Explore every episode of the podcast Choosing Chaos: Solo Motherhood by Choice
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| Connie: Booked, Busy & Loving Six | 28 Sep 2026 | 00:50:32 | |
What happens when the stage of motherhood you thought you’d love… turns out not to be your favorite? In this episode, Laura sits down with Connie Rutherford, single mom by choice to six-year-old twin girls, for a candid and often hilarious conversation about the realities of raising kids on your own—and why Connie is absolutely loving this stage of motherhood. Connie is a self-proclaimed calendar person, and keeping life moving with twins means organization is practically a survival skill. We talk about the chaos behind the carefully planned schedule, the parts of motherhood that have been harder than expected, and why the infant stage simply wasn’t her thing. Now that her girls are six, Connie is finding her groove and genuinely enjoying the conversations, personalities, and independence that come with this age. Connie is also the author of Searching for Tadpoles: The Journey to Motherhood of a Single Mother by Choice. | |||
| Noam & The Hopeful Bunny | 21 Sep 2026 | 00:53:01 | |
In this episode of Choosing Chaos, Laura sits down with Noam Friedlander, a writer, author, genealogist, and solo mom, for an honest conversation about the realities of motherhood in the toddler years. Noam shares what life looks like balancing motherhood, work, creativity, and the mental load of doing it all without another parent automatically sharing the responsibility. They talk about identity, building a village, accepting help, the parts of pre-motherhood life that can be missed, and what Noam has learned about letting go of perfection and focusing on what matters. Laura and Noam also talk about her work as an author, including her children's book The Hopeful Bunny, a heartwarming story about a bunny who dreams of becoming a single mother and building a family of her own. Learn more about The Hopeful Bunny and purchase the book: | |||
| What We Learn Along the Way: Alicia’s Story | 14 Sep 2026 | 00:58:51 | |
On this week's episode, Alicia shares her journey through motherhood by choice, navigating the toddler and preschool years, career pressures, and the unexpected possibility of growing her family. We talk about letting go of perfection, adapting to the seasons of motherhood, and finding your own version of what a complete family can look like. | |||
| Growing Together: Anka’s Story | 07 Sep 2026 | 00:45:50 | |
What does solo motherhood look like years after becoming a mom? Anka shares an honest look at raising a school-aged child, navigating the evolving challenges of solo motherhood, balancing work and family, finding community, and the lessons she's learned along the way. She also shares advice for women considering this path and those already living it. | |||
| Just Keep Moving: Sandra’s Story — Part 2 | 31 Aug 2026 | 00:33:00 | |
In Part Two of Sandra’s story, we continue to explore the realities of raising a child as a Single Mom by Choice, navigating the pressures of life and motherhood, caring for aging parents, managing burnout, and finding the strength to just keep moving forward. | |||
| Just Keep Moving: Sandra’s Story — Part 1 | 24 Aug 2026 | 00:50:36 | |
Sandra shares what it looks like to navigate 11 years of Single Motherhood by Choice—from raising a donor-conceived daughter and navigating questions around family and identity, to balancing work, finances, aging parents, burnout, and building what comes next. Through it all, Sandra shares the reality of feeling overwhelmed while continuing to “just keep moving,” offering an honest and relatable look at resilience, growth, and finding grace in the chaos. | |||
| Things Will Work Out: Catrina’s Journey | 17 Aug 2026 | 00:45:19 | |
Catrina joins us to talk about the deeply personal path that led her to solo motherhood after losing her husband to melanoma. We talk about choosing motherhood, building a life around her son, navigating the everyday realities of raising a toddler on her own, and the importance of having a strong village. Catrina brings honesty, resilience, and perspective to a conversation about grief, motherhood, and trusting that things will work out. | |||
| Healing While Raising Humans | 10 Aug 2026 | 00:50:52 | |
In this episode of Choosing Chaos, Stephanie shares her journey to becoming a single mom by choice to twin boys and how motherhood became the catalyst for healing, conscious parenting, and redefining the life she wanted to create for her family. Together, we explore breaking generational patterns, raising children with intention, and the ongoing process of discovering who we are alongside motherhood. | |||
| Life Is...Full: Alex's Story (Part Two) | 03 Aug 2026 | 00:41:23 | |
In Part Two of my conversation with Alex, we explore the parts of solo motherhood that often go unspoken. Alex shares what it's like to carry the weight of always being the strong one, how she has navigated dating while raising a toddler, and the ongoing journey of finding joy while living alongside grief. We also discuss the importance of building community, accepting support, and creating a life that feels both full and meaningful. This episode is an honest conversation about resilience, connection, and embracing the beautiful chaos of motherhood. Connect with Alex on Instagram: @alexfi24. | |||
| Life Is...Full: Alex's Story (Part One) | 27 Jul 2026 | 00:50:14 | |
Life is beautifully full—and sometimes incredibly hard. In Part One of Alex's story, we explore what it looks like to intentionally build a life that makes room for both joy and grief. Alex shares how she prioritizes creating meaningful moments with her daughter, Tilly, filling their days with fun, connection, and adventure while navigating the realities of solo motherhood. We also talk about finding your village in both expected and unexpected places, and why building a "hired village" has been essential in helping Alex manage the day-to-day demands of work, home, and motherhood. Finally, Alex opens up about navigating grief while raising a toddler and the ways motherhood has shaped her healing journey. This conversation is a beautiful reminder that life can hold many things at once—love and loss, chaos and calm, grief and joy—and still feel wonderfully full. Connect with Alex on Instagram: @alexfi24. | |||
| Trust the Magic: Dena's Journey | 20 Jul 2026 | 00:45:40 | |
In this episode, Laura sits down with Dena to talk about the intentional choices, unexpected turns, and quiet magic that led her to solo motherhood. After years of pursuing a more traditional path to parenthood, Dena made the courageous decision to trust herself and create the life she had imagined—on her own terms. Dena shares what solo motherhood has looked like for her—from balancing career and toddlerhood to finding her village and learning to give herself grace when things don't go according to plan. It's an honest conversation about trusting the journey, embracing the chaos, and discovering that sometimes the best things in life unfold differently than we imagined. | |||
| I Did a Damn Good Job: Kristin's Story | 13 Jul 2026 | 00:58:46 | |
In this episode of Choosing Chaos: Solo Motherhood by Choice, Laura sits down with Kristin, a solo mom by choice, former professional ballet dancer, and owner of a dance retail store specializing in pointe shoe fittings. Kristin shares what led her to stop waiting for the "right time" or the "right partner" and pursue motherhood on her own. Together, they dive into the realities of life as an older first-time solo mom—from navigating sleep deprivation and the mental load of parenting to balancing work, leaning on family, and coping with the expectations that come with this journey. Follow Kristin on Instagram: @kristinruggs | |||
| Financial Planning with Phil Weiss | 06 Jul 2026 | 00:47:55 | |
Financial planning is one of the biggest questions many women face when considering solo motherhood—but it doesn't have to be overwhelming. In this episode, I sit down with financial planning expert Phil Weiss to discuss how women can build a strong financial foundation before and throughout their journey as a Single Mom by Choice. Together, we explore practical strategies for preparing for fertility and family-building costs, creating financial security on a single income, planning for the unexpected, balancing today's expenses with tomorrow's goals, and raising financially confident children. Whether you're just beginning to explore solo motherhood or are already raising your family, this conversation offers thoughtful guidance to help you make informed decisions and feel more confident about your financial future. Connect with Phil Weiss 📧 Email: philweiss@apprisewealth.com 🌐 Website: https://apprisewealth.com/ Follow Phil & Apprise Wealth • LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/philip-weiss Free Resources • Free eBook: https://apprisewealth.com/ebook | |||
| Hope & Uncertainty | 29 Jun 2026 | 00:36:46 | |
This episode is a deeply personal one. I open up about the hope, uncertainty, and heartbreak that can come with trying to grow your family as you get older. From fertility struggles to questions about what the future may hold, I share the emotions of not knowing whether I'll be able to give my son a sibling—or if my body is capable of making that dream a reality. A vulnerable and emotional conversation about hope, grief, and finding strength in the unknown. | |||
| Staying Grounded While Choosing a Different Path | 22 Jun 2026 | 00:42:02 | |
What happens when the life you choose doesn't align with the expectations of those around you? In this episode of Sparks of Change, Laura sits down with Joayne Larson, facilitator, coach, and intercultural competence practitioner, to explore how we navigate differences in our relationships while staying true to ourselves. Through the lens of Single Motherhood by Choice, they discuss family expectations, societal norms, communication, self-trust, and the importance of maintaining connection without sacrificing authenticity. Learn more about Joayne and her work at Sparks of Change. Joayne's work focuses on helping individuals and groups navigate differences, strengthen communication, and create meaningful transformation through intercultural competence and personal growth. | |||
| Unfiltered Conversations: Part 2 | 15 Jun 2026 | 00:28:12 | |
Part 2 of Controversial Topics continues the conversation with Andrea, Annie, and Kristen as we shift from some of the more divisive parenting opinions into the deeper layers of the Single Mom By Choice journey. In this episode, we talk about the donor experience — including navigating the donor process, genetics, donor-conceived sibling connections, and the emotional weight that can come with making these decisions. We also discuss the reality of asking for help, why that can feel so difficult, and the importance of building a support system and village along the way. What started as a conversation around controversial topics became something much bigger: honest dialogue, shared experiences, and unexpected connection. Whether you’re a Single Mom By Choice, considering this path, or simply curious about the conversations happening behind the scenes, this episode offers a candid look into the complexity, vulnerability, and community that can come with building a family differently. | |||
| Unfiltered Conversations: Part 1 | 08 Jun 2026 | 00:36:47 | |
In Part 1 of Controversial Topics, Andrea, Annie, and Kristen dive headfirst into some of the biggest conversations surrounding the Single Mom By Choice journey. From structured vs. unstructured learning and differing views on vaccinations, to the importance of male role models, dating during pregnancy, and what it really takes to build a strong support system — nothing is off limits. This honest conversation dives into the perspectives behind the opinions, the personal experiences behind the choices, and the topics people are often hesitant to discuss openly. Whether you agree, disagree, or are simply curious, this episode creates space for real conversations, different viewpoints, and the complexity that comes with modern motherhood. | |||
| The Long Game: Kathleen Did It Her Way | 01 Jun 2026 | 00:52:37 | |
In this episode, we sit down with Kathleen, who became a Single Mother by Choice in 2000 after spending years in sports and ultimately choosing a new path toward building her family. She shares what it was like making that decision at a time when the process looked very different—long before digital profiles and modern fertility platforms, when donor information often arrived in the mail in catalog form. Kathleen reflects on the determination and long-held drive that led her to motherhood, and how that journey unfolded with the support of her family and community. At the center of it all is her son —who she describes as the greatest joy of her life. | |||
| Maternal Mental Health with Erika | 25 May 2026 | 00:43:48 | |
In this special Maternal Mental Health Awareness Month conversation, we are joined by Erika Schmitt, Director of Counseling and Family Support Services at a Pittsburgh-based nonprofit, to explore the importance of reproductive mental health support across the entire journey into motherhood — from trying to conceive, through pregnancy, postpartum, and beyond. Erika shares her perspective on expanding access to counseling services that support individuals navigating infertility, pregnancy, and postpartum experiences, and highlights the critical need for care that meets people where they are emotionally and medically throughout these stages. The conversation underscores how maternal mental health is not a single moment in time, but an ongoing journey that deserves compassion, resources, and specialized support. Resources mentioned in this episode:
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| From Baby Dolls to Baby Girl: Mom Life with Bernie | 18 May 2026 | 01:02:03 | |
This week on Choosing Chaos: Solo Motherhood by Choice, Laura sits down with Bernie — a newer mom to a baby girl conceived through embryo donation — for one of the most honest and entertaining conversations yet. Bernie opens up about knowing from a young age that motherhood was always part of her dream, the relationship that almost changed the course of her journey, and how she ultimately found her way to solo motherhood. Together, Laura, Kristen and Bernie explore the beauty of self-regulation, what it looks like to help your baby learn emotional regulation alongside you, and the reality that motherhood often teaches us just as much about ourselves as it does about parenting. The conversation also dives into the hilariously relatable side of single motherhood — including why dating in this season of life can feel like far more work than it’s worth. Honest, thoughtful, funny, and deeply real, this episode is a reminder that there’s beauty in embracing motherhood exactly as it comes. Resources Mentioned: | |||
| She Blooms: Healing from Within | 11 May 2026 | 00:57:03 | |
In honor of Maternal Mental Health Awareness Month, this episode of Choosing Chaos: Solo Motherhood by Choice explores the emotional realities of motherhood—across every stage of the journey. From fertility and infertility to pregnancy, postpartum, and beyond, mental health is a thread that runs through it all—yet it’s often the part we talk about the least. Laura is joined by Cathie from She Blooms, a practice dedicated to supporting women through the emotional complexities of fertility, pregnancy, and motherhood. Together, they dive into the layers of maternal mental health, why it matters, and how we can begin to create more space for honest, supportive conversations. This episode is a reminder that mental health isn’t separate from motherhood—it’s foundational to it. Whether you’re navigating this journey yourself or supporting someone who is, this conversation offers insight, validation, and a gentle reminder that you don’t have to do it alone. Learn more and find support: https://www.she-blooms.com/postpartum-prep | |||
| Beyond the Diagnosis: Tori’s Story | 04 May 2026 | 01:06:18 | |
In this episode of Choosing Chaos: Solo Motherhood by Choice, Laura sits down with Tori to share her journey through endometriosis, fertility challenges, and ultimately, building her family in a way she never expected. After years of navigating chronic pain and difficult medical decisions—including the loss of both fallopian tubes—Tori was forced to rethink what her path to motherhood could look like. Her story highlights the importance of finding the right medical support, advocating for your needs, and staying open to possibilities even when the plan changes. From pursuing motherhood through a donor embryo to creating a beautiful, blended life with a fellow solo mom by choice, Tori’s experience is a reminder that there’s no single way to build a family. Resources & Education on Endometriosis:
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| I Knew Something Wasn’t Right: Pregnancy, Delivery & Postpartum | 27 Apr 2026 | 00:24:18 | |
In this deeply personal episode, I share my pregnancy, delivery, and postpartum journey—from a physically challenging first trimester to navigating gestational hypertension and postpartum preeclampsia. I open up about months of severe migraines and sickness, the anxiety of advocating for my health, and why I chose to keep my pregnancy private early on. I also reflect on becoming a single mom by choice, the mixed reactions I faced, and the strength it took to stand firm in my decision. From a 51-hour induction and unexpected complications to the realities of postpartum recovery, this episode covers the highs, lows, and everything in between. More than anything, this is a story about resilience, self-advocacy, and trusting your body. If there’s one takeaway: give yourself permission to experience it all… not just the strength, but the softness too. | |||
| Why Early Intervention Matters for Kids | 20 Apr 2026 | 00:51:58 | |
In this episode, we’re joined by Taryn, a pediatric physical therapist from First Steps Physical Therapy, to talk about supporting your child’s development in the early years. I also share a bit of my own journey navigating Early Intervention and what it looked like to advocate for my son and get him the support he needed. We break down what pediatric physical therapy looks like, how to spot early signs your child may need support, and how to access Early Intervention services for children from birth to age three. If you’ve ever wondered, “Should I be concerned?”—this episode is for you. 💛 | |||
| The Appointment That Changed Everything | 13 Apr 2026 | 00:55:02 | |
Nathalie thought she was living the life she was supposed to want—married, settled, and planning for motherhood. But a life-changing moment at an OB appointment shifted everything. What followed was a journey of healing, self-discovery, and redefining what truly felt aligned. Nathalie made the difficult choice to leave behind what no longer served her, explored new paths, and ultimately chose to pursue motherhood on her own terms through surrogacy. This episode explores the courage it takes to question the path you’re on—and the strength it takes to choose a different one. Connect with Nathalie: Resources Mentioned: Get Nathalie’s Book: | |||
| An Unexpected I Do | 06 Apr 2026 | 00:58:23 | |
Jessica’s path to motherhood took an unexpected turn when life—and timing—presented challenges she couldn’t ignore. In this episode, she shares how changing circumstances led her to make a bold, unconventional choice: saying “I do” to an old friend who stepped up in a way she never could have planned. What followed was a journey filled with uncertainty, resilience, and the complexities of building a life together during a global pandemic—learning how to show up as friends, roommates, and emotional support for one another while holding onto a shared goal. After delays and detours, Jessica’s dream finally came to life—not once, but twice. This is a story about redefining what family can look like, embracing the unexpected, and choosing courage in the face of it all. | |||
| Hot Mess Express | 30 Mar 2026 | 00:34:29 | |
In this episode, we sit down with Brittinie Tran from Hot Mess Express, a women-led nonprofit creating a judgment-free space for women navigating life’s overwhelming moments. Hot Mess Express is built on the belief that no one has to go through hard seasons alone—whether that means help with cleaning and organizing or simply having a compassionate community show up when it matters most. Tune in to hear Brittinie share the heart behind the mission, the impact they’re making, and how you can get involved. Learn more: Website: www.hotmessexpress.co Instagram: @hotmessexpress.nonprofit Facebook: Hot Mess Express Rescue NonProfit | |||
| Sometimes the Best Things Find You | 23 Mar 2026 | 00:43:31 | |
Nicole’s journey to motherhood didn’t follow a typical path. Early menopause and unexpected challenges didn’t stop her from defining her own path. In this episode, we explore embryo donation, family surprises, and the importance of telling children their stories. Nicole also shares how she now supports women pursuing single motherhood by choice, offering guidance and encouragement along the way. Sometimes the path we didn’t originally plan becomes the one that leads us exactly where we’re meant to be. Connect with Nicole: Tiktok: @smbc_consultant Instagram: @singlemombychoiceconsultant | |||
| Follow Your Inner Voice with Beth | 16 Mar 2026 | 00:43:58 | |
Beth opens up about burnout in the tech industry and the moment her inner voice spoke up on a drive, leading her to choose single motherhood by choice. She shares what it’s like raising her daughter in some of the biggest tech cities, how she built her support village, and the leap they took to live abroad for a bigger adventure—balancing world schooling with launching her own company. This conversation is a high-level look at trusting your instincts, redefining success, and embracing life on your own terms. Connect with Choosing Chaos: | |||
| Conservative Roots, Courageous Choices | 09 Mar 2026 | 00:43:52 | |
In this episode of Choosing Chaos, we sit down with Laura Scrieber, a soon-to-be single mom navigating a rollercoaster of fertility and pregnancy. Coming from a strong conservative family, Laura shares the hesitation, courage, and love that have guided her journey to motherhood. Hear her candidly ask Kristen and me the questions on her mind as she prepares for labor—including her concerns about having a C-section, her hopes for support from her older mom, and her plans to relocate to Kansas City while finding her new village. Along the way, she navigates the emotional and financial considerations of this next chapter, celebrating the messy, beautiful moments that come with stepping into the unknown. Laura’s story offers an intimate glimpse into the challenges, hopes, and practical realities of preparing for motherhood, balancing family, and building the support system she needs for the life ahead. | |||
| Pathfinder Birth Works | 02 Mar 2026 | 01:08:24 | |
In this episode of Choosing Chaos, we’re joined by Caroline, owner of Pathfinder Birth Works, for an honest and empowering conversation about the role of a doula in pregnancy, birth, and postpartum. Caroline shares how doulas provide steady support through one of the most transformative seasons in a woman’s life—offering evidence-based information, emotional reassurance, physical comfort measures, and guidance when it matters most. We talk about what it really means for a mom to advocate for herself, how having the right support in the room can shape the birth experience, and why postpartum care is just as important as the delivery itself. Whether you’re preparing for your first baby or adding to your family, this episode sheds light on how personalized, continuous support can benefit both mom and baby—and why no one should have to navigate this chapter alone. Learn more about Pathfinder Birth Works and connect with Caroline here: | |||
| Jess’s Story: Navigating Egg Freezing, IVF & Immunology | 23 Feb 2026 | 00:42:07 | |
In this episode of Choosing Chaos, we sit down with Jess to talk about what it really looks like to pursue single motherhood by choice later in life. Jess froze her eggs in her younger years, believing she was preserving an option for the future. But when she ultimately decided to conceive in her 40s, she learned those eggs were no longer usable — and she had to pivot. What followed were multiple rounds of IVF, each carrying emotional weight, physical demands, and significant financial considerations. We also explore an important and often overlooked part of the fertility conversation: when transfers fail, it’s not always about the clinic, the protocol, or donor compatibility. Sometimes there are deeper-rooted health factors at play. Jess shares why exploring underlying issues — including reproductive immunology — and advocating for comprehensive testing may help uncover the “why” so many women are searching for. The journey to motherhood isn’t always straightforward, and freezing your eggs isn’t a guarantee. While it can be helpful, embryo freezing often shows stronger success rates. This conversation is about informed choices, self-advocacy, resilience, and building the family you envision — even when the path isn’t linear. Jess shares education and support for women considering this path on TikTok at @jessnuremberg. If this episode resonates, make sure you’re subscribed to Choosing Chaos so you don’t miss more stories of courage, choice, connection — and the beautifully chaotic realities of motherhood. Connect with Choosing Chaos: | |||
| Fine, I'll Just Do It Myself with Michelle | 16 Feb 2026 | 00:57:06 | |
Michelle joins us to share the story behind her bold pivot to single motherhood by choice. After choosing to leave a relationship impacted by addiction, she found herself redefining the vision she once had for starting a family. Instead of waiting for the “right” circumstances, Michelle leaned into community, trusted her intuition, and decided to move forward on her own terms — turning what could have been a sidestep into a meaningful journey. We dive into loving someone through addiction, the strength it takes to let go, and the courage to choose the life you truly want. It’s a conversation that’s honest, uplifting, and beautifully human. Michelle is also the author of Party in a Petri Dish, a heart-warming children’s book in which Bailey explains how Mommy wanted a baby so much she took a leap of science and love to make it happen — celebrating the beauty of unique family stories along the way. Grab a copy today: Party in a Petri Dish Addiction is a deeply sensitive and complex topic. If you or someone you love is struggling with substance use, support is available. In the U.S., you can call or text 988 to reach the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline for immediate support. You can also contact the SAMHSA National Helpline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357) for free, confidential treatment referral and information services. If you’re outside the U.S., please consult your local health services for substance use and recovery resources in your area. | |||
| Jackie: A Story of Choice, Community, and Connection | 09 Feb 2026 | 00:46:50 | |
We’re sharing a story that beautifully expands what love and family can look like. In this episode, Jackie — a single mom by choice — opens up about her path to motherhood, from beginning her journey with a known donor to ultimately choosing a different direction. She shares the courage it took to pivot, the joy of welcoming her daughter, and the intentional ways she’s built connection along the way — including creating a sibling community and surrounding herself with a strong village of other single moms by choice. At its heart, this conversation is about generosity, support, and the powerful ripple effect of embryo donation. It’s a story of love multiplied — and a reminder that family can be built in the most thoughtful, expansive ways. 💛 Connect with Choosing Chaos: Be sure to subscribe so you never miss more stories of courage, choice, and the beautiful mess of motherhood. If today’s episode resonated, we’d love for you to follow, rate, and leave a comment! | |||
| A Beautiful Path to Motherhood: Masha’s Story | 02 Feb 2026 | 00:55:25 | |
On this episode of Choosing Chaos, I’m chatting with Masha, a mom of two sweet daughters, about her journey into motherhood — the joys, the challenges, and all the unexpected ways love and family show up along the way. 💛 We also talk about the ways she’s been able to share the gift of motherhood with another single mom by choice, and how building your village sometimes looks different than you expect. For more info on embryo donation and resources for single parents by choice, check out Embryo Connections. This episode is full of warmth, honesty, and inspiration — perfect for anyone navigating motherhood, family, or just life’s beautiful chaos. Connect with Choosing Chaos: | |||
| So… I Became a Mom: Joni’s Story | 26 Jan 2026 | 00:43:46 | |
In this episode, we sit down with Joni to hear her journey to motherhood through IUI — and how that experience helped her discover who she truly is. She opens up about life in the sandwich generation, balancing the needs of her child and her parents, navigating the emotional ups and downs of postpartum, and the beautiful, unexpected joys of becoming a mom. Her story is honest, heartfelt, and a reminder of why it’s so important to take care of ourselves while caring for the people around us — because we can’t pour from an empty cup. Connect with Choosing Chaos: Be sure to subscribe so you never miss more stories of courage, choice, and the beautiful mess of motherhood. If today’s episode resonated, we’d love for you to follow, rate, and leave a comment! | |||
| NICU Moms Speak: The Fear, the Love, the Strength | 19 Jan 2026 | 01:05:58 | |
Birth doesn’t always go the way we imagine. In this episode, we reconnect with Kristen, Lindsay, and Annie as they share their honest and emotional NICU journeys — from fear and uncertainty to resilience, growth, and unexpected strength. We talk about what it’s really like to have a baby in the NICU, how families cope with the emotional rollercoaster, and what it means to choose chaos — to choose love, courage, and connection in the middle of uncertainty. Whether you’re currently in the NICU, have been there before, or love someone who is, this conversation is for you. Resources mentioned: Subscribe to Choosing Chaos so you never miss stories of courage, choice, and the beautiful mess of motherhood. Find us on TikTok, Instagram, Youtube and Patreon — and don’t forget to follow, rate, and review. We’d love to hear from you 🤍 | |||
| Science, Probability, and Kelley's Decision to Move Forward | 12 Jan 2026 | 00:47:34 | |
In this episode of Choosing Chaos: Solo Motherhood by Choice, Kelley joins Laura for an honest conversation about the emotional realities of becoming a solo mother by choice. Kelley reflects on why relationships aren’t always easy — and why leaving one can be just as complicated as staying. She shares how the path to motherhood through IUI or IVF can take time and carry an emotional toll, and why connection matters — including what it means for her and her daughter to be connected to donor siblings. We also talk about postpartum anxiety — how difficult it can be, how it can cause you to second-guess yourself, and why recognizing it and seeking support is so important. And finally, Kelley reminds us that while becoming an SMBC is both difficult and courageous, it does get easier. We also address postpartum anxiety, explore ways to recognize it, and share supportive resources for anyone who may be struggling. Postpartum Support Resources: Connect with Choosing Chaos: Be sure to subscribe so you never miss more stories of courage, choice, and the beautiful mess of motherhood. If today’s episode resonated, we’d love for you to follow, rate, and leave a comment! | |||
| New Year, Organized Chaos with Sage Haus | 05 Jan 2026 | 00:32:39 | |
New year, same chaos—just better managed ✨ In this episode, we’re talking all things organized chaos with Sage Haus and why having the right support can be a total game changer, especially for solo moms by choice. From reclaiming your time to reducing the mental load, this conversation is all about how a house manager can feel like an extension of your village—so you can focus on you, your family, and your goals. If 2026 is the year you reprioritize yourself while still keeping life running smoothly, this episode is for you. Learn more about Sage Haus and their approach to modern home management: Website: Sagehaus.com Because chaos is inevitable—but support makes all the difference. | |||
| Macaile Hutt on Podcasting & Aspiring to SMBC | 29 Dec 2025 | 01:03:11 | |
In this episode, we’re joined by Macaile Hutt, the host and creator of Red Nail Energy — a podcast that centers bold conversations, real stories, and the power of choosing yourself. Macaile shares her experience as a podcast host, what inspired her to create Red Nail Energy, and how the show has become a space for honest dialogue and unapologetic storytelling. We also talk about her thoughtful and intentional path toward becoming a single mom by choice, and what it looks like to move forward with clarity, confidence, and — sometimes — choosing chaos. This conversation is for anyone navigating nontraditional paths, building something meaningful, or trusting themselves enough to take the next step.
Red Nail Energy is a podcast dedicated to authentic conversations with guests who have powerful stories to tell. Macaile creates space for vulnerability, confidence, and perspective — inviting listeners to lean into curiosity, self-trust, and bold life choices. 🎙 Listen to Red Nail Energy: 🌐 Website: 📸 Instagram: 🎵 TikTok: | |||
| Lara’s Story: Pregnancy, Loss, and Finding Light in Lockdown - Part 2 | 22 Dec 2025 | 00:40:24 | |
In Part Two of Lara’s journey, we step beyond the delivery room and into the tender, vulnerable chapter of bringing Max home. With the world still deep in the pandemic, Lara navigates early motherhood in isolation—learning to care for a newborn while processing all she endured to get here. This episode explores the messy, beautiful realities of the newborn phase, the emotional shifts that accompany new motherhood, and the ways Lara began to rebuild support and connection during a time when community felt out of reach. We follow Max’s early growth, Lara’s own evolution, and the intentional, sometimes unexpected ways she began creating her village. Part Two is about healing, adaptation, and discovering who you become when life finally gives you the thing you’ve been fighting for. | |||
| Lara’s Story: Pregnancy, Loss, and Finding Light in Lockdown - Part 1 | 15 Dec 2025 | 00:46:52 | |
In Part One of this two-part series, we follow Lara through her deeply personal journey to motherhood—a path shaped by the challenges of PCOS, multiple fertility treatments, and the emotional toll of failed IUIs and back-to-back IVF rounds. As she navigates her own uncertainty, the world around her begins to shift. COVID-19 shuts everything down just as she learns she’s pregnant, layering isolation and fear onto an already fragile time. Meanwhile, Lara faces another heartbreak—the declining health of her mother—forcing her to hold joy and grief in the same breath. Part One takes us through the weight of those months, the resilience she discovered, and the profound moment she finally welcomed her son, Max, into the world. This is a story about persistence, timing, and what it means to keep moving forward when everything around you feels like it’s falling apart. | |||
| A Known Donor, A New Beginning: J’s Story | 08 Dec 2025 | 00:54:56 | |
In this episode, J—who joins us anonymously—shares her path to solo motherhood through at-home insemination with a known donor. Now navigating life with a lively toddler, J reflects on the beauty, chaos, and honesty of early parenthood. She speaks openly about her commitment to introducing donor conception from the very beginning, making it a natural and celebrated part of her son’s story. With humor, candor, and a grounded perspective, J offers insight into building a family with intention and heart. | |||
| Paige Dempsey on Dating with Intention and Becoming an SMBC | 01 Dec 2025 | 00:57:49 | |
In today’s powerful, feel-good episode, we sit down with Paige Dempsey—SMBC mama, dating coach, and a woman who’s redefining what it means to build a life on your own terms. After conceiving her daughter in her 40s, Paige opens up about choosing single motherhood, embracing the unexpected, and stepping boldly into a new season with confidence and clarity. She also shares her best tips for dating with intention, staying open to possibility, and finding meaningful connection beyond the usual swipe-based apps. If you’ve been craving fresh dating inspiration, permission to trust your own journey, or a reminder that love and family come in many forms, this episode is for you. Honest, uplifting, and packed with practical insight—this conversation will leave you feeling empowered, encouraged, and excited about what’s possible. To learn more about Paige Dempsey: Threads: Dating & Relationship Coach Instagram: @datingcoachpaige Website: Paige Dempsey Coaching | |||
| Signature Donors with Victoria Crowe | 24 Nov 2025 | 00:46:42 | |
In this episode, we sit down with Victoria Crowe, founder of Signature Donors, a premier Manhattan-based agency dedicated to helping families grow through egg donation. Victoria shares how Signature Donors brings a deeply personal, hands-on approach to every match — supporting intended parents and donors through one of the most meaningful and emotional journeys they’ll ever take. We talk about what goes into finding the right donor, why personalization matters so much in this process, and how Signature Donors works to make each family’s experience feel thoughtful, supported, and truly individual. Whether you're exploring egg donation for the first time or simply curious about how the process works behind the scenes, this conversation offers real insight and heart. Learn more about Signature Donors at: | |||
| Chillin’ for the Future: Andrea’s Frozen Hope | 17 Nov 2025 | 00:52:46 | |
Meet Andrea — a woman who proves that when life doesn’t go according to plan, you can still create something even better. From fertility hurdles to solo motherhood wins, Andrea’s living her dream — with her mini brunch partner by her side. ☕💫 In this episode, she opens up about trusting her instincts, navigating infertility, and leaning on the incredible village that helped her along the way — from her biggest cheerleader (hi, Mom!) to her local SMC community and dibling families. Andrea’s story is equal parts heart, humor, and inspiration — a beautiful reminder that motherhood on your own terms can be pure magic. Follow along with Andrea’s journey on Instagram at @MamaOnMyTerms to see the amazing life she’s built with her daughter. 💕 | |||
| The Heart of a Giver: Amanda’s Journey | 10 Nov 2025 | 01:10:31 | |
This week, we’re chatting with Amanda Bolan, a woman who somehow manages to juggle big life changes, motherhood, and a little bit of chaos — all with a smile. From unexpected turns to heart-led decisions, Amanda’s story is full of love, laughter, and those wild moments that make life beautifully unpredictable. 🎧 Tune in for an honest and uplifting conversation about choosing chaos, finding joy in the curveballs, and saying “yes” to the life you were meant to live. | |||
| Choice Mom Coach, Reema Kiran | 03 Nov 2025 | 00:51:44 | |
Today on Choosing Chaos, I’m chatting with Reema, also known as The Choice Mom Coach. Reema is a certified coach who helps women bring ease, confidence, and clarity to the Single Mother by Choice journey. Drawing on both personal and professional experience, Reema empowers women to navigate the emotional highs and lows of this path, helping them approach motherhood with confidence, clarity, and meaningful support. If you’re considering single motherhood, feeling hesitant, or simply curious about what this journey really looks like, Reema shares practical guidance and heartfelt insights to help you move past fear and self-doubt — and embrace the incredible gift that awaits on the other side. Instagram: Choice Mom Coach Website: Choice Mom Coach | |||
| Flip the Script: Interview with Host Kristen Caples | 27 Oct 2025 | 00:50:21 | |
You hear my voice every week on Choosing Chaos, but today we’re doing something a little different. So many of you have asked to know more about me — the person behind the mic — and this episode is my chance to share a bit of my story. I’ve invited the amazing Kristen Caples to take over as host for a special “flip the script” episode where she asks me the questions. We’re diving into my decision to become a solo mother, the realities of a village that sometimes falls short, and the milestones that have defined this first year. It’s honest, a little vulnerable, and just a glimpse into the chaos that’s shaped who I am — and why this podcast exists. | |||
| Chosen Path, Shared Roots with Erika | 20 Oct 2025 | 00:50:53 | |
In this episode of Choosing Chaos, Erika shares her journey as a single mom by choice — from multiple rounds of IUI to fun “sperm donor parties.” She opens up about the challenges and joys of solo motherhood, meaningful dibling relationships, and how parenting during COVID gave her precious time with Hadley that she wouldn’t have had otherwise. A story about the importance of donor connections and discovering the beauty of raising a daughter in a world of uncertainty. | |||