Justin Telthorst joins The Friary to talk faith, sexuality, and what it means to love a Church that often doesn’t know what to do with you. A gay Catholic and former missionary, Justin founded Empty Chairs to create space for LGBTQ+ Catholics to stay rooted without compromising their dignity. In this honest and hope-filled conversation, we explore spiritual resilience, why he hasn’t left the Church, and how healing begins when we make room for every soul at the table.

Website: Empty Chairs - https://www.empty-chairs.org/

Instagram: @emptychairshome

Keywords: LGBTQ Catholic, faith and sexuality, inclusion, Church change, Empty Chairs, Franciscan spirituality, spiritual belonging, Justin Telthorst, pastoral care

Can you stay rooted in a faith tradition even when you disagree with some of its teachings? What does it mean to follow your conscience and still be faithful?

In this episode, Brother Jay talks with Salina Bear: a Catholic feminist, lay theologian, and content creator about the complex and often misunderstood role of conscience in the life of faith. Together, they explore what it means to honor tradition without surrendering the call to think, question, and grow.

From Salina’s own journey into Catholicism to her bold engagement with feminist theology and moral discernment, this conversation invites listeners into a deeper reflection on belonging, obedience, and the spiritual life beyond fear.

Whether you're Catholic, curious, conflicted, or somewhere in between, this episode offers space to wrestle with your own questions—and maybe even make peace with them.

About our guest:

Salina Bear is a Catholic feminist, lay theologian, and content creator whose work centers on passionate exploration of Catholic tradition. She writes at the intersection of contemplative faith, feminist theology, and creative living, with a particular commitment to combining love of tradition with critical thinking. With bold honesty and deep inquisitiveness, Salina gently invites fellow believers out of fear and into spiritual formation. When she’s not reading papal documents, she’s probably rearranging her furniture, sipping an iced coffee, playing Baldur’s Gate 3, or getting lost in a very large fantasy novel. She lives in Pennsylvania with her husband and their cat, Blue. Find her on TikTok @salina.bear and on Substack @salinabear.

Is it possible that God is showing up... where you least expect it?

In this gentle and slightly mischievous episode of Neon Alchemist, Brother Jay takes us on a contemplative stroll through sidewalk violets, kitchen sinks, cab rides, and even a Taco Bell — yes, really — to explore the idea that the whole world might be sacramental.

Rooted in the earthy spirituality of St. Francis, the poetry of Mary Oliver, and a good dash of holy humor, this episode invites you to notice the sacred in the overlooked and ordinary. Along the way, you'll hear short stories of surprise encounters with grace, reflections on what a sacrament really is, and a reminder that sometimes God doesn't kick the door down... sometimes God just quietly rises through the cracks.

If you've ever felt a flicker of holiness in a weedy garden, a hospital hallway, or a spoonful of lentils, this one's for you.

In this tender reflection, Brother Jay shares his quiet return to the Christian path through sacred rhythms, the Daily Office, and the healing mystery of the Eucharist. For anyone who has wandered, wondered, or felt too far from faith, this episode offers a gentle invitation to come home—not with certainty, but with peace. You were never lost. The table was always set. And you are already welcome.

What if the wilderness isn’t punishment, but invitation? In this episode, we wander through the spiritual landscapes of uncertainty, doubt, and dryness—those seasons when the old compass stops working and the path disappears beneath our feet. Drawing from Jesus’ 40 days in the wilderness, the wisdom of mystics, and our own very human struggles, we ask: What happens when we stop trying to get somewhere and just let the wilderness do its work?

This is for anyone who's feeling spiritually stuck, tired, or in-between. There’s wisdom here, in the sand and silence. You’re not lost—you’re being reshaped.

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This episode explores what happens after spiritual deconstruction—when the dust settles and the work of rebuilding begins. With warmth, wit, and honesty, it reflects on how faith can be reclaimed, reimagined, and reconstructed without shame or fear. For anyone navigating a new spiritual path or finding beauty in old truths with fresh eyes, this episode offers insight and encouragement.

What does it mean to follow Jesus in a Sufi way? In this episode of Neon Alchemist, I sit down with poet and beekeeper Chris Isa Muscat, whose journey is shaped by the mystical heart of God. We explore his spiritual path, the wisdom of Sufi and Christian mystics, and how love and longing fuel the search for the Divine. Tune in for a deep, soulful, and poetic conversation.

In this episode the Neon Alchemist interviews Luke Bricker, a former pastor who grew up in evangelical mega-churches. Bricker recounts his journey of deconstructing his inherited faith. He discusses his early beliefs, teenage rebellion, and the experiences that led him to a different understanding of Christianity and spirituality. The conversation explores his transition from traditional evangelicalism to a more interspiritual perspective, touching on topics like his views on Jesus, spiritual practices like meditation, and his current work in spiritual direction. Bricker also shares insights on navigating deconstruction, including its impact on relationships and community.

Bricker is currently a minister of the Current Collective which can be found at https://thisiscurrent.org

What exactly is a spiritual coach, and how does coaching help people navigate life’s toughest challenges? In this episode, Neon Alchemist sits down with Tamisha Arrendell, a spiritual coach specializing in working with men and relationship dynamics. From breaking unhealthy patterns to finding deeper connection and purpose, we explore how spiritual and life coaching works, why it’s not just therapy with incense, and how real transformation happens when people are ready to do the inner work. Insightful, engaging, and maybe a little uncomfortable (in the best way)—this is a conversation you don’t want to miss!

An Ash Wednesday service with a casket at the center sets the stage for this episode on Lent, mortality, and the unexpected pull back toward Christianity. Exploring the history and traditions of Lent with humor and honesty, this episode dives into the struggle of returning to faith after past wounds—why it’s terrifying, why it’s compelling, and why the smells, bells, and Jesus himself just won’t let go. A mix of deep reflection and lighthearted storytelling, this is Lent like you’ve never heard it before.

n this episode of Neon Alchemist, Pax dives into the powerful role of intention in creating the life you desire. Learn how setting clear, heart-centered intentions can guide your spiritual journey, enhance your personal growth, and align your daily actions with your deepest desires. Whether you're looking to manifest your goals, deepen your spiritual practice, or simply live with more purpose, this episode provides the tools and insights you need to make it happen. Tune in and start aligning with your highest self today!

Ever wondered if spirits are watching your every move? In this revealing conversation with Medium Stephen Patrick, we dive into the world of spirit guides, psychic experiences, and the unseen forces around us. Get ready for a mix of insight and humor as we explore questions about the afterlife, intuition, and whether spirits really have an eye on our most private moments. Tune in for an eye-opening discussion on the supernatural, connecting with the spirit world, and finding guidance from beyond. Don’t miss out—your guides are listening!

What if Jesus was never meant to be trapped in dogma or confined to Sunday mornings? In this episode, author and mystic Keith Giles joins us to talk about his journey from evangelical pastor to spiritual freedom-seeker. We explore the process of deconstruction, the Cosmic Christ, and the hidden gospels—Thomas, Mary, and Truth—that open doors to a deeper, non-dual vision of faith. Whether you're spiritual but not religious, rethinking Christianity, or longing for a more open-hearted path, this conversation invites you to rediscover Jesus beyond the walls.

Keith Giles is the best-selling author of the 7-part "Jesus Un" book series series. He has been interviewed on CNN with Anderson Cooper, Coast to Coast Radio with George Noory, USA Today, BuzzFeed, and John Fugelsang’s “Tell Me Everything." He co-hosts The Heretic Happy Hour Podcast and his solo podcast, Second Cup With Keith which are both available on Spotify, Amazon, Apple, Podbean or wherever you find great podcasts. His latest books, "The Quantum Sayings of Jesus: Decoding the Lost Gospel of Thomas" and "The Quantum Gospel of Mary and the Lost Gospel of Truth" are both currently on Amazon's Best-Sellers list in multiple categories. He blogs at TheQuollective.com and www.KeithGiles.com. Keywords: Jesus Unbound, Keith Giles, deconstruction, Cosmic Christ, non-dual Christianity, Gospel of Thomas, Gospel of Mary, leaving church, mystical Christianity, spiritual but not religious

Ready to hop between worlds? In this mind-expanding episode with Avi Lago, we explore the fascinating intersections of Ayurveda, Theosophy, and the bold practice of spiritual paradigm jumping.

Learn how these ancient systems of wisdom can help you break free from old belief structures and jump into new, transformative spiritual realities. From healing practices rooted in Ayurveda to the philosophy of Theosophy and beyond, we dive into a world of energetic shifts and mystical awakenings. If you're ready to challenge your worldview and expand your spiritual toolkit, this one's for you!

In this bonus episode, we immerse ourselves in the calming world of forest bathing with Kati Thompson, a certified forest therapy guide. Kati shares the transformative power of nature’s embrace, from reducing stress to finding clarity in the quiet of the woods. Join us as we explore how slowing down in the forest can help you reconnect with yourself and the earth, one breath at a time. Get ready to feel the peace of the trees in this nature-filled conversation!Follow Kati on Instagram at @Rejuvenature.earth or visit her webpage atrejuvenature.earth

The political landscape may feel like a never-ending roller coaster ride, but what if we could find peace in the chaos? In this episode, we dive into how to shift our perspective from spiraling out of control to embracing a grounded, spiritually-informed approach.

We’ll talk about how Karma Yoga can guide us to act in alignment with our values, but without getting attached to the outcomes (spoiler: you can't control the election results, but you can control your peace!). Plus, we explore Mel Robbins’ “Just Let Them” strategy—because sometimes, the best thing you can do is let people be who they are, while you protect your sanity. And we wrap it up with Ram Dass' Loving Awareness, showing us how to stay calm and compassionate—even when the world feels like it's crumbling.

Grab your heart, your breath, and maybe a cup of tea, because this episode is all about shifting gears—and letting go of that doom-scrolling addiction. Listen in and get ready to reclaim your peace, one breath at a time. #DivineInAll

Pack your spiritual passport and join us on a journey where all roads lead home with Pax and his special guest Parvati Covarrubias! The Spiritual Nomad explores interspirituality with equal parts wonder and wit—whether you’re chanting, meditating, serving, or philosophizing your way through life. Because let’s be honest: the universe has many paths, and none of them come with GPS!

In this episode of Neon Alchemist with Pax, we dive into the messy, beautiful journey of spiritual deconstruction. From questioning beliefs to dismantling old frameworks and exploring what comes next, we unpack the emotional toll, the importance of community, and the freedom found in living with mystery. Whether you’re reconstructing, walking away, or simply sitting in the ruins, this episode offers hope, humor, and practical tools for the road ahead. Tune in for an honest and heartfelt conversation about finding authenticity in your faith journey.

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In this episode, Br. Jay talks with author and contemplative Carl McColman about his winding spiritual journey, from Lutheran roots and pagan circles to his Roman Catholicism with Buddhist insights and becoming a lay Cistercian.

They explore the meaning of mysticism, the value of interfaith wisdom, the tension between institutions and inner experience, and the healing power of silence and story. Carl also shares insights from his newest book, Read the Bible Like a Mystic, and opens up about his evolving reflections on gender and spirituality.

If you’ve ever felt both at home and at odds with religion, or if you’re curious about the contemplative path, this conversation offers depth, warmth, and a gentle invitation to the mystery.About our Guest: Carl McColman a spiritual director, author, retreat leader, and speaker on mystical spirituality and contemplative living. His books include Read the Bible Like a Mystic, The New Big Book of Christian Mysticism, Eternal Heart, and Unteachable Lessons. He is one of the co-hosts of the Encountering Silence podcast, and maintains a Substack newsletter (www.anamchara.net) and a blog (www.anamchara.com). Carl’s approach to contemplation and mysticism is joyful, inclusive and expansive; with a dedication to exploring the common ground between faith traditions, with a particular interest in the connecting points between Christian, Buddhist and Pagan wisdom. Carl lives with his wife, artist Fran McColman, in Clarkston, Georgia, near Atlanta.  

In this four-parts in one episode of The Friary, Br. Jay opens up about his unexpected return to Christianity, being an Anglo-Catholic, a Franciscan-in-formation, and yes, still very much himself. From a letter to his closeted, anxious teenage self to the beauty of an ecumenical Pride service, from saints who played practical jokes to a week of both Eucharist and tater tots, this one’s for the spiritual misfits, the holy messes, and everyone trying to follow Jesus with both heart and humor.

Bring your doubts, your sass, and your secondhand cassock. You’re welcome here.

Was Jesus gentle or fierce? The answer might depend on who was standing in front of him. In this 3-minute reflection, we look at how Jesus responded to the hurting—and to the proud.

In this first episode under our new name, The Friary, Br. Jay shares the story behind the change and the quiet shift that’s been happening in my life and soul. Then he offers a spoken word reflection on awe, wonder, and the God who shows up in grocery lines, golden skies, and steaming cups of tea. Come on in, there’s space for you here.

What if church had no walls and the sermon came from the wind in the trees? In this episode of Neon Alchemist, Brother Jay sits down with author and eco-theologian Victoria Loorz, author of Church of the Wild and Field Guide to Church of the Wild, to talk wild churches, sacred conversations with nature, and why John 1 might not be about “the Word” but about a divine conversation echoing through creation. Bring your hiking boots or at least your imagination.

Book: Church of the Wild

Book: Field Guide to Church of the Wild

Website: Wild Church Network Website: Center for Wild Spirituality

What if following Jesus didn’t mean signing up for a religion, but learning a way of living, rooted in compassion, simplicity, and deep connection with others and the earth? In this episode, we explore the radical love Jesus showed to outsiders and misfits, how he resisted judgment and embraced mercy, and the quiet spirituality he practiced in nature. It’s an invitation to return to what’s real, not dogma, but presence.

What if God isn’t a one-way message, but a Conversation that never stopped?

In this episode of Neon Alchemist, we explore the ancient Greek word Logos from John 1 and how it might mean more than just “Word.” Could it mean Conversation? And what does that change about prayer, creation, and the Christ who walked among us?

Join us for a mystical deep dive that blends biblical Greek, Richard Rohr’s Universal Christ, the mystics, and a few jokes about squirrels and sacred side-eyes.

Whether you're spiritually curious, mystically inclined, or just love a good theological twist, this episode invites you into the divine dialogue already unfolding around you.

In this episode of The Friary, Brother Jay welcomes D. T. Bryant, priest at St. Mary of Bethany Parish, spiritual director at The Center for Hope and Healing in Nashville, and co-founder of the Black Mental Health Counselor Reparations Foundation. He is also the author of Unless a Seed Falls to the Ground: Welcoming the Death of the Whiteness Gospel.

Together they explore Danny’s upbringing, the experiences that shaped his faith, and the journey that led him to confront what he calls the “whiteness gospel.” With honesty and hope, Danny shares why certain patterns must die for the church to be reborn into Christ’s true life, and how the image of a seed falling into the ground speaks to both death and resurrection. This is a conversation about faith, justice, and healing that invites us all into deeper transformation.

Links:Unless a Seed Falls to the Ground: Welcoming the Death of the Whiteness Gospel

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Join your ever-curious Franciscan brother Br. Jay in The Friary as we dig into the radical gift of staying rooted in a world obsessed with moving on. We’re here with Rev. Lydia Sohn, author of Here: A Spirituality of Staying in a Culture of Leaving, exploring why true freedom might just come from putting down roots, not packing your bags.

Expect an honest, faith-filled conversation about restlessness, vows, Benedictine stability, and how God shows up most profoundly—right where you are. Plus, a few laugh-out-loud rapid-fire moments and a reflective chant to ground your soul.

Connect with Rev. Lydia:

• Instagram: @lydia_sohn

• Website: Visit her at revlydia.com to find her blog, workbooks, ministry and more

Tune in for depth, delight, and the dare to stay.

Sometimes resting feels guilty, revolutionary, or just plain impossible. In this episode of The Friary, Br. Jay shares personal stories of obsessive faith, walks, and naps that became acts of holy resistance. Along the way, we meet saints who mastered the art of stillness, hear scripture that cheers us on to pause, and learn how taking five minutes (or a nap) can actually be radical. Warning: you may feel inspired to lie down mid-episode.

Two Franciscans from the Order of Saint Francis join me to talk vocation, discernment, and Saint Francis himself—with lighthearted moments that remind us holiness doesn’t have to be too serious.Brother Andrew, OSF, lives in New York City with his husband. He is a Deacon in the Episcopal Diocese of New York, serving at St. Mark’s Church in-the-Bowery. With the Archdeacon of the Diocese, he co-founded Ecclesia in the Bowery, a street ministry that gathers every Sunday afternoon to welcome the homeless and all who might feel unwelcome in traditional church spaces. The ministry invites neighborhood congregations to share in the celebration of the Holy Eucharist and the offering of bag lunches in community.

Br. Andrew also serves as liturgist for St. Ann’s Church for the Deaf, the oldest Deaf congregation in the United States, where he interprets and translates Scripture into American Sign Language (ASL) for weekly worship.

He serves the Order as Vocations Director, accompanying those in the initial stages of discernment and formation. During the week, he works as Parish Administrator at the Church of the Ascension in Manhattan.

Brother Sam attends Christ Church Cathedral in Downtown St Louis, Missouri. He is a Life Professed Brother of the Order of Saint Francis and has been in the Order for nine years. He serves on the Companion Diocese Committee between the Diocese of Missouri and the Diocese of Puerto Rico. He serves as an Acolyte and a Eucharistic Minister. Brother Sam serves on the Communications Committee and handles the Cathedral and the Order of St Francis Facebook page. He has a personal ministry called, “Coffee with a Friar,” where he sets up about twice a month at different coffee houses in St Louis and buys people coffee and just listens to their stories.

In this episode Br. Jay explores what prayer is, and why the question "Does God answer prayer?" might better be asked, "Does God meet us in prayer?"

Is God’s love truly without end? In this episode of The Friary, I sit down with David Burnfield, author of Patristic Universalism, and his wife Wendy, who shares about this ancient hope on Instagram. Together we explore the roots of universalism in the early church, what the Fathers taught about ultimate restoration, and why this conversation is far from new. We also talk about their own faith journeys, what led them to this work, and how the message has been received.

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