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In this deeply honest episode of Subconsciously, Shea opens up about the bittersweet journey of outgrowing people, places, and even past versions of yourself. From friendships that no longer feel like home to seasons of change that stretch your faith and identity, Shea reflects on what it means to evolve.. even when it hurts.

She dives into the beauty of becoming, the sacredness of growth, and the peace that comes with choosing alignment over familiarity. Whether you’re grieving someone still alive or learning to embrace a new chapter, this episode will remind you that outgrowing doesn’t mean you’ve become better... it means you’ve become different, and that difference deserves space to breathe.

✨ Topics:

• The grief of outgrowing people
• Finding peace in change
• Faith and purpose in new seasons
• Learning to release and realign

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In this episode of Subconsciously, Shea lets her mind do exactly what it does best... wander. There’s no script, no plan, just the kind of honest, scattered stream of consciousness that feels like catching up with an old friend.

What starts with a rant about car traffic quickly spirals into talk about her current monthly favorites, random news stories that caught her attention, and an inevitable detour into corny dad jokes that make you groan and laugh at the same time. Somewhere in the mix, Halloween makes its entrance and her thoughts about Halloween and how she used to feel about it versus being a Christian and viewing Halloween. 

It’s an episode that doesn’t follow a map but somehow finds its way — a comforting reminder that not every conversation has to be deep, structured, or tied up neatly with a bow. Sometimes, the beauty of being human is just thinking out loud.

So if your own mind has been running in circles lately, grab a drink, sit back, and join Shea on this unpredictable little journey of thoughts, tangents, and everything in between.

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After nearly a year away from the mic, Shea returns to Subconsciously with one of her most honest and reflective episodes yet. “You Waited Too Long” explores what it feels like to believe you’ve missed your chance—to think you’re behind in life, that the opportunities you once dreamed of have already passed, or that everyone else is moving forward while you’re still standing still.

In this deeply personal conversation, Shea opens up about her own journey through self-doubt, comparison, and creative burnout. She revisits the part of her story where music once defined her purpose, and how stepping away from it made her question her identity. But through faith, healing, and a quiet rediscovery of passion, she learns that waiting isn’t wasted time—it’s preparation.

This episode touches on the quiet moments we don’t talk about enough: the feeling of being stuck, the fear of starting over, and the courage it takes to finally move when you’ve been standing still for too long. Shea reflects on performing again for the first time in three years, confronting imposter syndrome head-on, and realizing that growth often happens in the background while we’re still doubting ourselves.

In this episode, Shea shares:

• How to recognize when you’re keeping yourself “stuck” out of fear or comfort
• Why waiting doesn’t mean failure—it means you’re still becoming
• The importance of opening up to others and shifting perspective
• How to create new opportunities when it feels like you’ve missed your chance
• A personal story of returning to the stage after years of silence

If you’ve ever felt late to your own life, this episode is your reminder that there is no missed timing—only divine timing. You’re not behind. You’re right on schedule.

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Have you ever wondered what would happen if you stopped trying to change yourself and instead asked God to choose the perfect timing? After an emotional breakdown in my previous episode, I disappeared from podcasting while secretly battling a spiritual crisis that was pulling me back toward old destructive habits.

In this raw, vulnerable conversation, I share how one month away from my faith showed me what "hell" truly feels like—not flames, but the emptiness of living without divine connection. The testimony unfolds with a moment that can only be described as supernatural: a fellow believer receiving a vision during prayer that perfectly mirrored words I'd spoken in my previous episode, proving God had been listening even when I wasn't speaking to Him.

The centerpiece of this spiritual journey involves my eight-year smoking addiction and the surprising approach that finally worked. Instead of making promises I couldn't keep, I surrendered control entirely: "God, YOU tell me when I'll quit smoking because I'm tired of breaking promises." His answer—"end of February"—manifested in perfect timing when my vape died on Valentine's Day, the first day of vacation when I could manage withdrawal symptoms without work pressures.

This isn't just a story about quitting a bad habit; it's about discovering how joy becomes a choice regardless of circumstances, how God prepares ways before we even ask, and why authentic faith exists beyond the failures of religious communities. For anyone who's felt like they've wandered too far to return, this testimony offers hope that the way back is already being prepared.

Whether you're a devoted believer, someone curious about spirituality, or even someone who has been hurt by religion, this deeply personal conversation explores how finding purpose sometimes requires losing your way first—and how divine timing works even when we've given up on ourselves.

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Is it possible to uncover hidden gems within ourselves, much like the rice balls with hidden plums in "Fruits Basket"? Join me, Shea, as I reflect on the profound impact Jazzi's recent podcast takeover had on reigniting my love for anime and the healing journey of re-watching a beloved series. Through these episodes, I dive into the life lessons and emotional depths that "Fruits Basket" offers, particularly through the lens of characters like Kyo, whose honesty and introspection continue to resonate with me. This journey has reconnected me with my inner child, reminding me of the unseen personal qualities that deserve recognition and appreciation.

This episode isn't just about anime; it's a heartfelt discussion on battling mental health challenges and the search for personal purpose. I open up about the emotional exhaustion and numbness that cloud my perception of self-worth, sharing candid moments of vulnerability. Through a poignant conversation with a friend, I confront the harsh realities of feeling like a robot, questioning my progress, and yearning to rediscover the optimistic person I once was. The inner turmoil of comparing oneself to others becomes a focal point, shining a light on the complexities of self-acceptance and the fear of lacking inherent value.

Community and connection lie at the heart of this podcast, and your feedback is essential in nurturing this space. I invite you to engage through Instagram DMs and share your thoughts, as your support fuels the growth of Subconsciously. Together, we can create a supportive community where authenticity thrives. Stay tuned as my subconscious thoughts continue to lead us on a path of self-discovery and connection, with a promise to remain open and genuine in sharing this journey with you.

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Ever wondered what it's like to revisit the hobbies you loved as a child? Join special guest host, Jazzi, as she shares her playful and candid reflections on embracing life's transitions and reconnecting with our inner selves. From mental health and evolving friendships to the intricate dance of forming connections, we'll explore the beauty of returning to past hobbies and finding solace in the familiar. Try not to laugh too loudly as we keep the volume low to avoid waking Shea's family, and enjoy the new sound effects that humorously censor those unscripted moments.

Is disconnecting from social media truly liberating, or just an invitation for awkward social gatherings? Let's reflect on the surprising relief of a notification-free existence and the social quirks that happen when you're the only one not glued to a screen. She'll share her odd fear of monkeys and a chilling sleep paralysis episode involving a shadowy figure. Dive with Jazzi into the world of smartphones, the dual nature of technology, and its impact on our interactions and personal fears.

Come along as we explore how art and literature reshape our understanding of intimacy. We'll celebrate the profound nature of non-romantic connections in manga like "Chainsaw Man" and "Fruits Basket," where deep friendships challenge conventional expectations of romance. Reflect on the intimate yet non-sexual scenes, and how stories like these profoundly impact our perception of relationships. Plus, don't miss out on a heartfelt invitation to connect with Shea on Instagram, where she promises more subconscious musings and conversations that resonate long after the episode ends.

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In today’s episode, Shea takes us into an intimate 3 a.m. conversation about the complexities of trio friendships—those unique relationships involving three people. She reflects on her own experiences within trio friendships, diving deep into the dynamics, the challenges, and the moments that have shaped her perspective. Shea opens up about whether trio friendships can truly last and what makes them different from other types of relationships, unlocking powerful memories and truths along the way.

With vulnerability and honesty, Shea shares the lessons she’s learned from both the joys and the struggles of navigating these friendships. She invites listeners to explore their own experiences with trio dynamics and encourages them to reflect on how these relationships have impacted their lives. Open your heart and mind to fresh insights and new realizations about yourself, friendships, and the delicate balance of being part of a trio.

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In today’s empowering episode, Shea explores the rewarding and often underestimated journey of doing things and living life on your own terms. She opens up about the lessons she's learned through her personal experiences of embracing solo adventures, from traveling alone to making independent decisions. With a passionate and uplifting approach, Shea shares how stepping outside of your comfort zone and trusting yourself can lead to incredible growth, confidence, and freedom.

Throughout the episode, Shea encourages listeners to recognize the strength that comes from doing things by yourself, and she offers heartfelt advice on how to take that first step toward independence, no matter where you are in life. Whether you're someone who enjoys your own company or someone who needs a little push to start doing things solo, this episode is a powerful reminder that you are more capable than you realize.

So grab your headphones, listen alone, or share this with someone who might need that extra nudge to embrace their independence—you’ve got this!

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In today’s episode, Shea takes a raw and honest dive into her personal journey of self-acceptance—exploring both the struggles and breakthroughs along the way. She opens up about her challenges with truly accepting herself, especially in moments when life doesn’t feel "perfect" or when things aren't going as planned. Shea reflects on the contrast between the idealized notion of self-acceptance—where everything feels aligned—and the more complex, everyday reality of learning to embrace yourself through both the highs and lows.

She delves into the difficult yet powerful realizations she’s had about how true self-acceptance isn't about loving yourself only when things are going well, but about cultivating compassion and grace during life’s toughest moments. This episode invites you to expand your perspective and embrace the messy, imperfect road to self-acceptance, offering deep insights that will challenge the way you approach your own journey. Open your mind and heart as Shea uncovers the truth about accepting yourself, flaws and all.

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Shea kicks off 2025 by welcoming Subconsciously into the new year with a thought-provoking discussion about New Year’s resolutions and the deeper realities of goal-setting and personal transformation. In this episode, Shea takes a candid look at the pressure to change every January and explores what it really takes to set meaningful, sustainable goals. She dives into the complexities of self-improvement—challenging the notion of “new year, new me” and reflecting on the importance of growth that goes beyond surface-level resolutions.

Through her own experiences and insights, Shea uncovers the truth behind the struggle to change, offering listeners practical advice on how to approach goal-setting with intention and self-compassion. Whether you’re rethinking your resolutions or feeling stuck in the cycle of unrealized goals, this episode is all about embracing the journey of growth, no matter how imperfect or messy it may be.

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After a much-needed break, Shea is back and ready to dive into some thought-provoking—and occasionally silly—topics that have been on her mind. In this episode, she shares the personal revelations and insights she's had over the past two months, including an exploration of the classic battle between JOMO (Joy of Missing Out) and FOMO (Fear of Missing Out), and what it really means to embrace comfort versus pushing yourself to grow.

Shea also reflects on how to take the next big step in life, whether it’s in relationships, career, or personal growth, and opens up about the messy yet transformative journey of moving on from breakups. To keep things light and fun, she wraps it all up with her monthly favorites and a cake analogy (yup, you read that right!).

Join Shea for a mix of deep dives and lighthearted musings as she unpacks the thoughts that have been quietly simmering in her subconscious. It’s an episode filled with real talk, self-discovery, and a dash of humor—perfect for anyone looking to reflect on their own journey, or just enjoy a good, cake-filled metaphor.

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In this exciting episode, Shea welcomes back her best friend of 12 years, Marzia, for a deep dive into the world of the music industry from the perspective of a small, emerging artist. Shea conducts a candid interview with Marzia, exploring her humble beginnings and the inspiring journey that led her to pursue music professionally. They discuss the influences and experiences that have shaped Marzia’s sound, as well as the education and skills she’s cultivated along the way to navigate the challenges of the industry.

But that’s not all—Marzia also drops an exclusive, very special announcement that you won’t want to miss! Plus, she shares valuable advice for aspiring artists who are looking to break into the music world, offering insights into everything from the grind of the industry to staying true to your creative vision. With their unique, unfiltered conversations and plenty of behind-the-scenes moments, this episode is a must-listen for anyone interested in the realities of making it as an artist in the ever-evolving music scene.

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In this raw and introspective episode, Shea opens up about the challenging situations that have tested her over the past two weeks. She reflects on the emotional rollercoaster she’s experienced, sharing the moments that really put her through the wringer. But it’s not all about the struggle—Shea also dives into the valuable perspectives and lessons she's gained while navigating through the thick of it. From finding strength in vulnerability to learning how to embrace discomfort, Shea offers listeners a glimpse into her personal growth journey during tough times. This episode is a candid exploration of resilience, self-reflection, and how even the hardest situations can lead to powerful insights and new ways of thinking.

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In this heartfelt episode, Shea introduces one of her best friends of 12 years, Marzia, for an open and meaningful conversation. Together, they take listeners on a journey through their long-lasting friendship, sharing the story of how they first met and the bond they've built over more than a decade. The two dive into the cultural differences they’ve experienced growing up in diverse environments and how those differences have shaped their identities. They also discuss the challenges of facing judgment, both from others and themselves, and the ways they've learned to navigate those moments with strength and resilience. With raw honesty and deep insights, Shea and Marzia explore how they move forward in difficult situations, offering practical advice and emotional wisdom for anyone facing challenges in their own relationships or life journey. This episode is a celebration of friendship, personal growth, and the power of embracing both similarities and differences.

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In this uplifting episode, Shea explores the art of romanticizing life and how she’s consciously choosing to find beauty in the everyday moments. She shares her personal journey of seeking silver linings, highlighting the hidden blessings that often go unnoticed or are easily dismissed. From small daily joys to unexpected moments of gratitude, Shea dives into the ways she's reframed her mindset to embrace life's challenges with optimism and wonder. With candid reflections and thoughtful insights, she encourages listeners to slow down, appreciate the small things, and see life through a lens of appreciation and positivity. This episode is a celebration of the little things that make life extraordinary, even in its simplest moments.

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In this special episode, Shea welcomes her first-ever guest to the podcast—her best friend of 11 years, Jazzi! Together, they take listeners on a trip down memory lane, sharing the story of how their friendship began and the powerful bond they've built over more than a decade. But their conversation goes deeper as they dive into their shared experiences of being mixed. Shea and Jazzi open up about the unique challenges and joys of growing up with diverse cultural backgrounds, discussing how their identities have shaped their lives, perspectives, and their friendship. With laughter, vulnerability, and heartfelt moments, this episode is a beautiful exploration of friendship, identity, and the shared journey of navigating the world as mixed individuals.

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In this introspective episode, Shea opens up about the thoughts and realizations that have been swirling in her mind over the past two weeks as she steps into her 22nd year. She reflects on the shifts in her perspective, the personal growth she’s experienced, and the key lessons she’s learned so far. From navigating new challenges to confronting old patterns, Shea shares the moments of clarity that have helped her evolve as a person. With vulnerability and authenticity, she dives into how being 22 is shaping her understanding of life, relationships, and herself. This episode is a raw and relatable look at the evolving journey of self-discovery, offering listeners a glimpse into Shea’s evolving mindset as she embraces the next chapter of her life.

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In this reflective episode, Shea looks back on the transformative year of being 21, sharing the lessons, challenges, and triumphs that shaped her journey. She opens up about the highs and lows she experienced, offering a raw and honest perspective on what it’s really like navigating your twenties. From personal growth to unexpected struggles, Shea dives into the moments that taught her the most—both the empowering and the difficult—and how they’ve prepared her for the next chapter as she celebrates turning 22.

With vulnerability and introspection, Shea reflects on the milestones and setbacks that marked her 21st year, sharing the wisdom she’s gained along the way. Whether it’s navigating relationships, self-discovery, or career aspirations, this episode is a candid celebration of the lessons learned in one of the most pivotal years of life.

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In this episode, Shea takes us on a deeply personal journey through the ups and downs of building her music career. She opens up about the challenges she faced when her career didn’t go according to plan and how the unexpected twists and turns reshaped her path. Reflecting on her experience, Shea offers an honest analysis of the emotional and professional hurdles she encountered along the way, sharing insights into the realities of pursuing a dream in the competitive world of music.

But it doesn’t stop there—Shea also gives listeners a rare behind-the-scenes look at some of her unreleased music, offering a glimpse into her creative process. She reveals one of the songs she wrote, diving into the inspiration behind it and what it means to her. This episode is a raw, reflective exploration of resilience, creativity, and the unpredictable nature of following a passion.

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In this candid episode, Shea opens up about her personal experience with burnout—what led to it, how it affected her, and the long road to recovery. She dives deep into the physical, emotional, and mental toll burnout took on her, sharing the raw and real struggles she faced along the way. Shea reflects on the moments that triggered her burnout, the warning signs she missed, and the turning point that made her realize she needed to make a change.

She also offers valuable insights on how she took steps toward healing, sharing the strategies and mindset shifts that helped her recover. With a mix of vulnerability and practical advice, Shea encourages listeners to recognize the signs of burnout in their own lives and to take proactive steps toward self-care and balance before it’s too late. Whether you're currently dealing with burnout or simply want to better understand it, this episode is a powerful and personal conversation you won’t want to miss.

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In this eye-opening episode, Shea tackles the all-too-common issue of burnout—what it is, how it develops, and the lasting effects it can have on both our mental and physical health. Drawing from her research, Shea unpacks the history of burnout, exploring where the term originated and how it’s evolved in our fast-paced, high-pressure world. She breaks down the stages of burnout, highlighting the subtle signs to watch for before it takes a toll on your well-being.

But it’s not all doom and gloom! Shea also shares practical tips and strategies for recovering from burnout, offering listeners actionable advice on how to reset, recharge, and find balance again. Whether you’re currently feeling the weight of burnout or want to learn how to prevent it in the future, this episode is packed with valuable insights to help you regain your energy and restore your sense of self.

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In this heartfelt episode, Shea explores the complex and deeply personal topic of grieving the loss of a loved one. She dives into the science and psychology behind grief, explaining what it is, where the concept originated, and breaking down the widely known five stages of grief. Through her research, Shea offers insight into the different ways people process loss, from denial to acceptance, and discusses how grief manifests in unique and individual ways.

Shea also opens up about her own experience with loss, reflecting on the first time she faced the heartache of losing someone close to her. She shares her personal journey through grief, the challenges she faced, and the lessons she learned along the way. This episode is a compassionate and informative look at the grieving process, offering comfort and support for anyone navigating their own experience of loss.

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In this episode, Shea opens up about her experience of being the “thicker” person within friendships. She dives into the unique challenges and perspectives that come with being the thicker friend, exploring how body image and societal expectations can shape personal connections. Shea shares candid stories from her own life, reflecting on how her size has influenced her self-esteem, the way she's perceived by others, and the dynamics within her relationships. Through her vulnerability, Shea encourages listeners to embrace their bodies, challenge stereotypes, and cultivate more authentic, body-positive connections with others.

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In this insightful episode, Shea dives deep into the complex and often uncomfortable question: What’s scarier—being alone or settling for the wrong person? She unpacks both sides of this emotional dilemma, examining the fear of loneliness versus the risks of staying in an unhealthy relationship. Drawing from her personal experiences, Shea reflects on the highs and lows of each situation, offering candid insights and practical wisdom on how to navigate these tough choices. Whether you’re currently single or in a relationship, this episode will make you think twice about the true cost of either decision—and help you find clarity in your own journey toward happiness and fulfillment.

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In this episode, Shea introduces the podcast! 

She dives into who she is, what this podcast is about and why she's here as the host!