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Servant to Time, or Time Serving Me? - No Time, No Problem?02 Oct 202601:34:32
Nature’s State of Flow and the Flow State - No Time, No Problem?25 Sep 202601:55:51
Flow in Being: Change before Time - No Time, No Problem?18 Sep 202602:09:03

Heraclitus is famous for the paraphrasing of "you can't step in the same river twice." All is flux. Everything is changing. And Aristotle found this view — everything is flux, everything is flow, everything is process — as quite concerning for the endeavor of what he cared so deeply about, which is coming to understand and know something about anything. If the very same river that you're stepping into is just all this ever-changing flow of waters, then there's not a thing that you can come to say anything about, there's not a thing that you can come to know. And so Aristotle — and philosophy for the coming millennia — would take this form: he said that there are substances. Underlying substances — like the substance of a horse that then can change position, or the substance of a pizza that can go from hot to cold — that there's some underlying thing, and that underlying thing can have changes in properties in time. And actually, isn't that what change is? Change is the sense of, something had this one property at one moment in time, then, a later moment in time, this substance has a different property. And if that substance is the self, then you've got the identity of you, as some self, that is over and above all this flow and flux of ever-changing things. So maybe, instead, we could see what it would be like to put change before time. Before thinking about time, before thinking about clocks — there's change. There's changing. Actually, the title of my paper is "Change Before Time." And we just see what happens to entities when we put change before time. Do they stay as substances? Or is there this way that they reveal themselves more to be like processes, as soon as we begin to really put change first?

So, as we've talked about in this series — in Dr. Park's work Essential Reality and Time — descriptions of how nature works, so far as we know, lead us to what is minimally required to be part of a reality view: what is needed is initial conditions. So what's required is that we not only have a thing at one position, but that there's change — velocity intrinsic to a moment. So we're taking this minimal view of what is needed to have all the empirical effects from physics and finding that the being of something includes the flow of changing.

I can just imagine Aristotle going, "oh my goodness. I wanted so much to be able to know." And millennia later, he could see in physics that this changing is not actually a threat to knowledge; that coming out of this physics knowledge is actually the way that changing can be inherent in being. Changing is inherent in being. Maybe that even sounds like a more radical form of impermanence — not just that, oh, something is the way it is now, and then it's gonna change, it's gonna be impermanent — but impermanence baked in to the very being of everything.

Maybe something we will play with is the existence of breathing. What is our experience, actually, of breathing? How might there be a meditation experience where it almost feels like the breath dissolves on us — even as we might be experiencing the breath more fully than we ever have? And if that can be so for the breath, maybe that can be so for what we call the self. How that's not going to make us not breathe, not going to negate our existence, nor is it a negation of the nose that the teacher can pinch to make that point. Yet maybe some of that dissolving can be part of what eases our suffering.

No Time, No Problem?
An Honest Look at “Timelessness” in Physics and Living

What if there’s no time—and that’s not a problem for physics? What if there’s no time—could that be a solution for our suffering?

Rather than offering answers of what to think, this series offers ways of thinking that can move us past the pressures we put on ourselves: from the “should” of trying to “be present” to the “should” of being 4D spacetime worms to be compatible with relativity! Somewhere between those “shoulds,” I got stuck until physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park showed me how to think about nature simply, livably. Each session includes an hour-long meditation practice, where we get to try on different conceptions and perceptions of time to discover how equivalently valid options that physics provides can impact our levels of illusion and freedom. We’ll be reading together from a few sources—such as Wonchull Park’s Essential Reality & Time, Carlo Rovelli’s The Order of Time, Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now, Dogen’s Shobogenzo Uji—to deeply question the role(s) of time in our lives. Looking forward to our discoveries.


Thank you for Being with Being.

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mackenziehawkins.substack.com





No Self in Time: A Way in to “No Self”? - No Time, No Problem?11 Sep 202601:44:50

How can we talk about "no problem" — perhaps interpreted as no suffering, cessation of suffering as extra layers that we add on to the human experience — and not get into the very origin of Buddhism? What the Buddha taught, in his first rolling of the wheel of the Dharma, the Four Noble Truths.

But does this have anything, really, to do with "no time"? I remember, in college, I was in a Buddhist philosophy course, and the professor really went out of his way to make a point that this modern emphasis — of the present-moment experience, or the "be here now" — is hardly at all in the original sutras. What's up with that?

Each age has its own language, its own concerns, its own hotspots. Maybe this same gist of what we have been exploring is running through it all, but not explicitly. "Everything that is liable to arise is liable to cease." So there's no mention of time, no mention of the present moment, no explicit mention of change, yet the summary that gets the nod from the Buddha is this statement on impermanence, on change.

That anything that I might think of as myself is changing, is part of this all-together changing impermanence, arising and ceasing. There's not this self that's smeared out into the past or future as though one’s experience, in a way, "belongs" to a permanent, unchanging self in time. And that we suffer when we try to manage change — the way we want it — for a permanent-seeming self in time. So, that way, the a sense of "everything is now," or "no time," can be a way in.

No Time, No Problem?
An Honest Look at “Timelessness” in Physics and Living

What if there’s no time—and that’s not a problem for physics? What if there’s no time—could that be a solution for our suffering?

Rather than offering answers of what to think, this series offers ways of thinking that can move us past the pressures we put on ourselves: from the “should” of trying to “be present” to the “should” of being 4D spacetime worms to be compatible with relativity! Somewhere between those “shoulds,” I got stuck until physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park showed me how to think about nature simply, livably. Each session includes an hour-long meditation practice, where we get to try on different conceptions and perceptions of time to discover how equivalently valid options that physics provides can impact our levels of illusion and freedom. We’ll be reading together from a few sources—such as Wonchull Park’s Essential Reality & Time, Carlo Rovelli’s The Order of Time, Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now, Dogen’s Shobogenzo Uji—to deeply question the role(s) of time in our lives. Looking forward to our discoveries.


Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





The Immediate In-Touchness of Now-ness - No Time, No Problem?04 Sep 202601:46:20

Welcome to this ongoing exploration of no time, no problem. And today will be another day, another session of exploring a modern-day teacher, a modern spiritual teacher — Hameed Ali, founder of the Diamond Approach and author of The Unfolding Now, under the pen name of A. H. Almaas. This will be another interesting session for me personally, because this is another one of these books that I tried to read — and I got further in this one. And what was interesting is that, for a variety of reasons, some of which we'll get into today, it was not what drew me in to the Diamond Approach — even though currently I am in year three of being a student of the Diamond Approach.

Almaas was actually an engineering student, so he knows his science — and can call back to our first half, where we were diving more into some of the "no time, no problem" in physics: this way that in space-time, the more distance you travel, the less time passes. Like this trade-off in nature. The speed of light is like the speed limit for the universe. And so if you're going at the speed of light — like light is — then you're going the maximum amount of distance possible. And the trade-off means that, for the light, no time passes. No time passes for light. Whether that, even analogously, has anything to do with the timelessness of true nature — I do not know.

But we can explore for ourselves this, as Almaas writes: "The immediate in-touchness with the moment is the in-touchness with the now-ness of the moment, which is the same thing as the Being of our presence."

No Time, No Problem?
An Honest Look at “Timelessness” in Physics and Living

What if there’s no time—and that’s not a problem for physics? What if there’s no time—could that be a solution for our suffering?

Rather than offering answers of what to think, this series offers ways of thinking that can move us past the pressures we put on ourselves: from the “should” of trying to “be present” to the “should” of being 4D spacetime worms to be compatible with relativity! Somewhere between those “shoulds,” I got stuck until physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park showed me how to think about nature simply, livably. Each session includes an hour-long meditation practice, where we get to try on different conceptions and perceptions of time to discover how equivalently valid options that physics provides can impact our levels of illusion and freedom. We’ll be reading together from a few sources—such as Wonchull Park’s Essential Reality & Time, Carlo Rovelli’s The Order of Time, Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now, Dogen’s Shobogenzo Uji—to deeply question the role(s) of time in our lives. Looking forward to our discoveries.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





A Tantalizing Solution to All Suffering: If Only - No Time, No Problem?28 Aug 202601:51:50

So today we are into the second meaning of No Time, No Problem, which is: Is there some way where, if there's not this sense of time, then for us as human beings, there's no problem? In the sense of freedom from suffering. Maybe of the kind of mental extra affliction, dukkha, dissatisfaction, that can be quite enmeshed in the sense of the past — memories of what's happened to us — and the anticipation of the future.

One of the modern-day spiritual teachers who has emphasized this aspect and is quite famous is Eckhart Tolle, in The Power of Now. For those of you who are not as familiar with his story, it begins with this very personal experience, a matter of a transition that happened in a short period of time, where he went from real depths — some of the utmost of suffering — and then experienced this shift. Then he needed to find a way to explain it, put into words, to share with others this highly subjective experience. On the cover of his book: over 15 million copies sold. I'm sure it's many, many more now. And I can almost even just feel the impact of so many people finding, relating to this book, to the message of this book, and their lives being impacted by it.

And I held a copy of this book over and over again 25 years ago, and I was not one of those people who connected with it. I actually wasn't able to finish the first couple of chapters. Even the former news anchorman Dan Harris, one of the hardest skeptics on the planet who then started Ten Percent Happier, even he could get through the book and find it very helpful.

So in some ways, this exploration is also my own kind of reckoning. What it takes this N of 1 to connect to this teaching on time and suffering. If I now could sit beside my 19-year-old self and kind of hold her hand? Maybe she wouldn't let me hold her hand, actually, but be by her side as we looked at some of these passages. What would I say to her?

How would I help her find sense behind Eckhart's claims about psychological time and clock time and "life situation" and "life"?

How would I help her suffer less sooner?

No Time, No Problem?
An Honest Look at “Timelessness” in Physics and Living

What if there’s no time—and that’s not a problem for physics? What if there’s no time—could that be a solution for our suffering?

Rather than offering answers of what to think, this series offers ways of thinking that can move us past the pressures we put on ourselves: from the “should” of trying to “be present” to the “should” of being 4D spacetime worms to be compatible with relativity! Somewhere between those “shoulds,” I got stuck until physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park showed me how to think about nature simply, livably. Each session includes an hour-long meditation practice, where we get to try on different conceptions and perceptions of time to discover how equivalently valid options that physics provides can impact our levels of illusion and freedom. We’ll be reading together from a few sources—such as Wonchull Park’s Essential Reality & Time, Carlo Rovelli’s The Order of Time, Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now, Dogen’s Shobogenzo Uji—to deeply question the role(s) of time in our lives. Looking forward to our discoveries.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





No Trying to Lop Off: The Past, Present, Future Story - No Time, No Problem?21 Aug 202601:50:29

In the first half of this series, we did a big long detour into the physics, so that we could approach what various people say as beneficial and helpful — seeing them as options that can be consistent, rationally, with what we know from physics. And now we're bringing it a little bit closer to home.

Where this exploration is headed is something I've never quite seen laid out: how much we are embedded in a story of change. How much of our living, our identity, who we are and what we're doing — and what we're being, even — is really embedded in this way that we remember the past, anticipate the future. And that we need to counter this, in a way. Sam Harris says straight-up in his book Waking Up that nothing is more important for happiness than the "trite" fact that everything is now.

I kind of got the sense, for a long time, that the way to more fully be here now would be to jettison the ways we flash back to the past or flash forward to the future. Almost like a horse with blinders on — just focus on the now.

But what I'm exploring here — as I try to put into words something that has been dawning on me for many years — is that our embeddedness in these stories of change runs so much deeper than our mental chatter, or our mind wandering, or what we might even be able to catch consciously. That's not our brain doing something wrong. That's part of being a human being. Dean Buonomano calls the brain a prediction machine — remembering the past in order to predict the future, moment by moment, automatically and subconsciously. Without any conscious thought, we anticipate where a ball is going to be, based on all our past experience. If we were an athlete catching a fly ball, we'd likely just feel like we're in the zone — even though we're entirely responsive to, and flowing with, a past, present, future story that lets us act. 

One possibility of this exploration of what is at the root of this difficulty is perhaps seeing even more fully how much our enmeshment with managing change — and since change is so related to time — this sense of living in time is really so fundamental to our experience, both conscious and subconscious.

Maybe the difficulty is not that we remember, or that we anticipate. Think of a melody: without remembering the previous note, we couldn't know whether this note was higher or lower — there'd be no rhythm, no melody at all. And that remembering doesn't tend to take away from what's happening now; the previous notes add to our enjoyment of the note we're hearing. It can feel different from remembering the events of yesterday. 

So maybe the difficulty comes when we have a storyline past, a storyline future, that's a little longer, or more about ourselves. But these storylines of change themselves don't seem to be the root problem. Because if we just lopped off past and future from our storylines, there would actually be very little left of our experience. We're not going for a meditative lobotomy here.

What if we merge these two perspectives — so that the nowflow can hold, quite easily, the storylines that include past, present, future? St. Augustine called these the present past, and the present present, and the present future. Everything in that storyline is actually now. That's how we can be affected by it. That's how we can affect it. So there's this embracing of our storylines of change in the wholeness of nowflow. They don't have to seem to separate us, or make us sacrifice the wholeness of everything here and now.

No Time, No Problem?
An Honest Look at “Timelessness” in Physics and Living

What if there’s no time—and that’s not a problem for physics? What if there’s no time—could that be a solution for our suffering?

Rather than offering answers of what to think, this series offers ways of thinking that can move us past the pressures we put on ourselves: from the “should” of trying to “be present” to the “should” of being 4D spacetime worms to be compatible with relativity! Somewhere between those “shoulds,” I got stuck until physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park showed me how to think about nature simply, livably. Each session includes an hour-long meditation practice, where we get to try on different conceptions and perceptions of time to discover how equivalently valid options that physics provides can impact our levels of illusion and freedom. We’ll be reading together from a few sources—such as Wonchull Park’s Essential Reality & Time, Carlo Rovelli’s The Order of Time, Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now, Dogen’s Shobogenzo Uji—to deeply question the role(s) of time in our lives. Looking forward to our discoveries.



Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Permission to Be Simply Nowflow: Nothing Left Out - No Time, No Problem?14 Aug 202601:53:41

So much of this series has been on the side of: is it really not a problem in physics if there is no such thing as this fundamental time dimension or even a background spacetime container in which change happens?

It seems to me that wherever human beings go, and certainly human beings go into science, they bring shoulds with them. With science as this objective enterprise, it kind of makes sense that we would like a view of reality that is, in a way, a view from nowhere. Why would we want to tie our view of reality to something that is contingent on how fast the observer’s moving, or where the observer is located in space? We want to see that 4D spacetime block from nowhere inside it. We want reality to be invariant. We want it to be what it’s going to be—not a perspective on reality, but reality itself. And the power of mathematics makes it where we feel like it should be that the structure of a mathematical object like 4D spacetime—that’s what physics is telling us is real. That’s gotta be reality.

But Dr. Park just comes at this—the shoulds of how science should be—from the perspective of what is. What is it that we’ve got? What have we got to go on? In physics that at its basis is purely empirical, what we’ve got is experiments. Effects that we can replicate. And anything that relates to a valid or not valid reality view ultimately comes down to: does it have a distinguishable effect? That’s not always what we necessarily want to hear. But it opens the door for even taking our reality views themselves—this is what Dr. Park calls reality view equivalence—and see if they make a distinguishable empirical effect in the setting up, running, and measuring of an experiment. If nothing in experiment—nothing in experience—contradicts my reality view by revealing a distinguishable difference between whether I hold that view or some equivalent view, then it’s a perfectly good reality view by that criterion. It will never lead me astray in anything that can make a distinguishable effect.

What Dr. Park points to is that there’s a minimal information—position together with its changing, right at the moment—that he calls essential information, and the reality that corresponds to it, essential reality. And here’s the key: if any consistent information is added to essential information, there’s no additional effect. You can add the past. You can add the future. You can add dimensional time, or acceleration right at the moment—and none of those have any further additional effect than what’s already covered.

So we’re left with a perhaps shockingly minimal view of reality. We don’t need the entire construction of 4D spacetime. We don’t even need some kind of background structure called time. What we do need is changing that’s inherent, intrinsic, to just this moment—relational, relative changing, in 3D space. So there’s changing spatial relations, and that can be complete. 

Considering this essential reality as the whole reality is the nowflow view. We could hold this view and never encounter a contradiction, so far as we know. 

IThere’s no effect left out. There’s no effect that’s left over, left lingering, left partially here and partially not. Think about the Zen enso circle. Or Dogen—entirely worlding the entire world with the world. This is whole. Nothing left out. Nothing left over. This is it.

By showing how one moment is sufficient, essential reality gives us this option for a simpler view of reality that’s both consistent with physics and helpful in living. That’s the option.

No Time, No Problem?
An Honest Look at “Timelessness” in Physics and Living

What if there’s no time—and that’s not a problem for physics? What if there’s no time—could that be a solution for our suffering?

Rather than offering answers of what to think, this series offers ways of thinking that can move us past the pressures we put on ourselves: from the “should” of trying to “be present” to the “should” of being 4D spacetime worms to be compatible with relativity! Somewhere between those “shoulds,” I got stuck until physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park showed me how to think about nature simply, livably. Each session includes an hour-long meditation practice, where we get to try on different conceptions and perceptions of time to discover how equivalently valid options that physics provides can impact our levels of illusion and freedom. We’ll be reading together from a few sources—such as Wonchull Park’s Essential Reality & Time, Carlo Rovelli’s The Order of Time, Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now, Dogen’s Shobogenzo Uji—to deeply question the role(s) of time in our lives. Looking forward to our discoveries.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Do I Have to Be a Spacetime Worm? - No Time, No Problem?07 Aug 202601:59:28

At some level there’s the mathematics that everyone agrees on and everyone can use. But what does this mean in terms of time and spacetime?

Something I’d like to reflect on before we dive in is that there is this very human tendency—very, very human tendency—of wanting the universe, wanting reality to make sense to us, to be what we want it to be. We can want reality to be invariant. We can want what’s real for me to be what’s real for you, or else fear that we’re no longer sharing in reality. We can bring assumptions to the table without even realizing we’re bringing them. 

This is another wonderful popular book, one that I highly recommend, by Sean Carroll—The Biggest Ideas in the Universe. And if you pick up this book—and I would say most, the majority of writing including popular writing, but also philosophical writing, even physics interpretations of relativity—they will tend towards this interpretation of relativity: Sean Carroll writes: “In relativity, it’s no longer true that space and time have separate objective meanings. What really exists is spacetime.” That was the impression I got reading popular science books, even as a kid. Since only spacetime is invariant between two events, the reasoning goes, you can’t even really disentangle space from time anymore. So there’s this reification of this thing—spacetime.

And that can lead to the conclusion that became dominant after relativity came to the fore: the past, the present, and the future are equally real. Let’s take this a little further—not to torture ourselves, but to really see the impact that a view of reality can have on us. Relativity “means”—I’ll put that in quotation marks—the 4D spacetime block is real. And that “means” that you and me and our dog and our cat and any objects are actually 4D spacetime objects. Sometimes called “worms.” Only the tiniest, tiniest slice of this spacetime worm is ever at the present—that view is called perdurantism—somewhat confusingly contrasted with endurantism, which is the view that you can be wholly present at each moment of existence.

Part of this exploration can be how much we may, in our sense of our identity, our sense of suffering—even in how much we’re trying to be present—have a sense of being spread out in time. Maybe not a 4D spacetime worm, but a sense of being kind of smeared out in time. Instead, what if I don’t leave any trace of existence behind me? Nor is there one ahead. I get to be wholly in the flow of this moment. 

When we get to feel that there’s actually nothing—no dimension of any kind—that has to hold those past or future events, we can feel the wholeness that all of us is entirely held in this 3D space now. Maybe it doesn’t have to feel like a limitation. It can feel like liberation. Or just maybe a little bit more workable. A little bit more bearable, livable. 

Especially next time, we’ll get into more about how both of those views are equally valid in terms of empirical physics—both are options. And maybe you’ve already come to your own conclusions. I’ve certainly been completely unbiased in my presentation of this, as you can tell—Not! So let’s begin to explore this experientially for ourselves.

No Time, No Problem?
An Honest Look at “Timelessness” in Physics and Living

What if there’s no time—and that’s not a problem for physics? What if there’s no time—could that be a solution for our suffering?

Rather than offering answers of what to think, this series offers ways of thinking that can move us past the pressures we put on ourselves: from the “should” of trying to “be present” to the “should” of being 4D spacetime worms to be compatible with relativity! Somewhere between those “shoulds,” I got stuck until physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park showed me how to think about nature simply, livably. Each session includes an hour-long meditation practice, where we get to try on different conceptions and perceptions of time to discover how equivalently valid options that physics provides can impact our levels of illusion and freedom. We’ll be reading together from a few sources—such as Wonchull Park’s Essential Reality & Time, Carlo Rovelli’s The Order of Time, Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now, Dogen’s Shobogenzo Uji—to deeply question the role(s) of time in our lives. Looking forward to our discoveries.


Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Innumerable Clocks, Innumerable Times - No Time, No Problem?31 Jul 202601:56:14

When we look at the clock and think it is telling us THE time, then there’s the time, this abstract time that’s passing us by, and then there’s this clock. We almost don’t even think of that as a relationship. It’s almost like the abstract time that’s passing us by is driving this clock. This poor clock. Maybe driving us all. But when physics is telling us how clocks behave, and how there’s not one clock that we can say is the true time, then we’re left with this clock relative to the other clock. This particular changing thing, and that particular changing thing, and a relation between them. There is no truer time. There are two times and they change relative to each other. Neither is more “the real” time than the other.

The clocks really do run at different speeds—the faster a clock is traveling, the slower its time goes—and we couldn’t even use our GPS without accounting for that. We can’t perceive that in our own experience. That web of relations amongst this multitude of times is not something we need to usually pay attention to as we go about our daily living. But there’s such a habitual sense of checking the clock and feeling that I’m looking at “the” time—and maybe that we can begin to dismantle. Maybe this fact about clocks in relativity is something that supports us in reclaiming the flow of time into each particular changing thing that’s affecting and being affected with each other. Everything and anything can be a clock, and there’s no one clock that’s telling “the” time. Maybe everything is, in a way, its own time.

So we might come to feel the breath itself as a clock. I’m not going to say that this is the best clock ever. But this rhythm of widening and coming closer together is a kind of clock. We get to be a clock. That might not be the most inspiring thought you’ve ever had. What—I’m just a clock? Maybe feeling into the effect of getting to own “being a clock.”

What if that rhythm is only in relation to other rhythms? What if that rhythm is only in a web of other rhythms? There’s no one time that our breath is happening in. 

I’ve been so struck at how much flow time has been stealing from me. The flow of time has seemed to monopolize flow. What’s it like to feel the flow of breath in itself? A flow in this web of flows. All relative to each other. All interacting. And then in an exploration like this, it’s like this small explosion, blossoming of all these particular flows, reclaimed from the abstract sense of time passing us by.

No Time, No Problem?
An Honest Look at “Timelessness” in Physics and Living

What if there’s no time—and that’s not a problem for physics? What if there’s no time—could that be a solution for our suffering?

Rather than offering answers of what to think, this series offers ways of thinking that can move us past the pressures we put on ourselves: from the “should” of trying to “be present” to the “should” of being 4D spacetime worms to be compatible with relativity! Somewhere between those “shoulds,” I got stuck until physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park showed me how to think about nature simply, livably. Each session includes an hour-long meditation practice, where we get to try on different conceptions and perceptions of time to discover how equivalently valid options that physics provides can impact our levels of illusion and freedom. We’ll be reading together from a few sources—such as Wonchull Park’s Essential Reality & Time, Carlo Rovelli’s The Order of Time, Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now, Dogen’s Shobogenzo Uji—to deeply question the role(s) of time in our lives. Looking forward to our discoveries.


Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Being Time: Reclaiming Flow for Being - No Time, No Problem?24 Jul 202601:57:20

So I'll begin with a passage where Dogen says: "Although you never measure the length or brevity of the twelve hours, their swiftness or slowness, you still call them the twelve hours. As evidence of their going and coming is obvious, you do not come to doubt them." I remember having those school schedules — you know, your day mapped out, blocked, A period, B period, C period, and it's down to the very minute. And we can grow up in this and not have any doubts about this sense of that we are living in time. The comings and goings, the goings and comings of the passage of time can just seem quite obvious to us, so that though we might have doubts about many things, they don't necessarily tend to converge on this doubt about time passing. And today's exploration is going to be about coming to question, doubt in a way. Why we take this flow of experience and, in a way, hand it over to this flow of time, this sense that there is time passing. And then what is that time? And how does that shift my relation to my own experience once flow belongs to time rather than flow belongs to the being of what is?

Perhaps a bit unfairly, Newton usually gets the blame for the modern-day sense of why we tend to have this sense of abstract and flowing time. So he says in his opening of the Principia: "Absolute, true, and mathematical time, in and of itself, of its own nature, without reference to anything external, flows uniformly, and by another name is called duration." It's a powerful way that he was able to bring together so much of what was known piecemeal into physical theory of everything from an apple falling to the moon orbiting around us. The power of being able to model the world in this way can get us swept up in the mathematics: There is this mathematical t, this t variable, flowing, flowing in its own passage by its own nature.

And what I was hinting at before and would suggest is that the way we use time just tends towards that sense of giving the flow over to time. And this was the case, it seems, way back in the day when Aristotle was first questioning about time. He writes: "Now the most obvious thing about time is that it strikes us as some kind of passing along and changing." And then this is where he goes further than what our assumptions are. Because if I have that sense of time, everything seems to be changing in time and so time is what seems to be flowing. But he says: "If we follow this clue, we find that when any particular thing changes or moves, the movement or change is in the moving or changing thing itself and occurs only where that thing is. Whereas the passage of time is current everywhere alike and is in relation to everything."

Well, that's kind of interesting, right? So once we have the sense of time, passage and flow of time — it seems like everything, just everything is flowing, passing in time. But if we really touch in on something that's changing or in motion, it's always the particular. Always a particular thing that's moving or changing and only occurs where that thing is.

With that in mind, let's pop back over to Dogen and "Being-Time" and explore why he might say "Hence pine trees are time, so are bamboos. You should not come to understand that time is only flying past." Let's see what it's like to reclaim flow from time.

No Time, No Problem?
An Honest Look at “Timelessness” in Physics and Living

What if there’s no time—and that’s not a problem for physics? What if there’s no time—could that be a solution for our suffering?

Rather than offering answers of what to think, this series offers ways of thinking that can move us past the pressures we put on ourselves: from the “should” of trying to “be present” to the “should” of being 4D spacetime worms to be compatible with relativity! Somewhere between those “shoulds,” I got stuck until physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park showed me how to think about nature simply, livably. Each session includes an hour-long meditation practice, where we get to try on different conceptions and perceptions of time to discover how equivalently valid options that physics provides can impact our levels of illusion and freedom. We’ll be reading together from a few sources—such as Wonchull Park’s Essential Reality & Time, Carlo Rovelli’s The Order of Time, Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now, Dogen’s Shobogenzo Uji—to deeply question the role(s) of time in our lives. Looking forward to our discoveries.



Thank you for Being with Being.

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Setting Time Aside: Changing Spatial Relations - No Time, No Problem?17 Jul 202601:47:48

Today we’re actually going to start really slow. You might feel like this is the preliminary warm-up, and you can skip ahead if you’re super eager to get to the juiciness of time—because we’re actually not going to meditate or talk about time today. And the reason for that is that going into this exploration, I do think it is helpful to have some tools. And one of them is that as the perception of time more recedes, alongside that, our perception of space—changing spatial relations—is going to come out more. And the more we have a sense of changing spatial relations—well, I don’t want to give away the punchline. That might cover more than we actually expect.

So today we’re going to be in the realm of some very mundane aspects of experience. Sorry, sorry about that. Space. And the physics we’ll bring in is nothing more and nothing less than Galilean relativity. Really wonder what that’s going to get us. But maybe further down the line in this series, you can circle back and come back to this session here, and see how we really are laying the groundwork. For perception, for understanding. Maybe a little less time-dependent, that we could feel into it, know it for ourselves.

No Time, No Problem?
An Honest Look at “Timelessness” in Physics and Living

What if there’s no time—and that’s not a problem for physics? What if there’s no time—could that be a solution for our suffering?

Rather than offering answers of what to think, this series offers ways of thinking that can move us past the pressures we put on ourselves: from the “should” of trying to “be present” to the “should” of being 4D spacetime worms to be compatible with relativity! Somewhere between those “shoulds,” I got stuck until physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park showed me how to think about nature simply, livably. Each session includes an hour-long meditation practice, where we get to try on different conceptions and perceptions of time to discover how equivalently valid options that physics provides can impact our levels of illusion and freedom. We’ll be reading together from a few sources—such as Wonchull Park’s Essential Reality & Time, Carlo Rovelli’s The Order of Time, Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now, Dogen’s Shobogenzo Uji—to deeply question the role(s) of time in our lives. Looking forward to our discoveries.

Thank you for Being with Being.

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The Great Together Interdependent Arising Party - Simply Settle Series10 Jul 202601:50:01

Typically, there are those things on one list of what is nice and pleasant and spiritual or “good meditation.” And then there’s the other list. And there’s a feeling that what we need is to take what’s over here and change it to what’s over there on the better list. When it doesn’t work, we can get caught in a layer deeper of distress. That hurts.

We’re taking some aspect of ourselves, some aspect of our experience, and saying, “Go away. You’re not allowed into the altogether party.” And I’m actually not even gonna look into my own experience and see the altogether party while you’re around. I’ll wait until you go away first or fix yourself first, and then I’ll look, because then I feel like I’ll find something good and together and nice. As Patrul Rinpoche says, “This is not the genuine view; it is favouring the good and rejecting the bad.”

But what if, underneath it all, instead of that kind of existential, fundamental striving, there can be more of this trust that everything, every arising, shares the same nature? The great party. The great together interdependent arising party. And when we let ourselves settle directly into the very nature of whatever is arising, it doesn’t change it. It was all already always that way. And yet our experience of it can shift. It’s the non-shift shift.

Simply Settle Series: A Practice That’s Not a Doing

Two words from Patrul Rinpoche’s Self-Liberating Meditation — simply settle — so resonated for me. Not from the perspective of a Dzogchen practitioner — I’m not one. More like hearing a piece of music where I couldn’t begin to know the mind of the composer, but I can share what it evokes in me.

What it evokes comes from over ten years of Taoist practice with Master Wonchull Park, who is also a physicist. He always starts with what is immediate, tangible, and in a way universal. And I needed that. I had such a tendency to over-try, to over-control, to really just torture myself with pretty much any practice. One of the practices that first opened up for me was something so basic — laying down to the ground. It gives me a starting place where I can know that way of nature is there. As much weight as I give the ground, the ground is going to hold me up. I don’t have to search for it, make it, go someplace else for it. I just get out of my own way and simply settle into the support that’s there. As Master Park says, it’s already laid down reality.

So this series takes that tangible metaphor as its starting place and asks — what else is a way of nature we can simply “lay down” to? What else could we simply settle into without having to create it, cultivate it, or alter it in any way, as Patrul Rinpoche says? From laying our physical body upon the earth to simply settling into the flow of nature, we can come to know a direction in practice that’s not toward what should be but is simply is-ward. A practice that’s not a doing. And then wondering what it would be like to apply that to both thinking and non-thinking, to the nature of mind itself, to whatever is arising in our experience.

Thank you for Being with Being.

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Not Toward, but Is-ward in Meditation Practice - Simply Settle Series03 Jul 202601:39:34

Patrul Rinpoche nails us with his list of the many flavors of doing in meditation — drawing the mind outward, inward, spacing out, chasing thoughts, blocking their arising, anticipating them like a cat anticipating a mouse, squeezing and staring intensely with concentration. So what direction is simply settling? It’s not a settling outward. Not a settling inward. Not a settling toward something over something else. If it has any direction, it’s towards what is. I’m going to make up a word on the spot and call it is-ward. It has every direction and no direction.

And so this series has been approaching this from the bottom-up — tangible experiences of the is-ward direction that can be a way of relating even to thoughts, even to mind. As Patrul Rinpoche says: “Simply settle directly in thought whenever there is thinking and in non-thought whenever there is no thinking, and that is it.”

I do not find this easy. I don’t find living easy. I don’t find having a mind easy. But I find that this helps it be easier.

Simply Settle Series: A Practice That’s Not a Doing

Two words from Patrul Rinpoche’s Self-Liberating Meditation — simply settle — so resonated for me. Not from the perspective of a Dzogchen practitioner — I’m not one. More like hearing a piece of music where I couldn’t begin to know the mind of the composer, but I can share what it evokes in me.

What it evokes comes from over ten years of Taoist practice with Master Wonchull Park, who is also a physicist. He always starts with what is immediate, tangible, and in a way universal. And I needed that. I had such a tendency to over-try, to over-control, to really just torture myself with pretty much any practice. One of the practices that first opened up for me was something so basic — laying down to the ground. It gives me a starting place where I can know that way of nature is there. As much weight as I give the ground, the ground is going to hold me up. I don’t have to search for it, make it, go someplace else for it. I just get out of my own way and simply settle into the support that’s there. As Master Park says, it’s already laid down reality.

So this series takes that tangible metaphor as its starting place and asks — what else is a way of nature we can simply “lay down” to? What else could we simply settle into without having to create it, cultivate it, or alter it in any way, as Patrul Rinpoche says? From laying our physical body upon the earth to simply settling into the flow of nature, we can come to know a direction in practice that’s not toward what should be but is simply is-ward. A practice that’s not a doing. And then wondering what it would be like to apply that to both thinking and non-thinking, to the nature of mind itself, to whatever is arising in our experience.

Thank you for Being with Being.

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Still Laid Down Reality? The Altogetherness of Perception Itself - Simply Settle Series26 Jun 202601:42:28

What’s so truly amazing as a sentient being, a human being, is that the flows that make up us, the flows that help give rise to our own unique experiences and feelings and perceptions, and even mental activity and mind — are flows that carry content. And yet are also at the same time are pure flow of nature, unfolding altogether in nature in this fine-free-yet-together way. So the bit of a leap that we embark on today is — what is it like to simply settle directly into perception? Whatever the content of perception, there’s that underlying togetherness as a flow of nature. And we get to settle directly into that underlying nature. It is not separate from the content. Even so, it is unconditional. No matter what the content, and no matter what we feel about the content, still a flow.

What is it like to simply settle directly into the flow of perception? We start with sound — and wonder where would we go to simply settle directly into the receiving of sound? Patrul Rinpoche speaks of not seeking outside and not turning inward to look either. We can bathe in the flowing altogether experience of silence and space and sounds. Nothing to grasp outwardly or inwardly. Nothing to seek.

Simply Settle Series: A Practice That’s Not a Doing

Two words from Patrul Rinpoche’s Self-Liberating Meditation — simply settle — so resonated for me. Not from the perspective of a Dzogchen practitioner — I’m not one. More like hearing a piece of music where I couldn’t begin to know the mind of the composer, but I can share what it evokes in me.

What it evokes comes from over ten years of Taoist practice with Master Wonchull Park, who is also a physicist. He always starts with what is immediate, tangible, and in a way universal. And I needed that. I had such a tendency to over-try, to over-control, to really just torture myself with pretty much any practice. One of the practices that first opened up for me was something so basic — laying down to the ground. It gives me a starting place where I can know that way of nature is there. As much weight as I give the ground, the ground is going to hold me up. I don’t have to search for it, make it, go someplace else for it. I just get out of my own way and simply settle into the support that’s there. As Master Park says, it’s already laid down reality.

So this series takes that tangible metaphor as its starting place and asks — what else is a way of nature we can simply “lay down” to? What else could we simply settle into without having to create it, cultivate it, or alter it in any way, as Patrul Rinpoche says? From laying our physical body upon the earth to simply settling into the flow of nature, we can come to know a direction in practice that’s not toward what should be but is simply is-ward. A practice that’s not a doing. And then wondering what it would be like to apply that to both thinking and non-thinking, to the nature of mind itself, to whatever is arising in our experience.

Thank you for Being with Being.

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Laying Down to Reality: Nature’s Flow - Simply Settle Series19 Jun 202601:30:04

What’s it like to simply settle into that there is space? To simply settle into that there is the flow of change? The space and the flow of change don’t need our tweaking. They don’t need our adjusting. It’s just the way of nature. And we can simply settle into it.

Gradually we let our perception of this sense of the flow of nature, our own inner feel of it, begin to become finer and finer. And then we see where all that may take us. What is it to abide in something that’s ever changing? What is it to simply settle into flow itself?

Simply Settle Series: A Practice That’s Not a Doing

Two words from Patrul Rinpoche’s Self-Liberating Meditation — simply settle — so resonated for me. Not from the perspective of a Dzogchen practitioner — I’m not one. More like hearing a piece of music where I couldn’t begin to know the mind of the composer, but I can share what it evokes in me.

What it evokes comes from over ten years of Taoist practice with Master Wonchull Park, who is also a physicist. He always starts with what is immediate, tangible, and in a way universal. And I needed that. I had such a tendency to over-try, to over-control, to really just torture myself with pretty much any practice. One of the practices that first opened up for me was something so basic — laying down to the ground. It gives me a starting place where I can know that way of nature is there. As much weight as I give the ground, the ground is going to hold me up. I don’t have to search for it, make it, go someplace else for it. I just get out of my own way and simply settle into the support that’s there. As Master Park says, it’s already laid down reality.

So this series takes that tangible metaphor as its starting place and asks — what else is a way of nature we can simply “lay down” to? What else could we simply settle into without having to create it, cultivate it, or alter it in any way, as Patrul Rinpoche says? From laying our physical body upon the earth to simply settling into the flow of nature, we can come to know a direction in practice that’s not toward what should be but is simply is-ward. A practice that’s not a doing. And then wondering what it would be like to apply that to both thinking and non-thinking, to the nature of mind itself, to whatever is arising in our experience.

Thank you for Being with Being.

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Laying Down to Reality: Nature’s Togetherness - Simply Settle Series12 Jun 202601:33:55

Once we get the feel of laying down to the ground, “the ground” can become many things. It doesn’t have to just stay as the most obvious thing, the ground. Our torso acts like the ground upon which our shoulders rest. Whatever layer of our spine we pick, one vertebra lays down upon the one beneath. We could put that sense of ground throughout our body.

And as we begin to feel the sense of ground as more all-pervasive — this resting upon this, this interacting and inter-being with this — we might begin to feel it as a deep metaphor. There’s the ground of the Tao. There’s the ground of the way of nature. In a way, we practice less interfering, less blocking out that way of nature. We’re laying down to that reality, letting that reality more fully support us. Not because we’re making it or cultivating it, but because it’s there, and when we appreciate it and feel it, it becomes more of our experience.

Simply Settle Series: A Practice That’s Not a Doing

Two words from Patrul Rinpoche’s Self-Liberating Meditation — simply settle — so resonated for me. Not from the perspective of a Dzogchen practitioner — I’m not one. More like hearing a piece of music where I couldn’t begin to know the mind of the composer, but I can share what it evokes in me.

What it evokes comes from over ten years of Taoist practice with Master Wonchull Park, who is also a physicist. He always starts with what is immediate, tangible, and in a way universal. And I needed that. I had such a tendency to over-try, to over-control, to really just torture myself with pretty much any practice. One of the practices that first opened up for me was something so basic — laying down to the ground. It gives me a starting place where I can know that way of nature is there. As much weight as I give the ground, the ground is going to hold me up. I don’t have to search for it, make it, go someplace else for it. I just get out of my own way and simply settle into the support that’s there. As Master Park says, it’s already laid down reality.

So this series takes that tangible metaphor as its starting place and asks — what else is a way of nature we can simply “lay down” to? What else could we simply settle into without having to create it, cultivate it, or alter it in any way, as Patrul Rinpoche says? From laying our physical body upon the earth to simply settling into the flow of nature, we can come to know a direction in practice that’s not toward what should be but is simply is-ward. A practice that’s not a doing. And then wondering what it would be like to apply that to both thinking and non-thinking, to the nature of mind itself, to whatever is arising in our experience.

Thank you for Being with Being.

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A Tangible Metaphor: Lay Down to the Ground - Simply Settle Series05 Jun 202601:32:07

In this opening session we explore what these two words, “simply settle,” can mean at the most tangible level — hands simply settling into the support of a lap, body simply settling into the support of the earth. And what it’s like when we notice the absurdity of our own language around it. How do you allow your hands to be heavy? They have the weight that they have. Nothing to do. Nothing even to allow. And yet there’s this uncontrived immediacy when we feel it — hands and lap together, seat and ground together, just how they are naturally, already, and always. Mutual flow of lay down and support going on without anything needed from us.

As Master Park says, it’s already laid down reality. All of my prompts are not about a special doing, or cultivating, or altering. It’s just simply settle into what is the nature of your body and the ground in this moment. And that is it.

It’s just two words. And perhaps instead of coming up with an answer to what they mean, being with the felt and experiential response you can feel into — simply settle.

Simply Settle Series: A Practice That’s Not a Doing

Two words from Patrul Rinpoche’s Self-Liberating Meditation — simply settle — so resonated for me. Not from the perspective of a Dzogchen practitioner — I’m not one. More like hearing a piece of music where I couldn’t begin to know the mind of the composer, but I can share what it evokes in me.

What it evokes comes from over ten years of Taoist practice with Master Wonchull Park, who is also a physicist. He always starts with what is immediate, tangible, and in a way universal. And I needed that. I had such a tendency to over-try, to over-control, to really just torture myself with pretty much any practice. One of the practices that first opened up for me was something so basic — laying down to the ground. It gives me a starting place where I can know that way of nature is there. As much weight as I give the ground, the ground is going to hold me up. I don’t have to search for it, make it, go someplace else for it. I just get out of my own way and simply settle into the support that’s there. As Master Park says, it’s already laid down reality.

So this series takes that tangible metaphor as its starting place and asks — what else is a way of nature we can simply “lay down” to? What else could we simply settle into without having to create it, cultivate it, or alter it in any way, as Patrul Rinpoche says? From laying our physical body upon the earth to simply settling into the flow of nature, we can come to know a direction in practice that’s not toward what should be but is simply is-ward. A practice that’s not a doing. And then wondering what it would be like to apply that to both thinking and non-thinking, to the nature of mind itself, to whatever is arising in our experience.

Thank you for Being with Being.

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What if the Mystery Is Already Untouched? Beyond Just Stuff29 May 202601:47:27

I'm feeling kind of feisty today. Take it all with a grain of salt. But one thing I do feel feisty about is this idea that mystery -- and a realm of unknowing -- is in danger. That it's fragile. That if we know too much, or science says something too definitively, this deeper mystery of existence and being is somehow under threat. Yeah, I think that it's not. And I also can relate to why it can really feel under threat. Just even from my own experience.

I can remember reading Hyperspace in sixth grade -- I don't even remember what it was about, but I could just feel myself coming alive again as I read those pages. Same for "quantum weirdness," and for "we are stardust." For some of us it gives us this connection to a more expansive, awe-some -- awesome in the old sense, that it's awe-some -- way that we might relate to ourselves and the world. But what's kind of interesting about those stories is that none of that is necessarily immediate in our experience. And we live in an age where many of us are influenced by what physics says is so -- that we kind of need that, we're relying on that in some way, to have permission to feel mystery. And then kind of reach over and grab onto physics and say, this justifies my experience.

And maybe instead of these dances around mystery and permission and authority -- there can be a real inside-out sense of: yeah, I've got maps, I have choices about how I wield my maps. The mystery is ours too. To be. And we get to use whatever we find helpful...

Beyond Just Stuff Series: Maps, Mystery & Nature's Flow

What is it about quantum that lets us feel like physics gives us permission to view stuff as not just plain old mechanical stuff? One of the limitations that comes up in a body-centered practice is that we can have associations with the body as, you know, "it's just the body" -- and that blocks our fuller feeling of the magic of being a human being. As physicist and tai chi master Wonchull Park says, the map is not the terrain -- but we can use our maps to open more to the terrain as it actually is.

We move from the playfully imaginative through to some genuinely strange territory in physics, and arrive somewhere more ordinary and more immediate. But there's a question underneath it all that's worth sitting with: what is it that's actually shifting when we try on a new story about what we're made of? Is it the physics picture? Or is it a letting go of what we usually tell ourselves? Or some of both?

These six sessions explore that question from the inside out -- using maps, yes, and also learning to see through them, fall through them, and arrive at something that doesn't need a story to justify it. The mystery, it turns out, was never in danger. It's always untouched.

In these six explorations, each with an hour-long guided body-centered practice at its heart, we'll see what it might be like to peel back some of that "oh, I know my physical body, it's just stuff" -- to open to a richness that's already there, beneath what we think we know. No stamp of approval needed from any authority. Permission inherently granted.


Thank you for Being with Being.

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What if Observer and Observed Are Inseparable? Beyond Just Stuff22 May 202601:27:14

Today we will be getting into another level of juicy. This is where some people really, really go to town -- with quantum mechanics, interpretations around consciousness. There's even someone who tends to make claims that if there wasn't consciousness, there wouldn't be a moon. Because of quantum. Interesting, interesting.

We return to the double slit experiment -- and this time to a further strangeness in it. If you try to answer which slit the electron is going through by putting a little extra measuring detector on one of the slits, it no longer has the interference pattern. So somehow by trying to know which one it goes through, it reverts back to just one or the other. That's kind of strange in our more macroscopic world -- we're not so used to that sense that an observation, a measurement, a perceiving and experiencing, an interaction actually begins to hint at why it's maybe not as strange as we might think.

Because what is taking a measurement? I really appreciate how Master Park just always comes more to what is common, rather than emphasizing the differences. To be able to measure something means that there's some interaction that you have with it. To observe something, to touch something, to see something means you have some interaction with it. And interaction has an effect. You can never have just a one-sided interaction. If something is having an effect, it's also being affected. Pick any object in your space -- as you gaze at that object, there is a seamless mutual flow of interaction that enables you to have that visual perception. Photons reflecting off of that object are traveling through the space in between, interacting with your eyes, being translated into a signal. Every step of the way is that mutual flow. Shot through this world is all of this relational, mutual interacting of effects that breaks down that sense of separation between observer and observed...

Beyond Just Stuff Series: Maps, Mystery & Nature's Flow

What is it about quantum that lets us feel like physics gives us permission to view stuff as not just plain old mechanical stuff? One of the limitations that comes up in a body-centered practice is that we can have associations with the body as, you know, "it's just the body" -- and that blocks our fuller feeling of the magic of being a human being. As physicist and tai chi master Wonchull Park says, the map is not the terrain -- but we can use our maps to open more to the terrain as it actually is.

We move from the playfully imaginative through to some genuinely strange territory in physics, and arrive somewhere more ordinary and more immediate. But there's a question underneath it all that's worth sitting with: what is it that's actually shifting when we try on a new story about what we're made of? Is it the physics picture? Or is it a letting go of what we usually tell ourselves? Or some of both?

These six sessions explore that question from the inside out -- using maps, yes, and also learning to see through them, fall through them, and arrive at something that doesn't need a story to justify it. The mystery, it turns out, was never in danger. It's always untouched.

In these six explorations, each with an hour-long guided body-centered practice at its heart, we'll see what it might be like to peel back some of that "oh, I know my physical body, it's just stuff" -- to open to a richness that's already there, beneath what we think we know. No stamp of approval needed from any authority. Permission inherently granted.

Thank you for Being with Being.

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Can a Thud into "Mundane Physics" Be Grace-ful? Beyond Just Stuff Series15 May 202601:43:53

So that was kind of the sexy science, the fancy physics experiments. And today, with a glorious thud, we're going to go into some of the most well-established -- you could have a yawn already -- the most well-established, long-standing, across all the domains of physics, including good old Newtonian physics. Not just all this, no, no, no, spooky quantum. It's really mundane, established, simple, understandable. And this is probably my favorite session of the series -- we'll see what it's like for you.

This comes from Master Wonchull Park, Tai Chi master and physicist, and his book Nowflow: Breath, Movement & Mind -- probably one of the more misunderstood books on the planet, slightly exaggerating. It's so easy to take something like: well, what about good old action-reaction? Newton's third law. For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. It brings back maybe some of the billiard balls. All this just stuff. Everything is just mechanical. It could seem like something we can be like, oh yeah, action-reaction, I got that -- even as it's usually taught in schools without any hint of a possibility that it is something you can feel actually in your own experience.

And what we explore is: what if we don't treat it like a layer of the map that we just land on with a thud? But actually treat that as something that is both definite and as established as can be -- and also pointing. Where you can keep going, layer by layer, closer and closer to one's own immediacy of experience. What would it be like to actually free-fall into not just a picture of fundamental particles, but with that sense of everything interconnected in this parts-whole cascade? It kind of feels like leaning back out of a plane and free-falling continuously. Into this kaleidoscopic fractal of whatever flow we feel. We free-fall through any feeling of 'got it, that's it.' And into the practically infinite, right there in this instant of breath at the nose. A palpable yet indescribable teamingness of experience. Rich and smooth. Flows within flows, endlessly...

Beyond Just Stuff Series: Maps, Mystery & Nature's Flow

What is it about quantum that lets us feel like physics gives us permission to view stuff as not just plain old mechanical stuff? One of the limitations that comes up in a body-centered practice is that we can have associations with the body as, you know, "it's just the body" -- and that blocks our fuller feeling of the magic of being a human being. As physicist and tai chi master Wonchull Park says, the map is not the terrain -- but we can use our maps to open more to the terrain as it actually is.

We move from the playfully imaginative through to some genuinely strange territory in physics, and arrive somewhere more ordinary and more immediate. But there's a question underneath it all that's worth sitting with: what is it that's actually shifting when we try on a new story about what we're made of? Is it the physics picture? Or is it a letting go of what we usually tell ourselves? Or some of both?

These six sessions explore that question from the inside out -- using maps, yes, and also learning to see through them, fall through them, and arrive at something that doesn't need a story to justify it. The mystery, it turns out, was never in danger. It's always untouched.

In these six explorations, each with an hour-long guided body-centered practice at its heart, we'll see what it might be like to peel back some of that "oh, I know my physical body, it's just stuff" -- to open to a richness that's already there, beneath what we think we know. No stamp of approval needed from any authority. Permission inherently granted.

Thank you for Being with Being.

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What Happens with "Permission" to Not Know? Beyond Just Stuff Series08 May 202601:35:46

Quantum physics had its 100th anniversary -- and do we know what it actually means any more than 100 years ago? Open question for sure. But part of this exploration is actually inquiring into the effects that a scientific story, scientific knowledge, scientific models have on us. Master Park, who is a physicist as well as a Tai Chi master, always says physics is a story. And so this is not to be dismissive at all of physics to say that. But sometimes physics tends to have this -- and we've kind of danced around this -- a kind of authority that people either buy into or push against. Like there's this sense that physics has it, it is it, right? That physics gives us some way of saying: this, objectively, is what is real. And Master Park talks about how 'objective' really just means it's easier for us to agree. But we're still not touching in on the terrain. Still not.

This session uses the classic double slit experiment -- one of those things about quantum that blows people's minds, progressing through the strangeness of what this fundamental layer might be like. A beam of electrons through two slits creates not the pattern you'd expect from billiard balls -- two clusters right opposite each slit -- but the diffraction interference pattern you'd expect from a wave. And yet each electron arrives as a single ping of detection. One of the ways we torture ourselves is: well, how does it know about the other slit? How does it know?

One possibility we can play with is that quantum -- the 'it's not a particle, not a wave' stuff -- kind of gives us a map in a way. And the map itself is saying: this is not it. It's almost like a transparent map. Where it's like, oh, there's something here, and you kind of see through it to something else, where you know there's something else. Physics is giving us permission, in a way. We don't have to use our imagination. It's an experiment that can be replicated. But the map itself can't say what that layer underneath is...

Beyond Just Stuff Series: Maps, Mystery & Nature's Flow

What is it about quantum that lets us feel like physics gives us permission to view stuff as not just plain old mechanical stuff? One of the limitations that comes up in a body-centered practice is that we can have associations with the body as, you know, "it's just the body" -- and that blocks our fuller feeling of the magic of being a human being. As physicist and tai chi master Wonchull Park says, the map is not the terrain -- but we can use our maps to open more to the terrain as it actually is.

We move from the playfully imaginative through to some genuinely strange territory in physics, and arrive somewhere more ordinary and more immediate. But there's a question underneath it all that's worth sitting with: what is it that's actually shifting when we try on a new story about what we're made of? Is it the physics picture? Or is it a letting go of what we usually tell ourselves? Or some of both?

These six sessions explore that question from the inside out -- using maps, yes, and also learning to see through them, fall through them, and arrive at something that doesn't need a story to justify it. The mystery, it turns out, was never in danger. It's always untouched.

In these six explorations, each with an hour-long guided body-centered practice at its heart, we'll see what it might be like to peel back some of that "oh, I know my physical body, it's just stuff" -- to open to a richness that's already there, beneath what we think we know. No stamp of approval needed from any authority. Permission inherently granted.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





What if "Science Says" We're Mostly Space? Beyond Just Stuff Series01 May 202601:44:51

Our perception is a map -- it's always a map -- and it can be informed by our understanding, it can be tinted by our expectations. Some of what this exploration is about is to see what it's like to actually feel what we feel, rather than what we think we feel. And thrown into this whole mix is the way that physics -- especially sometimes quantum physics, quantum mechanics -- is used in spirituality to kind of shake up our expectations, as quantum physics really can get to us that way.

The exploration for this session touches a little bit on the quantum picture -- probably more just high school chemistry level, because that can take us pretty far. The underlying question is: well, what really is shifting? Telling myself a different story about what makes up my body -- does that enable me to feel more, or feel something? And can we come to know it from the inside out, experientially? Maybe not just swallow wholesale that because we have a different scientifically validated map laid over our sense of our body, that it's that we're feeling.

We go back to Rutherford's gold foil experiment -- shooting beams of particles at a very, very, very thin gold sheet, with detectors all the way around, even behind the source. It's like directing a bullet at tissue paper and having the bullet bounce right back. And yet that's what happened, sometimes, very rarely. Most of the time it just went straight through. And that's how we have that sense of: an atom is 99.999% empty space -- I'll put that in scare quotes for now. The nucleus of an atom is like a marble, and the atom is the size of a stadium. And we'll go into our meditation practice and see what it's like to feel our same old same old body in contact with the same old same old surface -- ground, chair, cushion -- with this mapping, this story, that what we think of as just stuff is in a way mostly empty space...

Beyond Just Stuff Series: Maps, Mystery & Nature's Flow
What is it about quantum that lets us feel like physics gives us permission to view stuff as not just plain old mechanical stuff? One of the limitations that comes up in a body-centered practice is that we can have associations with the body as, you know, "it's just the body" -- and that blocks our fuller feeling of the magic of being a human being. As physicist and tai chi master Wonchull Park says, the map is not the terrain -- but we can use our maps to open more to the terrain as it actually is.


We move from the playfully imaginative through to some genuinely strange territory in physics, and arrive somewhere more ordinary and more immediate. But there's a question underneath it all that's worth sitting with: what is it that's actually shifting when we try on a new story about what we're made of? Is it the physics picture? Or is it a letting go of what we usually tell ourselves? Or some of both?
These six sessions explore that question from the inside out -- using maps, yes, and also learning to see through them, fall through them, and arrive at something that doesn't need a story to justify it. The mystery, it turns out, was never in danger. It's always untouched.


In these six explorations, each with an hour-long guided body-centered practice at its heart, we'll see what it might be like to peel back some of that "oh, I know my physical body, it's just stuff" -- to open to a richness that's already there, beneath what we think we know. No stamp of approval needed from any authority. Permission inherently granted.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





What's Beneath the "Cartoon" of Expectations? Beyond Just Stuff Series24 Apr 202601:37:23

This series of adventures really comes out of a curiosity of mine that goes back to when I was in grade school. I would love to read these science books -- there was even at this mall a store called the Learning Smith, and that's where I discovered all these books about Richard Feynman and Stephen Hawking and hyperspace. And sometimes you just kind of set them down and look around and be like, whoa. Whether we encountered it when we were children or later on in life, it does tend to spark this awe, this sense of wonder. And this will be something we'll play with -- because there are just so many interesting things about how physics works and how it's used, including in spirituality and self-help.

But before getting into what the authority of science is, and why we might feel like we can get permission for mystery from science -- this first session is about letting ourselves discover, for ourselves, how we are carrying around assumptions and concepts, what we'll just call maps: maps of perception, maps of understanding, that are how we navigate life, how we experience what we experience. The gist is: not having to go on anyone else's say so, but just seeing if we can loosen up some of our assumptions and open more to what our own experience can tell us.

The invitation is opening to the unknown -- not the unknown beyond, but the unknown that's just beneath what we think we know. Sometimes I feel like something like this is a way of... we used to have these things that you could scratch -- I don't even know what they're called -- but you scratch off a layer and then there's maybe a little prize or a little message underneath. So we scratch off one layer of this habitual conceptual map, and there's a richness underneath, a peeling back. And it turns out it doesn't even take imagination to sustain -- just a willingness to ask: what are you, body? Maybe I thought I knew you. But maybe I'm actually just in a process of coming to know even this basic experience of having a body. Maps all the way down. And there's always more we can open to.

Beyond Just Stuff Series: Maps, Mystery & Nature's Flow
What is it about quantum that lets us feel like physics gives us permission to view stuff as not just plain old mechanical stuff? One of the limitations that comes up in a body-centered practice is that we can have associations with the body as, you know, "it's just the body" -- and that blocks our fuller feeling of the magic of being a human being. As physicist and tai chi master Wonchull Park says, the map is not the terrain -- but we can use our maps to open more to the terrain as it actually is.
We move from the playfully imaginative through to some genuinely strange territory in physics, and arrive somewhere more ordinary and more immediate. But there's a question underneath it all that's worth sitting with: what is it that's actually shifting when we try on a new story about what we're made of? Is it the physics picture? Or is it a letting go of what we usually tell ourselves? Or some of both?
These six sessions explore that question from the inside out -- using maps, yes, and also learning to see through them, fall through them, and arrive at something that doesn't need a story to justify it. The mystery, it turns out, was never in danger. It's always untouched.
In these six explorations, each with an hour-long guided body-centered practice at its heart, we'll see what it might be like to peel back some of that "oh, I know my physical body, it's just stuff" -- to open to a richness that's already there, beneath what we think we know. No stamp of approval needed from any authority. Permission inherently granted.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





While Feeling, Doing: Whole Loop, Whole Being in Action - Taoist Alchemy in Nature's Flow Series17 Apr 202601:07:06

For me to be speaking right now, for me to make a gesture with my hand, for me to click the mouse button and fix my tech at the beginning of this session — all of that is coming from this integrity of this loop that includes both feeling and doing. From the fullness of our being.

We might see this whole series as kind of unpacking the richness of all of this being, and then relaxing into the integrity of: it's simply all together, and it's already going on. There's something about a loop that perceptually we feel as a whole. It wouldn't be a loop if it wasn't one interconnected whole. And our feeling and our doing are also a loop. Feeling and doing not as separate, but as two parts of that loop that are ever going on in our experience. The doing is not in competition with feeling. 

So we'll unpack the richness one more time, and then I'll bring out a sponge and a dish. Literally. Because this is a practice, too: picking up any object, going through the motions of cleaning it, and while letting this loop linger: While feeling, doing. A simple reminder phrase from Master Park’s Nowflow Breath Movement & Mind that can encompass the many aspects of this exploration we've been on. 

Taoist Alchemy in Nature's Flow Series: Circulation without Trying to Flow

It's flows all the way down. However stuck something may seem—an emotion, a sensation, a sense of being top-heavy in our head—there's no coarse grain size to nature's flow. No end to the fineness. And that same practically infinite free flow that we feel in the breath, in our fingers, in the subtle cascade of the body with each outbreath—that same fineness is also a gateway into the 3 Treasures: jing, qi, and shen. We can practice “circulation meditations,” like the small heavenly circuit. We can speak of what Taoist alchemy is “refining.” Except it was never not there. Except it was never not flowing. 

In these hour-long sessions, we spend the first 30 minutes touching in on these qualities of presence as immediately and evidently as we can. Then we go on an adventure. Drawing from physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park's teachings on nowflow, these in-depth practices explore Qigong and Taoist meditation not as special techniques to master but as guidance for uncovering our nature by doing less.

Thank you for Being with Being.

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Free-Falling into Fineness: Taoist Alchemy and the Practically Infinite - Taoist Alchemy in Nature's Flow Series10 Apr 202601:14:49

It can kind of feel experientially like we're free-falling. Free-falling into the unknown. Because there's no limit to how finely we can feel this fine free flow of our body, even just our physical body.

On this next in-breath, in this next nostril — there's a finer flow yet to be felt, ever, by you. And you can open to it. That thing we call a thumb, that we think we know what it feels like — actually, maybe we don't. Maybe we've only begun to scratch the surface. Setting aside the label, there's just this piece of space. Sending signals. Full of a beingness. Full of presence. And letting ourselves feel that piece of space filled to the brim with the presence of being.

It’s a kind of alchemy in a way. In Taoist alchemy, there is a process of lian jing, lian qi, lian shen he dao — refine essence, refine qi, refine spirit, connect with the Tao. The view here is that our jing, our qi, our shen are all these flows of nature — and it's just a spectrum. As we open more to the fineness and fineness and fineness of flow, we can go more along that spectrum, more to qi, more to shen. But it was always there as that spectrum. We're not really making more of it, or “refining it.” It was just there. We're just uncovering it.

And this is also an important note about safety: As practices become more refined, the thing we're working with is itself so refined and so sensitive to any push, any trying so that even a very subtle trying can have a detrimental effect. So it's supportive to keep in mind that these practices here are about doing less — uncovering what already is by doing less.

Taoist Alchemy in Nature's Flow Series: Circulation without Trying to Flow

It's flows all the way down. However stuck something may seem—an emotion, a sensation, a sense of being top-heavy in our head—there's no coarse grain size to nature's flow. No end to the fineness. And that same practically infinite free flow that we feel in the breath, in our fingers, in the subtle cascade of the body with each outbreath—that same fineness is also a gateway into the 3 Treasures: jing, qi, and shen. We can practice “circulation meditations,” like the small heavenly circuit. We can speak of what Taoist alchemy is “refining.” Except it was never not there. Except it was never not flowing. 

In these hour-long sessions, we spend the first 30 minutes touching in on these qualities of presence as immediately and evidently as we can. Then we go on an adventure. Drawing from physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park's teachings on nowflow, these in-depth practices explore Qigong and Taoist meditation not as special techniques to master but as guidance for uncovering our nature by doing less.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Jing, Qi, Shen: Being the Mountain and the Subtlest Flow - Taoist Alchemy in Nature's Flow Series03 Apr 202601:18:30

It's probably helpful just to introduce some terms here — not as another thing to learn, but as holding places. These words can become holding places that we then associate with a certain level of fine feeling, nuanced feeling within ourselves.

Jing is the physicality of our body — centered at the lower dantian, our center of mass. Qi is something finer, a finer inner flow — sometimes Master Wonchull Park calls this almost like an inner message wind, connecting body and mind. It's that fineness of flow that begins to have that magic where something is flowing within us, and at the same time it contains messages of perception, feeling, experience. And there's something quite magical that these flows of nature can carry all of that. Qi is centered at the middle dantian, the heart area. And then shen — awareness. One could say consciousness, or could say spirit. Maybe we'll just say awareness. And yi is intention. And so this loop forms in Master Park’s teaching: jing qi shen yi qi jing. A “minor” miracle that covers so much of what we experience as a human being.

I'll guide you through the small heavenly circuit — hopping on that inner message wind and riding it, lightly, like 20% attention, letting it become fainter and fainter until you really have no sense of whether you're practicing anything at all. At any time, if any of this makes you feel like too much is going on, sitting like a mountain is always there to come back to. 

One participant shared afterward: I became completely identified with the subtlest flow. The concept of my body was absent. 
Question: Were you also a mountain?
Answer:  Yes. I was the mountain. 

All of it gets to come. Nothing is left behind. We can be the mountain and the subtlest flow as flows of nature.

Taoist Alchemy in Nature's Flow Series: Circulation without Trying to Flow

It's flows all the way down. However stuck something may seem—an emotion, a sensation, a sense of being top-heavy in our head—there's no coarse grain size to nature's flow. No end to the fineness. And that same practically infinite free flow that we feel in the breath, in our fingers, in the subtle cascade of the body with each outbreath—that same fineness is also a gateway into the 3 Treasures: jing, qi, and shen. We can practice “circulation meditations,” like the small heavenly circuit. We can speak of what Taoist alchemy is “refining.” Except it was never not there. Except it was never not flowing. 

In these hour-long sessions, we spend the first 30 minutes touching in on these qualities of presence as immediately and evidently as we can. Then we go on an adventure. Drawing from physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park's teachings on nowflow, these in-depth practices explore Qigong and Taoist meditation not as special techniques to master but as guidance for uncovering our nature by doing less.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Flow Down, Flow Up: One Seamless Event - Taoist Alchemy in Nature's Flow Series27 Mar 202601:09:43

I was not personally struck by lightning — glad I gave the forewarning. I did lose internet, I did lose power, and now I'm back and we can practice together. This is truly one of the favorite parts of my day, so I didn't want to miss it.

Some of the Taoist meditation circulation practices can feel more natural and intuitive — less of a trying and more of an effortless revealing — when we approach them with this context: that we are simply feeling ourselves with these qualities of presence that we already automatically have. And that's what we'll be building toward today.

We've been feeling the sense of settling down — laying down our weight, giving it to the earth. And now we'll also begin to feel a rising. A supportive, energizing rising. The force of support from the ground propagates up every vertebra of your spine and reaches all the way to the top of your head in one unbroken seam of force connection. Just at the level of physics, the level of action-reaction. The ground is giving you something that goes all the way to your head. It's already going on.

And here's what becomes interesting: when we really feel both, the distinctions between down and up begin to not make so much sense anymore. It is not down and then up. It is the yin and yang that is inseparable. One interaction. One seamless whole. This is what we can feel right now — before we ever attempt to circulate anything — as a gentler way in.

Taoist Alchemy in Nature's Flow Series: Circulation without Trying to Flow

It's flows all the way down. However stuck something may seem—an emotion, a sensation, a sense of being top-heavy in our head—there's no coarse grain size to nature's flow. No end to the fineness. And that same practically infinite free flow that we feel in the breath, in our fingers, in the subtle cascade of the body with each outbreath—that same fineness is also a gateway into the 3 Treasures: jing, qi, and shen. We can practice “circulation meditations,” like the small heavenly circuit. We can speak of what Taoist alchemy is “refining.” Except it was never not there. Except it was never not flowing. 

In these hour-long sessions, we spend the first 30 minutes touching in on these qualities of presence as immediately and evidently as we can. Then we go on an adventure. Drawing from physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park's teachings on nowflow, these in-depth practices explore Qigong and Taoist meditation not as special techniques to master but as guidance for uncovering our nature by doing less.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Qi Down Grounding: Not Looking Down, Being There - Taoist Alchemy in Nature's Flow Series20 Mar 202601:06:43

When we're more activated, even just thinking really hard, there can be this sense of being more in our head — more kind of bunched up. There's usually plenty, plenty up there already, and instead we lack feeling that presence includes all of our body, all the way to our feet, all the way to our fingertips.

This is what Qigong calls coarse qi — and what's interesting is that even positive emotions can feel coarse and jittery. Today we go on an adventure into qi down: giving that coarse qi to the earth, and finding what it's like to feel the fineness of free flow more fully throughout the entirety of our presence.

I'll guide you through finding the taste of it. A tangible taste of immediate flowing connection. Not trying anything in particular — just savoring that taste of togetherness and letting it nourish us, like we might savor nourishing mouthfuls of food. As we settle into that, we begin to feel what it's like to sit like a mountain: a wide base of presence connected with the earth, that is also — and this is what presence is actually like, against our expectations — as free-flowing and refined as the gentlest breeze. All together at once.

And then we'll play with something that can further the sense of qi down in a very immediate way. What if we took the observer — maybe hanging out between our eyes — out of the equation for just a moment? Not looking down at the lower dantian from headquarters in the head. Actually being there. Right in the middle of you. From within your lower dantian, what is it like to witness the soles of your feet shifting, spreading, laying down, receiving support? It's not "I am weight shifting" — it's my lower dantian is going for this amazing ride through space. A whole world of ever-shifting experiences, savored right in place.

Taoist Alchemy in Nature's Flow Series: Circulation without Trying to Flow

It's flows all the way down. However stuck something may seem—an emotion, a sensation, a sense of being top-heavy in our head—there's no coarse grain size to nature's flow. No end to the fineness. And that same practically infinite free flow that we feel in the breath, in our fingers, in the subtle cascade of the body with each outbreath—that same fineness is also a gateway into the 3 Treasures: jing, qi, and shen. We can practice “circulation meditations,” like the small heavenly circuit. We can speak of what Taoist alchemy is “refining.” Except it was never not there. Except it was never not flowing. 

In these hour-long sessions, we spend the first 30 minutes touching in on these qualities of presence as immediately and evidently as we can. Then we go on an adventure. Drawing from physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park's teachings on nowflow, these in-depth practices explore Qigong and Taoist meditation not as special techniques to master but as guidance for uncovering our nature by doing less.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Qi Flow: It's Flows All the Way Down - Taoist Alchemy in Nature's Flow Series17 Mar 202601:06:45

Full disclosure: I have some emotional release happening in my diaphragm as I come on today. So this is just what I need. And it's not necessary that you have any strong emotion in your system at the moment — but this will give us a way of seeing how we could practice if we did.

When I'm working with an emotion that feels kind of stuck — when I just want it to flow, I want it to change, I want it to basically just go away — one of the ways I use this practice, and especially the free flow quality, is this: however stuck it may seem, it's flow all the way down. It’s finer flows within flows. And so in this practice we experientially discover that it’s practically infinite fine flows, all the way, and we connect to the subtlest flows that we could possibly imagine. That itself can connect to experiences like qi flow, or even the flow of awareness. There's no end to its refinement.

I'll guide you through feeling the space between the hearts of your hands — and what happens when we stop focusing so effortfully on the labels of "hands, my body, my fingers" and just feel a space. Sometimes it can feel like suddenly there's almost an explosion of the feeling of our hands. So vibrant. They were all along. It's actually the efforting of our perception that blocks it out.

In this meditation, we're not trying to use a special technique to generate more qi, or move it in a particular way. We are opening, appreciating, coming more to perceive these qualities that can allow for a greater sense of subtle flow. This is where the adventure begins.

Taoist Alchemy in Nature's Flow Series: Circulation without Trying to Flow

It's flows all the way down. However stuck something may seem—an emotion, a sensation, a sense of being top-heavy in our head—there's no coarse grain size to nature's flow. No end to the fineness. And that same practically infinite free flow that we feel in the breath, in our fingers, in the subtle cascade of the body with each outbreath—that same fineness is also a gateway into the 3 Treasures: jing, qi, and shen. We can practice “circulation meditations,” like the small heavenly circuit. We can speak of what Taoist alchemy is “refining.” Except it was never not there. Except it was never not flowing. 

In these hour-long sessions, we spend the first 30 minutes touching in on these qualities of presence as immediately and evidently as we can. Then we go on an adventure. Drawing from physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park's teachings on nowflow, these in-depth practices explore Qigong and Taoist meditation not as special techniques to master but as guidance for uncovering our nature by doing less.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Falling Into the Infinite Whole with Long Fine Flow: The Body as Nature's Flow Series20 Feb 202601:16:09

In this exploration, we'll be feeling these three qualities of nature's flow in a way that helps us feel them more all together. We'll be feeling a sense of long—long in space, so that there is a sense of the whole flow quality. And we'll be discovering how any length in our body is comprised of all these very fine flows, another quality of nature, and that they all are arising, interacting mutually together.

I'll guide you through opportunities to feel your arms and begin to feel what we might mean by this finely long flow. Like a fractal that keeps opening into finer, richer detail, we may feel as though we're falling into the practical infinity that is between any two points in our body. You might discover how that cascading wave down the front body is fundamentally as free-flowing as air, as water, comprised of flows within flows, all mutually connected in this way. We're not trying to grasp anything; we're opening to how finely we can feel these flows of nature that are themselves comprised of flows within flows, together.

This is an integration session—we're shifting from accessing qualities separately to feeling them as aspects of “one and the same.” Length can be used as a kind of "cheat" to help feel wholeness; it's easier to feel one-dimensional length before expanding to fuller awareness of three-dimensional space. Through this practice, you might find how freedom and connection comprise a length in space, from your fingertips to your shoulders, all at once the length of your arm, and, all at once, the intrinsic flow of change.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Discovering the fractal-like feeling of finer flows within flows
  • Learning how to integrate the three qualities into one experience of finely long
  • Understanding how length helps us access wholeness as a doorway
  • Experiencing the subtlest shifts caused by breath throughout your entire arm
  • Finding how all this togetherness at once happens through the subtlest, finest flows

The Body as Nature's Flow Series:

In these hour-long sessions, we explore the three qualities of presence—mutual flow, free flow, and whole flow—through direct, felt experience in the body. Each session begins with 30 minutes touching in on these foundational qualities, then goes on an adventure exploring different ways to feel into presence through our immediate, physical experience. Drawing from physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park's teachings on nowflow, these in-depth practices help us recognize how we too are part of nature's flow.


Thank you for Being with Being.

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The Practice of Ting, Effortless Sensing: The Body as Nature's Flow Series13 Feb 202601:10:08

In this exploration, we'll be playing with our perception—the *how* of how we are sensing and feeling our body. This is called “ting” in tai chi or listening, and we'll actually be using the sounds around us. If you would like to kind of create a bit of a soundscape in your space—you'd like to play a little music, open a window and even hear some sounds from nature or your neighbors, run the fan—all these can be sounds that will be of service to you in the second half of our practice.

I'll guide you through letting the sounds of your environment wash over you, noticing if some sounds are washing more into one ear or the other as these sounds come effortlessly to us, as we receive the sound. Then we'll explore: what if we could listen to our body, the sensations of our body, and even the space of our body, like we're listening to sound? What might that be like?

You might discover how each fingertip is sending its own signal of sensation that wafts over you, that effortlessly flows in your experience—listening to the feelingscape of your ten fingers. Since the fingers are themselves illuminated with body-mind flow, there's no need of a flashlight going down to them; they're the ones sending the signal. Illuminated. Like they have their own sunshine. 

Through this practice, you might find how listening is a wonderful example where we neither go to it, nor does it have to be “sucked up into our head.” Observer and observed can both be right where each is, and together. Master Wonchull Park teaches how our subjective experience distributes sensory information in space—we can say we're feeling our toe because we have some sensation of our toe that “can be left” in some place there in space. Terabytes of signals are coursing through us at any given moment in the vastness of our subconscious feeling and our feelingscape. It’s quite a symphony. 

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Learning the practice of ting—listening to the body
  • Feeling how bodily sensations send signals rather than us “going to get them”
  • Understanding why experience is organized spatially to manage vast amounts of information
  • Experiencing the shift from effortful reaching to effortless receiving
  • Finding how the feelingscape is just there around us, like a soundscape

The Body as Nature's Flow Series:

In these hour-long sessions, we explore the three qualities of presence—mutual flow, free flow, and whole flow—through direct, felt experience in the body. Each session begins with 30 minutes touching in on these foundational qualities, then goes on an adventure exploring different ways to feel into presence through our immediate, physical experience. Drawing from physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park's teachings on nowflow, these in-depth practices help us recognize how we too are part of nature's flow.

Thank you for Being with Being.

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External Harmonies for Lower Body Presence: The Body as Nature's Flow Series06 Feb 202601:07:30

In this exploration, we'll be using what's called the external harmonies in Tai Chi—the way that there's this natural correspondence between shoulders and hips, elbows and knees, wrists and ankles, hands and feet, and even all the way to our fingers and our toes. We'll especially allow ourselves more to feel our lower body and the presence of our lower bodies, first of all, because we have a lower body full of presence—it is presence.

And also as we feel more the presence of our lower body, it can provide this feeling of ballast. For example, when we get more caught up in our head and our emotions get more reactive, usually there's a tendency to have a rising energy and to feel like our identity, who we take ourselves to be, is more concentrated around our head. By feeling our lower body, even all the way to our very toes, that can be a way that we feel what’s sometimes called “qi down”—and can even feel a more distributed sense of our identity can be the ballast in the stormy seas of our own inner experience and living this crazy thing called life.

I'll guide you through discovering the “fingers of the feet” as someone asked about here—that's exactly what they are! We call them toes, but they're really the fingers of the feet. In the Taoist tradition and philosophy, there's that sense of humble, right? And even that sense of how water always goes to the lowest of the low places. And the toes and the soles of our feet are the lowest of the low place in our body. Through this practice, you might find how feeling those toes can give us more access to a sense of presence in the entire lower body—and can offer another way of working with a busy mind, heightened emotions, even having trouble falling asleep. If you ever have a hard time falling asleep, you can practice counting toes instead of counting sheep.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Learning the external harmonies—correspondence between upper and lower body
  • Discovering the “fingers of the feet” and how to feel them individually
  • Understanding a practical way to feel more humble, like water 
  • Finding the ballast of presence in the lower body for “getting out of our heads”
  • Experiencing how there's more to our experience than just what we tend to focus on

The Body as Nature's Flow Series:

In these hour-long sessions, we explore the three qualities of presence—mutual flow, free flow, and whole flow—through direct, felt experience in the body. Each session begins with 30 minutes touching in on these foundational qualities, then goes on an adventure exploring different ways to feel into presence through our immediate, physical experience. Drawing from physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park's teachings on nowflow, these in-depth practices help us recognize how we too are part of nature's flow.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





All Together at Once, Whole Space from Heart to Room: The Body as Nature's Flow Series30 Jan 202601:02:47

In this exploration, we'll be using the whole flow quality—the third quality of Nature’s flow—to experientially stumble upon an experience of the now that may feel a little more allowing, just the way it is. We can get a lot of messages about how it's better for us to live in the moment, be here now. And even quite subtly, we can tend to associate now as something more kind of like the present, like it's wedged in between the past and the future, and we gotta find ourselves right in the now. Like it's this slit in time. Instead of starting with time, what about starting with space?

I'll guide you through feeling the space between your fingers, making those spaces smaller and wider, discovering how we know it's a smaller distance because we feel it—we feel the distance, we feel the space between. Then we'll expand to feeling the space between the center of your heart and your front body, and that sense of the space in front of you in the room you're in, all the way to the wall of the room that you're in.

The approach of this practice, coming from the teachings of Master Wonchull Park, is very non-conceptual in practice. We just see what we can feel and understand most evidently in our immediate experience, just the experience of even our body. Through this practice, you might discover what it's like to let all of those spaces be simultaneously there in your awareness—space of the room, space of the body, space of your heart, all at once. They are already one whole space, together. In another word, now. 

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Understanding how "now" is not a slit wedged between past and future
  • Learning to feel space as negative space—what artists use to get over concepts and perceive what’s there
  • Finding how lying down helps reduce trying because this practice is about letting ourselves feel what's already always in our experience
  • Experiencing your heart center surrounded on all sides by this one whole space
  • Discovering the all-at-once-ness of nature's unfolding

The Body as Nature's Flow Series:

In these hour-long sessions, we explore the three qualities of presence—mutual flow, free flow, and whole flow—through direct, felt experience in the body. Each session begins with 30 minutes touching in on these foundational qualities, then goes on an adventure exploring different ways to feel into presence through our immediate, physical experience. Drawing from physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park's teachings on nowflow, these in-depth practices help us recognize how we too are part of nature's flow.


Thank you for Being with Being.

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mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Following the Breath Into the Subtle Body: The Body as Nature's Flow Series24 Jan 202601:06:36

In this exploration, we'll be using what's called the external harmonies in Tai Chi—the way that there's this natural correspondence between shoulders and hips, elbows and knees, wrists and ankles, hands and feet, and even all the way to our fingers and our toes. We'll especially allow ourselves more to feel our lower body and the presence of our lower bodies, first of all, because we have a lower body full of presence—it is presence.

And also as we feel more the presence of our lower body, it can provide this feeling of the ballast of presence. For example, when we get more caught up in our head and our emotions get more reactive, usually there's more of this tendency to have a kind of rising energy and to feel like our identity, our presence, is more concentrated around our head. By feeling our lower body, even all the way to our very toes, that can be a way that we feel, sometimes it's called more like Chi down—and can even feel a more distributed sense of our identity that helps us be the ballast in the stormy seas of our own inner experience and living this crazy thing called life.

I'll guide you through discovering the fingers of the feet—that's exactly what they are, we call them toes, but they're really the fingers of the feet. In the Taoist tradition and philosophy, there's that sense of humble, right? And even that sense of how water always goes to the lowest of the low places. And the toes and the soles of our feet are the lowest to the low place in our body. Through this practice, you might find how feeling those toes can give us more access to a sense of presence in the entire lower body—and can offer another way of working with a busy mind, heightened emotions, even having trouble falling asleep. If you ever have a hard time falling asleep, you can practice counting toes instead of counting sheep.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Learning the external harmonies—correspondence between upper and lower body
  • Discovering the fingers of the feet and how to feel them
  • Understanding the Taoist philosophy of humility and water seeking low places
  • Finding the ballast of presence in the lower body for emotional regulation
  • Experiencing how there's more to our experience than just what we tend to focus on

The Body as Nature's Flow Series:

In these hour-long sessions, we explore the three qualities of presence—mutual flow, free flow, and whole flow—through direct, felt experience in the body. Each session begins with 30 minutes touching in on these foundational qualities, then goes on an adventure exploring different ways to feel into presence through our immediate, physical experience. Drawing from physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park's teachings on nowflow, these in-depth practices help us recognize how we too are part of nature's flow.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Laying Down Into Support for Deep Relaxation: The Body as Nature's Flow Series17 Jan 202601:02:59

In this hour-long exploration, we'll discover how to deeply relax physically by feeling into the first quality of nature's flow: contactful, mutual connection. I'll guide you through accessing these qualities of presence really tangibly and evidently in your experience, then we'll go on the adventure of how we can especially use this contactful, mutual connection as a way to deeply feel into that neutrality of nature, that inner connection and lack of separation.

We'll be laying down into support. Tangibly. Contactfully. Becoming a connoisseur of that felt experience, its nuances. You might find how this mutual flow is not a "this first and then that"—in each place of contact, it's one event of interaction happening both directions simultaneously. Inseparably. You and the ground participating in one inseparable event of mutual flow. Not two, one.

Through this practice, you might discover how finding these qualities of nature that we can feel in our inner nature resources us, where they can feel deeply restful, yes, and connecting in a way that supports us at so many levels. If you have difficulty at all with sleeping, this can be a wonderful one to apply for sleeping—when we send the signal to our arms and legs, shoulders and hips that they don't have to do anything, it can help our overall experience find either deep rest or sleep.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Learning to lay down into support tangibly and contactfully
  • Discovering how support from the ground is literally a force coming up into your body
  • Experiencing how mutual flow is one inseparable event, not two separate things
  • Finding pockets of tension and inviting them to participate in this laying down
  • Understanding how this practice can support deep rest and sleep

The Body as Nature's Flow Series:

In these hour-long sessions, we explore the three qualities of presence—mutual flow, free flow, and whole flow—through direct, felt experience in the body. Each session begins with 30 minutes touching in on these foundational qualities, then goes on an adventure exploring different ways to feel into presence through our immediate, physical experience. Drawing from physicist and Tai Chi Master Wonchull Park's teachings on nowflow, these in-depth practices help us recognize how we too are part of nature's flow.


Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Dissolving Pain in Nature's Flow: What's Been Hidden Can Be Held30 Oct 202501:25:59

In this exploration, we'll discover how to work with subtle emotional pains that may feel tied to past events and "smeared out" in time. Getting trauma-informed support for these emotions is incredibly important. Ultimately, though, each one of us is “the one” who interfaces with our own inner experiences. I personally find it helpful to do this with as much spaciousness as possible—spaciousness that can be held in the utter integrity of this whole moment. The “when” where healing happens.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Recognizing how emotions can “come out of nowhere”
  • Opening up more space that can hold emotional experiences
  • Feeling the integrity of this whole moment
  • Discovering what can and can’t affect us now

Dissolving Pain in Nature’s Flow Series:
What can transform our relationship with pain and suffering? Perhaps most simply: recognizing our nature as part of Nature's flow. Resisting pain and hurt can make it persist, but what if we could experience these unpleasant messages in our body as sharing the same qualities as all of Nature's flow—as finely free and fully in the flow of this moment. In the first half of each session, we connect to these foundational qualities through guided practice. Then we'll go on an adventure into the underlying experience of pain of all kinds—from physical booboos to heartaches to blahs and fatigue. Over 15 years ago, Dr. Les Fehmi's book "Dissolving Pain in Open Focus" saved me and opened up a world of possibilities I'd never imagined. Over the last 10 years, it has been the teachings of Master Wonchull Park on the 3 qualities of nowflow that helped this make sense to me—giving me a simple way to embrace as ever-present what can sometimes seem magical. It's with a full heart that I share what has been so meaningful to me in this hour of self-discovery, knowing that these resources we might find in books can become real when we discover them for ourselves. I look forward to our discoveries together.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Dissolving Pain in Nature's Flow: Our Tender Resilience22 Oct 202501:48:32

In this exploration, we'll discover how emotional hurt and physical pain share similar patterns of bracing and disconnection. I'll guide you through gentle qigong movements to soften the heart area and explore how tenderness itself can be experienced as the refinement and sensitivity of nature’s flow itself, rather than shutting down. Through this practice, you might find how tenderness is our resilience. It allows emotional hurt to flow as part of the free flow that’s always given—as nature's grace.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Understanding the parallels between physical and emotional bracing
  • Learning qigong movements to soften and open the heart area
  • Discovering how tenderness is part of the fullness of nature’s flow
  • Finding resilience within sensitivity rather than through hardening


Dissolving Pain in Nature’s Flow Series:
What can transform our relationship with pain and suffering? Perhaps most simply: recognizing our nature as part of Nature's flow. Resisting pain and hurt can make it persist, but what if we could experience these unpleasant messages in our body as sharing the same qualities as all of Nature's flow—as finely free and fully in the flow of this moment. In the first half of each session, we connect to these foundational qualities through guided practice. Then we'll go on an adventure into the underlying experience of pain of all kinds—from physical booboos to heartaches to blahs and fatigue. Over 15 years ago, Dr. Les Fehmi's book "Dissolving Pain in Open Focus" saved me and opened up a world of possibilities I'd never imagined. Over the last 10 years, it has been the teachings of Master Wonchull Park on the 3 qualities of nowflow that helped this make sense to me—giving me a simple way to embrace as ever-present what can sometimes seem magical. It's with a full heart that I share what has been so meaningful to me in this hour of self-discovery, knowing that these resources we might find in books can become real when we discover them for ourselves. I look forward to our discoveries together.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Dissolving Pain in Nature's Flow: Your Toolkit Now11 Oct 202501:10:34

In this integration exploration, you’ll practice how to guide yourself through dissolving pain using all the approaches we've learned. I'll review the toolkit of perspectives and techniques—feeling space, shifting to immersive awareness, and working with the wholeness of the moment—that you can mix and match based on what you need to be with yourself in many circumstances of pain. Through this practice, you might find your own creative ways to meet yourself where you are and work with whatever arises.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Learning to self-guide through dissolving pain practices
  • Understanding the grace of Nature’s flow that comes before any particular technique
  • Reviewing the repertoire of approaches to difficult sensations
  • Finding the flexibility to modify practice based on your current state

Dissolving Pain in Nature’s Flow Series:
What can transform our relationship with pain and suffering? Perhaps most simply: recognizing our nature as part of Nature's flow. Resisting pain and hurt can make it persist, but what if we could experience these unpleasant messages in our body as sharing the same qualities as all of Nature's flow—as finely free and fully in the flow of this moment. In the first half of each session, we connect to these foundational qualities through guided practice. Then we'll go on an adventure into the underlying experience of pain of all kinds—from physical booboos to heartaches to blahs and fatigue. Over 15 years ago, Dr. Les Fehmi's book "Dissolving Pain in Open Focus" saved me and opened up a world of possibilities I'd never imagined. Over the last 10 years, it has been the teachings of Master Wonchull Park on the 3 qualities of nowflow that helped this make sense to me—giving me a simple way to embrace as ever-present what can sometimes seem magical. It's with a full heart that I share what has been so meaningful to me in this hour of self-discovery, knowing that these resources we might find in books can become real when we discover them for ourselves. I look forward to our discoveries together.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Dissolving Pain in Nature's Flow: Gentleness with the Blahs04 Oct 202501:37:25

In this exploration, we'll discover how to work with the "blahs"—those all-over, nebulous feelings of fatigue, malaise, or systemic unwellness that can be harder to locate than specific pain. I'll guide you through a gentler approach that starts with the space and sounds around your body before gradually including the whole-body sensations. Through this practice, you might discover how even through pervasive discomfort, there is underlying comfort that can be found.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Learning to work with whole-body, diffuse sensations
  • Discovering how to modify practice when you don't want to feel inside your body
  • Understanding how to approach the "blahs" with extra gentleness
  • Finding how outer awareness can gradually include inner sensations

Dissolving Pain in Nature’s Flow Series:
What can transform our relationship with pain and suffering? Perhaps most simply: recognizing our nature as part of Nature's flow. Resisting pain and hurt can make it persist, but what if we could experience these unpleasant messages in our body as sharing the same qualities as all of Nature's flow—as finely free and fully in the flow of this moment. In the first half of each session, we connect to these foundational qualities through guided practice. Then we'll go on an adventure into the underlying experience of pain of all kinds—from physical booboos to heartaches to blahs and fatigue. Over 15 years ago, Dr. Les Fehmi's book "Dissolving Pain in Open Focus" saved me and opened up a world of possibilities I'd never imagined. Over the last 10 years, it has been the teachings of Master Wonchull Park on the 3 qualities of nowflow that helped this make sense to me—giving me a simple way to embrace as ever-present what can sometimes seem magical. It's with a full heart that I share what has been so meaningful to me in this hour of self-discovery, knowing that these resources we might find in books can become real when we discover them for ourselves. I look forward to our discoveries together.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Dissolving Pain in Nature's Flow: When Pain Gets Smeared Across Time26 Sep 202501:31:42

In this exploration, we'll discover how our stories about pain in time can amplify suffering far beyond the present moment sensation. I'll guide you through experiencing how past, present, and future pain stories are all held within the wholeness of this eternal now. Through this practice, you might find how pain itself can feel lighter when we discover our time-based stories can be held differently.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Understanding how pain gets "smeared out" in time and amplified
  • Discovering the wholeness and integrity of the eternal now
  • Learning to experience stories as held within present moment awareness
  • Finding lightness and relief from the burden of time-based pain narratives

Dissolving Pain in Nature’s Flow Series:
What can transform our relationship with pain and suffering? Perhaps most simply: recognizing our nature as part of Nature's flow. Resisting pain and hurt can make it persist, but what if we could experience these unpleasant messages in our body as sharing the same qualities as all of Nature's flow—as finely free and fully in the flow of this moment. In the first half of each session, we connect to these foundational qualities through guided practice. Then we'll go on an adventure into the underlying experience of pain of all kinds—from physical booboos to heartaches to blahs and fatigue. Over 15 years ago, Dr. Les Fehmi's book "Dissolving Pain in Open Focus" saved me and opened up a world of possibilities I'd never imagined. Over the last 10 years, it has been the teachings of Master Wonchull Park on the 3 qualities of nowflow that helped this make sense to me—giving me a simple way to embrace as ever-present what can sometimes seem magical. It's with a full heart that I share what has been so meaningful to me in this hour of self-discovery, knowing that these resources we might find in books can become real when we discover them for ourselves. I look forward to our discoveries together.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Dissolving Pain in Nature's Flow: Moving Our Headquarters20 Sep 202501:31:07

In this exploration, we'll discover how to shift from experiencing pain as a separate object to immersing ourselves directly in the experience. I'll guide you through relocating your sense of identity from your head to your heart, hands, and even into the center of pain itself. Through this practice, you might find how dissolving the separation between observer and observed allows pain to reveal itself as the flow of nature experiencing itself.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Learning to shift your sense of identity and observing center
  • Discovering the flexibility of where you place your "headquarters"
  • Experiencing pain from the inside rather than as a separate object
  • Finding how immersion can dissolve the grip of difficult sensations
  • Embracing the gentleness and many options of being with ourselves

Dissolving Pain in Nature’s Flow Series:
What can transform our relationship with pain and suffering? Perhaps most simply: recognizing our nature as part of Nature's flow. Resisting pain and hurt can make it persist, but what if we could experience these unpleasant messages in our body as sharing the same qualities as all of Nature's flow—as finely free and fully in the flow of this moment. In the first half of each session, we connect to these foundational qualities through guided practice. Then we'll go on an adventure into the underlying experience of pain of all kinds—from physical booboos to heartaches to blahs and fatigue. Over 15 years ago, Dr. Les Fehmi's book "Dissolving Pain in Open Focus" saved me and opened up a world of possibilities I'd never imagined. Over the last 10 years, it has been the teachings of Master Wonchull Park on the 3 qualities of nowflow that helped this make sense to me—giving me a simple way to embrace as ever-present what can sometimes seem magical. It's with a full heart that I share what has been so meaningful to me in this hour of self-discovery, knowing that these resources we might find in books can become real when we discover them for ourselves. I look forward to our discoveries together.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Dissolving Pain in Nature's Flow: From Spotlight to Sunshine13 Sep 202501:30:57

In this exploration, we'll discover how to shift from the narrow spotlight of attention that can only focus "upon" or "away from" pain to a more inclusive mode of perception. I'll guide you through understanding how feeling space between things helps us access an effortless, simultaneous awareness that can hold pain within a broader context. Through this practice, you might discover your birthright of open, inclusive awareness that was likely our default mode millions of years ago.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Understanding the limitations of narrow, focused attention with pain
  • Learning to shift into open awareness through feeling space between things
  • Experiencing how space helps us feel our fingers more vibrantly than concepts
  • Discovering that open awareness is more natural and less effortful

Thank you for Being with Being.

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Dissolving Pain in Nature's Flow: Less Solid Than We Think06 Sep 202501:19:02

In this exploration, we'll discover how pain that seems stuck might actually be finer flows within flows—ever finer, like a fractal flowing in space. I'll guide you through feeling how however fixed pain might appear, there's no bracing or stuckness at the level of nature's flow. Through this practice, you might find something beyond pleasure or pain—a kind of vibrant togetherness, alive comfort that's subtle, delicate, and flowing.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Discovering that pain has no ultimate fixedness in nature's flow
  • Learning to perceive the flowing quality within seemingly solid sensations
  • Experiencing something beyond pleasure or pain—a vibrant togetherness
  • Finding the alive comfort that flows within all experience

Dissolving Pain in Nature’s Flow Series:
What can transform our relationship with pain and suffering? Perhaps most simply: recognizing our nature as part of Nature's flow. Resisting pain and hurt can make it persist, but what if we could experience these unpleasant messages in our body as sharing the same qualities as all of Nature's flow—as finely free and fully in the flow of this moment. In the first half of each session, we connect to these foundational qualities through guided practice. Then we'll go on an adventure into the underlying experience of pain of all kinds—from physical booboos to heartaches to blahs and fatigue. Over 15 years ago, Dr. Les Fehmi's book "Dissolving Pain in Open Focus" saved me and opened up a world of possibilities I'd never imagined. Over the last 10 years, it has been the teachings of Master Wonchull Park on the 3 qualities of nowflow that helped this make sense to me—giving me a simple way to embrace as ever-present what can sometimes seem magical. It's with a full heart that I share what has been so meaningful to me in this hour of self-discovery, knowing that these resources we might find in books can become real when we discover them for ourselves. I look forward to our discoveries together.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Dissolving Pain in Nature's Flow: Finding Space Around Pain06 Sep 202501:34:28

In this opening exploration, we'll discover how feeling space can fundamentally shift our mode of perception from narrow focus to open awareness. I'll guide you through Dr. Les Fehmi's revolutionary approach of feeling the space between things—starting with your fingers—to access a more inclusive way of being with pain and difficulty. Through this practice, you might find how shifting into spacious awareness naturally allows sensations to dissolve and flow rather than feeling stuck or fixed.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Learning the difference between narrow and open focus awareness
  • Discovering how feeling space between your fingers shifts perception
  • Experiencing pain within the larger context of spacious awareness
  • The possibility that sensations can move, flow, and change when met with space

Dissolving Pain in Nature’s Flow Series:
What can transform our relationship with pain and suffering? Perhaps most simply: recognizing our nature as part of Nature's flow. Resisting pain and hurt can make it persist, but what if we could experience these unpleasant messages in our body as sharing the same qualities as all of Nature's flow—as finely free and fully in the flow of this moment. In the first half of each session, we connect to these foundational qualities through guided practice. Then we'll go on an adventure into the underlying experience of pain of all kinds—from physical booboos to heartaches to blahs and fatigue. Over 15 years ago, Dr. Les Fehmi's book "Dissolving Pain in Open Focus" saved me and opened up a world of possibilities I'd never imagined. Over the last 10 years, it has been the teachings of Master Wonchull Park on the 3 qualities of nowflow that helped this make sense to me—giving me a simple way to embrace as ever-present what can sometimes seem magical. It's with a full heart that I share what has been so meaningful to me in this hour of self-discovery, knowing that these resources we might find in books can become real when we discover them for ourselves. I look forward to our discoveries together.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Nature's Flow: 30-Minute Foundation - All Three Qualities Together 30 Aug 202500:55:38

In this integration session, we'll weave together all three qualities of nature's flow into a complete 30-minute foundation practice. I'll guide you through 5-minute intervals that stack together—mutual flow through body and earth, free flow through breath awareness, and whole flow through hands and space. Through this foundational practice, you might discover how these qualities create a springboard for feeling resourced by your inner nature retreat and ready for further adventures into presence.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • An accessible practice you can return to daily
  • Feeling how the three qualities support and build on each other
  • The sense of being resourced by your inner nature retreat
  • A foundation for further adventures and explorations of presence


Nature’s Flow Series:

Discover how your inner landscape naturally contains the same qualities that flow through all of nature. Whether you feel frustrated by rigid meditation "shoulds," curious about ancient wisdom, or seeking a bridge between spiritual teachings and lived experience, this Nature's Flow introductory series meets you in the immediacy of your direct experience—your breath, your contact with the ground, the space your body occupies.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Nature's Flow: The Whole Flow Quality - Fingers and Hands30 Aug 202500:39:43

In this exploration, we'll discover nature's quality of whole flow through the sensitive awareness of your fingers and hands. I'll guide you through feeling the length, volume, and space that your fingers occupy, exploring how our hands can feel right there -- right here -- filling and radiating through your hands all at once. Through this practice, you might discover how the all-at-once-ness and wholeness that we see in nature is also alive in the integrity of how your immediate experience unfolds.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • The sense of presence filling your hands completely
  • Experiencing the all-at-once-ness of whole flow
  • Feeling the integrity of wholeness in this moment
  • Recognizing the vibrancy and tangibility of presence in space

Nature’s Flow Series:

Discover how your inner landscape naturally contains the same qualities that flow through all of nature. Whether you feel frustrated by rigid meditation "shoulds," curious about ancient wisdom, or seeking a bridge between spiritual teachings and lived experience, this Nature's Flow introductory series meets you in the immediacy of your direct experience—your breath, your contact with the ground, the space your body occupies.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Nature's Flow: Mutual and Free Flow Together - Breath and Breathing Body30 Aug 202500:26:56

In this exploration, we'll discover how the first two qualities of nature's flow arise together rather than separately. I'll guide you through feeling the free flow of breath coming down into your body and the wave-like motion of your breathing body, exploring how both freedom and connection are how nature flows together. Through this practice, you might find how the breath and body reveal themselves as flows of nature happening in space, mutually connected yet practically infinitely fine and free.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • Sensing how freedom and connection arise together naturally
  • Feeling the wave-like quality of your breathing body
  • Recognizing breath and body as flows of nature in space
  • The experience that nothing in your body is physically stuck

Nature's Flow Series:

Discover how your inner landscape naturally contains the same qualities that flow through all of nature. Whether you feel frustrated by rigid meditation "shoulds," curious about ancient wisdom, or seeking a bridge between spiritual teachings and lived experience, this Nature's Flow introductory series meets you in the immediacy of your direct experience—your breath, your contact with the ground, the space your body occupies.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
mackenziehawkins.substack.com





Nature's Flow: Free Flow Quality - Breath at the Nose23 Aug 202500:23:14

In this exploration, we'll discover nature's quality of free flow through the practically infinite fineness of breath at your nose. Together we'll use gentle attention to the sensations in your nostrils, exploring how nature arises as ever finer flows within flows—never stuck, always free. I'll guide you through an open inquiry into the finest sensations you can feel, and you might discover how the free flow that we experience in the flow of air is also alive in the immediacy of your own experience.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • The practically infinite fineness within any flow
  • Recognizing that nothing in nature is ever stuck
  • Finding freedom accessible in simple breath awareness
  • The sense that every experience has irresolvable richness

Nature's Flow Series:

Discover how your inner landscape naturally contains the same qualities that flow through all of nature. Whether you feel frustrated by rigid meditation "shoulds," curious about ancient wisdom, or seeking a bridge between spiritual teachings and lived experience, this Nature's Flow introductory series meets you in the immediacy of your direct experience—your breath, your contact with the ground, the space your body occupies.

Thank you for Being with Being.

beingwithbeing.org
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Nature's Flow: Mutual Flow Quality - Shoulders, Hands & Seat23 Aug 202500:22:47

 In today's exploration, we'll discover nature's quality of mutual flow by settling together into direct contact with your body and the earth. I'll guide you through gentle attention to your shoulders, hands, and seat as we explore how giving your weight to the ground and receiving its support can reveal the mutual connection that's already streaming through your experience. Through this practice, you might find yourself feeling how the wisdom of interconnection is tangibly happening in your direct experience right now.

Some possible takeaways from today's practice:

  • The sense of laying down and being held by support
  • Learning to relax held tension and settle into your body
  • Recognizing the immediacy of contactful connection
  • Feeling the overall sense that you're not alone

Nature's Flow Series: Discover how your inner landscape naturally contains the same qualities that flow through all of nature. Whether you feel frustrated by rigid meditation "shoulds," curious about ancient wisdom, or seeking a bridge between spiritual teachings and lived experience, this Nature's Flow introductory series meets you in the immediacy of your direct experience—your breath, your contact with the ground, the space your body occupies.

Thank you for Being with Being.

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