The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved – Details, episodes & analysis

You didn’t cheat because you’re a bad person.

You cheated because something in you was trying to survive.

Your chest tightens.

Your stomach drops.

The shame rushes in.

And you think: “Why did I do that?”

Most people miss this part: Cheating isn’t always a conscious choice.

It can be a nervous system response.

In this week’s episode of The Deeper Love Podcast, I break down:

✨ Why cheating can be a survival response, not a choice

✨ How you were already disconnected long before the affair

✨ What fawning, freezing, or running look like in love

✨ Why logic can’t heal you — but safety can

✨ How to stop the cycle in your body, not your head

This isn’t about excuses.

It’s about truth.

It’s about rebuilding without shame.

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We’re taught to see cheating as a simple equation: one person betrays, the other is betrayed. End of story. But the truth is never that clean.

In this episode, I share why an affair is never just about the moment it happened or the person it happened with. It’s about everything that came before - the silences, the unspoken needs, the glass walls that build up between two people - long before a boundary is crossed.

You’ll hear:

• Why loneliness inside a relationship is one of the deepest fractures of all

• How silence and swallowed needs slowly erode connection

• Why cheating is never about “suddenly making a bad choice”

• And how understanding this bigger picture can loosen the grip of shame

If you’ve ever felt like you were screaming silently inside your relationship - or carrying the unbearable weight of guilt after betraying someone you loved - this conversation will help you see what was really happening underneath.

This isn’t about excusing or blaming. It’s about understanding.Because when you can finally see the truth of what was there, you can stop carrying it alone.

✨ Join the Softening Sessions Every other week we gather on Zoom for 90 minutes of release, reflection, and return. This is where shame softens, guilt loosens, and your heart remembers what it feels like to be held. Click here to join.

In this episode:

In the very first episode of The Deeper Love podcast, Alex Croxford takes you on a raw, emotional journey through her personal story of heartbreak, inner transformation, and spiritual awakening. 

From the outside, Alex had what many would call a perfect life: successful career, marriage, and all the external markers of achievement. 

But beneath the surface, she was battling deep-seated wounds and patterns of self-abandonment. In this episode, Alex shares how heartbreak became her portal to freedom and how she discovered that true transformation begins with facing the deepest most shadowy parts of ourselves.

Highlights:

✨Alex’s personal journey from a "perfect" marriage to divorce to being in a new true love partnership.

✨How her struggle with infertility unraveled her life and led to a profound transformation.

✨The power of emotional release, spiritual healing, and reconnecting with feminine energy.

✨How betrayal and the collapse of her marriage became the turning point for radical self-healing.

✨The role of heartbreak and grief as catalysts for personal growth and awakening.

✨The importance of being held by other women and creating a support network during difficult times.

✨How she reconnected with her authentic self and attracted a deep, soul-aligned love.

✨How her experience with plant medicine helped her heal, open her heart, and find love again.

Key Takeaways:

1. Heartbreak as a Catalyst: Heartbreak is often the beginning of a spiritual awakening. It forces us to face ourselves, heal old wounds, and come home to our true essence.
2. Vulnerability is Power: True healing begins when we allow ourselves to be vulnerable, to feel the depth of our emotions, and to open up to support from others.
3. Spiritual Growth: Awakening to our true nature as spirit, opening our hearts and reclaiming our authentic selves, is the path to a deeper love.
4. Self-Love Before All Else: Before attracting true love, we must first heal the relationship with ourselves and face, heal and integrate past trauma and hidden wounds.

Stay tuned for more episodes in which we delve into the topic of Deeper Love!

Don’t forget to subscribe and leave us a review!

Apple Podcasts: 

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-deeper-love-podcast/id1770453444

Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/show/0ZHJGVpMHJgny8uoMKgjNP

About The Deeper Love Podcast:

Step into a realm of life-changing intimacy with The Deeper Love Podcast, where healing, love and the universe meet. Join host Alex Croxford as she guides you through the secrets of experiencing deep and healthy relationships, with experts in love, sexuality, personal development, and spirituality. Uncover how to use relationships as pathways to growth and expansion and learn the art of co-creating the passionate, magical and mystical relationship your heart desires. Let each conversation awaken your senses and deepen your connections, inviting you into a love beyond the ordinary.

Alex's Links:

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/iamalexcroxford/

How to Find The Love Of Your Life Masterclass: https://www.alexcroxford.com/how-to-find-the-love-of-your-life-masterclass/

Website: https://www.alexcroxford.com/

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If you are interested in 1:1 Coaching or Other Offerings, Book a No Obligation Discovery Call with me here: https://calendly.com/alexcroxford/discovery-call

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Most women think they know why they cheated.

“I wasn’t seen. I felt lonely. I felt unwanted. I was bored. He didn’t love me.”

And while those stories are true on the surface, they are not the root.

In this episode, I take you deeper. We’ll look at the why beneath the why - the patterns of silencing, perfection, and strength-at-all-costs that began long before the affair.

The truth is, the affair wasn’t the problem. It was the symptom.

You’ll hear:

• Why the real cause of betrayal starts years before the relationship rupture.

• How childhood survival strategies shaped the way you love.

• The hidden cost of being “the strong one” in your relationship.

• Why betrayal is a scream from the part of you that’s been left behind.

• How to stop asking “Why did I cheat?” and start asking “Where did I leave myself?”
  

If you’ve been drowning in shame or searching for answers, this episode will help you see your story in a new way, and begin to free yourself from carrying the wrong “why.”

You are not broken. You are at the threshold of truth.

✨ If this episode speaks to you and you want to explore these patterns in a safe, guided space, join me for the next Softening Session – a 90-minute healing circle for women navigating the shame and confusion after infidelity: alexcroxford.com/softening-sessions

📲 Instagram: @iamalexcroxford

🌐 Website: alexcroxford.com

What does it really take to rebuild after betrayal?In this episode, I’m joined by fellow love & relationship coach Jessica Hayes, who shares her raw and powerful story of discovering her partner’s infidelity and the journey they took to heal together.

We talk about:

• The moment she found out and how it shattered her world

• Why “just leave” isn’t the right answer for everyone

• The messy, non-linear process of rebuilding trust

• The deeper wounds and patterns betrayal can reveal, and how facing them can transform a relationship
  

If you’ve been cheated on and you’re wondering if healing is possible - or you’re navigating the complicated emotions of staying - Jessica’s story will give you both hope and clarity.

🔗 Join my next Softening Session – a 90-minute healing circle for women navigating the shame and confusion after infidelity: alexcroxford.com/softening-sessions

📲 Instagram: @iamalexcroxford

🌐 Website: alexcroxford.com

Jessica Hayes — Instagram: @jessicahayescoaching | Website: https://www.jessicahayes.com/

When a betrayal hits the headlines, like the recent Coldplay cheating scandal, the internet rushes to judge.The memes, the moral high ground, the smug commentary. But what’s really going on beneath the noise?

In this episode, I sit down with fellow love & relationship coach Jessica Hayes and Therapeutic Coach Lucy Maeve to talk about what’s missing from the public conversation around infidelity. We explore:

• Why betrayal is rarely just about lust or opportunity

• How childhood wounds, disconnection, and unspoken needs can quietly lead us he

• The shame spiral women enter after cheating, and why judgement only keeps them stuck

• What real healing looks like for both the betrayer and the betrayed
  

If you’ve ever cheated, been cheated on, or found yourself caught in the grey space between, this conversation will help you see beyond the headlines and into the deeper truth about betrayal, love, and repair.

🔗 Join my next Softening Session – a 90-minute healing circle for women navigating the shame and confusion after infidelity: alexcroxford.com/softening-sessions

📲 Instagram: @iamalexcroxford

🌐 Website: alexcroxford.com

Jessica Hayes — Instagram: @jessicahayescoaching | Website: https://www.jessicahayes.com/

Lucy Maeve — Instagram: @lucy__maeve | Website: https://lucymaeve133.lpages.co/offerings/

I never thought I’d be the kind of woman who cheated on her husband, and I’m guessing neither did you.

In this episode, I share my story through the lens of a woman who’s had an affair and broken her own heart in the process. Not the surface version, but the truth beneath it: the silence, disconnection, perfectionism, and old wounds that led me there - long before the infidelity happened.

If you’ve ever thought “I’ve had an affair and now I feel broken” or “I don’t know if I’ll ever trust myself again”, you’ll discover why this moment can be a wake-up call, not the end of your story, and how it can be the starting point for deep, lasting healing after infidelity.

🔗 Join my next Softening Session – a 90-minute healing circle for women navigating the shame and confusion after infidelity: alexcroxford.com/softening-sessions

📲 Instagram: @iamalexcroxford

🌐 Website: alexcroxford.com

In this episode:

Alex Croxford sits down with Nastassia Marie, a trauma-informed educator and practitioner specializing in narcissistic abuse recovery. Nastassia’s journey of healing from a history of challenging relationships and family trauma fuels her powerful work, as she brings compassion, humor, and depth to complex subjects. Together, they explore the importance of recognizing inherited trauma, understanding narcissistic abuse, and how self-awareness can lead to a safe, fulfilling love.

This episode is a profound discussion on breaking free from destructive patterns, rebuilding self-worth, and how trauma-informed healing offers a pathway to self-discovery and genuine connection.

Highlights:

✨ Nastassia shares her journey of healing from her traumatic past, including growing up around violence and eventually facing similar dynamics in her own relationships. She discusses the critical turning points that led her to trauma-informed work.

✨ The conversation dives deep into the cycle of abuse, with Nastassia highlighting the unconscious tendency to recreate familiar relationship dynamics rooted in early experiences.

✨ Alex and Nastassia discuss narcissistic abuse, what it truly means, and how understanding it can liberate individuals from toxic patterns and behaviors.

✨ Nastassia offers insights into the power of generational healing, shedding light on how we carry ancestral trauma and the importance of addressing it to live freely and intentionally.

✨ A touching moment reveals how Nastassia, holding her daughter, made a life-changing decision to break free from her past and pave the way for a new, empowered legacy.

Key Takeaways:

• Trauma Awareness is Empowering: Healing involves recognizing and honoring the traumas that shape us, often inherited across generations.
• Safety in Love: Safe, healthy relationships are possible when we confront past traumas and free ourselves from the bonds of familiarity that keep us tied to harmful dynamics.
• Narcissistic Abuse Defined: Understanding narcissistic abuse goes beyond the label; it's about recognizing manipulation, control, and inconsistency within relationships and learning to break free.
• The Journey from Self-Blame to Self-Compassion: Nastassia’s story emphasizes the importance of self-compassion over shame, reminding us that healing is a journey that requires gentleness.
• Healing Generational Trauma: We carry not only our own pain but often that of our ancestors. Breaking these cycles frees not only us but future generations.

Stay tuned for more episodes of The Deeper Love Podcast where we dive into the heart of relationships and personal growth. Don’t forget to subscribe and leave us a review!

Alex's Links:

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/iamalexcroxford/

How to Find The Love Of Your Life Masterclass: https://www.alexcroxford.com/how-to-find-the-love-of-your-life-masterclass/

Website: https://www.alexcroxford.com/

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If you are interested in 1:1 Coaching or Other Offerings, Book a No Obligation Discovery Call with me here: https://calendly.com/alexcroxford/discovery-call -------

About Nastassia Marie:

Nastassia Marie is a Narcissistic Abuse & Trauma Informed Educator & Practitioner. Her work is the Embodiment of her own healing and self discovery journey, as she brings authenticity, love and humor into deeply sacred topics that lead to beautiful lifelong transformations.

Nastassia’s Links:

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/theartofintuition/

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Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/0ZHJGVpMHJgny8uoMKgjNP

Tune in next time to continue your journey to deeper love and transformation!

In this episode:

Alex Croxford hosts Cody Mathieson Packer, a men’s transformation guide, to discuss the complex dynamics between men and women in relationships. Cody shares his personal journey of overcoming challenges, including a tumultuous marriage and career setbacks, to rediscover himself and step into his role as a guide for men. 

Together, they explore how men can confront deep-seated fears, rewrite their pasts, and show up authentically in relationships. This conversation brings to light the importance of self-responsibility, healing old wounds, and cultivating healthy connections.

Highlights:

✨ Cody recounts his journey of self-discovery after his divorce and job loss, and how he transformed his life from victimhood to self-empowerment.

✨ They explore the dangers of emotional caretaking and the importance of men stepping into their authority.

✨ Cody shares powerful insights on unlearning harmful relationship patterns and embracing radical self-responsibility.

✨ Alex and Cody discuss the mistrust of masculinity and how both men and women can heal to create more fulfilling relationships.

✨ A touching story illustrates the power of presence and trust in healing traumatic experiences.

Key Takeaways:

• Self-Responsibility is Crucial: Lasting change comes when individuals take radical self-responsibility for their emotions, experiences, and healing.
• The Importance of Inner Work: Both men and women need to explore their wounds and patterns to build trust and meaningful relationships.
• Do You Want to Be Right or Free?: Questioning whether you want to be “right” about your relationship beliefs or truly free from limiting narratives can be transformative.
• Real Love Requires Surrender: True intimacy involves letting go of control and allowing relationships to unfold organically, without the pressure of outcomes.
• Healing is Possible: Cody’s story of providing safety and presence to a trauma survivor demonstrates the profound impact of healing and self-compassion.

Stay tuned for more episodes of The Deeper Love Podcast where we dive into the heart of relationships and personal growth.

Don’t forget to subscribe and leave us a review!

Apple Podcasts: 

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-deeper-love-podcast/id1770453444

Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/show/0ZHJGVpMHJgny8uoMKgjNP 

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Alex's Links:

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/iamalexcroxford/

How to Find The Love Of Your Life Masterclass: https://www.alexcroxford.com/how-to-find-the-love-of-your-life-masterclass/

Website: https://www.alexcroxford.com/

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If you are interested in 1:1 Coaching or Other Offerings, Book a No Obligation Discovery Call with me here: https://calendly.com/alexcroxford/discovery-call

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About Cody Mathieson Packer:

Cody Mathieson Packer has been guiding men to unlearn their pasts and alchemize their pain and heartbreak into power for the last few years so it is possible for them to write a new future. 

He walked this path on his own after losing his job and going through a divorce 5 years ago that completely changed the trajectory of his life. 

He is fiercely and lovingly committed to inspiring the new generation of men to end their wars within, lead their lives from a place of wholeness and be the director of the life they actually want to create (all while having fun and enjoying the richness of life of course).

Cody's Links:

Instagram: @codymathiesonpacker

Group Program, Rewrite Your Future: A 12-week course for men to unlearn past conditioning and create a new reality. Starting in October, more details on Cody’s Instagram.

Don’t forget to subscribe and leave us a review!

Apple Podcasts:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/001-my-story-with-alex-croxford/id1770453444?i=1000670626774

Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/episode/37qsRH4atuyVi04f8a1pIS?si=DzAUPZd1SKe0x08Ybg006w

Tune in next time to continue your journey to deeper love and transformation!

In this episode:

In this episode, Alex Croxford interviews Persia Lawson, a top UK dating and relationship coach, to explore the journey of inner healing, and personal transformation in pursuit of meaningful romantic relationships. They dive into Persia’s personal evolution from her own tumultuous love life to coaching high-achieving women to find fulfilling relationships by working on themselves first.

Highlights:

✨Persia shares her personal story of overcoming chaotic relationships and magnetising her husband of 8 years 

✨The secret she used to shift her external world and change her romantic life

✨We discuss how perfectionism impacts romantic relationships.

✨The importance of self-responsibility, self-respect and boundaries in dating.

✨Persia introduces the "Four Missing Pieces of the Courtship Puzzle" 

✨We talk about the importance of becoming the partner you want to attract by cultivating a deep relationship with yourself.

Key Takeaways:

1. Self-awareness is the key to lasting love: You cannot expect someone to love you if you do not deeply love and respect yourself. The most important piece of the puzzle is working on your relationship with yourself first.
2. The Four Missing Pieces of the Courtship Puzzle: Magnetic energy, discernment, communication, and surrender are crucial to forming healthy, lasting relationships.
3. Prioritise self-respect: True confidence comes from respecting yourself, your sacred body and not playing games.
4. True power couples are about more than optics: Real power couples focus on collaboration, communication, and service, creating positive ripples not just in their lives but in the world around them.
5. Let go of control in relationships:  The importance of surrendering the need to control outcomes in relationships and trusting the process.

Stay tuned for more episodes in which we delve into the topic of Deeper Love!

Don’t forget to subscribe and leave us a review!

Alex's Links:

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/iamalexcroxford/

How to Find The Love Of Your Life Masterclass: https://www.alexcroxford.com/how-to-find-the-love-of-your-life-masterclass/

Website: https://www.alexcroxford.com/

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If you are interested in 1:1 Coaching or Other Offerings, Book a No Obligation Discovery Call with me here: https://calendly.com/alexcroxford/discovery-call

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About Persia:

Persia Lawson is a dating & relationship coach, 3x author & speaker. She specialises in getting female leaders healthy, exciting, meaningful relationships that are a force for good, not drama.

Persia was honoured to be called “one of the UK’s most successful love coaches” by The Times and an “irreverent British guru” by Marie Claire magazine. Her work is regularly featured in Vogue, Cosmopolitan and the BBC.

Her flagship mentorship programme, Love For Leaders, typically gets clients remarkable relationships within 6-12 months.

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/PersiaLawsonLoveCoach/ 

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/persialawson/ 

Linkedin: https://uk.linkedin.com/in/persia-lawson-02aa92211 

Love For Leaders Scorecard (which shows you how far away you are from your ideal relationship): https://persia-lawson.scoreapp.com/  & Love Is Coming Podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/love-is-coming/id1533608902 

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