby, Poppy, and navigating a new kind of hope and fear
This episode is a tender reminder that even when life doesn’t go as it was “supposed to,” mothers carry an unshakable love and strength that endures.
Danielle is a psychiatric nurse practitioner, wife to Chris, and mother to five daughters: Lily, Holly, Rosie (forever loved), Poppy, and another little girl due soon. She lives in Durham, North Carolina, and is passionate about mental health, family, and honoring all of her babies.
Connect with Kristin:
📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca🌈 The Haven – Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/the-haven (use promo code: RAINBOW to save $100)🤍 Mother Like No Other – Support for Navigating Life After Loss: thedoulalife.ca/mother (use promo code: MOTHER for your first month for only $11)📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life
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“She’s the Reason for All of This” — Solo Episode with Kristin Mundy on Birthing and Losing Her Daughter Vienna
30 Sep 2025
01:31:00
In this deeply personal solo episode, Kristin shares the sacred and heart-shattering story of her daughter, Vienna Elisabeth. Recorded on the 4 year anniversary of publicly sharing Vienna’s stillbirth, Kristin finally tells her full story — from pregnancy, to the subtle warning signs that were overlooked, to the sacred and devastating moments of birth, and the grief and healing that followed.
We talk about:
Experiencing multiple pregnancy losses before Vienna
Weeks of bleeding, bedrest, and the hope of reaching milestones
The joy of preparing for a baby shower and dreaming of motherhood
The ignored warning signs in her third trimester that led to stillbirth
The powerful, sacred, and oxytocin-filled moments of birthing Vienna
Holding, naming, and spending 24 hours with her daughter
The heartbreak of leaving the hospital without her baby
Receiving a diagnosis of antiphospholipid syndrome as the likely cause
How Vienna’s life continues to inspire The Haven, her doula work, and her motherhood
This tender and transformative episode is a reminder that even in loss, birth can be sacred — and that our love for our babies never ends.
Vienna, this one is for you. This is all for you. 🕊
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"It Felt Dangerous to Hope" -- Siobhan Koch on Losing Her Daughter Talitha and the Journey to Her Rainbow Baby
16 Sep 2025
01:08:07
Siobhan Koch’s journey to motherhood spanned over a decade of infertility, foster parenting, adoption, and finally the miraculous unassisted pregnancy of her daughter, Talitha. In this sacred and heart-shattering episode, Siobhan shares the story of her waters breaking at 18 weeks, Talitha’s birth and brief life, and the trauma and beauty interwoven through her loss. She also opens up about becoming pregnant again by surprise, navigating the intense anxiety of pregnancy after loss, and how she and her family honour Talitha while raising her two brothers.
We talk about:
12 years of infertility and unexpected adoption of her son Paul
Becoming pregnant with Talitha after years of fertility treatments
Premature rupture of membranes at 18 weeks and the waiting game that followed
Talitha’s birth, the sacred hour she spent alive, and saying goodbye
Postpartum hemorrhage and trauma recovery
Navigating deep grief while parenting an older child
The surprise rainbow pregnancy with Silas and its intense anxiety
Learning to hope again and finding support through loss
Honouring Talitha daily and integrating her memory into family life
This episode is tender, raw, and full of hope— a reminder that grief and joy can coexist, and that every baby’s story matters. 🕊
Get to Know Siobhan:Siobhan Koch lives in Hamilton, Ontario, with her husband and two sons, Paul and Silas, while holding close the memory of their daughter Talitha. She is a former foster mom, adoption mama, and runs a charity building tiny homes for vulnerable communities.
“Oliver Will Get Them Here” — Sarah Herron on IVF, Loss, and the Journey to Mothering Twins
09 Sep 2025
01:06:53
Sarah Herron shares the deeply moving story of her son Oliver, conceived through IVF, and the heartbreaking moment she had to say goodbye. In this powerful conversation, Sarah walks us through the shock of infertility, the devastation of loss, and the sacred ways Oliver’s spirit continues to guide her. She also shares the emotional, high-risk journey of carrying twins after loss, their early arrival at 32 weeks, and what it means to step into motherhood with grief, gratitude, and resilience.We talk about:- Navigating infertility, IVF, and a diminished ovarian reserve diagnosis- The pregnancy and loss of her son, Oliver, at 25 weeks- Moving through postpartum grief, guilt, and spiritual searching- Choosing IVF again and discovering she was pregnant with twins- The anxiety and milestones of pregnancy after loss- Her daughters’ premature birth and NICU stay- The tension between grief and joy, and how Oliver remains present in her motherhood- Parenting twins while navigating physical disability and societal perceptions- The gifts, strength, and perspective loss brought to her life and marriageThis episode is a tender, vulnerable reminder that love and grief are forever intertwined— and that it can be a portal in becoming a more compassionate and loving human.
🕊 Oliver, this one is for you.Get to Know SarahInternationally recognized as “Sarah Herron from The Bachelor,” Sarah is more intimately known as an adventure enthusiast and IVF warrior. She has used the platform she gained from reality TV to build both virtual and real-life communities for women walking vulnerable spectrums of life—disability, infertility, pregnancy loss, grief, and now, motherhood to one-year-old twin girls.Sarah is the founder of the nonprofit SheLift, the virtual support group The Infertile Circle, and the hiking collective Tents Without Gents. Her work continues to inspire and uplift women navigating complex and courageous paths.🌐 Learn more at walkwithme.org📸 Instagram: @sarahherron
Connect with Kristin📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven🕊 Mother Like No Other -- TTC Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother📸 Instagram: @the.doula.lifeIf you enjoyed this episode of the podcast, please don’t forget to subscribe, rate and review—it helps get the show and these stories into the hands of the women who need them most. And share it with someone who could use this kind of support. Your support means so much.
“All I Wanted Was to Hold My Baby” — Amanda’s Story of Iona, Home Birth, and Pregnancy After Loss
02 Sep 2025
01:00:26
In this deeply moving episode, Amanda shares the sacred and heart-shattering story of her daughter, Iona. She takes us inside her beautiful home birth, the unimaginable loss that followed, and her journey through grief, healing, and now pregnancy after loss.
We talk about:
- The joy of being pregnant with Iona and choosing a home birth
- The beauty of her 25-hour labor and the shock of losing her daughter
- Facing judgment and misunderstanding after a home birth loss
- Navigating postpartum grief, isolation, and honoring Iona
- Rituals and ways Amanda connects with her daughter
- The hope, fear, and love of pregnancy after loss
This episode is a tender, courageous reminder that grief and love can coexist—and that our babies remain part of our families forever.
Iona, this one is for you 🕊
Get to Know Amanda:
Amanda lives in the mountains of Mendocino County, Northern California, with her husband Leonello and their two pups. Before her loss, she worked at a pottery studio and loved baking sourdough. Now, she and Leonello spend their days tending fruit trees, caring for their old homestead, and walking the creek that runs through the land where Amanda grew up. Since losing her daughter Iona, she has found comfort in nature—especially swimming in ponds, creeks, and lakes nearby. At nearly 32 weeks pregnant after loss, Amanda is taking time to slow down, be present, and honour this tender journey. Her wish for other loss mothers is that they know they are never alone, and that connection and community can be found.
📸 Instagram: @amandakatz
Connect with Kristin:
📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven – Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/the-haven – use promo code RAINBOW to save $100 on enrollment
🕊 Mother Like No Other community - thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life
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“The Best Possible Chance” — Danielle’s Story of Early Onset Preeclampsia, Loss, and a New Surrogacy Journey
26 Aug 2025
00:37:04
Danielle shares the sacred, heart-shattering, and hopeful story of her two children, Carter and Mackenzie, both lost to early-onset preeclampsia. In this deeply moving episode, she takes us through the shock of her first loss, the traumatic birth experience that followed, and the healing moments she found when holding her daughter, even for just a short time. Danielle also opens up about her decision to stop carrying pregnancies, her journey into surrogacy, and the beautiful ways she continues to honor both of her children.
We talk about:
Experiencing early-onset preeclampsia in both pregnancies
The day she couldn’t find her son’s heartbeat and knew something was wrong
Navigating a traumatic D&E and the grief of not seeing her son
The bittersweet gift of holding her daughter for an hour before she passed
How Mackenzie’s birth brought a measure of peace after Carter’s loss
The decision to pursue surrogacy and what that process has been like
Building a deep connection with their surrogate and feeling excitement about pregnancy again
The traditions they keep each year to honor Carter and Mackenzie
Why continuing to check in with loss parents months and years later matters so much
This episode is a tender, powerful reminder that grief and hope can live side by side—and that parenthood can take many different, beautiful forms.
🕊️ Carter and Mackenzie, this one is for you.
Get to Know Danielle:Danielle Kipp is a registered nurse, military spouse, and proud mom to two angel babies. Caring for pregnant women has long been one of her professional passions, but after walking through two high-risk pregnancies and losses of her own, it became a true labor of love. With a special place in her heart for the infant loss community, Danielle hopes her journey helps create space for connection and hope for those who need it most.
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“I Didn’t Think It Would Happen to Me” – A Stillbirth Story of Love, Pregnancy after Loss, and Honouring Keelan
19 Aug 2025
01:12:07
Lin Yuan opens her heart to share the story of her son Keelan, born still at 38 weeks, and the life-altering moments that came before and after his birth. She takes us into the day she realized he wasn’t moving, the surreal drive to the hospital, and the moment she saw his face — knowing instantly that he was both hers and gone.
Lin reflects on the early days of grief while parenting her toddler son, the quiet and everyday ways she continues to honor Keelan, and the complicated emotions of her pregnancy after loss with her daughter, Logan. She speaks candidly about navigating fear, reclaiming her birth preferences, and the power of calling her stillborn son into the birth space of her rainbow baby. Today, Lin carries Keelan’s legacy into her work as a doula, walking alongside other parents facing the unimaginable.
We talk about:
The sudden and heartbreaking loss of Keelan at 38 weeks
The moment of meeting her son and feeling both love and loss
Parenting a toddler while grieving a baby who isn’t coming home
The quiet, everyday ways of honoring a baby after stillbirth
The complexity of pregnancy after loss — holding hope and fear together
Advocating for birth preferences after loss
Welcoming her rainbow baby, Logan, and calling Keelan into that space
Turning grief into purpose through bereavement doula work
This episode is a tender, raw, and hope-filled reminder that grief and love can coexist — and that a baby’s legacy can live in the quietest moments.
🕊️ Keelan, this one is for you.
Get to Know Lin:Lin is a proud mom of three beautiful children and calls Brooklyn, NY home. In April 2023, she lost her middle baby, Keelan Paxton, at 38 weeks—a heartbreak that changed everything. In his honor, she founded A Little Peace, a doula practice in NYC dedicated to pregnancy after loss and bereavement care. Lin has found her life’s work in helping families who walk this path feel less alone. She finds joy in arranging Trader Joe's flowers, baking birthday cakes for her kids, and commiserating with fellow Brooklyn parents over a glass of wine (or three). You can connect with Lin at littlepeacedoula.com.
Connect with Lin:📸 Instagram: @linyuan15Little Peace Doula: @littlepeacedoula
Connect with Kristin:📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca🌈 The Haven - Pregnancy After Loss Support: thedoulalife.ca/the-haven — use code RAINBOW to save $100🕊 RECLAIM -- The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim -- use promo code: RECLAIM to save $100
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