In this episode I break down theory about FEELINGS! I explain how the "processing" of feelings happens, why this is critical information for survivors of sexual violence to have, and how working with feelings relates to healing with psychedelics and entheogens. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering. You can sign up here:
https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list
 
My new book:
Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World
 
Website and IG:
lauramaenorthrup.com
@lauramaenorthrup

As mentioned in this episode, here is a guide to finding a safe ibogaine clinic, written by Juliana Mulligan: 
https://www.innervisionibogaine.com/findingaclinic

In season one I talked about sexual violence as a form of spiritual abuse and I have recieved many questions about that over the last 6 years, so I decided to do a deeper dive on this topic. This episode outlines my thoughts on spirituality as a frame for thinking about the impact of sexual violence on individauls and communities, as well as a frame for the path toward healing. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering. You can sign up here:
https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list
 
My new book:
Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World
 
Website and IG:
lauramaenorthrup.com
@lauramaenorthrup

Jonathon shares about his experience of child sexual abuse & healing with LSD and mushrooms. He takes a DIY approach to his medicine work, while also seeing a therapist and doing EMDR.  

If you would like to support the show, please share this episode with someone who may benefit and leave a review! To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or on Twitter: @inside__eyes.

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering! 

For most of Kate's life she didn't remembered the sexual abuse she experienced as a child. She shares about using Ayahuasca & psilocybin-containing mushrooms in her long process of remembering the sexual abuse and healing from complex trauma.  

If you would like to support the show, please leave a review on iTunes! To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or on Twitter: @inside__eyes.  

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering!

In episode 10 of the season Laura interviews Tonya about DIY healing with psilocybin-containing mushrooms.  Tonya has a complex trauma history and shares about how she set up her solo journey and her process in working on self-esteem issues and PTSD.  

If you would like to support the show, please leave a review on iTunes! To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or on Twitter: @inside__eyes.  

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering!

In episode 9 of the season Laura interviews Ajesh about his experiences using Ayahuasca to heal from child sexual abuse.  Ajesh spent most of his life not remembering the sexual trauma from his childhood. He talks about confronting shame, the courage to ask for help, and forgiveness. 

Ajesh references Spring Washam's book, A Fierce Heart.  To hear more from Spring Washam, check out episode 1 of this season.  

If you would like to support the show, please leave a review on iTunes! To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or on Twitter: @inside__eyes.  

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering!

In episode 8 of the season Laura interviews Rosa about using MDMA to heal from child sexual abuse.  Rosa says she now thinks of her life as "before MDMA & after MDMA."  Her MDMA experiences provided unexpected healing around migraines and body image

If you would like to support the show, please leave a review on iTunes! To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or on Twitter: @inside__eyes.  

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering!

In episode 7 of the season Laura interviews Melissa about her DIY healing with MDMA & LSD.  Unlike other episodes in this season, Melissa doesn't identify as having a specific sexual trauma, but rather describes a more elusive general wound around self-worth, love, and sexuality.  

If you would like to support the show, please leave a review on iTunes! To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or on Twitter: @inside__eyes.  

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering!

In episode 6, Laura interviews Jennifer Patterson, a breathwork facilitator and trauma-informed herbalist. She is a grief worker who uses plants, breath, & words to explore survivorhood, body(ies), and healing. In this interview, Jennifer talks about her healing processs with Iboga and LSD, as well as queerness, surviving child abuse, trichotillomania, and cultural appropriation of Indigenous people's entheogenic practices. She is the editor of the incredible collection of essays: Queering Sexual Violence: Radical Voices from Within the Anti- Violence Movement (2016). You can find her on Instagram @corpusritual or at her website: http://ofthebody.net/

Here is a link to the article discussed in the episode, about Shipibo healers organizing in resistance to spiritual extractivism: https://amazonwatch.org/news/2018/0906-in-the-declaration-of-yarinacocha-shipibo-healers-organize-to-resist-spiritual-extractivism

If you would like to support the show, please share this episode with someone who may benefit and leave a reviewing iTunes or Stitcher! To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or on Twitter: @inside__eyes.

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering!

In episode 5 of the season Laura interviews Jaime, a survivor of childhood sexual abuse.  Jaime shares about how using MDMA & Mushrooms helped to heal around many symptoms, including suicidality.  Jaime also talks about how MDMA supported them to build a more loving relationship to their body, as a non-binary transgender person.  

If you would like to support the show, please share this episode with someone who may benefit and leave a review! To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or on Twitter: @inside__eyes.

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering! 

In episode 4 of the season Laura interviews Gloria, an astrology-loving, queer black femme. Gloria talks about a sexual assault she experienced in her 20s and the healing she found using Ketamine and Mushrooms. She shares about her experience being mixed race and queer and finding other people of color to connect with in the psychedelic world.    

If you would like to support the show, please share this episode with someone who may benefit and leave a review! To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or on Twitter: @inside__eyes.

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering! 

In episode 3 of the season Laura interviews Shan, a tattoo artist and survivor of childhood sexual abuse.  Shan talks about her experience healing with Ayahuasca and the unexpected effect that the medicine had on her Rheumatoid Arthritis.  

You can see Shan's tattoo work on Instagram @needlesiren

If you would like to support the show, please share this episode with someone who may benefit and leave a review! To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or on Twitter: @inside__eyes.

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering! 

Welcome back people! The new season of Inside Eyes starts today, with 16 episodes of in-depth information about the use of psychedelics and entheogens to heal sexual trauma. This episode sets the tone for the series, explains what we will be covering, and gives a frame for how to think about the work of healing sexual violence with expanded states of conciousness. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering. You can sign up here:

https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list

My new book:

Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World

Website and IG:

lauramaenorthrup.com

@lauramaenorthrup

People all over the United States are talking about access to entheogens and psychedelics, such as Ayahuasca, LSD, Psilocybin, & MDMA, as forms of medicinal healing.  How people gain access to these (mostly) illegal medicines is the big question.  Who currently has access to this type of healing and who will likely have it in the future?  What is the difference between medicalization, legalization, and decriminalization?  In episode 2 of the season, Laura interviews Ismail Ali of the Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies and Jag Davies of the Drug Policy Alliance to find out the answers to these questions and more.   

For more on drug policy activism, check out Students for Sensible Drug Policy.

You can find Jag Davies on Twitter @jagdavies.

If you would like to support the show, subscribe! To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup.  

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering! 

Welcome to the first episode of Inside Eyes.  In this episode Laura lays out the purpose behind this season with thoughts on the political and spiritual significance of sexual trauma, followed by an interview with Spring Washam, renowned meditation teacher, Ayahuasca advocate, and author of A Fierce Heart: Finding Strength, Courage and Wisdom in Any Moment. Spring is considered a pioneer in bringing mindfulness-based healing practices to diverse communities.  She is the founder of Lotus Vine Journeys, an organization that blends indigenous healing practices with Buddhist wisdom in Peru.  

If you would like to support the show, subscribe! To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup.  

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering! 

Inside Eyes is back with 16 new episodes! And I am almost ready to share it with you, but we need to finish raising $3500 to pay the audio engineer by the end of November 2025 to stay on track with recording (for a February 2026 release). Every dollar helps!

Please donate here:

https://gofund.me/224623ed9

I wrote a book! It is called Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World. It is for therapists, guides, and other types of healing practitioners. You can buy a copy anywhere books are sold, including here:

 https://bookshop.org/p/books/radical-healership-how-to-build-a-values-driven-healing-practice-in-a-profit-driven-world-laura-mae-northrup/ffb161304136fa99

Are you a clinician and interested in working together? I have two consult groups for clinicians such as therapists, guides, and coaches coming up in 2026. 

Winter 2026: https://forms.gle/5yzJVouXPPvf9v8n8

Spring 2026: https://forms.gle/Th5ZKwSsYAZW9QrZ8

And you can read more about individual consultation with me here:

https://lauranorthruppsychotherapy.com/consultation

Thank you for listening and supporting the show! If you want to stay up to date on when it releases or find out more about working with me, join my email list (I only send a handful of emails per year):

https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list

This episode is part of a show swap with the podcast Back From The Abyss. BFTA is a series about psychiatric healing hosted by Dr. Craig Heacock. There are a lot of parallels with Inside Eyes and this episode is an incredible interview with trauma expert Saj Razvi, exploring ketamine therapy, cannabis therapy, as well as a powerful personal story from Saj.

Listen to part two of this episode here.

Find out more about Back From The Abyss: www.bftapodcast.com.

You can listen to Dr. Heacock's interview on Therapy Chat here, or learn more about him here: www.craigheacockmd.com.

If you would like to support Inside Eyes, please leave a review on iTunes!

To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or Twitter: @inside__eyes or Facebook: @lauramaenorhtrup 

For the one year anniversary of Inside Eyes Laura interviews Dr. Shanna Butler, a psychologist, professor, and ketamine therapist about the creation of ritual and ways to practice ritual within one's own cultural lineage.

You can find more info about Shanna here: www.shannabutler.com.

If you would like to support the show, please leave a review on iTunes!

To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or Twitter: @inside__eyes or Facebook: @lauramaenorhtrup 

Community that forms around the healing use of entheogens and psychedelics is not without it's own instances of sexual harm.  In the final episode of the season, Laura Mae Northrup, MFT talks about psychological dynamics that underlie sexual harm in healing relationships and what the community can do to prevent it. 

To celebrate the end of season 1, Laura's online course on How to build a Successful, Sustainable Private Practice as a Healer is on sale!  To get 40% off from now until December 15th, 2019 use the coupon code GoodbyeForNow. 

Come party! Join Laura on November 16th, 2019 at 8pm, at Tamarack in downtown Oakland for an end-of-the-season party!  More details are on the Facebook event page or on Laura's website. 

If you would like to support the show, please leave a review on iTunes!

To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or Twitter: @inside__eyes or Facebook: @lauramaenorhtrup 

For the second to last episode of the season, Laura interviews Kufikiri Imara of Decriminalize Nature Oakland.  The episode explores harm reduction from practical and philosophical perspectives and takes an expanded view that includes not only harm to users, but also harm to the medicines themselves and the traditional stewards of many entheogenic plants.  

You can learn more about the work of Decriminalize Nature Oakland here.  

Laura mentions the work of Dawn Davis, PhD (C) about loss of Peyote habitat: you can learn more here. 

This show is all about going into the depths of wounding to heal, but don't forget that a huge part of healing is experiencing joy. Join me on November 16th, 2019 at 8pm, at Tamarack in downtown Oakland for an end-of-the-season party!  More details are on the Facebook event page or on my website. 

If you would like to support the show, please leave a review on iTunes!

To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or Twitter: @inside__eyes or Facebook: @lauramaenorhtrup 

James has heard about the amazing breakthroughs that trauma survivors are having with MDMA.  Determined to explore an ongoing question of if she was sexually abused as a child, she embarks on two guided journeys.  

This show is all about going into the depths of wounding to heal, but don't forget that a huge part of healing is experiencing joy. The season will come to an end in November and there is an end-of-the-season party! Join me on November 16th, 2019 at 8pm, at Tamarack in downtown Oakland.  More details are on the Facebook event page or on my website. 

If you would like to support the show, please leave a review on iTunes!

To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or  Twitter: @inside__eyes or Facebook: @lauramaenorhtrup 

Special thanks to Joey Seward of Left Field Studios for additional audio engineering!

Lena is a survivor of long-term child sexual abuse and decided to try healing with guided MDMA journeys.  She had an unexpected outcome from her journey work that resulted in a lasting altered state of consciousness.  In this episode we talk about the complex nuances of her "soft psychosis" diagnosis and explore why that term doesn't adequately describe her experience.  

This show is all about going into the depths of wounding to heal, but don't forget that a huge part of healing is experiencing joy. The season will come to an end in November and there is an end-of-the-season party! Join me on November 16th, 2019 at 8pm, at Tamarack in downtown Oakland.  More details are on the Facebook event page or on my website. 

Here is Kitty Sipple's presentation at Breaking Convention: Psychedelic Accessibility: Disability, Chronic Illness, & the Psychedelic Experience 

If you would like to support the show, please leave a review on iTunes!

To stay connected, find Laura on Instagram: @lauramaenorthrup or  Twitter: @inside__eyes or Facebook: @lauramaenorhtrup 

The title says it all! This episode is focused on understanding what type of suffering is meaningful and why that matters, both in sober states and expanded ones. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering. You can sign up here:
https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list
 
My new book:
Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World
 
Website and IG:
lauramaenorthrup.com
@lauramaenorthrup

This is part two of two episodes focused on preparing for healing sexual trauma with entheogens and psychedelics. It is also useful for people who are doing expanded state healing that does not include the use of psychedelics or entheogens. The episode covers the significance of surrendering, breaks down somatic theory as it relates to expanded state healing, and offers some thoughts about the language of symbols and archetypes. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering. You can sign up here:
https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list

My new book:
Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World
 
Website and IG:
lauramaenorthrup.com
@lauramaenorthrup

This is part one of two episodes focused on preparing for healing sexual trauma with entheogens and psychedelics. It is also useful for people who are doing expanded state healing that does not include the use of psychedelics or entheogens. The episode covers meditation, journaling, and outlines a larger frame for how to think about preparation. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering. You can sign up here:
https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list
 
My new book:
Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World
 
Website and IG:
lauramaenorthrup.com
@lauramaenorthrup

This episode speaks to spiritual issues around surviving violence and working toward transformation. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering. You can sign up here:
https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list
 
My new book:
Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World
 
Website and IG:
lauramaenorthrup.com
@lauramaenorthrup

This episode is a short guided meditation. If you want more info on why I have it in the season, you can go back to episodes 5 and 6 on journey preparation, and more specifically you can listen to the section on somatic theory around minute 19 in episode 6. This meditation is focused on helping you build awareness of sensations and allowing yourself to follow the movements emerging from them, in an effort to work toward body-based healing within expanded states of consciousness.  

If your podcasting app is inserting advertisements into the series and you want to listen to the meditation ad free, you can do so here (you can in fact listen to any of the episodes without ads here):
https://insideeyes.libsyn.com/

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering.

You can join my email list here:
https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list
 
Read my new(ish) book!
Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World
 
Website and IG:
lauramaenorthrup.com
@lauramaenorthrup

The title says it all! This episode explores different aspects of integration for healing with psychedelics and entheogens, when the expressed goal is working on sexual trauma. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering.

Join my email list!
https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list
 
Read my new(ish) book!
Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World
 
Website and IG:
lauramaenorthrup.com
@lauramaenorthrup

Isolation and struggles with accessing supportive community are issues many people face in the world today, but survivors of sexual violence can face this in unique ways. This episode speaks to issues around isolation and the importance of building community, for individual and collective wellbeing. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering. You can sign up here:
https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list
 
Read my new book!
Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World
 
Website and IG:
lauramaenorthrup.com
@lauramaenorthrup

The episode is for guides and facilitators who are already practicing or who are considering starting to offer healing work with psychedelics or entheogens. However it is also useful to people seeking healing, and can be considered a part 2 to the previous episode about choosing a guide or facilitator. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering.

You can join my email list here:


https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list
 


Read my new(ish) book!


Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World


Website and IG:


lauramaenorthrup.com


@lauramaenorthrup

This episode is about choosing a facilitator or guide to support you with healing sexual trauma by entering an expanded state of consciousness. The episode is also a bit of a part one for guides and facilitators-to-be, with a follow up episode next week that speaks more specifically to people who want to be practitioners of this work. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering.

You can join my email list here:


https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list



Read my new(ish) book!

Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World


Website and IG:


lauramaenorthrup.com


@lauramaenorthrup

This episode is a long one and I suggest taking notes! Some of you may be considering doing expanded state work with entheogens or psychedelics on your own or with an untrained peer. If this is the case, please listen to this episode for guidance and harm reduction tips to help keep you as safe as possible. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering.

You can join my email list here:


https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list



Read my new(ish) book!


Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World


Website and IG:


lauramaenorthrup.com


@lauramaenorthrup

Survivors are often hard on themselves. This episode is a simple 17 point list of reminders about your humanity and the process you are in. You can listen to this episode when you need some tenderness, grounding, or perspective. 

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering.

You can join my email list here:


https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list
 


Read my new(ish) book!


Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World


Website and IG:


lauramaenorthrup.com


@lauramaenorthrup

This episode is about the prevalance of suicidal ideation among survivors of sexual violence. It includes a personal story and tips for things you might do if you are feeling suicidal. 

Wildflower Alliance Alternative to Suicide Support Groups:

https://wildfloweralliance.org/alternatives-to-suicide/

I will be hosting some online, live, free Q&A sessions about the series. If you want to hear about the dates for those and join, I will send that info out on my email list. I send a handful of emails per year, only when there is something special I am offering.

You can join my email list here:


https://www.lauramaenorthrup.com/mailing-list
 


Read my new book:


Radical Healership: How to Build a Values-Driven Healing Practice in a Profit-Driven World


Website and IG:

lauramaenorthrup.com


@lauramaenorthrup