Explore every episode of the podcast recovered-ish with chloe cox
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| what my eating disorder cost me — and it wasn't my health | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 37 | 16 Sep 2026 | 00:49:05 | |
Episode Description We talk about eating disorders in labs and vitals and weight. But when I look back at mine, the physical stuff was never the thing that woke me up. What actually got me was everything else it took — the dinners I sat through without being there, the party I ran away from, the year in New York where I never once let myself have a bagel, the photo of my nana and my sisters that I'm not in. In this episode I walk through those moments honestly. And then I tell you what each one looks like now, twelve years later. Because I got all of it back. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro + the free class and RST launch Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: what eating disorders cost you, eating disorder recovery, life after eating disorder, missing out eating disorder, recovery motivation, eating disorder and family, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me:
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| stop trying to love your body. get angry instead. | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 36 | 09 Sep 2026 | 00:37:46 | |
Episode Description Almost twelve years into recovery and body image is still hard for me sometimes. Pregnancy has made it harder. In this episode I'm getting honest about where I actually am with it — and why "just be grateful for your body" has never been the thing that helps. I walk through a session of my own EMDR therapy, tracing my body image back to a memory from when I was about seven, and what came up that finally shifted something. Spoiler: it wasn't self-love. It was anger — pointed at the right thing. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro + the September 15th class 2:30 Today's topic — body image 4:00 Why body image is the last piece to go 6:00 What body dysmorphia actually feels like 9:00 Why "just be grateful" falls flat 13:00 Holding gratitude and distress at once 15:00 Where I'm at with body image right now 16:00 What EMDR is and why I use it 19:00 My own session — tracing it back to age seven 22:00 What came up when I processed it 27:00 Anger as the thing that actually moved the needle 24:00 Your body is the least interesting thing about you 29:00 Looking back at the kid you were 31:00 The recipe — anger plus authentic connection to worth 33:00 Closing thoughts Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: body image eating disorder recovery, EMDR eating disorders, body dysmorphia, body neutrality, body image anger, what helps body image, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist Resources + Connect with Me:
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| "I relapsed and part of me likes it" — ED recovery Q&A part 3 | recovered-ish ep. 35 | 02 Sep 2026 | 00:38:25 | |
Episode Description Part three — the final installment of the listener Q&A before I head out on maternity leave. This one covers the long game of recovery: whether it's possible after decades, whether you'll always live with it in some capacity, relapse guilt, missing the control the eating disorder gave you, the physical side effects nobody warns you about, and how you actually know when you're recovered. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro + maternity leave countdown 2:30 The long game — recovery over years and decades 3:30 Is recovery possible after decades? 5:00 Access, privilege, and the barriers nobody names 7:00 Why hope is the biggest factor 9:30 Will you always live with it in some capacity? 14:00 "I relapsed and part of me likes it" 16:00 When you still want the control the rules gave you 19:00 Amenorrhea and getting your cycle back 22:00 Why you can't sleep in early recovery 25:00 When did I feel recovered? 27:00 Perfectionism in recovery 29:30 Building self-esteem when you don't feel deserving 32:00 Public conversations about eating disorders and bodies 35:00 Baby name hints 37:00 Closing thoughts Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: recovery after decades, relapse guilt, eating disorder control, amenorrhea recovery, perfectionism in recovery, when do you feel recovered, ED recovery Q&A, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me:
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| food guilt, triggering friends, and recovering without a team — ED recovery Q&A | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 34 | 26 Aug 2026 | 00:52:22 | |
Episode Description Part two of the listener Q&A. You sent in your questions and I'm answering them honestly. This one covers body image and worth, food guilt, figuring out whether a decision is coming from you or the eating disorder, navigating friends who say triggering things, opening up to people you've hidden this from, and what to do if a treatment team isn't accessible to you. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro + Quasi-Recovery Exit update 3:00 Q&A part two begins — body image theme 3:30 Detaching your value from your body 7:00 When your body recovers faster than your mind 11:00 Getting comfortable not knowing your weight 13:00 Food guilt and the "unhealthy" label 16:00 The ED voice — who's actually making the decisions? 17:00 The values exercise 20:00 What to do when you're too exhausted to fight the voice 22:00 How I realized it was actually an eating disorder 24:00 The eating disorder as your new boyfriend 28:00 When friends say triggering things around food 32:00 Family and friends who get mad at your behaviors 35:00 Opening up after years of hiding it 38:00 Making the most of residential treatment 42:00 Recovering without a treatment team 45:00 First therapy session — what do you even say? 46:00 Asking your dietician for food tracking 48:00 Do you need a formal diagnosis? Resources Mentioned:
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Keywords/Tags: food guilt eating disorder, triggering friends recovery, recovering without treatment, ED recovery Q&A, body image worth, eating disorder voice, residential treatment, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me:
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| [REPLAY] does the eating disorder voice ever go away? | the recovered-ish podcast | 19 Aug 2026 | 00:43:21 | |
Episode Description This is a replay of one of the most-listened-to episodes of recovered-ish. I'm taking the week off to prep for maternity leave, so no new episode this week — but this one is worth revisiting, especially if you're new here. One of the most common questions I get — from clients, from Instagram, from people deep in the trenches of recovery — is this: does the eating disorder voice ever actually go away? In this episode, I get honest about my own experience with the ED voice: what it sounded like at its worst, how it shifted through different stages of recovery, and where it lives now (spoiler: it's a lot more like an intrusive thought about tap dancing in a grocery store than a voice running my life). This isn't a tidy yes-or-no answer, because recovery isn't tidy. But it is a real one — and one I don't think the internet talks about honestly enough. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:44 Intro & life update Practical Tools Mentioned:
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Keywords/Tags: eating disorder voice, does the ED voice go away, eating disorder recovery, quasi-recovery, ED voice recovery, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist, recovery tools, ego syntonic, ego dystonic Resources + Connect with Me:
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| not sick enough, extreme hunger, and finding your why — ED recovery Q&A | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 32 | 12 Aug 2026 | 00:46:14 | |
Episode Description You sent in your questions and I'm answering them — honestly. This is part one of a two-part listener Q&A covering some of the most common and most loaded questions I get about eating disorder recovery. We're getting into ambivalence, finding your why, the "not sick enough" myth, comparison, extreme hunger, lost hunger cues, and how to sit with the panic that comes from increasing intake. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro — YouTube subscriber goal 2:00 Today's episode — listener Q&A part one 3:00 Ambivalence — wanting to want recovery 6:00 The stages of change and where you might be 7:00 Finding your why — what if you don't have one? 10:00 Calculated risk — why you can't wait to feel ready 12:00 Will it ever feel like the right time? 13:00 How to actually commit to recovery 14:00 Am I sick enough? Does hospitalization determine validity? 17:00 High-functioning and still severely struggling 19:00 Is this recovery or restricting in better packaging? 21:00 Needing the disorder to feel special 23:00 Comparison in eating disorders 26:00 Why it's not about the food — but eating the food is still hard 28:00 Ordering at restaurants with calories on the menu 30:00 Does extreme hunger really exist? 36:00 Lost your hunger cues — the friend analogy 39:00 Sitting with panic after increasing intake 42:00 Closing thoughts — part two next week Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: not sick enough eating disorder, extreme hunger recovery, finding your why in ED recovery, eating disorder Q&A, am I sick enough, comparison eating disorder, hunger cues eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me:
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| stuck in ED recovery — things to try when nothing is working | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 31 | 05 Aug 2026 | 00:41:05 | |
Episode Description If you've been doing all the things — therapy, dietician, meal plan — and still feel like you're spinning your wheels, this episode is for you. In this episode I'm sharing a practical, honest list of things to try when eating disorder recovery feels stuck. These are the gaps I've seen in standard treatment models, the things that have made the biggest difference for my clients and for me, and the approaches that might breathe some new life into your recovery if you're hitting a wall. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro — burnout, pregnancy fatigue, and why I almost quit Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: stuck in eating disorder recovery, ED recovery plateau, EMDR eating disorders, eating disorder treatment options, neurodivergence and eating disorders, OCPD eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me:
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| it's okay to miss your eating disorder | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 30 | 29 Jul 2026 | 00:36:10 | |
Episode Description Nobody talks about this part. But it's real, it's common, and it doesn't mean you're doing recovery wrong. In this episode I'm getting into what it actually means when you miss your eating disorder — why it happens, why it makes complete sense, and what to do with that feeling when it shows up. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro The Two-List Exercise: List 1: everything you miss about the eating disorder. Try to make the second list longer. If you can't — bring it to therapy. Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: missing your eating disorder, ED recovery grief, eating disorder recovery emotions, romanticizing eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, grief in recovery Resources + Connect with Me:
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| dating in ED recovery — what nobody prepares you for | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 29 | 22 Jul 2026 | 00:47:14 | |
Episode Description This is the episode I've been asked for since the beginning of this podcast — and the one I never thought I'd actually record. Dating in eating disorder recovery is complicated in ways nobody really talks about. The body image stuff. The intimacy stuff. The validation-seeking that can look a lot like the disorder wearing a different mask. And eventually finding someone who makes you feel like a whole person. In this episode I'm sharing all of it — including things I've never told the internet before. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro 4:00 Today's topic — dating and intimacy in ED recovery 5:00 My high school relationship and self-worth 8:00 The breakup that contributed to my ED escalating 10:00 What dating looked like when I was deep in my disorder 14:00 The validation loop of dating apps 17:00 How that loop mirrored the eating disorder 19:00 What it felt like to date in a recovered body 23:00 Realigning to values in dating 27:00 How I met my husband 29:00 Telling someone about your ED history 33:00 When a partner's food behaviors are triggering 36:00 What my husband did differently 41:00 Self-inquiry for body image in intimacy 44:00 Closing thoughts Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: dating in eating disorder recovery, intimacy and eating disorders, body image and dating, ED recovery relationships, telling a partner about eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me:
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| the truth about life after eating disorder recovery | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 28 | 15 Jul 2026 | 00:17:00 | |
Episode Description This one was unplanned. My son was in the hospital, life threw a curveball, and I had twenty minutes between sessions to record something real. So that's what this is. In this episode I'm sharing something I've never talked about on the podcast before — and getting honest about what life after recovery actually looks like. Not the highlight reel. The real version, where hard things still happen and you have to figure out how to keep showing up anyway. This is a shorter one, but I think it might be one of the most honest episodes I've recorded. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro — a mini episode, recorded between sessions Quotes from This Episode: "Recovery doesn't mean everything in life is solved. It just means you are able to take care of yourself through it — and not compound the suffering that's just gonna be there because we're humans." "The eating disorder promises you control and peace and safety. Recovery actually puts you back in the driver's seat for all of those things." "There's gonna be hard times and there's gonna be good times. That's what it means to be a person." Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: life after eating disorder recovery, what recovery actually looks like, eating disorder recovery and hard times, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist, holding hope in recovery, recovery and life challenges Resources + Connect with Me:
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| "I'm done with recovery" — what that feeling is really telling you | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 27 | 08 Jul 2026 | 00:43:30 | |
Episode Description If you've ever thought "I can't do this anymore" or "I just want my life to stop being about recovery" — this episode is for you. In this episode I'm breaking down the difference between recovery burnout and actually outgrowing your eating disorder, because they can feel almost identical from the inside — and they require completely different responses. One is a sign that recovery is working. The other is a sign you need something different. Knowing which one you're in changes everything. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: recovery burnout, treatment fatigue eating disorder, done with eating disorder recovery, ED recovery burnout, outgrowing eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me:
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| scales, weight comments, grief, and imposter syndrome — ED recovery Q&A | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 26 | 01 Jul 2026 | 00:49:38 | |
Episode Description You sent in your questions and I'm answering them — honestly, not clinically. This is the real-life picture, not the textbook one. In this episode I'm getting into some of the most common and most loaded questions I receive from people in eating disorder recovery — from whether to look at the scale in treatment, to what to say when someone comments on your weight, to how to stop feeling like you're faking it because you actually ate today. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro 3:00 Listener Q&A begins 5:00 Q1: Should you look at the scale during treatment? 15:00 Q2: How do you respond to weight comments? 21:00 Q3: How do I support my girlfriend with an eating disorder? 25:00 Q4: How do you get out of the earning mindset? 30:00 Q5: What was the hardest change in your ED recovery? 32:00 Q6: How do you grieve what the eating disorder took? 36:00 Q7: I feel like an imposter because I eat — am I faking it? 39:00 Q8: Food disagreements with my husband 40:00 Q9: Handling wellness-focused friendships in recovery 44:00 Q10: Advice for adjusting to inpatient 46:00 Closing thoughts Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: eating disorder recovery Q&A, should you look at the scale in recovery, how to respond to weight comments, earning mindset eating disorder, ED recovery imposter syndrome, eating disorder grief, inpatient treatment advice, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me:
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| unexpected things my eating disorder taught me | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 25 | 24 Jun 2026 | 00:41:05 | |
Episode Description It feels strange to say, but it's true: my eating disorder taught me things that have actually added to my life. Not the behaviors. Not the rules. But real, paradoxical lessons that I've carried with me into recovery and into the rest of my life. In this episode I'm sharing a casual list of the unexpected things I learned through my eating disorder — about my body, about planning, about self-compassion, about the power of my own brain. These lessons go way beyond food and body. They're really about being human. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro — summer stress and a note for anyone struggling right now 4:00 Why this podcast is also personal reflection time for me 6:00 Today's topic — unexpected things my eating disorder taught me 6:30 Lesson 1: my body knows something is wrong before my mind does 12:00 How hypersensitivity became a tool instead of a problem 13:00 Lesson 2: planning does not always work 18:00 Cognitive dissonance and why the eating disorder became my way of avoiding a hard truth 19:00 Lesson 3: I am allowed to change my mind 23:00 Lesson 4: you can't outsmart your emotions 27:00 Why feelings are signals, not problems to solve 28:00 Lesson 5: how powerful the brain really is 31:00 Using that same mental power for something supportive 32:00 Lesson 6: self-criticism took me far, but it was never going to sustain me 35:00 The self-compassion research that changed how I think about motivation 38:00 Why these lessons go beyond food and body 39:00 Closing thoughts The Lessons, At a Glance:
Quotes from This Episode: "There came a point where I realized I'm never going to get what this eating disorder is promising me. I need to find a different way to pursue my goals that doesn't require harming myself in the process." "Feelings aren't meant to be fixed. They're not problems to be solved. They're signals." "What used to feel like losing control — changing my mind, choosing a different course — now feels like actual control, autonomy, and freedom." A Note: If summer or anything in this episode is bringing something up for you, please know you're not alone in that, and support is available. In the US, the Crisis Text Line is reachable by texting HOME to 741741. If you're outside the US, a quick search for "eating disorder helpline" plus your country will point you to local specialized support. Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: what eating disorders teach you, eating disorder recovery lessons, self-compassion eating disorder, planning and control eating disorder, eating disorder and emotions, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist, body awareness recovery, self-criticism vs self-compassion, eating disorder reflection Resources + Connect with Me:
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| pregnancy, body changes, and eating disorder recovery — the part nobody talks about | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 24 | 17 Jun 2026 | 00:42:01 | |
Episode Description I used to think pregnancy would give me a break from my eating disorder. That the permission to gain weight, to nourish my baby, would make it all feel easy. That's not quite how it went. In this episode I'm getting honest about what body changes in pregnancy actually feel like when you have an eating disorder history — the first trimester appetite chaos, the body dysmorphia on high alert, the awkward in-between phase where nothing fits, and the pressure to be the perfect pregnant person that nobody warned me about. This one is for anyone navigating pregnancy, postpartum, or body changes of any kind in ED recovery. The lessons here go way beyond pregnancy. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro + summer updates 2:00 Recovery Skills Training summer workshops 3:00 Today's topic — pregnancy, body changes, and ED recovery 5:00 A note for anyone whose fertility has been impacted by an eating disorder 8:00 Why these lessons apply beyond pregnancy 9:00 I thought pregnancy would fix my ED — here's what happened instead 11:00 First trimester appetite chaos and what it stirred up mentally 13:00 Food aversions, cravings, and eating consistently in recovery 15:00 Why pregnancy triggers body dysmorphia so intensely 17:00 The awkward in-between phase — when nothing fits but you're not showing yet 18:00 Body changes are supposed to happen — even when they're hard 20:00 The myth of the perfect pregnant person 22:00 Relapse rates in pregnancy and postpartum — why this is so common 24:00 Body changes nobody warned me about — the honest list 27:00 Being curious about body changes instead of critical 29:00 What are other people thinking about my body? — reframing that question 31:00 Taking your power back — shifting from external to internal 33:00 How pregnancy deepens body attunement 35:00 Listening to your body across all three trimesters 37:00 Mantras for hard body image days 40:00 What I want my daughter to know about her body 42:00 Body trust isn't about loving your body — it's about believing it knows what it's doing 43:00 Closing thoughts Mantras From This Episode:
Quotes from This Episode: "I thought pregnancy was going to be a vacation from my eating disorder. What ended up replacing it was the pressure to be the perfect pregnant person." "Body trust is not about loving your body. It's just about believing that it knows what it's doing and allowing that to lead." "If I believe that's true about my daughter — that her body has nothing to do with who she is — I've got to believe that's true about me." "One of the highest rates of relapse happens during pregnancy and postpartum. You're so not alone, and you're likely not doing anything wrong." Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: pregnancy and eating disorder recovery, body changes in ED recovery, eating disorder and pregnancy, body dysmorphia pregnancy, postpartum eating disorder relapse, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist, body trust pregnancy, body neutrality pregnancy, quasi-recovery, pregnancy body image, eating disorder relapse postpartum Resources + Connect with Me:
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| travel in ED recovery — my honest survival guide | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 23 | 10 Jun 2026 | 00:46:27 | |
Episode Description Travel is one of the hardest things you can do in eating disorder recovery. New foods, broken routines, different meal times, swimsuits, pictures — it's a lot. And nobody really talks about how to actually get through it. In this episode I'm sharing my honest survival guide for traveling in ED recovery — from what it looked like when I was deep in my disorder on a family trip to Hawaii, to what it looked like this past month traveling to New York and Maryland fully recovered. The difference is everything. Whether you're in early recovery, somewhere in the messy middle, or further along and still noticing the eating disorder show up on trips — this one's for you. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro + business updates 2:00 Recovery Skills Training summer workshops announcement 3:00 Quasi-Recovery Exit group program update 4:00 Today's topic — travel in ED recovery 7:00 Why travel is so hard when you have an eating disorder 8:00 The Hawaii trip — what early disordered eating on vacation looked like 13:00 Missing ice cream with my family — how the ED steals moments 15:00 Why nothing reveals an eating disorder faster than leaving your routine 17:00 How uncertainty triggers the eating disorder nervous system 18:00 The airport — where travel anxiety starts 19:00 Time zones, meal timing, and the meal plan confusion 20:00 What my travel day actually looks like now 24:00 How to navigate travel days in early recovery 26:00 The "eating disorder is not invited" mindset trick 29:00 Preparation is everything — practical tips for packing and planning 31:00 Safe foods, guardrails, and when to challenge yourself 33:00 Using travel as a strategic recovery challenge 35:00 Finding a model person to eat alongside 36:00 Body image on vacation — swimsuits and less clothing 38:00 How to find a swimsuit that feels tolerable 40:00 Avoiding the mirror and packing for sensory comfort 41:00 Your body is not going to change as much as your ED says 43:00 Flipping the script — experience first, body last 45:00 Closing thoughts + summer workshop promo Practical Tips From This Episode:
Quotes from This Episode: "Nothing reveals an eating disorder quicker than when a person is plucked from their routine." "Eating disorder, you are not invited. You will be staying home. I'll attend to you when I return." "Your body is not checking the time. Your body just knows — I need nourishment and I need it consistently." "The eating disorder makes your world so small. Travel is a reminder that the world is so much bigger than your eating disorder." Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: travel in ED recovery, eating disorder and vacation, summer travel eating disorder recovery, how to travel with an eating disorder, eating disorder routine disruption, vacation body image, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist, quasi-recovery, food freedom travel, eating disorder summer, airport eating disorder recovery Resources + Connect with Me:
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| why letting go of your eating disorder feels like losing yourself | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 22 | 03 Jun 2026 | 00:41:14 | |
One of the biggest blocks in fully recovering from an eating disorder isn't the food. It's identity. In this episode I'm getting into something I've been circling around for a while but never done a full deep dive into — the way an eating disorder becomes a mask, a persona, a way of being seen in the world. And why letting go of it can feel terrifying even when you desperately want to. This one gets personal. We're going all the way back to a backwards baseball cap, through the eating disorder, and into what it's actually looked like for me to find out who I am without all of it. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro 1:00 Life update 3:00 Today's topic: identity and eating disorder recovery 6:00 The backwards baseball cap — my first identity story 10:00 What the hat was really about 13:00 When I outgrew the persona but felt trapped in it 15:00 How this connects to the eating disorder 17:00 What my ED behaviors communicated to the world 20:00 Power, safety, and why we reach for external identity 22:00 The mask the eating disorder becomes 24:00 Why changing feels so exposing in recovery 28:00 The identity void recovery leaves 30:00 What I've discovered about myself since turning 30 32:00 The "I am a person who" assignment 35:00 Identity neutrality 37:00 What becomes possible when the ED stops taking up space 39:00 Closing thoughts Resources:
Keywords/Tags: eating disorder identity, letting go of eating disorder, eating disorder recovery identity, who am I without my eating disorder, eating disorder persona, identity in ED recovery, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist, quasi-recovery, identity and eating disorders, eating disorder masks, self-discovery recovery Resources + Connect with Me:
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| does intuitive eating work in eating disorder recovery? | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 21 | 27 May 2026 | 00:48:11 | |
Episode Description Short answer: yes. Long answer: it's complicated, it takes time, and it definitely doesn't happen the way most people think it does. In this episode I'm getting into my own journey from restriction, to meal plan, to eventually finding something that actually feels like food freedom — and what every stage of that actually looked like. Including the messy middle, the slips, and the moments I started to actually trust my body again. Inspired by a comment questioning why I still eat six times a day at 11 years into recovery. Spoiler: it's not because I'm still on a meal plan. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro — back from New York City 2:00 What returning to NYC recovered felt like 5:00 Today's topic: does intuitive eating work in ED recovery? 6:00 Why I don't recommend starting with intuitive eating in early recovery 9:00 My first experience with a dietician 12:00 What finally made me surrender control to someone else 17:00 The role of exposure therapy in rebuilding a relationship with food 23:00 How to expand your zone of safety if treatment isn't accessible 26:00 The messy middle — when the meal plan starts to loosen 33:00 Why I still eat six times a day 36:00 How slips and relapses fit into this process 38:00 When life becomes bigger than food 41:00 How pregnancy deepened my body trust 46:00 Closing thoughts and resources Resources: 📚 Books: 📲 ED-Informed Dieticians to Follow:
Keywords/Tags: intuitive eating eating disorder recovery, does intuitive eating work, meal plan to intuitive eating, food freedom eating disorder, rebuilding trust with food, eating disorder recovery food, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist, fear foods, exposure therapy eating disorder, quasi-recovery, intuitive eating after restriction, body trust recovery Resources + Connect with Me:
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| fear of weight gain, quasi-recovery, and social eating — your questions answered | recovered-ish with chloe cox | 20 May 2026 | 00:47:12 | |
You asked, I answered. I get so many DMs and comments with really good recovery questions that deserve more than a quick reply — so this week I'm doing a rapid fire Q&A covering some of the most common and most important ones I've received. We're getting into comparison, quasi-recovery, fear of weight gain, social eating, family dynamics, book recommendations, and more. This one is packed with honest, practical answers — no fluff, no sugarcoating. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro + life update — new house, birthday, busy May 2:00 Quasi-Recovery Exit second cohort announcement 6:00 Today's episode: rapid fire recovery Q&A 7:00 Q1: How to get out of a comparative mindset 11:00 Why comparison is never a fair fight 12:00 Q2: How to maximize your time in residential treatment 15:00 Total transparency, surrender, and getting messy 16:00 Q3: Am I worried about raising a daughter? 20:00 What I'm doing to prepare and why it fuels my recovery 22:00 Q4: How long can quasi-recovery last — and what takes you out of it? 25:00 Q5: What do you do when fear of weight gain is all-consuming? 28:00 Why the only thing that worked was facing it head-on 29:00 Q6: What is my top reason to choose recovery every day? 31:00 How my reasons have changed over 11 years 32:00 Q7: How do you deal with unhelpful family comments? 35:00 When to educate and when to let it go 36:00 Q8: How do you cope with social eating — vacations, outings, dates? 39:00 Q9: Book recommendations 42:00 Q10: How to answer "how can I help?" from family 45:00 Closing thoughts Books Mentioned: Eating disorder recovery:
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Quotes from This Episode: "Comparing yourself to anyone is unfair. No matter how much you think you know about that person, you will never know as much about that person as you know about yourself." "Good enough isn't as good as it gets." "Your reason to choose recovery doesn't have to make sense to anyone but you." "The eating disorder is not invited on vacation." Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: eating disorder recovery Q&A, fear of weight gain, quasi-recovery, social eating and eating disorders, eating disorder comparison, how to help someone with an eating disorder, eating disorder book recommendations, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist, recovery questions answered, eating disorder family support, dating and eating disorders Resources + Connect with Me:
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| muffins, missing the ED, and finding hope — reading my ED diaries part two | recovered-ish with chloe cox | 13 May 2026 | 00:48:04 | |
Back by popular demand — we're back in the journals. In this episode I'm reading more entries from my eating disorder treatment diaries. These are unfiltered, verbatim entries from residential, PHP, and IOP — the rawest, most honest documentation of what recovery actually looked like from the inside. This one goes to some dark places. There are entries about missing the disorder, about feeling like recovery wasn't worth it, about a muffin that sent me into a complete spiral. But there are also entries about light bulbs going off, about laughing again, about finding hope in the smallest moments. And it ends with the Eater's Agreement — a manifesto I wrote at the end of treatment that still holds up more than ten years later. If the first journal episode resonated with you, this one goes even deeper. In This Episode:
Quotes from This Episode: "It is comforting to have a physical manifestation of the source of my unhappiness. If that's taken from me, my failure and unhappiness becomes my fault." "I don't want this to be my story forever. I need to find my light and choose it." "A muffin should not have the power to make me feel worthless. I am powerful. I am more than this idiotic monster in my head. I am not shit. I am the shit." "There was so much pressure to make the right choice that it makes a lot of sense why I wanted to simplify my life and just think about food and just think about my body." Resources + Connect with Me:
Keywords/Tags: eating disorder recovery journals, ED treatment diary, eating disorder treatment, residential treatment eating disorder, ED recovery real talk, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, eating disorder therapist, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder journals, what recovery really looks like, quasi-recovery, eating disorder treatment experience, ED diary, recovery motivation Resources + Connect with Me:
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| my ugliest eating disorder thoughts — and what they actually meant | recovered-ish with chloe cox | 06 May 2026 | 00:43:11 | |
Episode Description Last week's episode sparked a lot of conversation online. I posted a clip about eating disorder recovery in the ozempic era and the comments absolutely exploded — and it got me thinking about something I've been wanting to talk about for a while. The thoughts I had in my eating disorder that I'm not proud of. The ones that would probably get me canceled if I posted them without context. The ones that felt so real at the time and are so clearly the disorder talking when I look back now. In this episode I'm unpacking each of those thoughts, where they actually came from, and what they say about the disorder — not about who I am or who you are. If you've had thoughts in your eating disorder that have made you feel like a bad person, this episode is directly for you. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro 1:00 What happened when I posted about the ozempic episode — and what it inspired 4:00 The core frame: eating disorders are not personality traits 6:00 How eating disorders distort your value system 8:00 Ugly thought #1: feeling superior when eating less than others 13:00 What self-control actually is — and what the eating disorder gets wrong about it 14:00 Ugly thought #2: feeling threatened when someone else's body changed 17:00 The identity and scarcity piece underneath that thought 18:00 Ugly thought #3: believing hunger meant I was doing something right 21:00 Interoception — and how the eating disorder distorts your body's cues 22:00 Ugly thought #4: believing my body said something about my character 26:00 Not knowing who I was — and trying to manufacture identity through my body 28:00 Ugly thought #5: thinking my therapist and dietician were jealous of me 30:00 Why the eating disorder needs you to believe everyone trying to help has an ulterior motive 32:00 Ugly thought #6: not wanting a normal body 35:00 Why "just eat normally" was never going to be comforting 37:00 Ugly thought #7: thinking enjoying food made me weak 40:00 Ugly thought #8: believing body change would be worse than not existing 43:00 Why that thought is depression — not character 45:00 You are not your eating disorder thoughts 47:00 Closing thoughts Quotes from This Episode: "The thing about self-control is you have to be in control of it. When you have an eating disorder, you're not in control of your self-control. That tyrant living in my brain was in control of it." "I was not actually better than anyone at the table. I was just the most afraid at the table." "The real problem was I did not know who I was — so I was trying to manufacture identity based on my body." "You are the one hearing the thoughts. You are not the thoughts."< Resources + Connect with Me:
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| what actually causes an eating disorder? | recovered-ish with chloe cox | 29 Apr 2026 | 00:40:09 | |
One of the most common questions I get — from clients, from my own lived experience, from people who have spent years wondering — is this: why me? Why did I get an eating disorder when the people around me didn't? In this episode I'm getting into the real answer. Not the oversimplified version. The actual, nuanced, deeply personal answer — using my own story, my clinical experience, and the framework I use with clients in my group program The Quasi-Recovery Exit to help people understand themselves in a way that actually moves the needle in recovery. This one is a thinker. I hope it gives you some real clarity. This Episode Is Brought to You By Cozy Earth Cozy Earth makes the softest, most comfortable pajamas and bedding I’ve foung — and comfort in my body is something I don't compromise on anymore. Visit CozyEarth.com and use code RECOVERY for up to 20% off. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro + new desk setup 2:00 Life update — pregnancy announcement followup, son's hospital stay, Disneyland plans 4:00 A note on binge urges and what they're actually telling you 6:00 Today's topic: what actually causes an eating disorder? 7:00 Growing up with two sisters — same family, same upbringing, only I got an eating disorder 10:00 Genetics loads the gun, environment pulls the trigger 12:00 The temperament traits I was born with — drive, perfectionism, sensory sensitivity 16:00 Early signs of genetic predisposition — body awareness from a very young age 18:00 How performing arts high school became the environmental trigger 22:00 Competition, comparison, and the perfect storm that created my eating disorder 24:00 How to understand your own story through this lens 26:00 The identity conversation — temperament vs conditioning 28:00 Your eating disorder traits are actually your superpowers 30:00 Narrative therapy and making meaning of your story 32:00 What to ask yourself instead of "what's wrong with me?" 35:00 How to channel your traits toward recovery and growth 37:00 Closing thoughts Practical Reflection Questions From This Episode:
Quotes from This Episode: "You don't have to become a different person to recover from your eating disorder. You just have to become who you've always been without the eating disorder casting a shadow over it." "Every trait that made you good at your eating disorder can make you amaz Resources + Connect with Me:
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| the ozempic era is making ED recovery harder — my honest take | recovered-ish with chloe cox | 22 Apr 2026 | 00:40:56 | |
Episode Description First things first — I have some news. Big news. News that explains a lot of the cryptic, tired, off-kilter energy you've been picking up on these last few weeks. I'm pregnant. Baby number two is on the way and she is a girl. But after that announcement, we're getting into something I've been genuinely fired up about — because right now, in 2026, I believe this is one of the hardest moments in recent history to be in eating disorder recovery. The cultural noise around weight loss is louder than I have ever heard it. And I wanted to talk honestly about what that's like, what it stirs up, and how to actually stay the course when it feels like the whole world is doing the opposite. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro 1:00 Reflecting on last week's body image episode 2:00 The big announcement — I'm pregnant 5:00 Having a girl — and what that brings up around passing on an eating disorder 7:00 Why right now is one of the hardest times in history to be in ED recovery 9:00 The cultural noise around weight loss in 2026 10:30 Comparing this moment to the nineties thin ideal 12:00 How we got here — and why it feels different this time 13:30 Choosing to eat adequately as a countercultural act 15:00 A client story: recovering while her parents were actively dieting 20:00 Putting yourself in the driver's seat of your own values 22:00 The psychology of why people without EDs fall into these cycles 24:00 Why GLP-1s are a different conversation for people in recovery 27:00 It's okay to feel frustrated that other people seem to have an easy solution 29:00 Practical strategies: resetting your algorithm, limiting social media 32:00 Clarifying your values around why nourishment matters to you 33:30 The internal scoff — giving yourself permission to know better 34:30 Finding your people and filling your feed with counterculture 35:30 Telling yourself you can wait it out 37:00 Closing thoughts — eat your food. you know better. Practical Strategies Mentioned:
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| why is body image still so hard in recovery — what actually helps | recovered-ish with chloe cox | 15 Apr 2026 | 00:48:36 | |
Honest confession: my body image has been pretty rough lately. And yes, I know — I'm a recovered eating disorder therapist who just last week talked about how quiet my ED voice has gotten. So what gives? In this episode I'm getting real about what bad body image actually looks like for me now, 11 years into recovery. How it's different from the eating disorder voice. What body dysmorphia really feels like from the inside. And the specific things that actually help me move through it — not the textbook DBT stuff, just what genuinely works for me right now. This one is honest, a little messy, and I think a lot of you are going to relate. This Episode Is Brought to You By Cozy Earth Bad body image weeks call for a soft place to land at the end of the day. Cozy Earth makes the softest, most comfortable pajamas and the absolute coziest bedding — and comfort is something I don't compromise on anymore. Visit CozyEarth.com and use code RECOVERY for up to 20% off. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:00 Intro 1:00 Life update — a weird season, turning 31, and learning to meet my own needs 5:30 This week's topic: my body image has been rough lately 6:00 How body image and the ED voice are actually different things 8:30 What body dysmorphia really feels like from the inside 12:00 The wardrobe disaster and what it signals 15:00 The sensory experience of body dysmorphia 18:30 Social media, idealized bodies, and wanting to dissociate 20:30 Body neutrality vs body positivity — and why neutrality is more accessible 23:00 Riding the wave vs actually doing something about it 25:30 Feelings change — they always have a beginning, middle, and end 26:30 What actually helps me: clothes, comfort, and personal style 29:30 Nuuly subscription — and why it's been a game changer especially for variable sizing in recovery 33:00 Zooming out: bad body image as a signal, not a fact 35:30 Somatic tools for when you want to crawl out of your skin 38:30 Orienting exercise — how to arrive back in your body 39:30 Body patting and butterfly taps 40:30 Talking about it — but in a specific way 43:00 Showing your body care even when you don't love it 45:00 Closing thoughts Practical Tools Mentioned:
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| does the eating disorder voice ever go away? | recovered-ish with chloe cox | 08 Apr 2026 | 00:43:21 | |
Episode Description One of the most common questions I get — from clients, from Instagram, from people deep in the trenches of recovery — is this: does the eating disorder voice ever actually go away? In this episode, I get honest about my own experience with the ED voice: what it sounded like at its worst, how it shifted through different stages of recovery, and where it lives now (spoiler: it's a lot more like an intrusive thought about tap dancing in a grocery store than a voice running my life). This isn't a tidy yes-or-no answer, because recovery isn't tidy. But it is a real one — and one I don't think the internet talks about honestly enough. In This Episode:
Timestamps: 0:44 Intro & life update 3:22 Episode topic intro: the eating disorder voice question 7:19 What is the "eating disorder voice"? 10:56 Who asks this & why 13:39 My personal experience: the voice at its worst 14:38 Do I still have disordered thoughts? My honest answer 20:42 How I got to where I am today 28:06 The beach ball metaphor: giving the voice less space 32:24 My answer: yes and no 36:54 Practical tips if the voice is all-consuming 40:03 Outro
Quotes from This Episode: "The goal maybe isn't to stop having an eating disorder voice entirely. Maybe the goal is to stop having it rule your life." "It stopped being just about the eating disorder. I started writing more about meeting new people and discovering new parts of me." "Even if your life can be 50% better than it is right now — that is so worth it compared to the 100% hell that is living with an eating disorder." Keywords/Tags: eating disorder recovery, eating disorder voice, ED voice, does the eating disorder voice go away, quasi-recovery, restrictive eating disorder, disordered eating, food guilt, recovery mindset, anorexia recovery, bulimia recovery, Recovered-ish podcast, Chloe Cox, recovered-ish, eating disorder therapist, eating disorder podcast, recovery tools, ego syntonic, ego dystonic, intrusive thoughts eating disorder Resources + Connect with Me:
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| the recovery reality check nobody gives you | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 13 | 01 Apr 2026 | 00:42:46 | |
hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish. today we’re talking about the part of recovery that i think catches a lot of people off guard: how long it takes. because i think a lot of people go into recovery expecting it to feel hard for a little while… and then eventually click into place. and when that doesn’t happen, it’s really easy to spiral into: this episode is the reality check i think a lot of people need. in this episode, i talk about:
i also talk about the difference between wanting recovery and actually staying in it long enough for your brain and body to catch up. if you’ve ever thought, “i’m trying so hard… why does this still feel awful?” this one is for you.
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| food guilt is deeper than you think | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 12 | 25 Mar 2026 | 00:44:21 | |
hi! welcome back to recovered-ish. today we’re talking about food guilt. because this isn’t just this is the kind of guilt that hits after you eat and makes you feel like you need to fix it. immediately. the kind that lingers. and if you’ve ever been stuck in that loop of ⚠️ content note in this episode, i talk about:
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| ED lies, identity loss, and rebuilding – reading my ED diaries | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 11 | 18 Mar 2026 | 00:45:29 | |
hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish. today’s episode is a little different. i was feeling kind of chaotic, kind of scattered, and i knew i did not have it in me to do justice to one of the bigger, heavier topics i had planned. so instead, i did something i honestly never thought i would do. i pulled out my old journals. the actual journals i kept from the depths of my eating disorder through therapy, residential treatment, php, iop, and early recovery. five full books of wild thoughts, assignments, fears, honesty, and things i didn’t even want to say out loud at the time. so in this episode, i’m reading them with you. in this episode, i talk about: there are definitely moments in this episode that are funny. there are also moments that really got me. more than anything, i hope it makes you feel less alone. because if you’ve ever felt like your thoughts were too weird, too dark, too obsessive, too much for anyone else to understand, i promise you are not the only one. support beyond the podcast use code PODCAST for $57 off follow along on instagram: don’t forget to eat your food. Resources + Connect with Me:
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| when your body changes in recovery – and how to not spiral about weight gain | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 10 | 11 Mar 2026 | 00:42:32 | |
hello, lovely friends! welcome back to recovered-ish. today we’re talking about body changes in recovery and how to cope when weight gain starts to feel huge. because of course this is one of the biggest fears in recovery. most people would be willing to take the risk on healing if they could guarantee their body would stay the same. but that’s not how this works. and even when you know logically that your body may need to change, that does not mean you’re going to feel emotionally okay about it. in this episode, i talk about: i also share what actually helped me most. not trying to force myself to love the way i looked. not convincing myself my body was beautiful every second. but building a life that mattered more than my body did. if you’ve ever thought, “i know my body might need to change, but i don’t know how to handle that without spiraling,” this episode is for you. support beyond the podcast use code PODCAST for $57 off follow along on instagram: Resources + Connect with Me:
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| “good enough” recovery is keeping you stuck | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 9 | 04 Mar 2026 | 00:51:26 | |
hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish. today we’re talking about quasi recovery. this is the phase where you’re not relapsed. you’re functioning. you’re eating. life looks mostly normal. but the tape is still running. in this episode, i talk about: – what quasi recovery actually is (and how it’s different from relapse) i also share my own quasi recovery story — including the years i secretly went vegan and didn’t tell my dietitian. it looked aligned. it also kept me safe. we walk through the questions that help you know if you’re in this space and the first practical steps to start getting out. if you’ve ever thought, “i’m not relapsed… but i’m not fully free either,” this episode is for you. support beyond the podcast if you’re ready for more structured support, my 8-week group program the Quasi Recovery Exit is open now! 👉 https://recover-with-chloe.moxieapp.com/public/quasi-recovery-exit-application follow along on instagram: don’t forget to eat your food. Resources + Connect with Me:
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| how to recover when you have no motivation | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 8 | 25 Feb 2026 | 00:56:03 | |
hello, lovely friends! welcome back to recovered-ish. today we’re talking about motivation. and more specifically, why it feels so hard to find motivation to recover. i hear this all the time. and the more i sat with this topic, the more i realized something. motivation works beautifully inside an eating disorder. there are goals. numbers. boxes to check. clear cause and effect. you restrict and you feel less guilt. you hit a number and your brain gives you a dopamine spike. accomplishment feeds motivation. motivation feeds accomplishment. it’s a loop. so when we flip the script and say okay, now i’m going to do the opposite of everything that felt concrete and measurable and “safe,” it makes sense that motivation suddenly disappears. in this episode, i talk about: – why eating disorders are incredibly motivating i also share more of my own story. the false promises my eating disorder made. the flashes of clarity that didn’t last. the fear of being trapped in my own brain. the anger that finally pushed me to take action. and then we get to the two things that actually move recovery forward long term. trust. if motivation feels unreliable for you right now, this episode is for you. support beyond the podcast if you’re ready to stop waiting for motivation and start building real momentum, Recovery Skills Training walks you through the actual doing of recovery. nourishment. movement. coping. support. identity. step by step. you can get $57 off with code PODCAST. 👉 https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/ follow along on instagram: Resources + Connect with Me:
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| control, guilt, calories on menus, and eating “too much” | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 7 | 18 Feb 2026 | 00:32:23 | |
hi, my lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish. this week’s episode is messy. i’m congested. there’s construction beeping outside my office. it’s a full comedy of errors. but honestly… that feels fitting. recovery is messy too. i did a poll on instagram and you all had so many good questions that i couldn’t pick just one. so we’re doing a recovery buffet. a little bit of this, a little bit of that. not a deep dive feast. just honest, off-the-cuff answers. in this episode, we talk about: – how to let go of control when guilt shows up immediately we also talk a lot about guilt. how guilt isn’t proof. how you can’t trust it right now. how sometimes eating what your body needs is going to feel bad — and that doesn’t mean it’s wrong. if you’re stuck on the edge of starting. if you’re eating “normally” but feeling awful about it. if you’re trying to let go of control and it feels impossible. this episode is for you. support beyond the podcast: if you’re ready to move from insight to implementation, Recovery Skills Training is my step-by-step course that walks you through the actual doing of recovery. nourishment. movement. coping. support. identity. you can get $57 off with code PODCAST. 👉 https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/ follow along on instagram: Resources + Connect with Me:
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| why relapse is part of recovery (not a failure) | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 6 | 11 Feb 2026 | 00:54:46 | |
hi. welcome back to recovered-ish. this episode is about relapse and why i don’t think it means what we’ve been taught to believe it means. relapse is extremely common. and the fact that it’s so common tells me a few things. this is really hard. success in recovery isn’t well defined. and we haven’t figured out eating disorder treatment as well as we think we have. i talk about how relapse usually isn’t accidental. it often has something to do with the nervous system floundering before it finds regulation again. added stress. familiar stress returning before you’re ready. leaving treatment too soon. needing safety again. i also share parts of my own history including a relapse that’s more recent than i’d like to admit and a lot of near misses along the way. lapses. trips that could’ve turned into tumbles. the messy middle that lasts longer than people talk about. we talk about what actually helps when relapse shows up. not panic. not shame. going back to basics. being honest as soon as possible. and re evaluating recovery using the five pillars i come back to again and again. nourishment. movement. support. coping. identity. ⚠️ content note in this episode, we talk about: if you’re in a relapse right now, scared you’re heading toward one, or wondering if what you’re experiencing counts, i hope this episode helps you feel a little less alone and a little less panicked. support beyond the episode you can get $57 off with code PODCAST. follow me on instagram: Resources + Connect with Me:
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| should you exercise in eating disorder recovery? (the answer isn’t what you think) | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 5 | 04 Feb 2026 | 00:57:13 | |
today we’re covering one of the most confusing and emotionally loaded topics in eating disorder recovery: because movement can genuinely help anxiety. in this episode, we talk about the role exercise plays in eating disorders, why stopping movement can feel terrifying, and how to tell the difference between moving to feel connected vs moving to control your body. i also share my personal relationship with exercise — from loving movement as a kid, to compulsive exercise in my eating disorder, to why i needed time away from exercise in treatment before i could ever rebuild a safer relationship with it. this is not a “never exercise again” episode. it’s a nuanced look at intention, identity, and embodiment — and how to know when exercise is supporting recovery versus quietly running it. ⚠️ content note in this episode, i talk about: ⏱️ episode timestamps sponsor / resources follow along on instagram: Resources + Connect with Me:
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| “i’m not sick enough” – your eating disorder’s biggest lie | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 4 | 28 Jan 2026 | 00:45:15 | |
hi! welcome back to recovered-ish. this episode is about one of the most common thoughts that keeps people stuck in eating disorders: it’s not that bad. we talk about where this belief comes from, why it feels so convincing, and how it’s reinforced by medical providers, mental health systems, social media, and comparison — even when someone’s inner world is completely consumed by food, body, and fear. i also share personal stories from my own experience, including being complimented on my body at a moment when i was close to asking for help, and later being told by a doctor that i was healthy despite being the most sick — moments that delayed care when i was deeply unwell. ⚠️ content note in this episode, i talk about: ⏱️ episode timestamps sponsor / resources follow along on instagram: Resources + Connect with Me:
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| the fear of weight gain – and why you can’t just “get over it” | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 3 | 21 Jan 2026 | 00:42:38 | |
in this episode, we’re talking about the fear of weight gain — and why you can’t just “get over it.” if you’ve ever thought i want recovery, but i can’t handle my body changing, this episode is for you. we unpack why weight gain can feel like danger (not just discomfort), how avoidance wires fear, and why waiting to feel “okay” before taking action keeps people stuck for years. i also want to name this clearly: i recovered into a smaller body, and that comes with privilege. my experience is not universal. the fear, however, is something many of us share — and it deserves compassion, not shame.
you don’t have to want your body to change. actually, recovery happens when you do it afraid. fear in one hand. fork in the other. if this episode brought up insight, familiarity, or emotion — i’d love to hear from you. dm me or leave a comment wherever you’re listening. this podcast is a conversation. follow along on instagram: @recoverwithchloe Creators + resources: i’m linking a few creators and clinicians i deeply respect who speak about recovery, body change, and weight stigma from perspectives beyond my own — including diverse body sizes, racial identities, and queer experiences:
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| my unfiltered eating disorder story | recovered-ish podcast ep. 2 | 14 Jan 2026 | 00:41:03 | |
in this episode, i share my eating disorder + recovery story — but not in the “before/after, numbers, shock value” way. i’m not here to give you content you can compare yourself to. i’m here to give you context, meaning, and the parts that actually matter. i talk about the early moments where body awareness and objectification started showing up way before food did, how perfectionism and high achievement shaped my brain, and how passion (for me: musical theatre) quietly morphed into an eating disorder before i even realized what was happening. this episode is about the function of the eating disorder — not just what it looked like. important note before you listen i do not share weights, numbers, behavior details, or “sick photos.” my goal is for you to leave feeling less alone, not more activated. in this episode, we cover:
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| is full eating disorder recovery even real? | the recovered-ish podcast | Ep. 1 | 07 Jan 2026 | 00:33:34 | |
welcome to the first episode of recovered-ish. in this episode, i share why i started this podcast, what recovered-ish actually means, and why the idea of “full recovery” isn’t as clear-cut as we’re often told. i’m 30 years old, over a decade into eating disorder recovery, and both a therapist and recovery coach. if you asked me today whether i’m fully recovered, my answer wouldn’t be a simple yes or no — and that nuance is exactly what this episode explores. this conversation focuses on the messy middle of recovery. the part that rarely gets talked about. the years where life expands and gets more meaningful, while food and body thoughts can still show up. in this episode, we cover:
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