Explore every episode of the podcast I Simply Couldn’t Open My Mouth | One Heart Zen
| Title | Pub. Date | Duration | |
|---|---|---|---|
| Exposing One's Self (October 27, 2026) | 28 oct. 2026 | 00:33:37 | |
Caught in the finger trap, the adamantine net, only yielding offers release. When the teacher screams, one is fully naked: "I don't know", most intimate. -Kaishin Michael LoStracco | |||
| On Letting Go of Letting Go (October 24, 2026) | 26 oct. 2026 | 00:47:33 | |
Make believe real worlds-- “I” and “love” and “you” Make believe, In real time, Being, time Kalpas, moments-- Butterfly wearing down Tiger mountain Time, to let go: Letting go, time. In time, one lets go. …Let's go, then You and I When the mind is spread out like the sky… “You”, “I” “One” “lets” “go” "mind" No paradox -Kaishin Michael LoStracco *Note on this episode: In the course of John's extemporaneous dharma expression, he said that 250,000 hectares were cut for a data center. He later corrected himself: it was 250,000 trees that were cut for said data center. See: https://www.theguardian.com/environment/ng-interactive/2026/oct/22/finland-google-felling-trees-datacentre | |||
| Warm Hospitality, Spit in the Face (October 17, 2026) | 17 oct. 2026 | 00:41:06 | |
washing with dirt, spit-clean. the body, a crucible, self pouring out of its edges, now only weather. stories upon stories, none attributable truth... not unlike improv! warm hospitality, beginner's gate like spit in the face. not arbitrary, not capricious, wholly there-- grim and beautiful alike-- total unity. -Kaishin Michael LoStracco (10.17.26) | |||
| Endosymbiosis on Blue Mountain (October 6, 2026) | 15 oct. 2026 | 00:31:01 | |
22:36:06 Still Sunday, actually Sunday-night. Reading John Balaban’s poetry I am overcome. That I might have known him more this time around and do not. This poem alone makes me want to drive from Boston to North Carolina just to pay my respects... R E S P E C T -Kotatsu John Bailes Endosymbiosis Reading an acquaintance’s poetry. His book of said stumbled upon while almost packing books into “categories” or “groupings” before boxing for moving day. An acquaintance in this lifetime but more than likely a dear friend at some other point in our transmigrations: humus, moisture, clouds, rain, trees, grass, oceans, estuaries. Transmigrating beings bacteria, archaea, when some lonesome ancient prokaryotic cell engulfed a bacterium that became the mitochondrion through which we met in the process of merging then parted. Always remembered. -Kotatsu John Bailes Crossing West Nebraska, Looking for Blue Mountain Where can one find the real Blue Mountain? Inside the Blue Mountain at Waggoner’s Gap, is there another, pulsing cool azure light? Can one drive west and find Blue Mountain? Will anyone ever live there but me? Some say that Blue Mountain is very small and is rocking in the zion of a waterbead. They claim to find it everywhere , even in clouds of atmospheric dust snapping with strontium and settling on the grasslands this evening. Although Blue Mountain is only as large as a thought, its sides drop off into dark crags; its steep slopes are smooth as glass. Its aspect is discouraging. But from its peak, one can see everything clearly. In humming fields, beetles, aphids, weevils, ants. Fox pups frisking in bluebells before their burrow. A naked boy and a girl dogpaddling an inner tube in bayou waters, off a levee near Big Mamou. Subterranean rocks grinding in the San Andreas Fault. A Malay fisherman, perched on a spit of rock off Penang, hurling a circling net into surf at sunset. A bloated mare giving foal in a clover field in Kent. A blindfolded teenager, shoeless, slumped against a tree as the firing squad walks of in Montevideo. Missiles hidden like moles in Siberian silos. A Black man, in red cotton shirt and khaki pants, his skin alive with protozoan welts, sipping coffee in a Congo shop. An eel sliding through a corpse’s yellowed ribs in a Mekong swamp where frogs croak and egrets fish. Ice sparkling the coats of hundreds of reindeer with steaming nostrils, crossing a Lapland river under a moon. As I pass in the dark through this sleeping town the only creatures moving on Main Street are moths. Spinning orbits about the lamps, they fall and die. Their husks rustle like leaves in the fluorescent light. Were they flying to Blue Mountain? Am I there? -John Balaban, from his book Passing Through a Gate: Poems, Essays, and Translations | |||
| Speaking & Listening Are One (October 3, 2026) | 14 oct. 2026 | 00:45:34 | |
Moxibustion! Banana slugs! Smoke & goo— continuous arising, abiding, extinguishing into the humus and clouds of the world, which is us— you & me— no one speaking, no one listening, the salmon in the tree. -Kaishin Michael LoStracco (10.3.26) | |||