The Modern Meeting – Details, episodes & analysis

I still have zero urge to gamble, but in the last few months I went from one meeting a week to four. And it's been awesome. This week I share not just what I've been learning in those rooms, but what I've been contributing — including a different way to look at ego in recovery, how to navigate the early days, and how one person's energy can completely change the course of a meeting. I also took a break mid-record to take a phone call from someone who slipped as they were closing in on a milestone. 

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On December 1st, 2012, his birthday, Edgar Jones' teammate took his own life and his girlfriend's life outside the Kansas City Chiefs facility. The team played the next day. Edgar played. And then he spent years trying to outrun everything he felt, with pills and alcohol, while performing at the highest level of professional football. In this conversation Edgar talks about survivor's guilt, substance abuse, what it took to finally get sober, and why he believes the most important thing any of us can do is find the right container to pour our fuel into. He also gets into the current state of mental health in professional sports, what's happening with young athletes and gambling, and why staying quiet is the worst thing we can do.

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I was supposed to release this episode on Friday. Instead, I didn't start recording until Sunday night. Four years into recovery, the "f**k it phase" is still very much a part of my life. The procrastination, the putting things off, the feeling that nothing bad is actually going to happen...it didn't disappear when I stopped gambling. It just found new places to live. This week, my higher power sent a message in the form of a pickleball injury that I hope gets me back on the right track. 

I also recap the Midwest trip, my complicated feelings about Episode 100's performance, why I'm done caring about likes and downloads, and why lived experience will always connect differently than a degree — no matter what anyone in the comment section thinks.

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The Patriots lose and Adam gets let go. Alex continues his job search. The guys sit down with former Division 1 athlete and opioid addict Nate. A once promising baseball career derailed by injuries and addiction, Nate found recovery and then never left. Plus, the guys disclose some of their darkest moments while gambling in "The Bottom Three."

Adam's story picks back up in NYC. The guys answer a listener question about managing finances in recovery. Charles joins and shares his incredible journey from the streets to sobriety. Alex goes back to Jersey and is grateful Football Sundays look a lot different these days. 

Adam pauses his story to introduce a friend. The guys compare their Seamless bills (and levels of gluttony) from living in 2013 NYC. Bryan joins and talks free bonus bets, relapse, and recovery. Adam's passionate 2x4 is cut short by a possible paranormal encounter. 

Adam is on the hunt for action in NYC. The guys discuss how they want to better themselves in 2025. Lynn talks about going from "Patty Spaz" to 20+ years away from a bet - and how her rock bottom was so bad, that prison felt like the only possible way out.  

Adam spends New Year's Eve 2017 in Las Vegas. Alex throws his last pitch and it was NOT a strike. Clips from the archives include wise words from Ken and a questionable 3rd round pick in the Thanksgiving Draft. Heavy Breathing and Wishes for 2025 closes out the year.   

Bankruptcy is declared and the repo-man comes for the RAV4. Alex goes to the casino and Adam goes back to Clinton. Jim realizes he was still "living dirty” after 35 years clean. Plus, a painful Christmas story that Alex has never told anyone before.

Adam goes back to college and Alex comes across a high school project. Adam has his 2x4 of Truth at a car dealership. Jen continues her epic story of continued recovery from gambling.