after the tower – Details, episodes & analysis

In this conversation, Amanda Vazquez, who co-organized the trip to Peru where I first took ayahuasca, joins me to talk about the reality shifting experience of taking plant medicine for the first time. We also dive into reclaiming her indigeneity, facing tendencies of perfectionism, meeting our unpleasant emotions, and letting go of old stories.

You can connect with Amanda's work at elfaritohealing.com or @elfaritohealing.

Amanda is a Cancer Rising, Gemini Sun, and Virgo Moon and a 5/1 emotional manifestor.

Music by ⁠⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

Amalia and I have known each other for a little while now and they come on the podcast to talk about their decision to leave their job as a therapist. We get into practicing letting go, navigating the void, trusting the cycles of life, and the advantages and disadvantages of making meaning out of what happens.

You can email Amalia at amalia.lcsw@gmail.com to connect about astrology, human design, tarot, and saturn return readings. 

Amalia is a Taurus Rising, Aquarius Sun, and Pisces Moon and a 4/6 emotional generator.

Music by ⁠⁠⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠⁠⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

Patrick and I talk about how a sudden job loss thrust him into a long process of facing his addictions, specifically his relationship to alcohol. We also talk about learning to sit with big emotions, the importance of community support in healing, and finding compassion for yourself and others.

You can connect with Patrick at @pattydommodouls and @thirdhousetopics.

Patrick is Virgo rising, Gemini sun, and Scorpio moon and 3/6 emotional manifestor.

Music by ⁠⁠⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠⁠⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

Dani joins the podcast to talk about her decision to quit drinking alcohol in 2017 and her subsequent recovery process. We get into the role of shame in addiction, integrating the shadow side, and why AA isn't for everyone.

Dani is a integral coach, recovery guide, writer, and facilitator. You can connect with her joinselfmade.co and on instagram @joinselfmade.

Dani is a Pisces Sun, Aries Rising, and Cancer Moon and a 1/3 emotional manifestor.

Music by ⁠⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

So this is my story. It was about my journey to find a new home after I felt the need to leave New York in January 2022. It includes a lot of travel and two life-changing experiences with ayahuasca.

I'm a Leo Rising, Taurus Sun, Pisces Moon and I'm a 5/1 emotional projector.

Music by ⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

This conversation Noah talks about the decision to leave a relationship and then immediately go into a three month silent meditation retreat. We talk about following our instincts, living in the unknown, and dealing with doubt.

You can connect with Noah on ig @noahsouderrusso⁠⁠ and www.iamnsr.com

Noah is a Cancer Rising, Virgo Sun, and Taurus Moon and a 1/4 splenic projector.

Music by ⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

kk and I have a discussion about the tower moment of telling the truth instead of people pleasing. We also have a wide ranging discussion about all kinds of spiritual topics like Atlantis, speaking to our guides, and even BDSM.

You can connect with kk at her podcasts Sultry Circus and Space Cats Happy Hour. She also has a twitch at twitch.tv/dreadpiratekk.

kk is a Pisces Rising, Aquarius Sun, and a Pisces moon and 5/1 emotional manifesting generator.

Music by @noahsouderrusso

You can connect with me at ⁠tolandlawrence.com

Maru shares about her decision to end her marriage and how her life shifted in the aftermath. We talk about confronting societal conditioning, allowing ourselves to grow, and finding new forms of community.

maru is Leo Rising, Cancer Sun, and Virgo Moon and 6/2 sacral generator.

You can connect with maru on ig @eye.writing

Music by @noahsouderrusso

You can connect with me at ⁠tolandlawrence.com

In this first episode, Mercy and I talk about how the end of the organization they ran for several years unexpectedly led them to writing a book. We also get into trusting our intuition, developing discernment, embracing change, and finding power within.

Mercy is a Scorpio Rising, Sagittarius Sun, Aries Moon and a 5/1 emotional manifesting generator

You can connect with Mercy at youreverydaygifts.com/ and on ig at @your_everydaygifts

Music by @noahsouderrusso

You can connect with me at tolandlawrence.com

This is just a brief introduction to my intention for the podcast and a little about who I am so you have a sense of what to expect.