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I have been writing about and exploring the concept of fear lately. 

My second book has started coming through which has been this steady flow of taking notes, planning the layout, chapter summaries, voice notes, its all I can do to keep up with the words and stream of consciousness that pours through. This feeling of being in flow I love, and the first section has been about the concept of and our ideas of fear. The differing layers of fear and how they can affect our lives. So this newsletter is opening part of the information that has been coming through. A lil’ taste of what’s to come. 

I have over the past while kinda stepped away from socials, questioning why do I need to do this? What is the purpose of social media? I have no real desire or want of validation, so why engage? It’s been interesting looking at my relationship with social media and if it is a valid form of communication for me. I have been noticing what actions I have taken in the past in different areas of my life from a place of fear. If I have no fear, no fear of not being relevant or of being seen… is social media necessary? I love what I do, and who I am, so without a need for validation what purpose does socials have for me? It has been a curious path that my eyes have opened to and one I am still exploring. 

Being busy in my day to day life recently plus moving house has left little time anyways for social media and what I truly love doing - my writing, my meditation classes, and spending time within consciousness. 

Finally, I am now here in my new place and loving being settled into my routine once more. I am loving the light, airy feeling. Loving waking up hearing the birdsong and the ocean. Pottering around and setting up a new home. New rituals, new habits. Finally back to my usual loves. I am discovering the little corners I most like writing in. Where do I feel cosy? Where do I feel inspired? Where do I feel most like me? It’s a gentle period of discovering a new space. 

To be honest, I had such fear, agitation and anxiety before moving in. Fear it would be too noisy, fear it was too far away from my girls, fear I was making the wrong decision in taking this place. It felt like a huge over-extension for me. Fear was placing me in an unnatural state of freeze. With freeze, I found myself not in flow. 

I had the heaviest feeling in my body before the move, I knew I was committed, and yet I was so hesitant. 

Now that I am here, I can say that this immense feeling of being stuck in limbo or stagnancy I have experienced in the past weeks was preparation for the up-level I have received. I understood with such clarity on the first night here what was going on. This is my new place. This is what I deserve, this is what I have worked so hard towards. This is where I am meant to be.

New routines, new views, I can sit out on my balcony and watch the night sky. From my lounge room I have a direct view of the sunrise over the ocean. I can see and step straight onto some of my fav little hidden coves to swim in the ocean and lay in the sun. It is so much more than what I imagined or saw as the level of comfortability for myself. I was meant to stretch myself.

And to think that my fear nearly fucked it all up.

Fear is a ruthless master when we are unaware of our fear and how it claims us, shames us, controls us and ruins a perfect moment, day, week, year. 

We can let our fear rule us. 

I teach my students that moments of agitation are an invitation to expansion, can moments of fear be seen as an invitation to freedom? This fear had a hold on me about moving house and yet now I see how it was an invitation to be bigger, bolder, more set on my purpose, more focused on my work. An invitation to simply be more, dream bigger, act bigger. So, I have accepted this gift presented to me. I didn’t think I was ready, and yet I was guided to be uncomfortable and rise above what was before. Our fear can keep us small, playing on the same playground, on the same merry-go-round, when in fact we are being offered the whole huge delicious fun park if we are able to see past our self-imposed limitations. 

In the process of writing about fear, I have called upon my own experiences and research with it. There are some amazing writings by Michael Singer, Phillip Stutz, Rick Rubin, and all speak of something similar. To move through any emotion, first you must feel it, completely. Experience the worst case scenario your mind can bring you to. Allow the fear to rise within you. Feel it deeply, then simply release. 

It seems too easy. 

But when you practice this, it is amazing the sense of peace that comes to you. 

How I see fear energetically is imagine everything that you fear, all the little things to the big ones. This layer of ‘fear energy’ surrounds you like a cloud or fog. As you move through your day, you have this cloud of fear surrounding you. You make your decisions from within this fear, you react and act from within this fear. It is your unconscious master. Fear of being too much, of not enough. Fear of losing a loved one, fear of losing yourself. Fear of rejection, belittlement, fear of being alone or unloved. Fear of being unwanted or undesirable. Fear of failure, success. Fear of fear itself. The fear that we pick up on from the media, society, our friends or well meaning loved ones, all add to our cloud - if we unconsciously choose to. Our fear can be from our own creation, or from our interactions with the greater world around us. Words spoken by ourselves or others become our unconscious way of seeing our world. 

It becomes a chokehold upon you. A leash that binds you. You are blind to your fear.

The crazy thing is, that once you recognise it, once you acknowledge it, it is satiated. Our fear loves us and only wants to protect us. So just as our inner child, our heart, or any part of our inner world simply wants to be seen, heard, felt, so too does our fear. The minute we recognise and feel our fear, we expand it, and it simply dissipates. We have named it to claim it, and its claim on us diminishes. 

This cloud that has surrounded us suddenly is letting through light, suddenly there is a break in the cloud, suddenly we see how calm, peaceful, serene life can be when fear is no longer our master. We can ask our fear what it is trying to tell us, protect us from, we can speak to our fear for it to teach us more about ourselves. What does your fear have as a message for you?

Imagine a life where every experience you encounter has no fear. Imagine every interaction that you have you respond from a place of peace and calm, that without fear there is only joy, bliss, love. 

Imagine being able to express freely how you feel without fear of rejection. Imagine no insecurity, no feelings of less than, would you feel free? How different would your life look to you?

What leap would you take?

So, I ask you… what is your greatest fear? Close your eyes and ask your heart this question. 

Ask gently, patiently and allow the answer or answers to bubble up inside of you. 

You may be surprised by what rises from within. Take your time and be gentle with yourself. 

To face this fear, to feel it, to play out the worst case scenario, to allow your heart to experience this pain, and then simply, gently release. You must feel it deeply, and then choose to let go. 

Mine were things like not being loved, being alone, letting someone down, not being enough… I realised these are all parts of me that needed love right now. My greatest fear was not having my children in my life. This great fear I lived through during my time in Mexico, and I survived. I survived and now they are back in my life. In a different and new way of our relationships blossoming the facing of this fear showed me that even my worst fear can come to fruition and still I can survive, lean in and be all of me. For sometimes our greatest fear is showing us where our sense of self has been placed, and if we can see that all is forever changing we can simply let go of the attachment to the fear. Without this fear now I know that I am blessed to have them back, and I am ok if it is not to be. Gratitude for the new doors opening and I am never taking these relationships for granted again. Love has opened a new door. 

Fear loves to remind you that what has happened in the past will happen again. 

Love opens the door to show you that there is new opportunities, new ways of being, new ways of seeing the world. 

Love opens all doors.

One of the traits that I share with my girls is fearlessness. Their fearlessness inspires me.

I love being fearless, it’s a favourite of mine. I see the fearlessness with my surfing, I love big waves and this fearless part of me is so at home in the ocean. This adventurous spirit is strong with me. 

Surfing is a great example here. If I was to have fear while surfing, my critical thinking shuts down, I am no longer in flow, I am more focused on the fear and the worst possible outcome. Plus, all of the smaller incidental fears can rise, where all I can focus on is the fear of what can go wrong. Rather than being in joy, or gratitude, rather than thinking what could go right, rather than trusting myself, I am held in a captive chokehold by fear. I am afraid to take a risk, I cannot see anything other than the failure. 

Fear shuts us down, love opens us up. 

Being fearless isn’t without risk, though the amount of personal joy it brings cannot be discounted. Floods of serotonin and dopamine course through our systems leaving us with a sense of euphoria. Even if you fail, or bomb out on the biggest wave, there is still the benefit of the fearlessness being activated. These feel good chemicals open the pathways within your mind where you can now be open to, well if I can do this, what else can I do? Can I go bigger? The world opens up, you have belief and trust in yourself, you see that you can reach higher, greater. Your whole state of being changes, and you’re smiling ear to ear to boot. Why wouldn’t you take the risk?

My fearless nature comes in large part from my inner child or child-like self… she is absolutely fearless. I borrow from this part of me and carry it in to other areas of my life. Yes, my inner child is fearless, she is also playful, she is curious, funny, kind and sweet, she is a big part of my heart. I draw on these qualities to be fearless with my words, my love, to be fearless in how I choose to be me. To be fearless in how I express myself, my feelings. To be fearless with where I want to take my writing, to be fearless in how I describe my experiences with consciousness. This choice to be fearless has huge consequences. Confidence naturally follows, a knowing of that everything that is right for me will find me, a complete trust in what is happening for me is already here. To see the magic and wonder through child-like eyes in the world around me. 

To be completely unbound by fear - is pure, loving freedom. Love comes easily when fear is diminished. 

Fear can rise at any time for us in our life, perhaps we can clearly see it in the moment, perhaps it is the hindsight, no matter, when we name it, we claim it and in that moment we can choose to let it go and allow our love to lead us.

If we are wanting to let go of our fear, the easiest thing to ask yourself is what would love do here? What would love say here? How would love respond?

You will never regret any leap taken, you will regret staying on the shore. To be fearless is to be guided by love, and to know that rewards are always waiting for those who take the leap.

And know, that I am right beside you, cheering you on.

From this fearless heart of mine, I love you x Nicole

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Nicole Forrest is a writer and teacher of consciousness, spirituality, meditation, and metaphysics. She is here to open the hearts of the world through her words and energy. Poetic & lyrical, Nicole makes it easy to understand the complexities of our human existence, and in our greater universe. That unexplainable feeling of knowing, hair standing on the back of your neck, how does the concept of intuition or consciousness fit into our everyday life? How can we harness our infinite power and intelligence? This is Nicole’s playground and she welcomes you with the energy and spirit of the curious child seeing the world through the lens of wonder.

She is also a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, aus

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This, I see the purpose of life as not what we become, but the difference we choose to make to the world around us. An un-becoming of what we thought or who we were of sorts. 

How I see this is the life path we travel, our strengths we build upon, our lessons we learn, our trials, our hurts, loves and joys all create this version of us that we can choose in any moment how we are to be in the world. It’s like this invisible force throughout our life determining whether we come out the other side or are to be swallowed by the totality of our lived experiences.

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Whether we are in communion with this force, or we allow it to direct us… is our choice. To become from our past, or to choose to leave it behind and un-become and not to be defined by our past. This force within each of us is there, whether we see it, feel it, master it. Or, we choose to ignore it and succumb to becoming mastered by the total of our experiences.

I sat in meditation today and what was shown to me were the beautiful, raw and emotional conversations and interactions I have had over the past weeks. All of these reflections being shown to me of how I show up in the world. 

Noey, my love, you in particular sat there with me on weekend overlooking our little spot by the beach and showed me who I was. Took the time to sit with me as you reflected back to me some of the impact I have made to you and others. I know I was tired and super emotional in this moment with you, and yet you showed such grace to simply be with me as you shared what I do, and what I have done. To be seen, and shown who I am, humbled me in ways I fail to express with these simple words.

I saw myself through your eyes.

There were other moments, though one in particular, so small, so insignificant… but it opened something for me. 

I was walking with my daughter Arwen along the esplanade and she stopped me as a caterpillar was crossing our path. The people behind us also stopped to allow the caterpillar to pass. A few seconds of time. A nothing moment. But here, I saw what it takes for this little caterpillar to survive long enough to even become the chrysalis. We can turn our focus on our own healing or path of transformation and yet dismiss so easily the challenges faced to even come to this point of change. 

I see now that self reflection is a privilege that many do not have access to or the liberty to create the space for.

This little caterpillar had survived crossing a busy path, survived not being eaten or squished simply for the chance of transformation. Every effort and challenge faced to be granted the safety to transform. If I look to my own well worn and now public journey, then I can see how every experience, every challenge, every step I have taken has built the fortitude within me for the transformation that was to come. To survive and make it to the cocoon stage is a triumph. 

My own cocoon stage I know was the process of writing free… and out the other side I can now see how the transformation that occurred and was required, to come out of my self imposed gooey cocoon stage and the safety of my little container. Just as the butterfly, I struggled to leave it. 

To leave the safety of the cocoon takes supreme effort from the butterfly emerging from the chrysalis and without this struggle, the butterfly does not build the strength to fly. Each step of the process without outside interference creates the strength within for what lays ahead. To assist the butterfly in its process may seem like it creates an easier path - though without that struggle the butterfly shall not have built up its own inner strength and can perish and die. 

It is a lonely journey to keep going, to keep struggling. 

Then, finally, the emergence and the witnessing of the emergence create this moment of exquisite wonder and beauty. The emergence being the moment of freedom. The metamorphosis of life. And as the butterfly takes flight, changes its habits, creates new ways of seeing the world, rather from the dark underbrush and ground level focused view, it is now soaring, flying high. A completely new perspective on what it means to be alive. A new view, a new vantage point, a new way of moving through the world. The magic of the butterfly stops us in our tracks. We notice its beauty, its vibrancy. Whether we are aware of the journey it has taken to be in this form, or simply witnessing it as it is now, it is a miracle of magic. 

And yet, the butterfly is never to see its own magic. 

It is never to see the beauty in its own wings, in its flight, in its light, its energy. It never sees how we are stopped in our tracks witnessing its magic. As the butterfly becomes accustomed to its new way of seeing the world, here we are, completely captivated by it.

This past week, I have experienced the mirror being held to my inner butterfly, for me to see my magic. And perhaps for the first time in my life, my eyes were open to see it. To see my own beautiful wings, to see the energy I hold. To see how I change people. To see how I have chosen to be in the world. 

It is my energy, I live it daily and so for me it’s just the way things are. But there have been multiple messages from different people sharing with me how I have changed them and others. This has been such a gift. I see these people as my personal angels. Reminding me of who I am, what I do without thought, without effort. My angels who are here to remind me, to inspire me, to push me to be even more. These are my people. 

See the people in your life who hold this mirror to you. See how they hold this mirror for you to see your magic, your beauty, your vibrance. These are your angels. 

Remind those in your life who shine bright, without effort, how they change you. You can be the angel for them. 

If you are reading this, I want to tell you how much you have changed my life, how much beauty you hold within, how your kindness, your generous spirit, your thoughtfulness and care stop me in my tracks, captivate me, and show me what love is. 

You are truly magnificent. 

You are glorious. 

You celebrate me, and I in turn wish to celebrate you. For you show me each and every day how I can be more, how I can rise, how I can be softer with my love, gentler with my delivery.

I want to tell you my beautiful butterfly, I see your magic.

We don’t ever really see the effect we have on others. We don’t know or are aware of how the simplest act, the simplest words we share change the course of someone’s day. For my morning walk and coffee and conversations challenging the world as we see it, these simple little moments I see celebrate what it means to be alive. Habits can change, routines can change, our view of ourselves and others can change. When we self reflect and see that we know nothing, we open, we un-become and our greater force within us opens to all. 

Thank you to my angels. I finally see my wings, and I see your wings and want to return the celebration of you in my life. 

With so much love, Nicole xxx

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Nicole Forrest is a writer and teacher of consciousness, spirituality, meditation, and metaphysics. She is here to open the hearts of the world through her words and energy. Poetic & lyrical, Nicole makes it easy to understand the complexities of our human existence, and in our greater universe. That unexplainable feeling of knowing, hair standing on the back of your neck, how does the concept of intuition or consciousness fit into our everyday life? How can we harness our infinite power and intelligence? This is Nicole’s playground and she welcomes you with the energy and spirit of the curious child seeing the world through the lens of wonder.

She is also a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, aus

connect with nicole via her website here

to find out more about being a student connect here

connect with nicole on instagram here

connect with nicole via email here - nicolelovingearth@gmail.com

connect with Nicole’s writings here -

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hello beautiful people!!! 

For all questions for the next episode please send directly to James… Nicole will be channelling Jesus and will go blind into the recording. This means no idea of the questions before the next recording. So if you have a question to ask, pls send directly to - 

James on instagram - https://www.instagram.com/jamescmcmillan/

James on email - jamesmcmillanarts@gmail.com

(questions to be received before Tuesday 23rd April 2024 AEST)

What are we talking about? Well you will have to have a listen to find out!

Do you ever have that feeling when talking to a friend, boy we should be recording this…

This feeling coming up of what we are talking about could help others, could be interesting, could change things for people trying to make sense of things in a wide weird world.

this is that thing.

James & Nicole share the view of bringing more love, more joy, more harmony to the world and their second podcast here together they have shared their own very real, very personal individual interactions with Jesus. This is the second in a three part series, where they go deep.

With this session, Nicole shares how Jesus helped her through her energy work, and James talks about his supernatural healing that happened overnight with the assistance of Jesus and Angel beings. This is not one to be missed!

Each episode  they will cover all different aspects in the world of spirituality, creative expression, surfing, art and all the things that make us human.

‘if you own your story, none can shame you…’

Welcome to the deep, with Nicole & James...

a dive into topics close to their  hearts, stories of spirituality, surfing, art & what it means to be creative in a world of chaos, and how we got here.

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Nicole Forrest is here to guide you back to you. She is a writer and teacher of consciousness, meditation, spirituality, a channel, mystic & psychic medium with a deep connection to the metaphysical world.

Her practices include reiki, energetic & somatic healing, reading the akashic records, hypnotherapy, guided meditation & journey work, connection to your spirit team & loved ones plus a completely holistic approach to your diet, sleep, movement & meditation practices.

She has been working with her clients and students all over the world, changing people's lives and transforming their love for self and those around them. A deep connection to the higher planes of consciousness unveil all access points and opportunities within your own connection.

She is also a mother, an avid surfer, and lover of sunrise & adventure.

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https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/

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James McMillan is a multi-disciplined artist, author, surfer, Father, and founder of Byron Bay Surf Festival. He is deeply connected to the ocean, the land, and the people of his community. He is passionate about culture, the environment, human evolution, and bringing people into a deeper connection with themselves and their purpose. James’ current work is in counselling, energetic healing and working with the energy centres (chakras) for optimum health, performance, soul alignment & life purpose. James has been chasing his own spiritual evolution since he was 18 years old after the passing of his father Ken. He has supported this journey by completing studies in Visual Arts, Holistic Counseling, Transformational Life Coaching & Art Therapy. He has also studied yoga and has his Yoga YTT200, cert in energetic healing and has completed subjects at School of the Supernatural in Byron Bay. “I have been meditating since 1999 and have been practising Kriya yoga, which is an ancient yogic breathwork, since 2016…I was initiated into this practice via a third generation disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda.” James

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What a week it has been and I want to say thank you to each of you who read these writings, who listen to the podcast, who send messages of support, or stop me in the street to talk about what I am doing - I love you, and know that we are all here to learn and grow from each other. I will now have with each newsletter an audio recording of the writing! this is connect with you in a way that I love - through the way I write, and how our voices carry our emotion and energy x enjoy my loves!

Oh my loves!

These days past, agitation and frustration were what I was feeling. I could say it was here because of eclipse season or mercury in retrograde but really I knew it was something within me, a force of nature blinding it’s way like a fireball of energy and wanting to rattle the cage. 

I knew I could figure it out, but not while feeling frustrated or agitated. That state just wants me to blame everyone and everything around me. I know that if I’m feeling this way the quickest way to lift it is to be of service, so I was. I opened a room on clubhouse and spoke of it. A beautiful meditation and message came through, and the peace I wished for and felt was only momentarily here. 

Then straight back to the feelings of agitation and frustration. 

I wanted to honour why I was feeling this way, give space to it but yet I was frustrated and agitated at being frustrated and agitated. 

I surfed, I changed the furniture in my bedroom around, I ordered comfort food, I wrote. Still the shadow hung. 

Finally I slept and when I woke the next day, pieces of realisation came through. Speaking of it on a call with one of my students as soon as I began sharing, the thread unraveled.

I realised I don’t like being in charge. I don’t like being in my masculine. I don’t like having to lead a partnership. I want to be taken care of. I want the other to lead me. When I feel let down, I charge into my masculine energy to lead, to pick up the pieces, to forge ahead. This was a lifetime of ‘I can do it’ energy after plans are made and have fallen through. 

I am purposeful and driven, I know my purpose and why I am here, still I wanted someone else to take charge on this latest project, I want to feel like for one area of my life I could rest a bit. It is tiring being both energies all the time. 

How could I be in my intuitive, delicious, feminine flow if I was in my masculine? Had I created this situation? Had I prevented this person from being in their masculine? Was I intimidating in my expression?

What I was seeing here was that because I had so easily stepped into my masculine - think years of being a Chef in a very masculine industry, think years of having to take charge in working relationships, in romantic relationships that I was leaving no room for anyone else to be given the chance or the invitation to step in.

I am a direct person, I love being direct with kindness, I was seeing this other side of me which was short, stand-offish and closed down. I was in a frustrated and agitated state and displaying these behaviours.

I saw that the other person was responding differently to me being this way. 

I was frustrated and agitated because I was seeing different responses and behaviour being displayed. 

It opened a whole new way of witnessing relationships for me. I was seeing how what we have experienced defines for us unconsciously what we find attractive.

I started witnessing different relationships around me and the dynamics of them. 

What we are attracted to and why. How it changes the levels of attraction when the behaviours change.

I always lovingly, kindly, knowingly, gently tell my students that agitation is always an invitation to expansion. 

(I smiled that smile I smile when my own words come to bite me on the ass)

What I was witnessing was my own behaviour and not liking it one bit. It wasn’t me, who I am at my core. And I now had this avalanche of insight as to why. 

I don’t play games, I don’t like misleading, manipulating or miscommunication. 

If I like you, you know it. If I love you, you know it. 

I am kind, I am gentle, I am supportive, loving, affectionate. You may be super open to this kind of attention, it may feel safe and attractive to you.

Or… say you have only experienced in your past relationships or while growing up, emotional avoidance, chaos, reactivity, aggression. This loving kindness coming to you from me may feel super uncomfortable, because you are not ready, or maybe not used to it. You may want to avoid it, or see it as clingy, as boring. You may not trust it as your nervous system and neural pathways do not recognise it as something attractive. You may not feel safe experiencing this kind of attention.

But when I become frustrated or agitated, this ignites your neural pathways as something comforting, you recognise and understand this behaviour - ahh you can relax as you know how to respond to this kind of behaviour because that’s what you have been used to. If I withhold my emotions, shut down, become reactive, all of a sudden I change in your eyes as something to be attracted to. 

Attraction is super interesting. Attraction I see as unconscious patterning. When we are not yet conscious to what we are attracted to or why.

Our tastes change as we grow. What was attractive to us before may change as we heal. And what I have noticed about myself is what I was attracted to, in my past, is so far away from what I find attractive now.

We often talk about what triggers us, can we also look at what we find comfortable? And what if what we find comfortable is not actually healthy for us? 

If agitation is an invitation to expansion, then can what we feel as comfortable be what keeps us small?

Without conflict, nothing changes. Without challenges, we do not grow or move forward, we don’t search for answers. We don’t try something different or look for new solutions. That spark we feel when we meet someone for the first time, could it be a warning instead of an attraction?

I wrote this little piece here below weeks ago before our last Divine Love workshop, a topic that came through as I sat in contemplation about how we see love and lust or attraction.

Imagine being the muse of William Shakespeare.

The object of his affection, someone who he feels so deeply for that all these characters of the deepest love expressed across all his works are caused by you. The power you wield, and rather than it being smooth sailing or soft and beautiful, you decide to create mayhem, create longing, create drama all for the story. That this madness created is what so many for hundreds of years after the fact have equated to how love feels or should look like. 

We have associated that with love, there is pain and heartache, betrayal, longing, unrequited feelings.

That any ‘love’ we have experienced wasn’t really love unless there was drama or anguish, confusion or angst. There must be drama for it to be love, and if there isn’t any, then we will create it. 

If you have had the experience of a volatile or chaotic household growing up, love takes on a meaning that you must feel unsafe. Love can hurt you, abuse you. So you grow up not trusting or fearing love. You seek out similar situations as you feel comfortable and recognise these situations. Healthy loving relationships seem tepid.

Our experiences, either lived through or those we have been exposed to through media, film, books, has taught us what we think ‘love’ is. 

A calm, peaceful, soft love can seem boring if all you have witnessed has been drama, violence or abuse. 

We know it is available but we also don’t have the skills or coping mechanisms to recognise, cultivate and grow this love as our defences are so high up that everything can be a trigger that sets off insecurities or false narratives we have been taught. 

Love is safe, calm, and peaceful. Not designed to hurt you or wound you. 

What is happening now is that you are discovering what is love, and what is not. 

I have had conversations with girlfriends about this topic, and how their nervous system responds around different people. Do you feel safe? Or confusion? Do you feel you can be yourself, relaxed? Or are you withholding? These markers can show you what love is, and what is pure attraction. How our body feels in the moment is going to be a key indicator to whether you are building love, or simply lust.

A connection is not the building of a relationship unless both are feeling safe enough to be vulnerable. Feeling comfortable? - check in to see how your nervous system is responding. If you feel regulated around this person, if it is slow to build, if you are curious rather than confused, these are beautiful steps towards love. If your nervous system is agitated, if you are feeling intensity yet not consistency, this can be a clue to it simply being attraction.

I found that my agitation I had experienced opened this way of seeing relationships around me in a new light. How others responded to my behaviour. I only want to ever be loving, kind, thoughtful, considerate. Though the agitation opened this new insight, so by feeling it, experiencing it and writing about it, I found the light within me again and perhaps even healed or shifted stuck emotions. An awakening occurred and is still processing even now. 

I only ever want to be me in any relationship I have. And if me being me ignites questions within you as to what love feels like, I am open  to go deeper, reach higher. All emotions are here for us to be felt and experienced, and if agitation I am feeling leads me to insight, leads me to healing, I know the feeling, the emotion is temporary and here to teach me more about myself. Nothing is ever wasted when we have the courage to feel it, face it and move through it. 

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Now, consciousness is a funny ol’ thing. Just yesterday during the process of this piece of writing coming through, I was taking a break and distracting myself with deciding to close tabs that were open on my computer (if you have ever shared screen with me you know I am the queen of open tabs).

I came to an open Gene Keys tab. And when I clicked on it, this window popped up for a free course in beginning to study the Gene Keys. Back in January I had a friend, Fraser, read and explain my Gene Keys to me and here I was months later back at this tab. I was in a contemplative mood and for whatever reason, I commenced the course, module by module. It came to the creation of my unique blueprint, which I have read before a few times over the years and each time it brings me to tears for explaining who I am, how I communicate and what I am to be in the world. As I am building my own online courses at the moment, this was twofold me working through the program, for insights into myself and also the course structure and layout.

I signed up for a few of the newsletters and within minutes I received an email for the Gene Key of the week…

When I clicked through the email and saw the date, saw what the key was, I broke down in tears yet again. For here, in front of me was the confirmation and validation of what I had just been through the past few days was right on schedule. That the agitation I had moved through, even though I thought I knew the cause or creation of it, was simply the instigator for my awakening. 

With each Gene Key there is a shadow, a gift and a siddhi. Richard explains through the course that each shadow is to be felt, deeply to be released. That each gift offers insight, and then to transcend into the siddhi means you are free.

(if you are curious about the course mentioned, or Gene Keys click here…)

My own process and what had been presented was truly a gift. And next time agitation comes to me, I welcome it with open arms as I found more of myself within the shadow of agitation.

How and when we are led, it is always our choice to follow. Seeing the synchronicities, always the right thing, person, situation presents when we are ready. 

Forever the student, may I never complete my lessons with my own journey as each time, I feel more of me open. Truly this life is such a blessing to be experienced.

Awaken to your state of being, who you are, who you long to be - they are waiting for you x

with so much love, nicole xxx

nicole is a writer & teacher of consciousness, meditation, spirituality & metaphysics; a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, aus

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Do you ever have that feeling when talking to a friend, boy we should be recording this…

This feeling coming up of what we are talking about could help others, could be interesting, could change things for people trying to make sense of things in a wide weird world.

this is that thing.

James & I share the view of bringing more love, more joy, more harmony to the world and our first podcast here together we decided to open up about our individual connections to Jesus. This is the first in a three part series, where we really get to go deep.

This first episode find out our beginnings of connection to Jesus, what role he plays in our lives and how we connect to the energy. Bonus… we find out more about each other along the way. A voyeurs journey peeping into how friends speak of consciousness when we peel back the curtain of our everyday mask.

Each week we will be covering all different aspects in the world of spirituality, creative expression, surfing, art and all the things that make us human.

‘if you own your story, none can shame you…’

welcome to the deep with nicole & james...

a dive into topics close to our hearts, stories of spirituality, surfing, art & what it means to be a creative in a world of chaos, and how we got here.

Nicole Forrest is here to guide you back to you. She is a teacher of consciousness, meditation, spirituality, a channel, mystic & psychic medium with a deep connection to the metaphysical world.

Her practices include reiki, energetic & somatic healing, reading the akashic records, hypnotherapy, guided meditation & journey work, connection to your spirit team & loved ones plus a completely holistic approach to your diet, sleep, movement & meditation practices.

She has been working with her clients and students all over the world, changing peoples lives and transforming their love for self and those around them. A deep connection to the higher planes of consciousness unveil all access points and opportunities within your own connection.

She is also an avid surfer, mother and lover of sunrise & adventure.

connect with nicole via her website here - https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/

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James McMillan is a multi-disciplined artist, author, surfer, Father, and founder of Byron Bay Surf Festival. He is deeply connected to the ocean, the land, and the people of his community. He is passionate about culture, the environment,  human evolvement, and bringing people into deeper connection with themselves and their purpose.

James has been chasing his own spiritual evolution since he was 18 years old after the passing of his father Ken. He has supported this journey by completing studies in Visual Arts, Holistic Counseling, Transformational Life Coaching & Art Therapy. He also has his Yoga YTT200, cert in Energetic Healing and has completed subjects at School of the Supernatural in Byron Bay. “I have been meditating since 1999 and have been practicing Kriya yoga, which is an ancient yogic breathwork, since 2016…I was initiated into this practice via a third generation disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda.  Above all I believe in Love first” JMc

connect with james via his website here - https://www.jamesmcmillanarts.com/

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in this episode of nicole loving earth, nicole talks about the different energies and concepts relating to the act of softening vs surrender. 

how do we soften? 

why does she choose softening? 

she then guides us through a beautiful channeled meditation and explains afterwards how she sees and what she sees while channeling. 

there is a detailed description of our role here and how we can open to channeling information through consciousness and how we can each heal through the simple act of softening, of stillness, of a practice of meditation. 

definitely one to listen to, as nicole reveals more of who she is and how she connects. 

part exploration, part teaching, part meditation, part her loving way of being in the world. 

nicole is a writer & teacher of consciousness, spirituality & metaphysics; a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, aus

to find out more about her upcoming workshops, click the link here - https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/events

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https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/

to book your private session, or to find out more about being a student connect here - https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/bookasession

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This meditation is an opening of the portal of the new moon energy and the days following. For we are all here to open and experience the light we hold within. This meditation is not only a connection for you, this is a way of connecting to all other beings of light on this earthly plane.

as above, & so below

We are all connected, we are all here together, we have amazing magic within, all of us hold this magic.

This meditation has been created for you, let this meditation take you to your place within bliss state, your place within utopia, and see that portals of abundance, of love, of creation are open.

Feel free to share this meditation with those you love x

I love you x nicole

what is divine partnership? 

how do we recognise it? 

how do we feel safe to cultivate these relationships into healthy, loving spaces of respite & freedom?

divine partnership is not only romantic, it is our loving relationships we create when our souls are connected for a moment, a period of our life or a lifetime. they are our loving relationships with our partners or chosen romantic counterpart, they are the love between family, siblings, lovers, mother or father & child, friendships, co-workers and business partnerships.

a divine partnership is two souls coming together to create something greater than the singular. we expand each other just by being together, we learn, we heal, we grow together. the divine partnership may only last a moment, though forever you are changed. 

you are being asked to let go of the limits set on a divine partnership that it must only be romantic. No, no, it is anytime you are more you with this person, you feel expanded, you feel greater, being in this others energy. And they, the same. It is an even energy exchange between two souls. 

You have the energy of the child when together, there is curiosity, play, fearlessness, explosions of new ideas, laughing till you feel you cannot laugh anymore. They ‘just get you’.

I had a beautiful session with my client hayley and I spoke of this concept and how to expand the love of a divine partnership, and with inspiration coming from hayley, I have recorded a meditation to support this idea and love we share. 

this meditation can be done with your loved one together, or you can visualise and practice this meditation by distance, it does not matter, energy is everything, everything is energy and the loving intent will allow this energy to expand. 

so, have a listen, and let me know what changes for you x what love comes in for you x expand the love in your world xx

when I first had this meditation come through, it changed everything for me. 

divine love is not to be clung to or forced, there is freedom, free will, having this kind of connection is a free flowing river of love, not to be defined by societal norms or practices, so allow the letting go of what you or others deem your love should look or behave like. 

it felt like I had found a safe space to rest within another heart space, and they too had this place of rest within mine. 

this is love - our safe space to rest. 

freedom within love allows the freedom of choice. always & forever, or a singular moment, it still is and always will be love x

nicole is a writer & teacher of consciousness, spirituality & metaphysics; a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, aus

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in this episode of nicole loving earth, natasha longman is back!! here nicole and natasha discuss sacred sexuality, this time with a deeper level of understanding of the topics of suffering, the ’situationship’ & how we navigate these, our souls expression & purpose, the sacred sexual experience and how do we cultivate this in our own relationships?

this episode is not to be missed! the most personal, raw & emotional nicole has ever been. 

nicole is a writer & teacher of consciousness, spirituality & metaphysics; a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, aus

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https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/

to book your personal akashic session, or to find out more about being a student connect here - https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/bookasession

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in this episode of nicole loving earth, natasha longman is back!!

here nicole and natasha discuss how do we cultivate a feeling of safety? How do we open our hearts? How do we process and what does that mean? And when we choose to come from our divine aspects - how important the pause is.

a beautiful conversation perfect for those who are wishing to go deep into why we do the things we do and the small changes we can make for more harmonious relationships.

natasha longman is an intuitive energetic practitioner based in the UK, she works with crystals, is a highly sensitive empath and a gifted reader of past lives. 

find out more about Natasha and her work here - www.alwaysbelieveinmiracles.com

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connect with natasha via email here - Info@alwaysbelieveinmiracles.com

nicole is a teacher of spirituality & metaphysics, a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, aus

connect with nicole via her website here - https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/

connect with nicole on instagram here - https://www.instagram.com/nicole_loving_earth/

connect with nicole via email here - nicolelovingearth@gmail.com

intro and outro music performed by adam newling, find adam on instagram here - https://www.instagram.com/adam_newling/

connect with adam on spotify here - https://open.spotify.com/artist/6P727EkBvvBKIrMHEu83eT?si=gl2zczbgTay5DKZ3C1fcVA