Three years ago my life completely unraveled.
I’m finally ready to start telling the full story.
In this first episode of Psychic or Psychosis? (Jesus Take the Wheel), I’m sharing why I’ve waited three years to talk openly about what happened to me, what it was like to lose trust in the very intuition I had built my entire career around, and what it has taken to rebuild my life.
This isn’t a podcast where I’m going to try to convince you that everything I experienced was spiritual. And it isn’t a podcast where I’m going to dismiss everything I experienced as psychosis either.
This is about the gray area.
And this is where the story begins.
In this episode:
00:00 — The Unraveling of a Medium
Three years ago, my life and career completely unraveled. After more than a decade of working as a professional medium, including having my own television series on Freeform, I found myself unable to trust my own mind and struggling to distinguish between spiritual downloads and symptoms of mental illness during a psychotic break in 2023.
02:57 — Why I’m Finally Telling This Story
Why I created this 24-episode limited series and my hope that sharing my personal testimony helps someone else feel less alone in their own suffering. I also address the sensitive topic of suicidal thoughts, what my work as a medium has taught me about suicide, and the misconception that experiencing psychosis makes someone an unfit parent.
06:15 — Motherhood, Forgiveness & Rebuilding
Looking back on the last three years of rebuilding my reputation, career, and personal life, the gratitude I feel that my son is healthy and thriving despite what I went through when he was young, and learning to forgive myself. How even the most painful chapters of our lives can sometimes lead to more beautiful and purposeful beginnings.
14:45 — Navigating Career & Stigma
The damage psychosis caused to my professional reputation as a medium, why I chose to be transparent about my mental health rather than simply continuing my career as if nothing had happened, and the complicated tension between being perceived as spiritually gifted and being labeled with a mental illness.
15:31 — Personal Transformation & Growth
Sobriety from marijuana, nearly four years alcohol-free, getting married, rebranding my business, and rebuilding my life. Why the delays in releasing this podcast may have been part of God's timing.
17:13 — Exploring the Spiritual Gray Area
Why this podcast isn’t about providing definitive answers, but exploring the gray area where spirituality and mental illness can become difficult to distinguish. Throughout the series, I’ll explore losing trust in myself, what I believed while I was experiencing psychosis, and what I understand now with the benefit of hindsight.
23:02 — Faith, God & the Name “Imani”
How a message I received during my psychosis ultimately led me to legally change my last name to Imani, meaning “faith,” and how my relationship with God and Jesus became a central part of my healing and surrender. I also set the stage for where this story really begins: September 13, 2023, the day I had an experience involving God and Jesus that would forever change the course of my life.
New episodes every other Sunday.
About the Podcast
For more than a decade, Monica Imani worked as a professional medium. She starred in two seasons of her own television show, Monica the Medium, wrote the bestselling book Messages from Above, toured the country as a medium, and taught thousands of people how to trust their intuition.
Then, in 2023, everything unraveled.
In Psychic or Psychosis? (Jesus Take the Wheel), Monica tells the story she’s been afraid to tell for nearly three years: a journey through spirituality, psychosis, motherhood, addiction, shame, faith, and ultimately, rebuilding her life.
What happens when someone whose career was built around intuition can no longer distinguish intuition from fear, signs from coincidence, or spiritual experiences from symptoms?
This limited 24-episode series isn’t about proving what was psychic and what was psychosis. It’s about exploring the gray area in between, questioning what Monica once believed, making peace with what she may never fully understand, and discovering what happens when certainty falls apart and faith is all that’s left.
Jesus, take the wheel.
Connect with Monica: Website: monicaimani.com
Instagram: @monica.imani & @monicathemedium
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