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01. YYZ Prelude — Why It's Important, Toronto18 Nov 202500:15:50

In this prelude to the Toronto series, Principal Investigator Olivier Ferlatte introduces Toronto host Bradley and a diverse group of guests—Brian, Jordan, Matthew, Reid, Christoph, Edwin, and Tyler. Together, they explore the central question of this podcast series: Why is it important for people with lived experience of PnP/chemsex to tell their own stories in their own words? The conversation highlights the power of unfiltered narratives to break down stigma, build community, and foster authentic connection, setting the stage for the deep dives to come. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services.  🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

02. YYZ Sagacity-Pt. 1 — Hey Bradley18 Nov 202500:25:17

Investigator Olivier introduces Toronto host Bradley to unpack the complexities surrounding PnP/chemsex. Moving beyond medical or criminal definitions, they discuss the necessity of centering lived experience to challenge deep-seated stigmas. Bradley shares his personal journey and graduate research on "slam sex," reframing it as a site of community care rather than just risk. Together, they challenge the misconception that "chemsex is a stupid thing done by stupid people," exploring how storytelling can dismantle judgment and foster a nuanced understanding of connection. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

  • Toni Morrison: Cited by Bradley as an inspiration ("If you don't see yourself in what you're reading, write your own story"). 
  • Michel Foucault: Philosophically referenced regarding power and control. 
Bonus. YYZ Wisdom-Pt. 4 — Velvet Mourning05 Feb 202600:25:38

In this bonus leg of the Wisdom flight, the conversation turns to the "velvet mourning" of widowhood. Matthew discusses the tragic loss of his partner to an overdose, while Reid recounts the isolation of grieving a partner of nine years who had never come out to his family—resulting in the erasure of their relationship at the funeral. The discussion explores navigating cumulative grief, from the AIDS crisis to the present, and how they find spiritual grounding. They conclude by reflecting on the necessity of boundaries and why disconnecting from the "using" community was vital for their well-being. 

 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

11. YYZ Integrity-Pt. 1 — Hey Christoph, Edwin, & Tyler05 Feb 202600:27:02

Toronto host Bradley welcomes Christoph, Edwin, and Tyler—who together boast a combined 122 years of lived experience with drugs. They unpack the local lexicon, debating the clinical term "chemsex" versus the community-preferred "party," and discuss the subtle ways ("the look") they recognize other community members. The group reflects on diverse origin stories—from liberating first experiences in the rave scene to using substances as a shield against trauma. The conversation challenges sensationalized narratives, exploring how drug use has served as a tool for profound shifts in perspective, sometimes making them kinder or more self-aware, while acknowledging the inherent risks. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

12. YYZ Integrity-Pt. 2 — The High Life05 Feb 202600:31:17

The conversation dives deep into the hierarchies and double standards within the party community—specifically the stigma surrounding "slamming" (injecting) versus smoking or snorting. Edwin introduces the concept of the "street nurse" or "admin"—a role he plays to ensure safety and aftercare for others—while the group debates the ethics of intervening when a fellow partier is struggling. They also tackle the internal work required to maintain integrity while using, discussing strategies like taking significant breaks to rediscover hobbies or refusing to keep supplies at home. Ultimately, the episode underscores that while drugs may be part of a history, they do not define a person's humanity. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

13. YYZ Integrity-Pt. 3 — From Stigma to G-mance05 Feb 202600:27:37

The group redefines stigma as active oppression that creates borders within the community. They discuss the vital necessity of friendships to combat isolation, highlighting the importance of a non-judgmental "voice of reason." The group also explores the phenomenon of "G-mance," debating whether the intense affection felt while high is authentic or merely a chemical illusion. Ultimately, the episode underscores that despite complex boundaries, genuine care remains at the heart of their shared experience. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

03. YYZ Sagacity-Pt. 2 — Party People18 Nov 202500:22:13

Investigator Olivier and Bradley explore the specific nuances of Toronto’s party community. They discuss the city's unique activism, the politics of harm reduction, and the definition of community itself as the ultimate resource. Bradley reflects on the courage required to share personal stories in a stigmatized world, emphasizing how authentic narratives foster empathy and challenge the dominant "war on drugs" mindset. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

04. YYZ Balance-Pt. 1 — Hey Brian18 Nov 202500:28:26

Toronto host Bradley introduces Brian, who is celebrating his one-year anniversary of sobriety from crystal meth. Their conversation explores the complex intersection of sex and addiction, the challenges of seeking help, and the vital role of community in recovery. Brian shares personal insights on finding balance and the importance of peer support. This episode offers a candid look at the resilience required to navigate life after PnP/chemsex. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

  • HQ (Toronto): Health and community centre for cis guys and trans folks into guys (Mentioned for their "Method" program). 
  • Casey House: Specialty hospital in Toronto providing care for people living with HIV/AIDS. 
  • GMCN: Gay Men's Coffee Night & Brunch in Toronto. 
05. YYZ Balance-Pt. 2 — Doggie Style18 Nov 202500:26:47

Toronto host Bradley resumes his conversation with Brian. The discussion centers on the grounding power of pets, revealing how Brian’s dog remained a vital link to humanity and a "non-negotiable boundary" during active use. Brian opens up about his personal approach to harm reduction—"divorcing Tina" while navigating other choices—and the necessity of radical honesty. The episode underscores the resilience required to "grow a new identity" and the life-saving impact of non-judgmental support. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

  • HQ (Toronto): Health centre mentioned for their "Method" program and supportive staff. 
06: YYZ Insight-Pt. 1 — Hey Jordan05 Feb 202600:31:44

Toronto host Bradley introduces Jordan to redefine chemsex not just as substance use, but as a distinct culture. They decode the community's shared language—like "Capital T" and "Mild 2 Wild"—and challenge the narrative that "sober sex" is inherently more authentic. Jordan shares his personal history of using substances to navigate social anxiety, offering a nuanced perspective on harm reduction that prioritizes research and trusted connections over abstinence. This episode invites listeners to look beyond stigma to understand the community’s multilayeredness.  If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

  • The Velvet Rage: Book by Alan Downs, exploring the psychology of growing up gay in a straight world. 
07. YYZ Insight-Pt. 2 — Queer Kin & Kicks05 Feb 202600:27:14

Toronto host Bradley and Jordan explore the vital "duty of care" within queer communities. Jordan shares how he found brotherhood in the party scene, often stepping in to support friends where state systems fail. They discuss the political dimensions of drug use, the distinction between fitting in and true belonging, and the professional challenge of resisting the "model drug user" trope. This episode reflects the courage to build kinship and define family on one's own terms. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

  • Chemstories.ca: The central hub for the project and resources. 
  • The Velvet Rage: Book by Alan Downs, contextually referenced regarding shame and validation. 
08. YYZ Wisdom-Pt. 1 — Hey Matthew & Reid05 Feb 202600:27:45

Toronto host Bradley introduces Matthew and Reid, two "experienced flyers" who defy typical labels. Matthew, a grad student researching prisoner poetry, shares his history of living "on the skip"—navigating homelessness while managing undiagnosed mental health struggles. Reid offers a contrasting perspective, discussing his entry into the scene in his late 50s and the distinction between isolated "partying" and connected "chemsex." The conversation explores the systemic failures pushing people into drug use, reframes addiction as a "super soldier" survival mode, and challenges listeners to see the human resilience beneath the stigma. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

  • Michel Foucault: Referenced in relation to "necropolitics" and power dynamics. 
  • Bosch's "Ship of Fools": A historical/philosophical reference used by Matthew to describe the displacement of marginalized people. 
09. YYZ Wisdom-Pt. 2 — Being Inside05 Feb 202600:26:46

The discussion shifts to the collision between chemsex and the criminal justice system. Reid recounts a harrowing false accusation of unlawful confinement that led to a terrifying detainment and a "negotiation with the universe" to quit meth.  Meanwhile, Matthew shares the stark reality of spending 383 days in prison following an HIV non-disclosure charge. The episode examines the lasting trauma of incarceration, offering a critique of a system that criminalizes mental health and HIV status rather than offering support. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

  • HIV Legal Network: Contextually relevant regarding HIV non-disclosure laws (though not explicitly named in the snippet, it's the implied legal framework). 
10. YYZ Wisdom-Pt. 3 — You=You05 Feb 202600:23:34

Matthew and Reid challenge traditional labels, with Matthew rejecting the term "addict" and framing his past use as a closed chapter. Reid explores how the U=U revolution (Undetectable = Untransmittable) reshaped his belonging, moving him beyond the "poz-only" safety of online groups. The conversation candidly examines the difficulty of loving an active user while maintaining one's own stability, the trap of becoming a "provider of shelter," and a humorous, honest redefinition of being "fine." 

 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

  • Prevention Access Campaign (PAC): Global non-profit organization dedicated to saving lives and ending the HIV epidemic by making Undetectable = Untransmittable (U=U) a reality for all people living with HIV. 
14. YUL Prelude — Why It’s important, Montreal10 Apr 202600:19:51

The inaugural YUL Montreal episode centers on the central question of this podcast series: Why is it important for people with lived experience of PnP/chemsex to tell their own stories in their own words? Principal investigator Olivier Ferlatte poses this to host Éric, who then gathers reflections from guests Hugues, Jean-Sébastien, Mikiki, Gabriel, Michael, and Ally.

Together, they illustrate why no single narrative can capture the complexity of chemsex. This conversation explores unfiltered storytelling, the politics of voice, and how representation challenges stigma. As a prelude to the season, it underscores how personal stories foster understanding, connection, and community.

If you’re looking for support related to chemsex, please check the list of available resources and services on the page: Chemsex resources/services.

15. YUL Solidarity-Pt.1 — Hey Eric10 Apr 202600:31:09

Olivier introduces Éric, a playwright and community advocate prominent in Montreal’s chemsex scene. Éric explains how his play, “Ces regards amoureux de garçons altérés”, captures the raw intensity of a 72-hour sauna session. Writing while active allowed him to portray the experience's complexity—not just the struggle, but the pleasure and the search for connection.

Éric also reflects on his decade-long journey to sobriety, viewing chemsex less as a problem and more as a "solution" to underlying issues at the time. He emphasizes that his past forced him to confront his truth, ultimately allowing him to be fully present for others today. If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

 

16. YUL Solidarity-Pt.2 — Montreal PnP Community10 Apr 202600:30:24

Éric and Olivier discuss Montreal's unique party landscape, where "progressive" vibes and 24/7 bathhouses foster an openness to substance use. Éric critiques the city’s fragile support systems, highlighting a reliance on short-term funding rather than a permanent strategy for long-term recovery. 

Looking ahead, Éric previews upcoming panels on art and advocacy while candidly discussing the difficulty of finding trans and gender-diverse guests. He links this challenge to his own journey, revealing how recovery helped him embrace his non-binary identity after years of using drugs to escape rigid gender standards. The episode concludes with a call to move from fear toward compassion and action. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

  • REZO: A Montreal-based community organization offering health and wellness services to gay, bisexual, cis, and trans men. 
  • CRDM: Centre de réadaptation en dépendance de Montréal 

 

17. YUL Creativity-Pt. 1 — Hey Gabriel17 Apr 202600:29:18

Montreal host Éric introduces Gabriel, a fashion designer who transforms trauma into cathartic art. They discuss his graduate collection, "SØRRY MØM," which uses a flood metaphor to depict recovery from crystal meth. The designs progress from dark, suffocating silhouettes representing the "deep end" to lighter tones symbolizing the imperfect nature of healing. 

They also explore "HONEYCUM," which uses bee symbolism to address his HIV diagnosis. Gabriel reflects on the emotional intensity of sharing such vulnerable work on the runway, highlighting how creative expression serves as a vital tool for processing shame and finding purpose amidst struggle. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

Browse Gabriel's Work: 

18. YUL Creativity-Pt. 2 — Hey Mikiki17 Apr 202600:29:37

Montreal host Éric introduces performance artist Mikiki, whose journey from "baby anarchist" to queer health activist informs their provocative work. Mikiki discusses video as an anti-market medium for activism and how complex PTSD led them to prioritize art over traditional employment. 

They explore Mikiki’s video "Red Flags: A Love Letter," which reframes injection drug use through a neutral or positive lens. The conversation captures the communal reality of chemsex and the underground’s "glamour," framing creative expression as a survival strategy while navigating substance use. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

Browse Mikiki's work: 

19. YUL Creativity-Pt. 3 — The Trauma Llama17 Apr 202600:33:38

Éric, Gabriel, and Mikiki explore the tension between suffering and pleasure in chemsex, challenging the narrative that addiction stems solely from pain. They reflect on how substance use initially served as an "antidote" to perfectionism and trauma before spiraling into shame and isolation. 

The group discusses art's role in processing these experiences; Gabriel shares how his "DEAR VICKY" collection mourns his life before HIV while pivoting toward hope. Mikiki emphasizes curiosity over judgment and the value of humor. The episode concludes by urging listeners to embrace creative expression as a vital means of connection and survival. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

20. YUL Creativity-Pt. 4 — Body-ody-ody!17 Apr 202600:30:37

Éric, Gabriel, and Mikiki explore the body’s role in addiction and recovery. Éric shares how traditional 12-step programs failed him until he embraced drug use as a somatic experience rather than just a mental one. This shift transformed his creative process, allowing him to write from bodily intuition and move beyond past darkness. 

The group also discusses sexual intimacy after chemsex, critiquing recovery services that prescribe celibacy without guidance on reclaiming pleasure. They highlight a "somatic training" pilot project where participants explore sensation without performance pressure to re-map physical connection. The episode concludes by advocating for compassion and curiosity over fear-based drug education. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

21. YUL Heritage-Pt. 1 — Hey Hugues & Jean-Sébastien24 Apr 202600:30:07

Montreal Host Éric introduces Hugues and Jean-Sébastien to discuss the intersections of queer history, community, sex and substance use. Hugues, a researcher of queer spaces, shares his experience in PnP culture viewed through a lens of strict moderation. Jean-Sébastien, founder of "Ça prend un village," discusses his transition from addiction to recovery advocacy, highlighting the power of real stories to counter fear-based narratives. 

The group explores the link between HIV diagnosis and chemsex, with Hugues revealing how he once saw crystal meth as a potential "exit strategy." Jean-Sébastien echoes this, describing using drugs to navigate downfall on his own terms. Together, they unpack the history of "poz circles" as a sanctuary for sexuality free from stigma, ultimately finding that community connection. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services.

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

Ça prend un village (It Takes A Village): 4 testimonials from people who share their personal stories and explain how they came to build their own crystal meth recovery village. FOR guys in recovery, made BY guys in recovery. (In French only)  Relation toxique : portraits d’une dépendance (Toxic relationship: portraits of addiction): This podcast delves into the experiences of a dependent person. With testimonials from Mélanie, Jean-Sébastien, and Christian, this podcast dissects the stages of this ecstatic and devastating relationship. (In French only) PLDI : The Positive Leadership Development Institute: Organization that offers people living with HIV an opportunity to identify and develop their leadership and resilience skills in a safe environment by and for PLHIV.

22. YUL Heritage-Pt. 2 — Party Politics24 Apr 202600:31:03

Éric, Hugues, and Jean-Sébastien explore the evolution of queer spaces—from clandestine origins to modern venues centered on sensuality or sobriety. They discuss a post-COVID shift toward more diverse ways to meet and connect. 

The group delves into how sex functions as a tool for validation, often using substances to navigate the vulnerability of intimacy. Hugues frames queer joy as political resistance against heteronormativity. They conclude by examining chemsex as a "great equalizer," momentarily stripping away the competitiveness of the gay scene and offering respite from social anxiety. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

The Village: Podcast by CBC Listen (2019-2025). The Village investigates unresolved — and often underreported — cases of missing and murdered individuals in queer communities across Canada and beyond.  

Unlimited intimacy: Reflections on the subculture of barebacking: Book by Dean, T. (2009). University of Chicago Press.  

The four reasons we love meth: Article by Fox, L. (2021, June 29). Medium.   

23. YUL Heritage-Pt. 3 — I Rise, We Rise24 Apr 202600:29:37

Éric, Hugues, and Jean-Sébastien discuss the community response to chemsex. Jean-Sébastien critiques treating addiction as a personal failure, advocating for a collective, skilled approach instead. They highlight gaps in healthcare systems not designed for queer lives and the need for non-judgmental spaces where people can truly be heard. 

Looking ahead, Hugues calls for sustainable solutions that honor community resilience. Jean-Sébastien addresses the ambivalence—fascination mixed with fear—surrounding chemsex, stressing honest dialogue over scare tactics. The episode concludes by emphasizing that true recovery lies in rebuilding bridges and supporting one another. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

Ça prend un village (It Takes A Village): 4 testimonials from people who share their personal stories and explain how they came to build their own crystal meth recovery village. FOR guys in recovery, made BY guys in recovery. (In French only) 

The velvet rage: Overcoming the pain of growing up gay in a straight man's world (2nd ed.). Book by Downs, A. (2012). Lifelong books. 

24. YUL Plurality-Pt. 1 — Hey Ally & Michael01 May 202600:28:43

Montréal Host Éric introduces Ally and Michael to center gender-diverse voices in the chemsex conversation. Éric connects his drug use to his non-binary identity, discussing how gender dysphoria and a lack of affirming care can make substances a survival mechanism. Michael explains using chemsex to cope with transition-related isolation and to disconnect from bodily anxiety.  Ally shares their journey from a religious background to Canada, where chemsex initially offered an escape from shame to explore identity. Together, they reflect on substance use as a temporary "solution" to a lack of validation, eventually realizing how these experiences helped them identify their authentic selves and what they needed to live truly. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services.

25. YUL Plurality-Pt. 2 — Gender Play01 May 202600:25:32

Éric, Ally, and Michael examine performative gender pressures. Éric used chemsex to escape hyper-masculinity while briefly embodying its "super version." Ally similarly built a masculine persona for acceptance but eventually used these experiences to peel back those layers and reject external validation. 

The group also discusses how identity impacts relationships. Michael highlights the difficulty of finding authentic connection as a trans man in hypersexualized scenes, choosing to de-center sex for his mental health. Ally emphasizes that regular partners provided a safety net, protecting her from the fetishization and risks gender-diverse people often face in anonymous settings. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

26. YUL Plurality-Pt. 3 — Unapologetically01 May 202600:26:20

Éric, Ally, and Michael address the lack of support and visibility for gender-diverse individuals in the chemsex scene. Éric emphasizes that amplifying these rare voices is essential to breaking isolation for those who feel unseen. 

The group also critiques alienating, abstinence-only recovery models, instead celebrating the emergence of inclusive harm-reduction alternatives. They conclude by advocating for a diverse "safety net" of resources—offering multiple paths to health so fewer people fall through the cracks. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services.

27. YHZ Prelude — Why It's Important, Halifax08 May 202600:08:47

In this prelude to the YHZ Halifax series, this episode centers on the central question of this podcast series: Why is it important for people with lived experience of PnP/chemsex to tell their own stories in their own words? 

First, Olivier Ferlatte, the principal investigator of Chemstories, asks the question to Halifax Host Andrew who emphasizes that lived experience is a powerful tool for empathy and destigmatization. Andrew then asks the same question to his guests Steven, James, Harry and Hector whose reflections set the tone for the episodes to come. 

Together, their voices underscore that visibility is key to building a supportive community where no one has to navigate the challenges of chemsex alone. They hope their stories will not only foster personal connections but also drive the creation of more effective, compassionate policies and support systems.

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

28. YHZ Activism — Hey Andrew08 May 202600:27:40

In the inaugural episode of the YHZ Halifax flights, Investigator Olivier introduces local host Andrew, whose personal journey from daily chemsex use to becoming a key advocate in Nova Scotia shapes the conversation. He candidly addresses the "internalized homophobia" often found in more rural or industrial areas of the East Coast, which can drive chemsex further underground. He discusses a desire to reclaim the narrative around chemsex in smaller cities where privacy is scarce, and stigma runs high. 

Andrew highlights the unique challenges of the Halifax scene, and the lack of dedicated support services leaves many navigating their use in isolation. The episode delves into his efforts to fill these gaps, from running pilot harm reduction projects to creating an online resource hub. Ultimately, Andrew hopes the podcast will challenge the misconception that chemsex equals a "messy" life, instead showcasing the agency, complexity, and humanity of those involved. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

Andrew’s Web site : Coming Spring 2026 

Matthew Numer (Dalhousie University) :  

Philip Joy (Mount Saint Vincent University) :   

G-emergency Response

29. YHZ Resilience-Pt. 1 — Hey Steven & James15 May 202600:33:04

Halifax host Andrew opens a challenging yet necessary conversation with guests Steven and James, focusing on the intersection of chemsex, consent, and sexual trauma.

Steven, five years into recovery, shares how early experiences of sexual abuse created a "gateway" not just to substance use, but to a pattern of seeking out sexual encounters as a way to regain a sense of control. He describes how substances became tools to facilitate intimacy yet ultimately led to reliving past traumas. James explains how substances lowered his inhibitions enough to express desires that were often self-destructive, rooted in a deep sense of unworthiness.

The discussion highlights specificities of the Halifax scene, where an interconnected community means that encounters aren't truly anonymous, leading to the reality of potentially encountering people with personal connections in vulnerable settings.  

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

30. YHZ Resilience-Pt. 2 — Giving Grace15 May 202600:31:27

In this second chapter of the YHZ Resilience flight, Halifax host Andrew guides Steven and James through a raw discussion on the complex intersection of trauma, shame, and recovery.

James opens up about how a strict religious upbringing led him to repress childhood abuse, and later, how chemsex became a way to enact a self-fulfilling prophecy of being "reduced to just a sex object". Steven explains how relapsing can feel doubly shameful when paired with experiences of sexual assault that occur during use, making it easier to "sweep under the rug" rather than face judgment. 

The conversation shifts to the limitations of current support systems, critiquing traditional recovery models for their rigidity and lack of space to discuss sexual trauma openly. James describes finding solace in an Anonymous group initially but ultimately stepping away, finding more empowerment in personal accountability and therapy. Steven dreams of a recovery space specifically informed about chemsex. 

The episode concludes with a powerful reflection on self-compassion, advising listeners to replace shame with curiosity. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

 

🔗 Other Resources Mentioned 

Centre for Addiction and Mental Health (CAMH) 

Direction 180 : non-profit community-based opioid treatment program located in Halifax, Nova Scotia.

 

 

31. YHZ Maturity-Pt. 1 — Hey Harry & Hector21 May 202600:30:06

Halifax host Andrew introduces Harry and Hector, two older participants whose experiences challenge the typical narrative of youth and recklessness often associated with chemsex.

Hector, who began using drugs in his mid-50s after retiring, candidly discusses the unexpected slide from isolation to regular use. Harry, with a 20-year history of use, reflects on the "allure" of crystal meth—a "powerful drug" that heightened sexuality in a way no other substance could. 

The conversation explores the unique dynamics of the Halifax scene compared to larger metropolitan areas. They discuss the "stigma within substances", and the challenges of managing privacy in a smaller city where everyone knows your business.

The episode also touches on intergenerational dynamics, with both guests reflecting on the transactional nature of encounters with younger men, often navigating the blurred lines between genuine attraction and the expectation of being a provider. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

32. YHZ Maturity-Pt. 2 — I Know What I Am22 May 202600:29:59

In this second and last segment of the YHZ Maturity flight, Halifax host Andrew concludes his conversation with Harry and Hector, focusing on the intersection of aging, HIV, and chemsex.

The guests discuss how living with HIV has evolved, with U=U (Undetectable = Untransmittable) and PrEP fundamentally changing the landscape of sexual health and intimacy. However, they note a lingering disconnect in the party community, where discussions about status are often skipped entirely in favor of antiretrovirals and substance use. 

The trio also tackles the scarcity of support services in Atlantic Canada, contrasting it with the accessibility found in larger cities. They share personal strategies for maintaining balance, such as the importance of setting boundaries. 

The episode wraps up with a nuanced reflection on whether they would recommend chemsex to others, balancing the undeniable pleasure and connection it offers against the risks and consequences. 

If you’re looking for support, please explore our list of Chemsex resources/services. 

 

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