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What if the scarcity you’ve been living from was never your inheritance?In this powerful episode of *Begin & Behold*, Ingrid Gonzalez welcomes Ruth Fernandez back for a deeply personal conversation with women who have been reading Ruth’s book, *Prosperity Is Not Luck, It’s Your Birthright*.This isn’t simply a conversation about money. It’s about identity, faith, mindset, obedience, and learning to recognize what God has already placed within your reach.Together, they unpack what it looks like to move from survival and scarcity into a mindset of abundance, how to break generational patterns around money, and how to believe differently when your circumstances have taught you otherwise.Ruth shares openly about her own journey from extreme poverty, entrepreneurship, faith, and learning to operate from a place of abundance. She also speaks into the tension between believing for more and remaining surrendered to God’s will.In this episode, you’ll hear conversations about:• Breaking a scarcity and survival mindset• Changing generational patterns around money• Learning to move from fear to faith• Understanding prosperity as more than finances• How your heart posture affects the way you steward money• Taking courageous steps toward the vision God has placed in you• Overcoming people-pleasing and the fear of man• Knowing when relationships are seasonal• Sowing even when you don’t immediately see the harvest• Building wealth with purpose and kingdom impact• Learning to believe that your circumstances do not define youAnd perhaps one of the most powerful moments is when Ruth leads a woman through a declaration:“I release the season of lack.I forgive myself for believing the lie.And I thank You, God, for the new season.”This episode is an invitation to stop simply listening and begin doing the inner work.Come expectant. Come ready to examine what you believe. And come willing to ask: **What would change if I truly believed I was created for more?**✨ Download the Soul Care Companion and use it to take the conversation deeper through reflection, prayer, and application.Subscribe to *Begin & Behold* and join us as we continue the journey of becoming women who know who they are, whose they are, and what they’ve been called to carry.

Forgiveness is an act of surrender, not a feeling you wait to arrive.In this excerpt from the Unbound workshop, Dr. Tanya Paniagua shares what forgiveness really asks of us. Not denial. Not pretending it didn't hurt. A choice to release what we were never meant to carry.She brings together psychology, theology, and her own story of betrayal. Because what we don't process, we carry. And unforgiveness has a way of settling into the body and into the people we love most.Subscribe if these conversations help you grow in your faith.

How do you know when you've truly forgiven someone? When the pain fades until it feels like you're telling someone else's story.In this Q&A from the Unbound workshop, Dr. Tanya Paniagua answers real questions from the room. What forgiveness looks like when the other person never apologizes. Why forgiving someone doesn't mean going back. How to hold hope for a hurting child. And why healing your own wounds is never selfish.She speaks as a counselor and as a woman who has walked it, bringing psychology and Scripture together with her own story.

Forgiveness is an act of surrender, not a feeling you wait to arrive.In this excerpt from the Unbound workshop, Dr. Tanya Paniagua shares what forgiveness really asks of us. Not denial. Not pretending it didn't hurt. A choice to release what we were never meant to carry.She brings together psychology, theology, and her own story of betrayal. Because what we don't process, we carry. And unforgiveness has a way of settling into the body and into the people we love most.Subscribe if these conversations help you grow in your faith.

Forgiveness is an act of surrender, not a feeling you wait to arrive.

In this excerpt from the Unbound workshop, Dr. Tanya Paniagua shares what forgiveness really asks of us. Not denial. Not pretending it didn't hurt. A choice to release what we were never meant to carry.She brings together psychology, theology, and her own story of betrayal. Because what we don't process, we carry. And unforgiveness has a way of settling into the body and into the people we love most.Subscribe if these conversations help you grow in your faith.

Forgiveness does not always mean reconciliation.

In this live Q&A from the Unbound gathering, Dr. Tanya Paniagua answers the questions women brought into the room that day. Suicidal children. Blocked memories.

Boundaries with someone you still have to see. An apology that never came.She answers each one from Scripture and from twenty five years of walking it out herself.

ABOUT DR. TANYA PANIAGUA

Dr. Tanya Paniagua is a counselor, teacher, and mother who works with women walking through the wounds of rejection, abandonment, betrayal, and trauma. Her own story includes divorce, depression, and years of learning to forgive a man who never asked her to.

She now leads others through the same process she had to walk herself.

WHAT SHE COVERS

Why your own healing sets the pace for your children's healingThe difference between forgiveness, reconciliation, and restoration

How to tell whether you have truly forgiven or only said the wordsWhy journaling and speaking out loud heal different parts of you

How to hold boundaries with a co parent without becoming bitterWhy the enemy multiplies whatever stays hiddenWhat to do when the person who hurt you is never going to change.

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Amazon Book Linkhttps://amzn.to/3STxgxeWhat does it mean to take God radically at His word? In this section of BEGIN & BEHOLD, Ruth Fernandez shares how her mother's bold prayers became a spiritual inheritance, why your circumstances do not have to become your identity, and how she learned to keep her confession aligned with God's promises through betrayal, grief, and waiting seasons.Born into poverty in a small village in Mexico, Ruth watched her mother sow seeds of faith, integrity, and generosity that changed the trajectory of her family. Now she teaches that every seed has a fruit, and the blessing is often hidden in the germination season.In this conversation:How to pray bold prayers about health, finances, and fearWhy it's okay to be honest with God about your emotionsThe spiritual inheritance of a praying motherMark 11:23–24 and the power of your wordsWhy your recovery time matters more than your feelingsEach episode comes with a free Soul Care Companion, a reflection guide to take a deeper dive with the Holy Spirit. Subscribe and turn on notifications so you never miss our monthly conversations.

Amazon Linkhttps://amzn.to/3STxgxeYour reality says one thing. Your confession says another.So how do you keep speaking what God said?In this clip, Ruth Fernandez shares how intentionality with your words is not a one-time decision. It is a lifestyle. When you see the fruit of your tongue, you guard what comes out of your mouth."I held on to what you said, Lord. This is what you said and I believe that you are my God." — Ruth FernandezReflect:Where does your confession currently contradict your circumstances?What has God said that you need to hold on to again?Drop a 🙌 in the comments if you are choosing to believe what He said.Subscribe for more conversations on healing, obedience, and becoming.

She lost everything. Her home, her company, her good credit. And God used it to reveal a truth most Christians have never heard. Prosperity is not luck. It is your birthright rooted in covenant. In this episode of Begin and Behold, Ingrid Gonzalez sits down with Ruth Fernandez, corporate strategist, author, and COO of 1031 Crowdfunding, whose influence reaches Fortune 500 companies and billion dollar real estate markets. But her real story begins in a cave in a village in Mexico, raised by a praying mother who declared that circumstances do not have to become your identity. This conversation will challenge everything you have believed about prosperity, poverty, and what it means to walk in the fullness of your identity in Christ. In this episode: - Why poverty begins in the heart, not the bank account - The night Ruth lost everything in 2008 and wrestled with God face to face - How God told her to write a book, and she wrote it in three days - The inheritance of bold prayer passed down from a praying mother - The poverty mindset as a spiritual condition. Fear, criticism, and a closed heart - Why sowing and giving is a spiritual law the enemy cannot break - Healing spiritually, physically, and financially as one journey, not three

Ruth Fernandez reveals why poverty begins in the heart, not the bank account, the night she lost everything and wrestled with God face to face, and why sowing is a spiritual law the enemy cannot break!Ruth Fernandez is a corporate strategist, author, and public speaker whose influence reaches Fortune 500 companies and billion dollar real estate markets. As COO of 1031 Crowdfunding, she has been involved in real estate transactions totaling more than $2 billion. She is a Forbes Council member and contributor, an Inc. magazine contributor, and the author of Prosperity Is Not Luck, It's Your Birthright, Volumes 1 and 2. But her real story begins in a cave in a village in Mexico, raised by a praying mother who declared that circumstances do not have to become your identity.She explains:- Why poverty is a condition of the heart and how to recognize a poverty mindset- How losing her home, company, and good credit in 2008 became her greatest testimony- How God told her to write a book, and she wrote it in three days- The inheritance of bold prayer passed down from a praying mother- Why the enemy targets your giving to paralyze your impact- The difference between tithing as kingdom citizenship and offering as investment- Why healing spiritually, physically, and financially is one journey, not threeGet Ruth's books:📖 PROSPERITY IS NOT LUCK, IT'S YOUR BIRTHRIGHT VOL.1 → https://amzn.to/4paIv0j📖 PROSPERITY IS NOT LUCK, IT'S YOUR BIRTHRIGHT VOL.2 → https://amzn.to/4eQnSTqAll proceeds from Vol.1 go toward rescuing children from trafficking. All proceeds from Vol.2 support veterans re-entering civilian life and receiving the mental health care they deserve.Go deeper with this episode:✨ SOUL CARE ACTIVATION PDF → https://begin.myflodesk.com/ruth📺 YouTube → Subscribe and turn on notifications so you never miss an episode.Connect with Ingrid → https://www.instagram.com/ingridsgonzalez

What does it really take to become the woman God created you to be?

In this powerful and deeply honest conversation, Ingrid sits down with Lauren to unpack the process of shedding old versions of yourself, walking through pain, healing, identity, and rebirth, and stepping into your true calling.

This episode dives into the uncomfortable but necessary truth:

Growth requires breaking. Healing requires honesty. And transformation requires ownership.

From a bold Instagram DM that started it all, to a conversation about faith, identity, purpose, and personal responsibility, this episode will challenge the way you think about “strength,” success, and what it means to truly live free.

If you’ve ever felt stuck, overwhelmed, or like you’re living beneath your potential—this conversation is for you.

✨ IN THIS EPISODE YOU’LL LEARN:

Why shedding old versions of yourself is necessary for growth

The difference between surviving vs. truly living

How women unknowingly lose their voice and identity

Why being “strong” can sometimes be self-protection, not healing.

How to stop shrinking and start walking in authority and purpose

The truth about ownership, obedience, and transformation

How to use your “wilderness season” with intention

⏱️ KEY MOMENTS

00:00 – Authentic start + how this connection began

09:17 – The bold step that started it all

12:00 – Obedience, fear, and taking action without certainty

15:00 – “There’s a version of me I had to shed…”

18:00 – The truth about unlearning and identity

22:00 – Surviving vs. living fully alive

26:00 – Why women shrink and how to stop

30:00 – Values, identity, and misalignment

40:00 – Ownership: the key to transformation

54:00 – Saying goodbye to your old self

1:06:00 – What to do in your wilderness season

📢 CALL TO ACTIONIf this conversation spoke to you, share it with another woman who needs encouragement today.👉 Subscribe for more conversations on faith, purpose, and becoming who you were created to be.👉 Comment below: What is one thing you need to release in this season?🤍 STAY CONNECTEDWEBSITE: begincircles.com📰 NEWSLETTER: begin.flodesk.com/begin

What if the miracle isn’t what I’m waiting for… but what God is doing inside of me?

I’ve felt the tension between believing for a breakthrough and thinking my testimony would only matter if the miracle showed up. But God showed me something deeper…

My healing, my surrender, and my praise in the waiting… is already the testimony.

God isn’t just moving in outcomes—He’s moving in my heart.

In the waiting, in the unanswered prayers, in the “not yet”… He is still present. Still healing me. Still transforming me.

My ability to praise Him in the middle of it all is evidence of His work in my life.

So I go to the secret place.
I ask Him to reveal what I haven’t surrendered yet.
And every time… He meets me there.

What do you do when God says “not yet”?After 25 years of waiting, infertility, IVF, and heartbreak… this is my story of how God still showed up and brought healing in the waiting.Welcome to Begin & Behold, a space for real conversations about encountering God in every season.

These conversations follow a journey we all walk through:


A Wilderness season where God meets us.


A Healing season where God restores us.


A Becoming season where God transforms us.In this episode, I open up about my journey through infertility, loss, and the emotional weight of waiting on God for a promise that hasn’t yet come to pass.Through moments of grief, unanswered prayers, and years of waiting, I’ve come to realize a powerful truth: the greatest miracle wasn’t the outcome… it was the healing, the transformation, and the presence of God in the process.If you’ve ever struggled with:* Waiting on God* Infertility or the IVF journey* Loss, grief, or disappointment* Feeling like your prayers aren’t being answered* Searching for healing, faith, or purposeThis episode is for you.My prayer is that this conversation encourages you to:✨ Find joy in the waiting✨ Encounter God in the “not yet”✨ Experience emotional and spiritual healing✨ Grow deeper in your relationship with GodTimestamps:00:00 Welcome to Begin & Behold01:00 The journey begins03:00 IVF and the “not yet” moment05:00 Walking through grief and pain08:00 God’s faithfulness over time12:00 Healing in the waiting15:00 The secret place & transformation17:00 Invitation to begin again

What do you do when your marriage is broken… but your faith tells you to stay?In this deeply emotional and faith-filled conversation, we dive into the reality of infidelity, divorce, and spiritual warfare inside the church. One woman shares her raw story—navigating betrayal while pregnant, raising a child battling suicidal thoughts, and wrestling with what God says about divorce.This isn’t just a story about pain… it’s about faith under pressure.If you’ve ever asked:Does God want me to stay in a broken marriage?How do I heal after infidelity?Where is God in the middle of my suffering?This message is for you.Through heartbreak, confusion, and spiritual battles, she reveals how God met her in the darkest moments—and how the support of pastors and community helped her stay anchored in truth.👉 You are not alone.👉 Your story is not over.👉 God is still working. I’d love to hear from you:What is one area God might be inviting you to trust Him in?—🔔 Subscribe for more conversations on:Christian healingInner healing and freedomSoul care (spirit, soul, body)Identity in Christ—📲 Connect with me:Instagram: @ingridsgonzalezPodcast: Begin & Behold—🕊️ Keywords (to help others find this):obedience to God, Christian inner healing, Holy Spirit guidance, God search my heart, healing from wounds, faith and healing, Christian marriage healing, surrender to God, spiritual growth, forgiveness and healing, Christian podcast

What if healing didn’t start with fixing everything around you…but with one simple yes to God?In this conversation, Dr. Tanya shares how her first decision was obedience and how that yes opened up something she didn’t expect.“The first decision was to be obedient… I didn’t know what it was going to open up.”What it opened up was a space for the Holy Spirit to gently begin revealing what was already therelike a flashlight shining into the hidden placesthe woundsthe pridethe patterns she hadn’t seen beforeAnd then something even deeper happened.In moments where she wanted to focus on what her husband had done, the Holy Spirit reminded her:you said yes to MeNot to fixing your husbandnot to controlling the outcomebut to your own journey of healingAnd from that place… everything started to shiftThis clip is an invitation to considerwhat could happen if you trusted God with your healing process✨ As you watch, reflect on this:• Where might God be inviting you into obedience?• What would it look like to let Him search your heart?• What could change if you focused on your transformation first?You don’t have to have it all figured outjust a willingness to say yes—💬 I’d love to hear from you:What is one area God might be inviting you to trust Him in?—🔔 Subscribe for more conversations on:Christian healingInner healing and freedomSoul care (spirit, soul, body)Identity in Christ—📲 Connect with me:Instagram: @ingridsgonzalezPodcast: Begin & Behold—🕊️ Keywords (to help others find this):obedience to God, Christian inner healing, Holy Spirit guidance, God search my heart, healing from wounds, faith and healing, Christian marriage healing, surrender to God, spiritual growth, forgiveness and healing, Christian podcast

What if healing didn’t start with fixing everything around you…

but with one simple yes to God?

In this conversation, Dr. Tanya shares how her first decision was obedience and how that yes opened up something she didn’t expect.

“The first decision was to be obedient… I didn’t know what it was going to open up.”

What it opened up was a space for the Holy Spirit to gently begin revealing what was already there

like a flashlight shining into the hidden places

the wounds

the pride

the patterns she hadn’t seen before

And then something even deeper happened.

In moments where she wanted to focus on what her husband had done, the Holy Spirit reminded her:

you said yes to Me

Not to fixing your husband

not to controlling the outcome

but to your own journey of healing

And from that place… everything started to shift

This clip is an invitation to consider

what could happen if you trusted God with your healing process

✨ As you watch, reflect on this:

• Where might God be inviting you into obedience?

• What would it look like to let Him search your heart?

• What could change if you focused on your transformation first?

You don’t have to have it all figured out

just a willingness to say yes

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What is one area God might be inviting you to trust Him in?

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Identity in Christ

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obedience to God, Christian inner healing, Holy Spirit guidance, God search my heart, healing from wounds, faith and healing, Christian marriage healing, surrender to God, spiritual growth, forgiveness and healing, Christian podcast

What if healing isn’t just about being saved but being made whole?

In this first episode of BEGIN & BEHOLD, Ingrid Gonzalez sits down with Dr. Tanya Paniagua for a raw, honest, and Spirit-led conversation about true healing, unprocessed pain, and the journey of restoration.

This is more than a conversation…It’s an invitation to come back to the Father.

Together, we explore:

-The difference between salvation and healing

-How unhealed wounds can shape our lives and relationships

-The impact of trauma, relationship hurt, and hidden pain

-What it looks like to partner with the Holy Spirit in your healing journey

-The beauty of surrender, accountability, and restoration Dr. Tanya vulnerably shares her story of heartbreak, infidelity, trauma, and ultimately God’s redeeming power to restore what was broken.

If you’ve ever felt stuck, overwhelmed, or unsure how to process your pain… this conversation is for you.

🎧 ABOUT BEGIN & BEHOLD

BEGIN & BEHOLD is a podcast conversation designed to usher us into each month’s themenot as something separate, but as an extension of what is already sacred within our BEGIN Circles community.A space where we begin together… and behold what God is revealing.

What if healing isn’t just about being saved but being made whole?In this first episode of BEGIN & BEHOLD, Ingrid Gonzalez sits down with Dr. Tanya Paniagua for a raw, honest, and Spirit-led conversation about true healing, unprocessed pain, and the journey of restoration.This is more than a conversation…It’s an invitation to come back to the Father.Together, we explore:-The difference between salvation and healing-How unhealed wounds can shape our lives and relationships-The impact of trauma, relationship hurt, and hidden pain-What it looks like to partner with the Holy Spirit in your healing journey-The beauty of surrender, accountability, and restorationDr. Tanya vulnerably shares her story of heartbreak, infidelity, trauma, and ultimately God’s redeeming power to restore what was broken.If you’ve ever felt stuck, overwhelmed, or unsure how to process your pain… this conversation is for you.🎧 ABOUT BEGIN & BEHOLDBEGIN & BEHOLD is a podcast conversation designed to usher us into each month’s themenot as something separate, but as an extension of what is already sacred within our BEGIN Circles community.A space where we begin together… and behold what God is revealing.

What if healing isn’t just about being saved, but being made whole?

In this first episode of BEGIN & BEHOLD, Ingrid Gonzalez sits down with Dr. Tanya Paniagua for a raw, honest, and Spirit-led conversation about true healing, unprocessed pain, and the journey of restoration.

This is more than a conversation…It’s an invitation to come back to the Father.

Together, we explore:

The difference between salvation and healing.

How unhealed wounds can shape our lives and relationships.

The impact of trauma, relationship hurt, and hidden pain.

What it looks like to partner with the Holy Spirit in your healing journey.

The beauty of surrender, accountability, and restoration.

Dr. Tanya vulnerably shares her story of heartbreak, infidelity, trauma, and ultimately God’s redeeming power to restore what was broken.

If you’ve ever felt stuck, overwhelmed, or unsure how to process your pain… this conversation is for you.

🎧 ABOUT BEGIN & BEHOLD

BEGIN & BEHOLD is a podcast conversation designed to usher us into each month’s themenot as something separate, but as an extension of what is already sacred within our BEGIN Circles community.

A space where we begin together… and behold what God is revealing.

🌿 GO DEEPER — IN PERSON

If this conversation stirred something in your heart, we want to invite you into a sacred, in-person experience.

✨ Join us for our BEGIN Circles Soul Care Workshop with Dr. Tanya Paniagua

🗓 April 11th, 2026

⏰ 1PM - 4PM

📍 Los Angeles, CA

This will be a space to not just hear about healing but to walk it out with the Holy Spirit, in community.

🤍 Come ready to:Process what God is revealingDo the deep work in a safe, guided environmentEncounter His presence in a personal way

🎟 Reserve your spot here:

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