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| 14. making a home on the internet | 11 Sep 2024 | 00:26:44 | |
inhabiting a home on the internet is really about making space to be yourself, in public. you resist the digital flattening of the self and, instead, grow a wild ecosystem. how? first, through committing to your creative practice. in this episode, we’ll explore:
🌱 additional resources build a labyrinth, not a funnel house on the webs: introduction the internet as a creative practice ~ 🌀 explore creative systems course 🪷 inquire about advising sessions 💧 water my world 💌 sign up for my letters | |||
| 13. the anatomy of a digital world | 03 Sep 2024 | 00:26:20 | |
this week, I’ll deconstruct and translate the concept of website as digital world into concrete design elements, and give you a poetic reframing of how to think about each piece of your website under the philosophy of world-building — we’ll explore:
🌱 additional resources house on the webs: introduction ~ 🌸 read the text transcript of this episode 🗺️ visit me on my website-world 💌 sign up for my weekly newsletter | |||
| 04. how do I survive as a creative and not hate myself? | 12 Mar 2024 | 00:20:28 | |
this week's chapter on my wayfinding journey is about my years of the creative hustle, in which I tortured myself with the question: “how do I survive as a creative, and not hate myself?" I’ll explore:
this is about my Jump #3: from new creative entrepreneur trying to follow a 10-step plan of "shoulds"… to jumping into the void of my artist-hermit self. -- read the text for this podcast episode visit me on my website-world sign up for my weekly newsletter | |||
| 03. this is a one way road | 05 Mar 2024 | 00:19:34 | |
A very personal account of the extreme feelings that lead me to quit my full time / part time jobs, and commit to working for myself. This is a continuation of my series on wayfinding (my series of jumps into the void), featuring Jump #2: from aspiring writer with a 9-5 job — to deciding to become an entrepreneur. I’ll explore these topics:
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| 02. throwing away the iron rice bowl | 28 Feb 2024 | 00:21:41 | |
the "Iron Rice Bowl" is a Chinese metaphor for job security and stability (aka, what we, as artists and entrepreneurs, didn’t exactly choose.) this is a beginning of a series about wayfinding, in which I’ll share the phases of my own decade long journey, from (almost) the very beginning. I’m unveiling the ghosts of my head, and untangling a few themes:
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| 01. hello friend, welcome | 15 Feb 2024 | 00:15:25 | |
an introduction; an opening of themes and unspooling of threads: 🌱 botanical -- plant life as a metaphor for creation 🪁 studies -- a way of curiosity, growth, and discovery 🏕 internet -- a space to inhabit, build, and be 🪼 magic -- the power of energetics and creativity *** read text and notes for this podcast episode visit me on my website-world sign up for my weekly newsletter | |||
| 12. your website is not a brochure | 22 Aug 2024 | 00:18:48 | |
why your website doesn’t have to be a brochure that compartmentalizes your infinite self — into three glossy pages. I’ll put these two frameworks side by side: “website as brochure” vs. “website as a digital garden-home-world”, and explore:
~ 🌱 additional resources infinite possibilities for a digital world how to build a world: a cyclical guide why world-building is wealth-building the internet i long to visit, inhabit, and build ~ 🌀 explore creative systems course 🪷 inquire about advising sessions 💧 water my world 💌 sign up for my letters | |||
| 11. the joy of missing out on platforms | 15 Aug 2024 | 00:21:08 | |
this episode is about my approach to cultivating a creative and business life outside of all social/content platforms (including Substack and Youtube) -- and feeling excited about it. this is not a critique of platforms so much as a portrait of alternative possibilities: we’ll explore:
🌱 additional resources how I share my work as an introverted artist off the grid: leaving social media without losing all your clients build a world, not an audience why world-building is wealth-building ~ 🏡 explore house on the webs course 🌀 explore creative systems course 🪷 inquire about advising sessions 💧 water my world 💌 sign up for my letters | |||
| 10. sharing your work as creative release | 08 Aug 2024 | 00:22:54 | |
on a radically different way to relate to sharing your work on the internet — how to see sharing as a part of the creative process, not separate from it. I’ll explore the shifts in perspective that unlocked the act of showing up as myself, in public. we’ll explore:
I’ll explain why I think sharing your work is NOT about the audience, or for “the other” — it’s first and foremost — for ourselves, and our creative flow. ~ 🏡 explore house on the webs course 🌀 explore creative systems course 🪷 inquire about advising sessions 💧 water my world 💌 sign up for my letters | |||
| 09. the internet as a creative practice | 01 Aug 2024 | 00:16:01 | |
this week’s episode is about inhabiting yourself on the internet — by relating to it as a public vessel for your ongoing creative self. I’ll explore:
this episode is an expansion of a post I wrote a few months ago with the same title. ~ 🏡 explore house on the webs course 🌀 explore creative systems course 🪷 inquire about advising sessions 💧 water my world 💌 sign up for my letters | |||
| 08. make art for no audience | 18 Jul 2024 | 00:24:10 | |
this episode is all about deconstructing and letting go of the pressure to “build an audience.” I’ll disentangle the practice of being an artist — from the byproduct of having an audience — and share how finding freedom from that pressure creates a well of personal power (and paradoxically, will magnetize your audience). we'll explore:
build a world, not an audience the obscurus as a wounded artist child ~ 🌸 read the text transcript of this episode 🗺️ visit me on my website-world 💌 sign up for my weekly newsletter | |||
| 07. the process is the way | 12 Jul 2024 | 00:17:53 | |
this is my guiding principle 101: my devotion to process. I’ll unpack why I believe that process is the magic key to anything you want to create— in art, business, money, and the self. I explore:
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| 06. at home in the world as my artist self | 02 Apr 2024 | 00:16:48 | |
this is my last chapter of sharing my wayfinding journey (for now) — in which I share how I stopped traveling, decided to make a home in Istanbul, and slowly learned to show up as my artist self — in relationship, and in the world. I’ll untangle:
this episode is about integration, metamorphosis, and the act of returning to the world — and allowing myself to be seen. -- read the text transcript of this episode visit me on my website-world sign up for my weekly newsletter | |||
| 05. the wandering way of the artist hermit | 19 Mar 2024 | 00:20:21 | |
this episode is about leaping into the void. then, living in the leaps. I share my story of leaving NYC, slow traveling the world during a pandemic, and the treasures I found, deep within my artist-hermit self.
this is Chapter 4 of my wayfinding journey, in which I gave myself the medicine, deprogramming, and creative/spiritual retreat I so desperately needed, and, in the process, discovered within me an inexhaustible power and desire to make art, no matter what. 🌸 -- read the text transcript of this episode visit me on my website-world sign up for my weekly newsletter | |||
| 17. transcendence of a productivity addict | 14 Mar 2025 | 00:23:58 | |
I spent many years needing to feel “productive” everyday — a word that was programmed into me, and which I clung to — but which felt wholly insufficient in trying to measure creative work, especially when self-employed. in this episode, I’ll tell you my journey — from being a productivity addict, to rejecting all imposed structures, to slowly, over time, reimagining what a sustainable, regenerative system actually looks and feels like. I made this podcast shortly after creating my zine, in preparation for teaching a new course, Creative Systems. 📓 Zine: Deconstructing the Productivity Machine (download) 🪺 Creative Systems Course (self-paced study)
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| 16. digital presence is a place | 04 Feb 2025 | 00:10:35 | |
hello again, after a few months break. during my retreat, I thought a lot about what being "present" online means. I'll propose that digital presence isn't dependent on your labor or content production, but about cultivating a digital container that holds your energy. I'll explore:
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| 15. no fear of being seen | 15 Oct 2024 | 00:14:55 | |
on untangling the fear of being seen -- and understanding where the desire to hide (in your creative work, life, or your digital expressions) comes from, and exploring how to release it. we'll dive into: the practice of un-hiding yourself the tension of being different being present is more important than being public deliberately curating your safe zones facing your imaginary shadow gaze why making art in public -- IS the practicing seeing yourself becoming the loving, attentive gaze ~ 🌱 additional resources the internet as a creative practice ~ 🏡 explore house on the webs course 🌀 explore creative systems course 🪷 inquire about advising sessions 💧 water my world 💌 sign up for my letters | |||
| 19. autumn itinerary for the unknown | 12 Sep 2025 | 00:15:58 | |
hello there, after a summer. this episode is on why being with the unknown is at the heart and core of all imaginative, wilderness work -- through your inner life, creative life, digital life, and business. today, I'll share my syllabus-itinerary for navigating uncertainty through the autumnal astrological archetypes of Libra, Scorpio, and Sagittarius -- aka, how to hold complex truths, walk through the darkness, and find joy in the quest. - this is my itinerary for the first season of Labyrinth Library -- an ongoing seasonal community and teaching vessel for mystery work. we begin September 29. explore more here. mentioned: truth is a glittering glacier the visual slides of this episode (youtube) ~ 🏡 visit my website 🌳 explore my courses & offerings 💌 receive my letters | |||
| 18. digital silence as practice | 29 Mar 2025 | 00:20:20 | |
this is about escaping the noise of platforms and constant connectivity. I reflect on why acclimating to digital silence can feel stark, lonely, and hard, at first. it's like how the body feels on "airplane mode," or when when waking up in a forest after a decade in a cramped city apartment. in this episode, I explore how and why platforms (by design) turn us into static noise. I share my personal experiments on digital minimalism and solitude -- as a way of practicing more presence and here/now-ness, wherever you are. this is a meditation on digital silence as a rich landscape, showing you a deeper way into the self. related 12 experiments in digital freedom (from 2020, in Japan) a day without screens (2020) why I don't use email or social media before noon (from 2016, back when I was still on social) ~ 🏡 explore house on the webs course 🌀 explore creative systems course 🪷 inquire about advising sessions 💧 water my world 💌 receive my letters | |||
| 21. doubt is my companion monster | 21 Oct 2025 | 00:18:13 | |
I've had a very long, tumultuous relationship with self-doubt -- as my number one enemy, a villianous monster, a generous teacher, a loyal friend, and a companion for the twisty, dark paths of the creative life. today, I'll share my own relationship with doubt, and offer a reframe for what doubt is -- not as contamination, or poison, not as something to fight or run away from, but as a essential friction for your life. I'll suggest a 3 part practice to work with doubt -- by creating spaciousness and containers to hold it, and to keep moving forwards, even (or especially) with doubt by your side. ~ 🦋 explore labyrinth library ✨ imagine a liminal leap 🌳 browse my courses 🗺️ visit my web world 💌 receive my letters | |||
| 20. clarity is a bird I follow home | 14 Oct 2025 | 00:13:46 | |
there is a difference between wanting clarity, and wanting permission. or certainty. or safety. clarity isn't something external that I wait to happen to me (like good weather conditions), but a moving, fluid energy that I'm in conversation with -- like a bird. sometimes I see it. sometimes it's gone. I'll explore why clarity feels so crucial for the pathless path, how people see me as having a lot of "clarity" (when in fact, I experience it as something different). I'll share what questions I ask myself for cultivating a deeper relationship to clarity. ~ 🦋 explore labyrinth library, a seasonal community | |||
| 34. architecting your digital abundance | 11 Mar 2026 | 00:31:40 | |
I'd like to share 5 distilled principles that transformed how I inhabit my business -- as a living ecosystem that centers my creative energy, above all else. learning, evolving, and embodying these principles took me so many years. I'll share the journey and the hard lessons I learned in the process, and map these principles onto a 12 week itinerary for my new course, Digital Abundance -- as an alchemical process for deep re-alignment and re-imagining of what your business can become, this next season. 🧧 Digital Abundance begins March 16 - referenced my business is a hammock I weave by hand ~ 💌 receive my newsletters 🌳 explore my courses ✨ visit my web world | |||
| 33. creative wealth is wealth | 07 Mar 2026 | 00:32:30 | |
today, I'm explicitly naming the paradigm shift that changed everything for me -- the belief that my creative energy is the source of my material abundance. my creativity is not a liability, a luxury, or a burden; it is my greatest resource. I'll be naming the wound -- I'll share the story of working through shame, exile, and the long, lonely journey of risking everything for a vision. I'll tell you how I came to the idea of "the artist entrepreneur," how I realized that my artist child needed to grow up, and hold the chariot reins of my life. we'll explore 4 forms of abundance -- inner,d art, web worlds, and money -- and how they feed into each other. 🧧 Digital Abundance starts March 16 - referenced the way of the artist entrepreneur why worldbuilding is wealthbuilding ~ 💌 receive my newsletters 🌳 explore my courses ✨ visit my web world | |||
| 24. underworld business practices | 02 Dec 2025 | 00:28:43 | |
the vast majority of business advice has never worked for me, not because it was wrong, but because it didn't align with my energy, and the way I wanted to exist in the world. it took me years to build my own operating system -- a model for business that didn't make me want to burn it all down, ghost everything, and just get a day job. I realized that I run my business like a super scorpio -- lunar, cyclical, waiting behind veils, operating from the depths. Far from being a weakness, that it's my greatest power. I'm calling this my"underworld business practices" -- and today, I've distilled them down into 8 parts to share with you. 🧧 explore my new course, Digital Abundance 🧃 take 7 days of Money Juice Cleanse 🦋 join Labyrinth Library, winter season ~ 💌 receive my letters | |||
| 23. i am an artist in the wild | 11 Nov 2025 | 00:17:21 | |
who gives us the right to call ourselves "artists"? where do you source your sense of legitimacy and validity from? how do you face the voices of imposter syndrome and not-enoughness? in this episode, we'll unpack the gap between self-perception, other-perception, and the daily process/practice of being an artist. I'll share why claiming yourself as an artist in the wild -- beyond all institutional validation -- is the most powerful thing you can do. you don't owe anyone an explanation. 🧧 explore my new course, Digital Abundance 🧃 take 7 days of Money Juice Cleanse 🦋 join Labyrinth Library, winter season ~ 💌 receive my letters 🗺️ visit my web world ✨ 1:1 advising ~ liminal leap 🌳 explore all my courses | |||
| 22. spiraling into your changing center | 28 Oct 2025 | 00:14:57 | |
one of the most significant shifts I've ever had is letting go of linear (ladder-like) models of external success -- in order to put my own journey, process, and energy at the center. but, how do you do that, if you don't know what's at your center, or if your center is always changing? I'll explore facets of this question through the metaphor of a labyrinth as journey -- how to dance with seasonal cycles, moving between structure and spontaneity, and focus on just taking the next step forwards. 🦋 explore labyrinth library, a seasonal community ~ 🗺️ visit my web world 💌 receive my letters ✨ 1:1 advising ~ liminal leap 🌳 explore my courses | |||
| 32. business words I never use | 27 Feb 2026 | 00:30:09 | |
when thinking (or talking) about my business, there's at least twenty words I don't use -- many of them super basic, like "marketing," "sales," "landing page," "launch," or "productivity" ... even "goals." I've rewritten my own creative business dictionary -- because language shapes our relationship to our worlds. I'll list the words, and tell you what words I use instead. rewriting my language helps me recreate my entire paradigm -- to create a business that values agency over manipulation, ecosystem webs over linear metrics -- and grow a system that I actually love, and want to live in. 🧧 Digital Abundance starts March 16 - referenced transcendence of the productivity addict build a labyrinth, not a funnel ~ 💌 receive my newsletters 🌳 explore my courses ✨ visit my web world | |||
| 31. community as creative practice | 14 Feb 2026 | 00:23:58 | |
I love making art in the void, and I've felt called to build a community. this calling is probably precisely because I have such a complicated relationship with community. I've run away from them. I've chosen self-exile. I've swung from hyper-independence to over-responsibility. in this episode, I'll share how I'm thinking of shaping my community as creative companionship, bounded by shared questing. I'll explore my four guiding values for a community -- like caring for a garden, weaving a dream catcher, or making an infinite feast. A community can be a living creative practice that feeds our inner worlds. * 🦋 join Labyrinth Library, starting Feb 16 🧧 explore Digital Abundance, starting March 16 - referenced a hermit growing creative community ~ 💌 receive my newsletters 🌳 explore my courses ✨ visit my web world | |||
| 30. spring itinerary for the unknown | 11 Feb 2026 | 00:22:38 | |
today is an atmospheric map for our slow transition from winter into spring — through the archetypes of Pisces, Aries, and Taurus. we'll explore how to work with these energies in deepening into the creative life. I'll share why thinking in seasons has become such an important practice for me, and my intentions for this coming season, along with personal life context. we'll dive into the three archetypes and their grounding theme words: Pisces (dreaming), Aries (instinct), Taurus (embodying), as well as the questions they invite us to contemplate. this itinerary is the 12 week map for season 2 of Labyrinth Library, which opens Monday. * 🦋 join Labyrinth Library, 🧧 explore Digital Abundance, starting March 16 🧃 take 7 days of Money Juice Cleanse ~ 💌 receive my newsletters 🌳 explore my courses ✨ visit my web world | |||
| 29. the work is the medicine you need. | 10 Feb 2026 | 00:19:13 | |
this is about trusting in the work you need, and how creating from necessity is a form of creative power, because it keeps you close to what's vital, alive, and electric -- more than any "should" energy ever could. I'll explore how generative discomfort can be used as fuel for excavating creative potential, and how to sense into what's ready to be metabolized -- into medicine. I'll share concrete examples from my 11 years of obsessions, and leave you with questions to contemplate. * 🦋 join Labyrinth Library 🧧 explore my March course, Digital Abundance 🧃 take 7 days of Money Juice Cleanse ~ mentioned: ~ 💌 receive my newsletters 🌳 explore my courses ✨ visit my web world | |||
| 28. money as creative practice | 24 Jan 2026 | 00:31:39 | |
changing your relationship to money is not a 10 step checklist, it's tending to an ongoing practice -- with curiosity and tenderness -- as you do with your creative work. I'll share my own personal stories and significant reframes -- money as a circle, as feminine force, as a child of your creative energy. I'll walk you through my 7 practices for working with money -- and invite you to see money as a portal for working with your sense of resourcedness, enoughness, worthiness to receive, and your power to claim what you desire. * 🧃 take 7 days of Money Juice Cleanse 🧧 explore my new course, Digital Abundance 🦋 join Labyrinth Library, winter season ~ mentioned: money is a circle, process, practice creative energy is the mother of money ~ 💌 receive my newsletters 🌳 explore my courses ✨ visit my web world | |||
| 27. make art the center of your world | 19 Jan 2026 | 00:19:52 | |
part 3 of a mini-series remember that your art is not an afterthought -- it is the center that holds everything. it's the life source that feeds your creative world. in this episode, I'll examine the ways we're taught to think about the binary of art vs. business -- and propose my third way of deep integration. this means allowing your artist child to grow up -- and claim their voice, power, and leadership in the material world. I'll share how two forms of artist energy can exist in a business, and the importance of creating containers that actually allow your creative self to thrive. I'll leave you with guiding questions to consider on how to integrate your artist energy into your work. * 🧃 take 7 days of Money Juice Cleanse 🧧 explore my new course, Digital Abundance 🦋 join Labyrinth Library, winter season ~ mentioned: the way of the artist entrepreneur make art for no audience (EP. 8) ~ 💌 receive my newsletters ✨ visit my web world 🌳 explore my courses | |||
| 26. make an offering, weave your web | 16 Jan 2026 | 00:27:10 | |
part 2 of a mini-series when tending to my business, I bring it back to two practices -- making offerings, and weaving my web. I share how I think about offerings as sacred containers, organic shapes, and potent distillations of your creative energy -- into usable form. I'll talk about weaving your web as an energetically efficient, long-term strategy that builds your body of work, and invites people into your world. this episode is about all perspective shifts -- to reimagining business as a generative, potent creative practice. * 🧃 take 7 days of Money Juice Cleanse 🧧 explore my new course, Digital Abundance 🦋 join Labyrinth Library, winter season ~ mentioned: my business is a hammock I weave by hand the way of the artist entrepreneur build a labyrinth, not a funnel ~ 💌 receive my newsletters ✨ visit my web world 🌳 explore my courses | |||
| 25. make the work, share the work | 08 Jan 2026 | 00:23:26 | |
to begin the new year, I’m creating a 3 part mini-series with grounding anchors; minimalist instructions for navigating the uncertainties of the creative life. when in doubt, or overwhelmed, or stuck in overthinking, all you need to focus on is this — make the work, share the work. this is the equivalent of (in meditation), returning to the body, and the breath. I’ll explore my 4 guiding principles (agency, process/pleasure, regenerativity, authenticity), and we’ll discuss the nuance of each word — what is “work?” what does it mean to “make?” what does “sharing” mean? my hope is that this episode will give you a gentle nudge to just do / make / share the damn thing — and learn your way in the process — whatever your thing is. 🧃 take 7 days of Money Juice Cleanse 🧧 explore my new course, Digital Abundance 🦋 join Labyrinth Library, winter season ~ 💌 receive my newletters ✨ visit my web world 🌳 explore my courses | |||