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In this episode I talk about how hectic the past two months have been with BBC interviews, Parliament visits, being a single mum and my Amsterdam work trip away. Want to know what its like being a sex worker ? Its just like any other person doing a job, this one is just a little bit more interesting than most

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What if everything you've been taught about being "normal" is actually rooted in systems of oppression? Welcome to a thought-provoking journey through the hidden forces that shape our understanding of executive functioning and neurodivergence.

Diving into Ellie Middleton's "How to Be You," we explore how capitalism has trained us to equate our worth with productivity and independence. When profit becomes more important than people, our natural variations in planning, focus, and organization are reframed as personal failings rather than simply different ways of processing the world. We unpack how government cuts to support services have made it even harder for neurodivergent people to access the accommodations they need.

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What if everything you've been taught about being "normal" is actually rooted in systems of oppression? Welcome to a thought-provoking journey through the hidden forces that shape our understanding of executive functioning and neurodivergence.

Diving into Ellie Middleton's "How to Be You," we explore how capitalism has trained us to equate our worth with productivity and independence. When profit becomes more important than people, our natural variations in planning, focus, and organization are reframed as personal failings rather than simply different ways of processing the world. We unpack how government cuts to support services have made it even harder for neurodivergent people to access the accommodations they need.

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Behindthepaddle Podcast invites you inside one of the most tender, misunderstood, and intimate corners of the BDSM world: Caregiver/little dynamics.

We explore the acronyms (DDLG, CGL, MDLB, Littles, Middles, Brats), the psychology of regression and attachment, the rituals of rules and punishments, and the playful, sometimes erotic, worlds of diapers, pacis, and discipline.

We dive deep into:

• What regression really is (and isn’t)
• Why structure makes Littles feel safe
• The brat’s defiance as a plea for love
• Rituals of affirmation and daily caregiving practices
• The risks of Littlespace, drop, and unsafe dynamics
• How permission to need, regress, defy, and be loved is the heart of it all

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What if everything you've been taught about being "normal" is actually rooted in systems of oppression? Welcome to a thought-provoking journey through the hidden forces that shape our understanding of executive functioning and neurodivergence.

Diving into Ellie Middleton's "How to Be You," we explore how capitalism has trained us to equate our worth with productivity and independence. When profit becomes more important than people, our natural variations in planning, focus, and organization are reframed as personal failings rather than simply different ways of processing the world. We unpack how government cuts to support services have made it even harder for neurodivergent people to access the accommodations they need.

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In this episode, I dive into one of the questions I hear all the time: what’s the difference between a kink and a fetish? These two words get thrown around a lot, but they aren’t the same thing and understanding the difference can change how we see ourselves and our sex lives.

I share my own experience as someone who needs BDSM in my life to feel whole and authentic, but who can still enjoy and orgasm through vanilla sex. For me, kink is the language of my desire not always required for climax, but absolutely essential for fulfillment.

We’ll also look at how fetish has been understood historically, why it was once pathologized, and how modern sex-positive approaches view it today. Along the way, I’ll reflect on how kink expands pleasure, how fetish sometimes replaces it, and why neither is something to be ashamed of.

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Hello welcome to Behindthepaddle podcast, what happens when your brain constantly pulls you in opposite directions? When one part craves structure while another needs novelty, or when one side thrives on patterns while another demands constant stimulation? This fascinating tension sits at the heart of Ellie Middletons transformative book "How to Be You," which we explore in depth on this episode of Behind the Paddle Podcast.

The book presents a "pick-and-mix" approach to executive functioning strategies, acknowledging that no single method works consistently for neurodivergent brains. This feels revolutionary in a world where we're often made to feel broken for not fitting into neurotypical productivity models. As the author confesses to having drawers full of barely-used planners and abandoned productivity apps, many listeners will feel deeply seen and validated.

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Welcome to Behind the Paddle podcast. Today we are speaking about BDSM not as a hobby, not as a kink to be giggled at behind closed doors, and not as a fleeting curiosity but as a world. A world of power, of discipline, of trust. A world of deeply human longing and deeply consensual depravity. A world some of us live in every single day.

Whether you’re new to this world or have bruises that still carry stories from years past, this episode is for you.

Let’s begin with a truth: BDSM is not about violence.

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Hello welcome to Behindthepaddle podcast, what happens when your brain constantly pulls you in opposite directions? When one part craves structure while another needs novelty, or when one side thrives on patterns while another demands constant stimulation? This fascinating tension sits at the heart of Ellie Middletons transformative book "How to Be You," which we explore in depth on this episode of Behind the Paddle Podcast.

The book presents a "pick-and-mix" approach to executive functioning strategies, acknowledging that no single method works consistently for neurodivergent brains. This feels revolutionary in a world where we're often made to feel broken for not fitting into neurotypical productivity models. As the author confesses to having drawers full of barely-used planners and abandoned productivity apps, many listeners will feel deeply seen and validated.

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Hello and welcome back to Behind the paddle podcast in todays episode I share my deeply personal journey into sex work, from discovering sexuality through late-night TV at 12 to performing webcam shows as a teen and entering in-person work at 17. My story highlights how lack of proper sex education and support made me vulnerable. Without guidance, I turned to virtual spaces like Second Life, where I first monetized my sexuality. 

Throughout, I experienced adults failing to protect me,police dismissing my story, club owners neglecting safety checks exposing systemic gaps. I believe open, honest conversations with children about bodies, consent, and sexuality are crucial. Creating safe spaces for questions and understanding beats silence and stigma. Only through education can we protect future generations from similar dangers.

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