Explore every episode of the podcast At Last She Said It
| Title | Pub. Date | Duration | |
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| Episode 197: Season 8 | That's a Wrap! | 27 Aug 2024 | 01:18:28 | |
As a finale to this season of conversations about women's spirituality, in Episode 197 Susan and Cynthia revisit some ideas that stood out to them, discuss personal takeaways, and chat about what's on each of their minds now. | |||
| Episode 196: What About Ritual? | A Conversation with Selina Forsyth | 20 Aug 2024 | 01:05:29 | |
"For me, broadening my thinking about ritual has given me more freedom to bring my whole self and my creativity to my spiritual life, as well as meet my unique and evolving spiritual needs," explains Selina Forsyth, who joins Cynthia and Susan to discuss ritual in the lives of Latter-day Saint women. What about when the rituals provided by our religion no longer fit? Even if they do remain deeply meaningful, in a church where women have not been involved in creating official sacred rituals—and sometimes participate in them only as observers—it can be hard to feel we have authority to create personal sacred rituals for ourselves. Episode 196 is a conversation about the intentional making and marking of meaning in the big and small moments of our lives. | |||
| Episode 187: Embracing Your Journey | A Conversation with Amy Watkins Jensen | 25 Jun 2024 | 00:59:45 | |
"Spiritual stretching ... makes you stronger, gives you more balance, and keeps you stable. It took me years to understand that my questions and seeking that stretch me, and are really difficult to wrestle with, are healthy and completely in line with our theology. [...] We need more stretchy saints." Amy Watkins Jensen has plenty of hard-earned wisdom to share with those who may be experiencing challenges—even heartbreak—on their journey as Latter-day Saint women. In Episode 187, she joins Cynthia and Susan to talk about how her lifetime of church experience continues to fuel her faith. | |||
| Episode 186: What Happened to Community? | A Conversation with Candice Wendt | 18 Jun 2024 | 01:06:46 | |
"Life as a member offers relatively little social time or enjoyment," writes Candice Wendt. "Being in the ward is mostly about passive listening and being told to follow leaders and go to the temple. [...] You're more likely to get asked to clean our very dirty building than be asked to dinner." In episode 186, Candice joins Susan and Cynthia for a discussion of some of the ways church has changed, with more focus on things like covenants and temple attendance, and less on community. It's a conversation about what we've lost, what's important, what remains, and what it all might mean in the lives of members and the future of the organization. | |||
| Episode 185: Does That Scripture Mean What You Think it Means? | A Dance with the Parable of the Talents | 11 Jun 2024 | 00:57:54 | |
Rob Bell describes interacting with scripture like this: there's the black ink (what's written on the page), then there's the white space around it (where we dance with what's written). In Episode 185, Susan and Cynthia take on what Latter-day Saints commonly call the Parable of the Talents, from Matthew 25. It's a conversation about grace out of hand, covenant relationship, and how we may have come to think about things the way we do. If you're a fan of the #gracepeddlers, you won't want to miss it! | |||
| Episode 184: Am I Allowed to Change? | A Conversation with Jana Spangler | 04 Jun 2024 | 00:59:55 | |
Many of us make temple covenants as young adults. Are we expected to have the same perspectives and priorities at 80 that we had at 18? In a church that emphasizes concepts like "staying on the covenant path" and "enduring to the end," it can be hard to know how to navigate when our life experiences invite us to grow in new directions. In Episode 184, Jana Spangler joins Cynthia and Susan to discuss the challenges Latter-day Saints may face as they change and mature within an inflexible paradigm. | |||
| Episode 183: What About Anger? | 28 May 2024 | 00:59:37 | |
We asked, you answered! Of all emotions, anger might be the least acceptable for Latter-day Saint women. Many of us are not comfortable being around it, expressing it, talking about it, or even feeling it. But when we choose silence over healthy dialogue, what's the toll on our physical, emotional, and spiritual well-being? In Episode 183, Cynthia and Susan share listener voicemails about anger. Can we create space in our church culture for women to both experience and express this natural response? | |||
| Episode 182: The Harder the Better | A Conversation with Valerie Hamaker | 21 May 2024 | 01:05:39 | |
Does devotion always require walking uphill? What's the difference between good-hard and bad-hard? Do some Church members see the difficulty of a thing as a measure of the righteousness it requires? Has "more suffering and sacrifice" somehow come to mean "higher and holier" in the LDS narrative? In Episode 182, Valerie Hamaker of Latter-day Struggles podcast joins Susan and Cynthia to discuss these questions and more as they unpack the notion that harder is better when it comes to living our faith. | |||
| Episode 181: What About the Sacrament? | 14 May 2024 | 01:09:51 | |
As the centerpiece of Sunday worship and an ordinance pointing directly to Jesus Christ, the sacrament holds deep meaning for many Latter-day Saints. In Episode 181, Cynthia and Susan turn their grace-peddling to a conversation about the sacrament. What matters more: worthiness, or willingness? When did this simple remembrance of Jesus become about "renewing our baptismal covenant," and what does that mean? How might the evolution of personal faith impact the way one thinks about and engages with this ordinance? Can a ritual that is so familiar take on new significance as we change and grow? | |||
| Episode 180: Embracing Your Journey | A Conversation with Mary Cox | 07 May 2024 | 01:02:44 | |
Mary once put a vinyl motto above her kitchen door that read, "That's What We Do!" It was a 4-word description of her life as a Latter-day Saint woman. For many years, she and her husband were "the couple who could get it done" at church. She describes looking back with grace for that younger self: "She was doing the best she could with what she knew. But she was exhausted and her children and family structure suffered. More importantly—she suffered." Then Mary changed. In Episode 180, she joins Susan and Cynthia to talk about that change and rebuilding her spiritual life from the bottom up, with just 3 components in the foundation: "Love and Jesus and Me ... what else really matters?" | |||
| Episode 179: Am I Spiritual? | 30 Apr 2024 | 01:06:28 | |
What is spirituality? Am I doing it right? What does it look or feel like? Who decides? Episode 179 rounds out the intro of our theme with an exploration of James Finley's idea: "The greatest teacher of God's presence in our life is our life." Cynthia and Susan discuss the difference between communication and communion, finding points of connection in our daily experiences, and identifying and/or choosing personal spiritual practices for ourselves. | |||
| Episode 178: Women's Spirituality | A Conversation with Brittney Hartley | 23 Apr 2024 | 01:06:26 | |
Like flowers in the cracks of a sidewalk, women's spirituality has had to work its way around and through thousands of years of religious beliefs and practices established and maintained by and for men. "I have stopped trying to make my life look spiritually acceptable to men. Men have very specific criteria for what spirituality is, based on the reality that men have been the only ones writing religious rites and scripture," explains Brittney Hartley. Her words are deeply resonant for many Latter-day Saint women who struggle to grow our own spirituality in a church that is patriarchy all the way down. In Episode 178, Brittney joins Cynthia and Susan for a conversation about women defining and redefining for ourselves what spirituality can be. | |||
| Episode 195: Embracing Your Journey | A Conversation with Candice Clark | 13 Aug 2024 | 00:58:39 | |
Every Latter-day Saint woman's walk is unique. Cynthia and Susan are joined in Episode 195 by Candice Clark, who shares a glimpse of her personal path and some valuable insights she's picked up along the way. She reminds us, "As a mother raised in the Church, one thing I'm grateful to have finally learned is that my desires matter. They don't matter more than anyone else's; they also don't matter less. It's good to know what I want, whether or not I get it. And it's okay for me to get what I want sometimes." | |||
| Episode 177: Going Off-Brand | 16 Apr 2024 | 01:13:28 | |
"There is room to honor and hold space for the precious and the meaningful even as we evolve in our beliefs, our homes, and our lives. It's okay to bring some things with you." These wise words from writer Sarah Bessey help shape the conversation of this Season 8 opener. Everyone who's moved knows it can be hard to decide what to toss and what to keep. Latter-day Saint women may find it challenging to honor the evolution of our personal faith within the church brand we've known and loved. It's okay to need more space! How can we incorporate good fruit gleaned from new sources—those off-brand beliefs or practices we've found outside our previous boundaries that feel expansive, nourishing, or even essential to our growth? | |||
| Episode 176 (Bonus): What About Season 8? | 09 Apr 2024 | 00:20:47 | |
In this short bonus episode, Susan and Cynthia look ahead to the upcoming season of podcast conversations. Season 8 will center on Latter-day Saint women digging and drawing from our individual spiritual wells. Hope you'll join us! | |||
| Episode 175 (Bonus): Revisiting When Women Are The Problem | 02 Apr 2024 | 01:04:51 | |
In this bonus episode, Cynthia and Susan revisit part of an earlier discussion exploring the idea of Latter-day Saint women's complicity in our own marginalization. Recent events have once again highlighted ways women may be the biggest obstacle to achieving greater parity of roles within the organization. It's still an itchy topic with no easy answers. This conversation is a call for women to support other women as a necessary first step to change. The underlying question remains: if we can't allow for—and sit with each other in—different experiences, can we truly love one another? | |||
| Episode 174 (Bonus): Exhibit A—Reactions to the Relief Society Broadcast | 19 Mar 2024 | 00:53:45 | |
On March 17, 2024 the Church broadcast a Worldwide Relief Society Devotional featuring remarks from the RS General Presidency and President Nelson. In this bonus episode, Cynthia and Susan discuss some of the messages delivered and the social media outpouring from Latter-day Saint women in response. | |||
| Episode 173: An Open Letter to the Church | The Imagination Episode | 30 Jan 2024 | 01:04:06 | |
Some topics come up in these podcast conversations again and again, and that gets our attention. They frustrate us but also feel like obvious opportunities: areas where the church we love could take a step forward, and even small changes might make a big difference. In Episode 173, Cynthia and Susan call out a few of their frustrations and imagine possible responses that would feel like real progress. | |||
| Episode 172: The Grace Peddlers are Back | 23 Jan 2024 | 00:59:51 | |
Talk a lot about guilt and shame and eventually, you'll probably crave a hefty dose of grace! The conversation in Episode 172 is just that. Cynthia and Susan focus on challenges Latter-day Saints might have decoupling works and grace. Is it possible accepting grace actually requires more faith than depending on our own good works? How might pivoting toward grace propel us forward? Good news spoiler: We don't have to save ourselves! | |||
| Episode 171: What About Guilt and Shame? | A Conversation with C.A. Larson, Part 2 | 16 Jan 2024 | 00:52:22 | |
In Episode 171, Susan and Cynthia continue their discussion with therapist C.A. Larson about guilt and shame. Where are they coming from? What are some specific ways these emotions might affect Latter-day Saint women, and how can we recognize and work through them in healthy ways? | |||
| Episode 170: What About Guilt and Shame? | A Conversation with C.A. Larson, Part 1 | 09 Jan 2024 | 01:01:02 | |
"The most liberating process is to realize that no one's expectations for my life matter but my own," says therapist C.A. Larson. In Episode 170, she joins Cynthia and Susan for the first part of a discussion about guilt and shame. What's the difference between these two emotions? How do they help or hinder our growth and progress? And what tools can we use to manage them in healthy ways, and move toward greater self-acceptance? | |||
| Episode 169: Embracing Your Journey | A Conversation with Lisa Torcasso Downing | 02 Jan 2024 | 01:04:14 | |
"My religious life is beyond the confines of my ward or stake," says Lisa Torcasso Downing, a Latter-day Saint woman for whom using her voice is an integral part of her faith life. She describes her long-running blog, Life Outside the Book of Mormon Belt: "That's where I've been saying it!" In Episode 169, she joins Susan and Cynthia for a rich conversation about everything from her unique conversion story to some of the foundational ideas that shaped her Mormonism to the ups and downs of learning to advocate. | |||
| Episode 168: Revisiting What Women Don't Get in our Church | 26 Dec 2023 | 01:24:35 | |
Some questions need to be revisited often so we don't lose sight of the fact that no satisfactory answer has been given. In Episode 91, Cynthia asked, "If history shows that patriarchy is bad for women, and data shows that girls and women fare better when they can see themselves at every level of leadership in our churches, schools, and societies…why do LDS women and men continue to cling to old ideas that deny history and data?" Unfortunately, her question stands, as little if any progress has been made. In Episode 168 we preface a rerun of this previous conversation with a few of the thoughts we have about it now. | |||
| Episode 194: Mental Health, Spirituality, and Religion, Oh My! | A Conversation with C.A. Larson | 06 Aug 2024 | 01:19:32 | |
"If one is religious but not spiritual, it will not enhance mental health," says therapist C.A. Larson. In Episode 194, C.A. joins Susan and Cynthia for a conversation at the intersection of religion and spirituality. What are the differences between the two? How do they function together, and separately? And what influence might each one have on our overall wellbeing? | |||
| Episode 167: Behind the Scenes | 19 Dec 2023 | 00:55:26 | |
Sometimes it's good to just have fun! Episode 167 is a peek behind the curtain at ALSSI. Cynthia and Susan turn on the mics for an unscripted chat about everything from podcaster-pet-peeves to "spilled tea" to Christmas traditions. It's the kind of conversation that's probably good to publish now and then just to remind ourselves and everyone else: we're two average LDS women trying to keep it together and figuring stuff out as we go. | |||
| Episode 166: Embracing Your Journey | A Conversation with Lyric Montgomery Kinard | 12 Dec 2023 | 01:04:42 | |
Lyric Montgomery Kinard uses the word expansion to describe her faith journey because, as she says, "it feels like spirituality has burst my Mormon box wide-open." In Episode 166, she joins Susan and Cynthia to talk about her experiences as a Latter-day Saint. It's another glimpse into the life of a woman who's given herself permission to walk the path in her own way, honest about what fills her and what doesn't, and willing to speak her truth. | |||
| Episode 165: BONUS | Still Talking About Patriarchal Blessings | 08 Dec 2023 | 00:26:06 | |
We asked, you answered! In Bonus Episode 165, women from the ALSSI community share personal experiences and thoughts about Patriarchal Blessings. | |||
| Episode 164: What About Patriarchal Blessings? | 05 Dec 2023 | 00:58:32 | |
When it comes to Patriarchal Blessings, there are as many experiences as there are members who give and receive them. In Episode 164, Cynthia and Susan are joined by Blakelee Ellis for a discussion about some of the many ways these highly anticipated blessings can be complicated for Latter-day Saint women. From the experience itself to the advice given or promises made, there can be plenty to unpack at the time the words are spoken, but also as we continue to revisit the transcript throughout our lives. | |||
| Episode 163: Finding Jesus Through Your Inner Compass | A Conversation with Autumn McAlpin | 28 Nov 2023 | 01:06:56 | |
The image of the compass feels central to Autumn McAlpin's book, But Jesus: A Conversation. Autumn explains, "Right now, my spiritual practice is centered on this—I read pure religion as found in the gospels in the New Testament, then try my best to keep up…" In Episode 163, she joins Cynthia and Susan to talk about the journey behind the book, and how her experiences as a mother and Latter-day Saint LGBTQ+ ally continue to shape her commitment to following Jesus and focusing on love. | |||
| Episode 162: Stepping Out of the Box with Jesus—Claiming Space in the Gospel Narrative | A Conversation with Kajsa Berlin-Kaufusi | 21 Nov 2023 | 01:05:18 | |
"I'm tired of putting Jesus in a hermeneutical box nailed together by patriarchal exegesis," says Kajsa Berlin-Kaufusi. In Episode 162, she joins Cynthia and Susan to discuss what those words mean. What might they mean specifically for Latter-day Saint women as we approach the New Testament with a desire to broaden our scriptural understanding and interpretation? Can we excavate meaning by uncovering and examining biblical women in new light? | |||
| Episode 161: Embracing Your Journey | A Conversation with Debbie Squires-Coleman | 14 Nov 2023 | 01:05:28 | |
"In the fleet, I'll sail my own boat," says Debbie Squires-Coleman. In Episode 161, she joins Cynthia and Susan from her home in England to share this and other insights in an Embracing Your Journey discussion about her experiences as a Latter-day Saint woman. It's a conversation about relationships and growth, full of wise glimpses into how it's possible to walk together in love, even on divergent paths. | |||
| Episode 160: At Last YOU Said It Part 2 | More Listener Voicemails | 10 Nov 2023 | 00:56:49 | |
In Bonus Episode 160, Susan and Cynthia share and discuss more ALSSI listener voicemails. | |||
| Episode 159: At Last YOU Said It | ALSSI Listener Voicemails | 07 Nov 2023 | 00:54:42 | |
We started this project in an effort to amplify Latter-day Saint women's voices and create a safe space for sharing ideas and experiences. In Episode 159, Cynthia and Susan dive into listener voicemails to hear, share, and discuss things women in the ALSSI community are saying. | |||
| Episode 158: Telling the Truth | A Conversation with Jana Riess | 31 Oct 2023 | 01:06:16 | |
Telling the truth can be complicated for a Latter-day Saint woman, even if we value honesty. It's hard to say out loud some of what we're thinking, feeling, or experiencing. At church or even in our families and close relationships we may self-censor with an 'okayness' filter: Is it uplifting? Faith promoting? Too negative? Does it cast the Church in an unfavorable light? Sound contentious? Will I look less worthy/valiant/faithful? And how are others likely to react? In Episode 158, Susan and Cynthia are joined by author/columnist Jana Riess for a conversation about potential upsides and downsides of telling it like it is. | |||
| Episode 193: What About Blessings, Part 3 | Things That Would Be Nice If They Were True | 30 Jul 2024 | 01:02:33 | |
Bad things happen to good people—good works cannot protect us from the natural consequences of being human in an imperfect world. But in a church where the narrative often draws connections between worthiness and blessings, it can be hard to avoid internalizing the idea that we're special and can achieve control by doing the right things. "How do I reconcile my life experiences with the things the Church teaches about blessings?" This prompt from a listener frames Susan and Cynthia's discussion in Episode 193. It's a conversation about one of life's biggest questions, and the spiritual havoc members sometimes wreak by meeting suffering armed with well-meaning answers. | |||
| Episode 157: Embracing Your Journey | A Conversation with Mer Monson | 24 Oct 2023 | 01:00:18 | |
Every faith path is walked one step at a time. Every woman's story is unique. In Episode 157, Cynthia and Susan are joined by Mer Monson to talk about her journey so far, and how the ground she's traveled informs the way she's walking now. It's a conversation that radiates hard-won wisdom, an inspiring glimpse into one Latter-day Saint woman's spiritual life. | |||
| Episode 156: What About Consent? | 17 Oct 2023 | 01:07:29 | |
There are many touchpoints with consent in a Latter-day Saint woman's church life. From baptism to temple ordinances to accepting callings, we say yes over and over again, sometimes without ever seriously engaging our options. In Episode 156, Susan and Cynthia unpack consent. There are good reasons a woman might say 'yes' even while something inside her is saying 'no,' but true consent isn't coerced by force, threats, pressure, or intimidation. And silence is not consent. | |||
| Episode 155: To the Children of the Mothers in Zion | A Conversation with Susie Augenstein | 10 Oct 2023 | 01:08:20 | |
For Latter-day Saint women in 1987, expectations outlined by the prophet were explicit: "Mothers in Zion," he said, "Your God-given roles are so vital to your own exaltation and to the salvation and exaltation of your family." In episode 155, Susan and Cynthia are joined by Susie Augenstein to break down the messaging mothers received then and have raised children in the shadows of since. It's no wonder shifts in faith cause strain within families. This conversation is aimed at helping children of women who took President Benson's words to heart understand why their mothers may sometimes fall into the trap of thinking they're completely in charge of getting the whole family into heaven. | |||
| Episode 154: What About Racism? | A Conversation with Tamu Smith | 03 Oct 2023 | 01:09:23 | |
"What could a Relief Society lesson on racism look like?" "What do you wish other members of the Church knew about what it's like to be a Black Latter-day Saint in 2023?" Cynthia asked Tamu Smith these questions and more as they visited in Cynthia's kitchen with the recorder running. In Episode 154, Tamu shares her personal insights and answers in a wide-ranging, thoughtful conversation between two good friends. | |||
| Episode 153: When Women Can't Stay | 26 Sep 2023 | 01:07:45 | |
Embracing our journey means accepting that every individual's path is different. While some Latter-day Saint women think about why they stay, others will be thinking about why they make the choice not to. In Episode 153, two women who found stepping away from church engagement to be the right choice for them share their personal stories. It's a conversation about why leaving is not as easy as some members may think, and why staying is not always the best option. | |||
| Episode 152: Spelling It Out | 19 Sep 2023 | 01:07:37 | |
For some Latter-day Saint women, embracing the journey may include reckoning with difficult aspects of the church experience that are specific to women. Some may choose to leave when they find their personal cost exceeds their benefit. In Episode 152, Susan and Cynthia muddy the water around the decision to 'stay' with a frank discussion about things a woman may have to accept, ignore, or sacrifice in order to make that choice. | |||
| Episode 151: Embracing Your Journey | A Conversation with Aubrey Chaves | 12 Sep 2023 | 01:08:43 | |
Every Latter-day Saint woman is on her own journey of faith. We describe it using all kinds of language, and some days the path ahead seems a lot clearer than other days. We each carry our own baggage, our own maps, our own stories of how we came to be where and who we are. Learning to relax into change in this part of our lives can be difficult in a religion where we hear phrases like 'immovable faith,' 'knowing with every fiber of our being,' and 'unchanging doctrine.' In Episode 151, Cynthia and Susan are joined by Aubrey Chaves for a conversation about movement. It's about reclaiming personal authority, following spiritual energy, and embracing our individual path. | |||
| Episode 150: Why We Stay | 05 Sep 2023 | 01:08:07 | |
Season 7 begins with a series of conversations exploring reasons some women continue to find spiritual value participating in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and some do not. Every individual has her own faith story, and in Episode 150, Cynthia and Susan ask themselves and each other the question listeners continue to ask more than any other: Why do you stay? | |||
| Episode 149: BONUS | Still Making Peace | 15 Aug 2023 | 01:24:24 | |
Where are you turning for peace these days? It can feel elusive on a shifting path! In bonus Episode 149, Cynthia and Susan revisit an earlier conversation to compare notes and discuss things they're still learning when it comes to the ongoing challenge of 'making and doing' personal peace. | |||
| Episode 148: BONUS | Still Asking—Where's the Priesthood in That? | 01 Aug 2023 | 00:52:54 | |
In this bonus episode, Susan and Cynthia discuss new thoughts and old frustrations around a previous conversation from ALSSI Episode 35 about church callings and priesthood authority. What is changing when it comes to organizational roles for Latter-day Saint women, and what hasn't changed at all? Is there movement toward greater equality in our church opportunities and experiences? Are women getting any closer to finally being "in the room where it happens?" | |||
| Episode 192: Embracing Your Journey | A Conversation with Anne Pimentel | 23 Jul 2024 | 01:06:27 | |
"We can do things a little differently and still be okay," says Anne Pimentel. She's a natural—but also intentional—space-maker, devoted to the idea that one can be a "good member" of the Church without fitting the mold. In Episode 192 Anne joins Susan and Cynthia for a conversation about how she learned and has internalized this lesson for herself. She's a Latter-day Saint woman whose desire to be an ally in all areas continues to shape the way she shows up in her ward and in the world. | |||
| Episode 147: BONUS | Revisiting the Map | 18 Jul 2023 | 01:07:37 | |
In this episode, Cynthia and Susan add a few new thoughts to their conversation from Season 1 about going off the edge of one's map in pursuit of a more personalized spiritual life. In this discussion ALSSI listeners will recognize the seeds of many foundational ideas about the importance of spiritual empowerment for Latter-day Saint women that this podcast has continued to develop and explore in depth. | |||
| Episode 146: BONUS | Revisiting the Rule Breaking Woman | 04 Jul 2023 | 00:49:44 | |
In Episode 146, Cynthia and Susan revisit The Rule Breaking Woman to discuss what her story can teach Latter-day Saint women about spiritual empowerment. It's a scriptural example of a woman who took a big risk, and received exactly what she was seeking in return. Sometimes getting what we need may require us to make choices that are at odds with what others deem acceptable or appropriate. | |||
| Episode 145: Season 6 | That's a Wrap! | 20 Jun 2023 | 01:23:41 | |
Finale Episode 145 is a look back at Susan and Cynthia's sixth season of ALSSI conversations: identifying themes, adding additional thoughts, discussing listener responses, and thinking ahead. | |||
| Episode 144: Messages to our Daughters | Part 2—To Our Young Selves | 13 Jun 2023 | 00:53:08 | |
If you had the opportunity, what would you say to young Latter-day Saint girls about things like patriarchy, priesthood, women's roles, the messages they receive at church, and how those messages should be weighted as they approach the big life decisions ahead? What would you say to your own young self? Episode 144 is Part 2 of our conversation about things ALSSI listeners want the Church's kids to know, and/or wish we'd heard ourselves. | |||