I have been writing about and exploring the concept of fear lately.
My second book has started coming through which has been this steady flow of taking notes, planning the layout, chapter summaries, voice notes, its all I can do to keep up with the words and stream of consciousness that pours through. This feeling of being in flow I love, and the first section has been about the concept of and our ideas of fear. The differing layers of fear and how they can affect our lives. So this newsletter is opening part of the information that has been coming through. A lil’ taste of what’s to come.
I have over the past while kinda stepped away from socials, questioning why do I need to do this? What is the purpose of social media? I have no real desire or want of validation, so why engage? It’s been interesting looking at my relationship with social media and if it is a valid form of communication for me. I have been noticing what actions I have taken in the past in different areas of my life from a place of fear. If I have no fear, no fear of not being relevant or of being seen… is social media necessary? I love what I do, and who I am, so without a need for validation what purpose does socials have for me? It has been a curious path that my eyes have opened to and one I am still exploring.
Being busy in my day to day life recently plus moving house has left little time anyways for social media and what I truly love doing - my writing, my meditation classes, and spending time within consciousness.
Finally, I am now here in my new place and loving being settled into my routine once more. I am loving the light, airy feeling. Loving waking up hearing the birdsong and the ocean. Pottering around and setting up a new home. New rituals, new habits. Finally back to my usual loves. I am discovering the little corners I most like writing in. Where do I feel cosy? Where do I feel inspired? Where do I feel most like me? It’s a gentle period of discovering a new space.
To be honest, I had such fear, agitation and anxiety before moving in. Fear it would be too noisy, fear it was too far away from my girls, fear I was making the wrong decision in taking this place. It felt like a huge over-extension for me. Fear was placing me in an unnatural state of freeze. With freeze, I found myself not in flow.
I had the heaviest feeling in my body before the move, I knew I was committed, and yet I was so hesitant.
Now that I am here, I can say that this immense feeling of being stuck in limbo or stagnancy I have experienced in the past weeks was preparation for the up-level I have received. I understood with such clarity on the first night here what was going on. This is my new place. This is what I deserve, this is what I have worked so hard towards. This is where I am meant to be.
New routines, new views, I can sit out on my balcony and watch the night sky. From my lounge room I have a direct view of the sunrise over the ocean. I can see and step straight onto some of my fav little hidden coves to swim in the ocean and lay in the sun. It is so much more than what I imagined or saw as the level of comfortability for myself. I was meant to stretch myself.
And to think that my fear nearly fucked it all up.
Fear is a ruthless master when we are unaware of our fear and how it claims us, shames us, controls us and ruins a perfect moment, day, week, year.
We can let our fear rule us.
I teach my students that moments of agitation are an invitation to expansion, can moments of fear be seen as an invitation to freedom? This fear had a hold on me about moving house and yet now I see how it was an invitation to be bigger, bolder, more set on my purpose, more focused on my work. An invitation to simply be more, dream bigger, act bigger. So, I have accepted this gift presented to me. I didn’t think I was ready, and yet I was guided to be uncomfortable and rise above what was before. Our fear can keep us small, playing on the same playground, on the same merry-go-round, when in fact we are being offered the whole huge delicious fun park if we are able to see past our self-imposed limitations.
In the process of writing about fear, I have called upon my own experiences and research with it. There are some amazing writings by Michael Singer, Phillip Stutz, Rick Rubin, and all speak of something similar. To move through any emotion, first you must feel it, completely. Experience the worst case scenario your mind can bring you to. Allow the fear to rise within you. Feel it deeply, then simply release.
It seems too easy.
But when you practice this, it is amazing the sense of peace that comes to you.
How I see fear energetically is imagine everything that you fear, all the little things to the big ones. This layer of ‘fear energy’ surrounds you like a cloud or fog. As you move through your day, you have this cloud of fear surrounding you. You make your decisions from within this fear, you react and act from within this fear. It is your unconscious master. Fear of being too much, of not enough. Fear of losing a loved one, fear of losing yourself. Fear of rejection, belittlement, fear of being alone or unloved. Fear of being unwanted or undesirable. Fear of failure, success. Fear of fear itself. The fear that we pick up on from the media, society, our friends or well meaning loved ones, all add to our cloud - if we unconsciously choose to. Our fear can be from our own creation, or from our interactions with the greater world around us. Words spoken by ourselves or others become our unconscious way of seeing our world.
It becomes a chokehold upon you. A leash that binds you. You are blind to your fear.
The crazy thing is, that once you recognise it, once you acknowledge it, it is satiated. Our fear loves us and only wants to protect us. So just as our inner child, our heart, or any part of our inner world simply wants to be seen, heard, felt, so too does our fear. The minute we recognise and feel our fear, we expand it, and it simply dissipates. We have named it to claim it, and its claim on us diminishes.
This cloud that has surrounded us suddenly is letting through light, suddenly there is a break in the cloud, suddenly we see how calm, peaceful, serene life can be when fear is no longer our master. We can ask our fear what it is trying to tell us, protect us from, we can speak to our fear for it to teach us more about ourselves. What does your fear have as a message for you?
Imagine a life where every experience you encounter has no fear. Imagine every interaction that you have you respond from a place of peace and calm, that without fear there is only joy, bliss, love.
Imagine being able to express freely how you feel without fear of rejection. Imagine no insecurity, no feelings of less than, would you feel free? How different would your life look to you?
What leap would you take?
So, I ask you… what is your greatest fear? Close your eyes and ask your heart this question.
Ask gently, patiently and allow the answer or answers to bubble up inside of you.
You may be surprised by what rises from within. Take your time and be gentle with yourself.
To face this fear, to feel it, to play out the worst case scenario, to allow your heart to experience this pain, and then simply, gently release. You must feel it deeply, and then choose to let go.
Mine were things like not being loved, being alone, letting someone down, not being enough… I realised these are all parts of me that needed love right now. My greatest fear was not having my children in my life. This great fear I lived through during my time in Mexico, and I survived. I survived and now they are back in my life. In a different and new way of our relationships blossoming the facing of this fear showed me that even my worst fear can come to fruition and still I can survive, lean in and be all of me. For sometimes our greatest fear is showing us where our sense of self has been placed, and if we can see that all is forever changing we can simply let go of the attachment to the fear. Without this fear now I know that I am blessed to have them back, and I am ok if it is not to be. Gratitude for the new doors opening and I am never taking these relationships for granted again. Love has opened a new door.
Fear loves to remind you that what has happened in the past will happen again.
Love opens the door to show you that there is new opportunities, new ways of being, new ways of seeing the world.
Love opens all doors.
One of the traits that I share with my girls is fearlessness. Their fearlessness inspires me.
I love being fearless, it’s a favourite of mine. I see the fearlessness with my surfing, I love big waves and this fearless part of me is so at home in the ocean. This adventurous spirit is strong with me.
Surfing is a great example here. If I was to have fear while surfing, my critical thinking shuts down, I am no longer in flow, I am more focused on the fear and the worst possible outcome. Plus, all of the smaller incidental fears can rise, where all I can focus on is the fear of what can go wrong. Rather than being in joy, or gratitude, rather than thinking what could go right, rather than trusting myself, I am held in a captive chokehold by fear. I am afraid to take a risk, I cannot see anything other than the failure.
Fear shuts us down, love opens us up.
Being fearless isn’t without risk, though the amount of personal joy it brings cannot be discounted. Floods of serotonin and dopamine course through our systems leaving us with a sense of euphoria. Even if you fail, or bomb out on the biggest wave, there is still the benefit of the fearlessness being activated. These feel good chemicals open the pathways within your mind where you can now be open to, well if I can do this, what else can I do? Can I go bigger? The world opens up, you have belief and trust in yourself, you see that you can reach higher, greater. Your whole state of being changes, and you’re smiling ear to ear to boot. Why wouldn’t you take the risk?
My fearless nature comes in large part from my inner child or child-like self… she is absolutely fearless. I borrow from this part of me and carry it in to other areas of my life. Yes, my inner child is fearless, she is also playful, she is curious, funny, kind and sweet, she is a big part of my heart. I draw on these qualities to be fearless with my words, my love, to be fearless in how I choose to be me. To be fearless in how I express myself, my feelings. To be fearless with where I want to take my writing, to be fearless in how I describe my experiences with consciousness. This choice to be fearless has huge consequences. Confidence naturally follows, a knowing of that everything that is right for me will find me, a complete trust in what is happening for me is already here. To see the magic and wonder through child-like eyes in the world around me.
To be completely unbound by fear - is pure, loving freedom. Love comes easily when fear is diminished.
Fear can rise at any time for us in our life, perhaps we can clearly see it in the moment, perhaps it is the hindsight, no matter, when we name it, we claim it and in that moment we can choose to let it go and allow our love to lead us.
If we are wanting to let go of our fear, the easiest thing to ask yourself is what would love do here? What would love say here? How would love respond?
You will never regret any leap taken, you will regret staying on the shore. To be fearless is to be guided by love, and to know that rewards are always waiting for those who take the leap.
And know, that I am right beside you, cheering you on.
From this fearless heart of mine, I love you x Nicole
To purchase your copy of free… living your life free within consciousness simply click the link below x
to purchase free… from Amazon USA
to purchase free… from Amazon AUS
to purchase free… from Amazon UK
to purchase free… from Amazon CAN
(if you are outside of these areas pls send a message and I can send the link directly)
Nicole Forrest is a writer and teacher of consciousness, spirituality, meditation, and metaphysics. She is here to open the hearts of the world through her words and energy. Poetic & lyrical, Nicole makes it easy to understand the complexities of our human existence, and in our greater universe. That unexplainable feeling of knowing, hair standing on the back of your neck, how does the concept of intuition or consciousness fit into our everyday life? How can we harness our infinite power and intelligence? This is Nicole’s playground and she welcomes you with the energy and spirit of the curious child seeing the world through the lens of wonder.
She is also a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, aus
connect with nicole via her website here
to find out more about booking a session or becoming a student connect here
connect with nicole on instagram here
connect with nicole via email here - nicolelovingearth@gmail.com
connect with Nicole’s writings here -
nicole loving earth is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.
Get full access to nicole loving earth at
nicolelovingearth.substack.com/subscribe
