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Sex, Drugs, & Soul: Where Taboo Meets Transformation31 Aug 202600:03:33

Sex, Drugs, & Soul is where intimacy, desire, spirituality, sexuality, and the beautifully messy art of being human collide.

Hosted by author, intimacy mentor, and professional line-blurrer between the profane and the profound, Kristin Birdwell, this podcast is for people who want more than a life that simply looks good. We're talking about the stuff that makes you feel fully alive: deeper connection, better relationships, eroticism, vulnerability, personal growth, spirituality, tantra, psychedelics, kink, pleasure, purpose... and yes, occasionally devil dick energy. 😈

Around here, no topic is too spicy, too weird, or too human.

You'll hear honest conversations about what we really desire, why vulnerability is the gateway to intimacy, how our relationships change when we stop performing and start telling the truth, and what happens when sexuality and spirituality are allowed to exist in the same damn room.

We explore everything from tantric intimacy and erotic reclamation to psychedelic healing, unconventional relationships, grief, creativity, consciousness, self-discovery, and those glorious existential moments when you suddenly wonder: what the fuck am I doing with my life?

And maybe the goal isn't becoming more impressive, more enlightened, or more perfect... It's about becoming 100% human.

Welcome to Sex, Drugs, & Soul, where the sacred gets spicy, the personal growth gets real, & the self-discovery comes with a side of mischief.. 🔥

Follow the show and come get weird, wise, and wildly alive.

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Mushrooms, Memes, & Meaning | James McCrae on Creativity, Purpose, & Being Human30 Aug 202600:59:31

What happens when you’ve gotten pretty damn good at achieving but start wondering if success and fulfillment are actually the same thing?

I sit down with James McCrae, poet, author, viral creator, creative entrepreneur, and former Madison Avenue brand strategis, to talk creativity, purpose, psychedelics, spirituality, and what it means to become a little more human in a world obsessed with optimization. 

We get into mushrooms in Central Park, ayahuasca, creativity as therapy, trusting the muse, spirituality without the dogma, and whether our best ideas come from us or through us. James also shares how losing his advertising job helped launch his creative career, his take on AI as assistant rather than artist, and the wild story behind Instructions Before Visiting Earth—the poem that unexpectedly reached more than 100 million people and is becoming a full poetry collection in 2027. 

Plus: ego death vs. orgasm, the best drug for creativity, aliens, dance-floor salvation, and one of my favorite ideas from the episode:

Maybe being human is the next enlightenment.

Instructions for Visiting Earth Poem 

Connect with James:
Website: https://www.jamesmccrae.com/
Substack: https://substack.com/@jamesmccrae
IG: @wordsarevibrations
Sunflower Club: @sunflower.club.creative

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Ecstasy for Couples: Can MDMA Transform Trauma, Sex, & Intimacy? | Jonathan Robinson16 Aug 202600:43:57

What happens when fear gets turned down and couples finally say the things they've been afraid to say?

Jonathan Robinson, former psychotherapist, bestselling author, and longtime pioneer in MDMA-assisted work, joins to explore the intersection of MDMA, trauma, couples therapy, sex, intimacy, and emotional healing.

Jonathan shares how his work with MDMA began in the 1980s, why he believes it can help couples move through long-standing resentment and communication breakdowns, and what happens when people suddenly feel safe enough to talk openly about sex, money, infidelity, trauma, and unmet desires.

We get into sexless marriages, mismatched libidos, attachment patterns, empathy versus “fixing,” why couples get caught in what Jonathan calls the “misery go-round,” how some relationships reconnect...while others realize it may be time to lovingly separate.

Chapters:
00:00 — From Therapy to MDMA
03:33 — What MDMA Does to Fear
06:51 — The Relationship Misery Go-Round
10:35 — MDMA & Sexual Trauma
17:14 — When Talk Therapy Isn't Enough
19:06 — The Best Night of Their Marriage
21:35 — When Couples Choose to Separate
26:46 — Sex, Lies & Radical Honesty
29:34 — The Communication Tool Couples Need
32:47 — Talking About What You Want in Bed
38:01 — Empathy, Intimacy, & Sexless Marriage
40:24 — The Future of MDMA Therapy

Connect with Jonathan:
mdmatraining.net (coupon code: OFF200)
xtcforcouples.net

Jonathan's Books:
Ecstasy as Medicine: How MDMA therapy Can Help You Overcome Trauma, Anxiety, and Depression...and Feel More Love

Ecstasy For Couples: How MDMA Therapy Can Create More Love and Less Conflict In Your Relationship 

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Vulva Portraits, Womb Wisdom, & Reclaiming Female Pleasure | Khadoma Colomby11 Aug 202600:43:41

What happens when a woman stops viewing her body through everyone else’s eyes and begins seeing herself as art?

In this episode, I’m joined by ritual artist and pleasure weaver Khadoma Colomby to talk about pussy portraits, healing sexual shame, erotic embodiment, womb wisdom, and what it means to reclaim the parts of ourselves we were taught to hide.

Khadoma shares how she transforms images of women’s vulvas into deeply personal works of art and how the process becomes a ritual of reconnecting with a part of the body many women have been taught to hide, judge, change, or reserve for someone else’s pleasure.

We explore how women become disconnected from their bodies, why fully expressed women can be so confronting, and what changes when a woman begins treating her pleasure, sexuality, and life-force energy as her own.

Khadoma also shares her simple three-song Tending Your Turn-On practice, designed to help you reconnect with your emotional landscape, awaken sensuality through self-touch, and invite more energy and pleasure into your day.

Enjoy, darlin'. 

Timestamps:
00:00 — Feminine Reclamation
01:30 — Khadoma’s Journey Into the Divine Feminine
03:00 — The Inspiration Behind the Portraits
05:17 — The Holy Harlot and Reclaiming Sexuality
06:15 — Healing Shame Through Ritual and Art
11:37 — Eros, Consent, and Listening to the Body
13:23 — Erotic Energy as Life Force
14:53 — The Three-Song Tending Your Turn-On Practice
17:25 — Pleasure, Magnetism, and Embodiment
20:33 — Why Fully Expressed Women Are Confronting
23:42 — Untaming Women’s Emotional Wilderness
24:49 — Women Aren’t Meant to Be the Same Every Day
28:10 — What to Do When You Feel Disconnected
29:33 — Womb Wisdom and the Inner Temple
31:21 — Menstrual Cycles, Relationships, and Perimenopause
33:00 — Fertility, Aging, and the Body’s Timeline
35:08 — Reclaiming Sexuality in Midlife and Beyond
37:17 — Fun and Spicy Lightning Round

Connect with Khadoma:
Website: https://www.khadomacolomby.com/
IG: https://www.instagram.com/khadoma_colomby/

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From Submissive to Dominatrix | Temptress Pixie on BDSM, Pegging, & Power Exchange18 Jul 202600:51:15

This week, I chat with Temptress Pixie, erotic writer, kink educator, dominatrix, and open relationship expert, to explore a world that's often misunderstood. We talked about BDSM, power exchange, pegging, tantra, conscious domination, submission, nervous system regulation, and how kink can become a profound path toward healing.

Whether you're deeply immersed in kink or curious about why so many people find freedom through conscious power dynamics, this conversation goes way beyond whips and chains.

We also get into...
• how she accidentally discovered BDSM through Rihanna's S&M song
• the surprising journey from lifelong submissive to dominatrix
• why communication is the sexiest foreplay
• how fantasy conversations can strengthen relationships
• what tantra and BDSM actually have in common
• why pegging carries so much unnecessary shame
• how play helps us reconnect with parts of ourselves we've forgotten
• and why pleasure, healing, and spirituality might all be speaking the same language.

As always...take what resonates, leave the rest, and stay curious.

Watch the episode on YouTube. 

Timestamps:
00:00 Introduction and guest introduction
01:21 How Timtress Pixie discovered BDSM
03:32 Defining BDSM and kink
04:25 Range of interests in BDSM and kink
05:58 Submissive and dominant roles explained
07:07 Pain, confidence, and power exchange
09:17 The story of the switch to dominance
11:53 Creative role play and trust
14:56 Evolving into full dominance
17:55 The importance of play and imagination
22:40 Daddy and Mommy Dom roles
26:01 BDSM as therapy and emotional healing
27:38 Tantra and energy work in BDSM
32:58 Journey into different BDSM styles and tools
36:55 Pegging: Tips, conversations, and overcoming shame
44:53 Prostate play, anal exploration, and tantra

Connect with Temptress Pixie:
IG: @temptress.pixie & @enm_diaries

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Why Toxic Relationships Feel Addictive | Love, Lust, & Dopamine with C.R. Herro03 Jul 202601:13:51

This episode is brought to you by... tacos & tequila. 🤪

After a couple of anejos, addiction therapist C.R. Herro joins me for a candid conversation about dopamine, addiction, fantasy, and why we so often find ourselves chasing the very things that keep us stuck.

We explore:
• What addiction really is (and why it's more common than you think)
• The difference between guilt and shame... and why it matters
• Why we stay in relationships that hurt us
• The hidden addiction to productivity, achievement, and external validation
• Fantasy vs. authentic intimacy
• Dating in the age of AI
• What it actually means to live authentically

Timestamps:
00:00 Intro
02:18 The Real Definition of Addiction
07:42 Dopamine, Survival, & Your Brain
14:35 Why We Repeat Self-Destructive Behaviors
21:58 Accountability vs. Excuses
29:41 Addiction to Success & Validation
37:56 Guilt & Shame Explained
45:10 Why Toxic Relationships Feel Addictive
52:44 Fantasy vs. Authentic Love 

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Acupuncture, Existential Kink, & Sexual Vitality | Dr. Veda21 Jun 202601:16:41

This week, I'm joined by Dr. Veda, acupuncturist, frequency medicine practitioner, pleasure pioneer, host of Quantumly Kinky, and one of my favorite new friends.

We Explore... 
- Acupuncture, Sexual Vitality, & the Erotic Intelligence of Your Nervous System
- How to live a more turned-on life
- Curiosity as a philosophy & the importance of play
- Metaphysics, manifestation, & multidimensional living
- How acupuncture is frequency medicine
 - Existential Kink: the framework that will make you ask "wait, what part of me actually wants this?" (aka what your shadow secretly enjoys)
- Sexual avatars and how they come online for women
- Her podcast Quantumly Kinky, aka the sexy sermon your Sunday morning needs

Timestamps:
00:00 Intro & Internet Friendship Origin
05:00 Questioning Religion & Finding Spirituality
09:00 Childhood Play Before Social Media
13:30 Sexuality Without Shame
18:00 90s TV, Sex & The City & Sexual Archetypes
23:00 First Heartbreak & Relationship Books
31:00 The Secret, Abraham Hicks & Conscious Creation
35:00 The Seth Material & Multidimensional Reality
38:00 Frequency Medicine Explained
41:00 Acupuncture as Frequency Medicine
46:00 Discovering Esoteric Acupuncture
50:00 The Frequency of Your Future Self
53:00 Breathwork & Receiving Intuition
56:00 Wellness Culture & Biohacking Burnout
1:00:00 How to Get Turned On By Judgment
1:02:00 Existential Kink Explained
1:07:00 Quantumly Kinky & Creating a Podcast
1:10:00 Final Reflections & Turned-On Living

If you've been craving more aliveness, more presence, more pleasure... press play to become more turned on by life.

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Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/dr.sarahveda
Website: https://turnedonclinic.com/

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The Truth About Ayahuasca: Psychedelic Trauma, Nervous System, & Integration | Francesca Barone03 Jun 202601:02:00

On this pod, I chat with Francesca Barone for one of the most unexpectedly grounding conversations around psychedelics and healing.

Francesca runs a retreat center (Anam Cara) with Shipibo healers from the Amazon and describes a way of sitting with ayahuasca that feels like a warm, peaceful journey.

We unpack:

  •  Francesca’s journey from addiction & autoimmune illness into plant medicine work 
  •  What ayahuasca actually is without the spiritual fluff
  •  How modern psychedelic culture sometimes creates more dysregulation instead of healing 
  •  Poorly held ceremonies & psychedelic trauma 
  •  Why nervous system regulation matters before the ceremony 
  •  The role embodiment plays in healing 
  •  How women disconnect from intuition 
  •  The difference between performing spirituality vs. embodying truth 
  •  Integration after ceremonies & why support matters 
  •  The exhaustion of hiding parts of ourselves 

Timestamps
00:00: The intuitive nudge that started it all
11:29: Embodiment before ceremony
26:00: Psychedelic trauma 
31:55: Fear of Ayahuasca
44:06: Integration: what it is, what it isn’t, and why community is everything
50:29: Listening to your intuition
53:35: Showing up in the mess: feminine connection, authenticity, and blocked intimacy
58:49: Embodying the full range of femininity

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https://www.instagram.com/anamcararetreats/
https://www.anamcarahealingretreats.com/

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Sober Sex, Psychedelics, & Finding Bliss in the Ordinary | Amy Edwards20 May 202600:59:27

Amy Edwards and I start this episode discussing the most Austin way possible to meet someone… at a pussy casting workshop. 😂 

But from there, we dive DEEP into sobriety, psychedelics, emotional availability, intimacy, dopamine, performance, reinvention, and what it means to feel alive without constantly chasing the next high.

Amy opens up about cheating in past marriages, seeking validation through sex and alcohol, exploring polyamory, healing through psychedelics, and ultimately discovering that what she truly wanted wasn't more experiences… it was deeper intimacy.

We also talk:

  • sober sex & intimacy: the terror, the awkwardness, & the beauty
  • dopamine depletion & alcohol 
  • women reinventing themselves later in life 
  • learning to trust yourself 
  • finding bliss in ordinary moments 
  • growth through discomfort 
  • psychedelics: 5-MeO DMT & ayahuasca
  •  social media visibility + hate comments 

It's funny. It's real. It may lovingly call out the thing you've been calling a spiritual practice when it's actually just avoidance.

🎧Press play. By the end of this convo, Amy and I were high on life... no substances required.  

Timestamps:
00:00: Our pussy casting workshop meet cute
04:00: Sex as validation: decades of performing without knowing it
07:00: The Molly night that changed everything (& why she chose intimacy over polyamory)
15:00: Four years sober: the dopamine truth nobody tells you
22:00: Sober sex and the first play party nervous breakdown
38:00: Psychedelics, mescaline in Guatemala, and integration that takes months
41:00: Losing her literal voice during divorce... and healing it
45:00: Showing up on Instagram: the viral pile-on, the wardrobe room, the commitment anyway
55:00: Treat life as an experiment

Connect with Amy:
Sign up for her newsletter: https://mailchi.mp/amyedwards/sign-up-to-amys-newsletter

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TikTok:⁠⁠⁠   https://www.tiktok.com/@themagicbabe
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/c/theamyedwardsshow
The Amy Edwards Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/5SdojmuUpXfksyQD8gbXJm?si=ad0825df9ac84f55

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He Was Arrested One Block Away: Surviving Assault & DNA Justice | Ashley Spence05 May 202601:00:00

Ashley Spence is the founder of the DNA Justice Project, the author of Silent Witness: How DNA Uncovered the Truth and Empowered my Healing, and a survivor whose story I won't spoil here because it deserves to be heard in her own voice.

What I will say: this is a conversation about what it takes to come back home to your body, your voice, and your faith after something tries to take all three. 

If this topic feels close to home, take care of yourself as you listen.

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DNA Justice Project: https://www.dnajusticeproject.org/

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Low Libido After Motherhood: Hormones, Intimacy, & A Sex Dungeon | Alexa Bowditch21 Apr 202601:11:55

Alexa Bowditch gets into what happens to a relationship when life hits hard... loss, motherhood, hormone imbalances, and identity shifts.

We talk about:
• navigating grief and miscarriage inside a marriage
• what “don't leave the table” really means in long-term relationships
• how postpartum hormones impact libido, mood, and connection
• rebuilding intimacy after a baby when you don’t feel like yourself
• scheduling sex (and yes, building a sex dungeon 👀)
• GLP-1 microdosing, metabolic health, and hormone regulation
• PT-141 and the truth about low libido in women
• the connection between hormones, the nervous system, and desire

This isn’t surface-level relationship advice. It's real-life... what happens when you're exhausted, grieving, touched out, dealing with hormonal shifts, and still want to stay connected to your partner?

We also get into the uncomfortable truth that some relationship problems are actually biological, not just emotional or mental.

If you're navigating postpartum changes, low libido, hormone imbalance, or trying to rebuild intimacy in your relationship… press play.

Timestamps:
02:56 Grief, Loss, and New Beginnings
05:52 The Journey of Motherhood
08:56 Reclaiming Identity and Intimacy
11:46 Building Supportive Relationships
14:55 Finding Ease in Life
18:06 Creating Space for Intimacy
21:01 The Role of Community in Healing
24:03 Embracing the Complexity of Womanhood
26:46 The Importance of Self-Care and Reclamation
36:00 Creating a Space for Intimacy
42:00 Exploring Microdosing and Hormonal Health
46:13 Understanding Peptides and Their Benefits
57:54 Navigating Relationships and Personal Growth

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Shibari as Ritual: Japanese Rope Bondage, Power, & Erotic Healing | Rina Trevi07 Apr 202600:49:50

"It's the difference between fast food and a more refined meal. You can have a kinky fantasy and just scratch the itch. Or you can bring inquiry, intentionality, and start seeing many layers." Rina on tantric vs. conventional bdsm

What if bondage isn't about pain, punishment, or being "bad," but about devotion, safety, and coming home to yourself?

Shibari artist and ritualist Rina Trevi joins to chat rope, tantra, regulated danger, shadow play, and why chosen vulnerability hits differently than forced vulnerability.

We get into:
 - Why Shibari can be deeply healing
 - The difference between kink and conscious power exchange
 - Trauma, surrender, & somatic memory
 - How erotic play can free you from victimhood
 - Connection without scripts, goals, or performance
 - Cervical orgasms, tears, & divine union

This one is spiritual, sensual, & psychological...buckle up, buttercup.

Timestamps:
01:05 – What is Shibari, really? Origins, shame, & vulnerability
03:45 – Choosing vulnerability vs being forced into it
06:30 – Surrender, trauma, & the body's response to restraint
09:40 – Childhood wounds, safety, & somatic memory
12:10 – When Shibari becomes healing (and when it doesn't)
15:00 – Fast food sex vs sacred meal
18:10 – Where kinks come from (trauma, archetypes, & mystery)
21:30 – Playing with shadow, power, & taboo safely
25:40 – Regulated danger & why extremes feel intimate
28:55 – How to explore fantasies with a partner (without shock)
31:00 – Aftercare, integration, & altered states
33:30 – Vipassana, cocooning, & spiritual restraint
36:00 – Tantra vs goal-oriented sex
39:30 – Devotion, presence, & erotic creativity
42:30 – Cervical orgasms, tears, & divine union
45:00 – Lightning round: truth & devotion
46:20 – Rina's books: Shibari as a Ritual & Freedom Bound

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https://www.vulnerabilitycoaching.com/about

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Why You Keep Attracting Emotionally Unavailable Partners | Attachment Styles with Genell Gorman24 Mar 202601:00:48

Your childhood doesn’t disappear when you start dating...it gets activated.

In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Soul, I am joined by attachment and relational healing coach Genell Gorman for a candid, unscripted conversation focused on mother wounds, father wounds, attachment styles, CPTSD, and how early emotional experiences shape adult relationships.

Together, we explore...
 • The “oh sh*t” moment when you realize your dating patterns mirror childhood wounds
 • How emotionally unavailable parents create anxious, avoidant, or disorganized attachment styles
 • Trauma bonding vs. genuine chemistry
 • Why chaos can be mistaken for love and how to break that cycle
 • Healing without becoming emotionally armored or hyper-independent
 • Whether you need to “heal first” or if heal occurs through relationships
 • Reparenting, nervous system regulation, and reclaiming your personal power

This episode is for anyone navigating dating, intimacy, or healing, who is tired of repeating the same story and ready to choose love from a place regulation rather than longing.

Timestamps:
00:00 Intro & grounding
02:20 The “oh sh*t” moment — childhood shaping adult love
05:50 Father wounds & emotionally unavailable partners
09:40 Loss, abandonment, & nervous system imprinting
13:20 Trauma bonding &  attraction to unavailable partners
17:30 CPTSD, codependency, & self-abandonment
22:00 Anxious vs. avoidant dynamics
27:30 Isolation, hyper-independence, & fears of intimacy
32:00 Chemistry vs slow-burn safety
36:00 Chaos does not equal love
41:00 Cutting off parents vs. establishing boundaries & compassion
47:30 Inner child healing & reparenting
51:30 Can relationships heal us?
55:00 Final reflections & encouragement

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What Is a Play Party? Consent, Boundaries, & Asking for What You Want | Dennis Hull17 Feb 202600:58:14

“Real power is speaking your desire without being attached to the outcome.”

What if the real power isn’t getting what you want but having the courage to ask for it?

In this episode, Dennis Hull joins to talk about sovereignty, desire, boundaries, rejection, and why attachment to outcome quietly runs so many of our lives. We unpack the philosophy behind tantra play spaces, the difference between safety and sovereignty, and why real community can’t be built online alone.

This is a conversation about pleasure without performance, asking without expectation, and learning how to stay present even when you hear no.

Messy. Honest. Deeply human.

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Trauma, Attachment, & The Body: When Survival Is No Longer the Only Goal | Will Rezin10 Feb 202600:55:39

"Trauma is not what happens to us, but what we hold inside in the absence of an empathetic witness. The salvation, then, is to be found in the body..."

What if trauma isn’t something to heal or release but something that formed intelligently in response to life?

In this episode, I sit down with Will Rezin of Trauma & Somatics for a deep, grounding conversation on trauma, attachment, procrastination, nervous system regulation, and why so many of us never actually feel completion, only “what’s next?”

This episode isn’t about fixing yourself. It’s about understanding how you formed and what becomes possible when survival isn’t the only goal anymore.

🎧 Timestamps:
00:00 – Intro & why this conversation matters
02:00 – What trauma actually is (and isn’t)
08:45 – Outcomes, productivity, & pressure to perform
12:30 – Why completion never lands
15:40 – Attachment styles in the body
19:30 – Anxious vs avoidant vs disorganized 
24:20 – Earned secure & nervous system repatterning
28:40 – Story follows state
31:00 – Why “safe space” language can backfire
40:20 – Boundaries as skills, not traits
44:00 – Dogs, co-regulation, & Boudreaux 
49:30 – Trauma & Somatics trainings 

Free Anthony de Mello Lecture: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1pttMPB1EPdXjIkj3q-ZQ6GCuOQfhGa5k/view

The next cohort of Attachment & Somatics begins on Feb 13th, 2026, with the first class scheduled for Feb 16th. 

The next cohort of Trauma & Somatics begins May 2026.

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https://www.instagram.com/willrezin
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Are Your Desires How God Speaks to You? Tantra, Surrender & Manifestation with Leola03 Feb 202600:57:17

“The longer you stay on the wrong train, the more expensive it is to get home.”

In this episode, I sit down with Leola, tantra teacher, bestselling author, and host of Talk Tantra To Me, for a conversation that gently roasts manifestation culture, flirts with devotion, and asks an interesting question: What if desire is how God speaks to us?

We explore:
- Why your desires are rarely about the thing (sorry)
- How control issues are often just trust wounds in a trench coat
- The difference between egoic craving and soul-level longing
- Why “manifesting harder” might actually be anxiety in lingerie
- How surrender doesn’t mean giving up — it means giving over
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God as lover, leader, and the one who may lovingly wreck your vision board
- Why the body is still the most avoided spiritual teacher in the room
- And what happens when you stop seducing outcomes and start seducing truth...

This episode is for you if..
- You’re tired of forcing things to happen
- You secretly suspect desire isn’t the villain
- Your vision board needs a gentle exorcism
- Or you’re ready to trust something wiser than your ego

It’s deep. It’s funny. It may lovingly call you out. 

Listen if you’re ready to stop begging the universe & start having an honest conversation with it.

🎧 Press play. Listen to the whisper...don't wait for the yell. 

Timestamps:
01:30 – What’s making Leola feel most alive right now
06:30 – The Three-Minute Game (intimacy exercise)
09:45 – God as a domme + resistance to surrender
13:20 – Finding God in the body
16:00 – Desire vs. egoic craving
19:50 – Becoming a slave to desire
25:40 – Receiving love & nervous system healing
30:15 – Relationship patterns & self-audit
33:50 – When a vision dies, grief, & trust
38:45 – Trusting the nudge
44:30 – Devotion through the tantric lens
50:20 – If God had a dating profile…

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IG: https://www.instagram.com/talktantratome 

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Feminine Energy, Desire, & Intuition: Presence Is the Portal | Mayra Leen19 Jan 202601:06:39

In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Soul, I sit down with Mayra Leen, author, hypnotherapist, and priestess, for a conversation on presence, feminine integration, desire, intuition, and living outside societal structures.

Mayra shares her journey from corporate success and burnout into priestess embodiment, her truth about rest versus aliveness, and why presence itself is the portal to everything we want. Together, we explore money as energy, separating work from worth, non-monogamy and creative relationship models, trusting intuition through play, and the danger of turning healing into a never-ending project.

This episode is an invitation to claim arrival, not as an endpoint, but as a lived experience of being here, now, and fully alive.

Chapters:
00:00 – Welcome + What’s Alive Right Now
01:20 – The Priestess Archetype & Collective Awakening
05:05 – Corporate Success, Capricorn Energy, & Burnout
09:40 – The Moment Everything Shifted
11:30 – Dropping Into the Feminine During COVID
13:35 – Feminine ≠ Rest Only: Integration Matters
15:40 – Soft Girl Era Myths & Common Mistakes
17:25 – Rest vs. Aliveness
19:50 – Priestess Weekends & Living Ritual
22:10 – Money, Devotion, & Being Paid for Being
25:45 – Presence as Medicine
28:25 – Trusting Intuition & Self-Leadership
36:10 – The “Eight Husbands” Concept
42:30 – Non-Monogamy, Depth, & Creative Relationships
49:50 – Presence as a Portal
57:30 – Feeling Emotions & Clearing the Backlog
1:01:00 – Claiming Arrival

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•⁠  ⁠Website: www.mayraleen.com
•⁠  ⁠Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mayraleen/

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Why Healthy Love Can Feel Unfamiliar: Slow-Burn Love, Faith, & Nervous System Safety13 Jan 202600:31:40

“Old keys don’t open new doors, and this year asked me to choose new ones.”

In this solo episode of Sex, Drugs, & Soul, I reflect on a year that brought me to my knees and opened my heart.

I explore what it means to receive an answered prayer, release old patterns, and choose bold faith over familiar intensity. Through stories of organic love, spiritual curiosity, church rediscovery, vulnerability, sacred eroticism, and inner child healing, this episode invites listeners to slow down, get honest, and align with the life they say they want.

Topics include...
• Letting go of old keys and opening new doors
• Slow-burn love vs. intensity
• Faith, integrity, and intentional living
• Vulnerability vs. exposure
• Stillness, safety, and nervous system regulation
• Erotic energy as holy and sacred
• Play, presence, and inner child healing

This episode is for anyone standing at the threshold of something new, wondering if they’re brave enough to receive it.

Chapters: 

00:00 Reflections on 2025: A Year of Transformation

02:55 New Beginnings: Embracing Vulnerability in Relationships

05:44 Intentional Living: Setting Goals for the New Year

08:31 Faith and Spirituality: A Journey of Self-Discovery

11:16 The Power of Vulnerability: Building Deeper Connections

13:56 Exploring the Intersection of the Erotic and the Holy

17:12 The Role of Stillness in Personal Growth

19:33 Embracing Playfulness and Choice in Life

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Why We Hide Who We Are: Sex, Love, & Fear of Abandonment | C.R. Herro05 Jan 202601:30:43

“The mask that keeps you from being abandoned is the same one that keeps you from being loved.”

This episode is not soft.
It’s not performative.
And it’s definitely not comfortable.

Licensed therapist C.R. Herro returns for one of the most raw, intellectually honest, and emotionally confronting conversations on Sex, Drugs, & Soul to date.

We unpack:

  • Why archetypes and masks feel safe but sabotage intimacy
  • The uncomfortable truth that sex is not love
  • How trauma teaches us to outsource safety, worth, and belonging
  • Why kindness is strength (and intensity is often a red flag)
  • The fantasy of being rescued & the grief of letting it die
  • What it actually means to become your own hero

This is a conversation about responsibility, embodiment, emotional honesty, and the courage it takes to stop performing and start living.

🎧 Listen if you’re ready to stop numbing, stop pretending, and start telling yourself the truth.

00:00 – Welcome + why this conversation will ruffle feathers
03:00 – What’s turning C.R. on: access, honesty, & emotional availability
07:30 – Why being human is harder than we admit
12:00 – Archetypes vs authenticity: the mask we wear to feel safe
18:00 – The puppet metaphor: why the mask blocks real love
24:00 – Trauma, self-blame, & being crueler to ourselves than others
30:00 – Codependence vs hyper-independence (same wound, different armor)
36:00 – The fantasy of being rescued
42:00 – Sex ≠ love: the most expensive lie
48:00 – Intensity vs kindness (red flags that look like desire)
54:00 – Dropping performance & choosing emotional responsibility
60:00 – The 80th birthday exercise: playing the tape all the way forward
68:00 – Becoming your own hero
75:00 – Love without possession & interdependence
82:00 – Final reflections, integration, & closing wisdom

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Healing PTSD with Psilocybin & Ibogaine | Spencer Coursen on Winning the War Within29 Dec 202501:20:58

In this powerful conversation, Spencer Coursen, veteran, threat management expert, bestselling author, and host of Coursen’s Corner, opens up about the journey from trauma to healing, and what it truly means to “win the war within.”

Spencer opens up about his journey from childhood abuse and combat trauma to finding triumph through various healing modalities. We explore the critical differences between instinct and intuition, the "pussification" of the modern male, and how to build authentic self-confidence. Spencer also shares the story behind his darkest moment, the service dog who saved his life, his profound experiences with psychedelics (Psilocybin and Ibogaine), and how they catalyzed integrating years of therapy into true healing.

Whether you are a veteran, a survivor of childhood trauma, or someone looking to strengthen your mental resilience, this video provides a roadmap for moving from a "badge of trauma" to a "lighthouse of hope." Watch until the end to hear Spencer’s incredible dragon story and his advice on dating, setting boundaries, and why honoring your instincts is a radical act of self-protection.

In This Episode, You’ll Learn About:
- Complex PTSD and how "big T" and "little T" traumas compound
- How Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) helps reframe past perspectives
- The role of Psilocybin and Ibogaine in healing deep-seated shame and guilt
- The vital distinction between Safety vs. Security and Fear vs. Anxiety
- Practical tips for men on building authentic masculinity and for women on vetting partners by honoring instincts

Spencer’s new book, Winning the War Within, releases June 26, 2026.

If you have ever wondered what heals trauma or how to navigate the long road of healing from Complex PTSD (CPTSD), this deep dive offers both professional insight and raw, personal experience.

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YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLxwzst3QHsORLLRzluNw7s6LW0G_O6HZc
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Feminine Energy, Trust Repair, & Emotional Intelligence | Alexis Quiterio15 Dec 202501:05:14

Alexis & I discuss leaving the hard grind of the hypermasculine and slipping into a slower, fuller, more feminine way of being. She opens up about the night ayahuasca called her in, the decision to remove her IUD after twelve years, and how her libido and emotional depth surged back the moment she started listening to her body again.

We delve into the 10-second rule that draws men into deeper communication, the breath that pulls you out of survival mode, and the kind of softening that makes connection feel hotter, safer, and more genuine.

This is a rich, grounded, sensual dive into desire, self-mastery, nervous system truth, and what happens when you finally let your body lead.

Chapters:
00:00 - Introduction
01:22 - Self-Mastery & Shifting into the Feminine
07:18 - Medicine vs. Escape
09:42 - Communication Shifts After Softening
11:09 - Heard, Helped, or Held?
13:45 - Curiosity Over Defensiveness
15:30 - Nervous System Regulation Tools
20:02 - Polarity & Inspiring Masculine Presence
24:30 - Enthusiasm: The Feminine Superpower
27:25 - Setting Men Up to Win
32:10 - Speaking Desires Clearly
34:00 - Rebuilding Trust After Rupture
40:10 - Truth-Telling & Emotional Clarity
45:20 - Clarity in Dating & Relationships
53:02 - Expanding the Capacity to Feel
58:16 - Being Human & Remembering Why We're Here

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Website: https://stan.store/alexisquiterio

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Psychedelics, Personal Branding, & The Fear of Being Seen | Courtney Johnson01 Dec 202500:55:46

For the 100th episode, I sit down with Courtney Johnson, a branding expert, author, and former ghostwriter who makes personal branding feel like emotional foreplay, rather than just marketing.

We get into the fear of being seen, the cringe, the emotional work behind content creation, and why consistency is the real magic. Courtney shares how an accidental six-gram mushroom trip rewired her life, how psychedelics fuel her creativity, and why microdosing for business sometimes beats any strategy.

We talk manifestation versus action, breaking up with the spiritual community, identifying your value above other values, emotional intelligence in the age of AI, and why building a personal brand is basically training your nervous system to be witnessed.

Short, spicy, a little feral, and perfect for anyone who wants personal branding advice that actually lands.

Timestamps
00:00 Celebrating Milestones and Embracing Cringe
02:52 The Emotional Journey of Personal Branding
06:00 Exploring Psychedelics and Personal Transformation
08:58 Breaking Up with the Spiritual Community
12:04 Marketing as an Art Form
14:53 The Power of Consistency in Podcasting
29:51 Balancing Masculine and Feminine Energies in Content Creation
33:04 The Challenges of Writing a Book
36:32 Embracing Cringe and Feedback in Growth
38:02 Claiming Desires and Overcoming Blocks
40:59 The Importance of Structure for Creativity
43:35 Being 100% Human: Embracing Flaws and Growth
44:02 Shifting Self-Talk and Beliefs for Success
50:03 Letting Go of Toxic Relationships
52:14 Pursuing Dreams and Making an Impact

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Healing After Infidelity: From Betrayal to Rebirth | Lora Cheadle24 Nov 202500:51:53

In this episode, I sit down with Lora Cheadle, former attorney turned betrayal recovery coach, somatic therapist, intuitive channel, and author of FLAUNT! and It’s Not Burnout, It’s Betrayal.

And this conversation goes everywhere: infidelity, identity collapse, somatic grief, self-abandonment, the gift inside the rupture, spiritual downloads, sacred travel, Egypt codes, plant medicine, and the radical art of rebuilding your truth from the inside out.

Lora shares the story of discovering her husband’s 15-year, multi-partner affair… and how it became the catalyst for BOTH of them to dismantle old identities, release generational trauma, and rebuild a marriage on truth instead of performance.

Timestamps:
00:00 – What’s turning Lora on in life
01:05 – Expectation vs. desire: how your inner state shapes your reality
03:00 – Lora’s transition from attorney → burnout → betrayal coach
04:20 – The moment she discovered a 15-year affair
05:30 – Rebuilding identity after betrayal & staying in the marriage
06:30 – The REAL first steps after discovering infidelity
07:50 – Blame, shame, shock, & why you must stop before you act
08:40 – Self-betrayal, “good girl” conditioning & performance mode
09:40 – Knowing something vs. embodying it
11:55 – Reawakening intuition, somatics, & energy healing
13:30 – Did we choose our lessons? The game board of life
14:20 – The Librarians: Lora’s channeled guides & Akashic lessons
16:00 – Understanding your soul story like a TV series
17:20 – Co-creating your reality with cosmic free will
19:00 – The gifts inside betrayal (for both partners)
22:00 – Rebuilding authentic relationships without the masks
23:40 – The FLAUNT! Framework (Find your Fetish → Trust your Truth)
26:00 – How to accept unconditionally without sacrificing yourself
27:20 – Navigating the non-linear nature of healing
28:30 – Dark night of the ego vs dark night of the soul
29:30 – How to rebuild self-trust after collapse
31:45 – Creating spaciousness to receive guidance
33:00 – Letting yourself evolve + writing in cycles
38:40 – Sacred travel: Egypt, Sekhmet, Dendera & receiving codes
40:20 – Mystical experiences + light language activation
43:00 – Plant medicine journeys (San Pedro) & consciousness work
45:00 – Meditation styles for ADHD, anxious, or embodied minds
46:20 – Holding compassion when you’ve been the betrayer too
47:30 – What is truly “profane”?
48:15 – Life as an experiment + playing with the messiness

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Download Lora’s Betrayal Recovery Guide: betrayalrecoveryguide.com

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Confessions of a Tantric Pastor with Anthony Michael17 Nov 202501:07:19

What do you call a pastor who trades Bible verses for breathwork and starts preaching the gospel of pleasure?

In this episode, I chat with Anthony Michael, a former pastor turned tantra teacher, community builder, and “minister of pleasure.” Together, we dive into the intersection of religion, sexuality, and sacred embodiment.

From his 17 years in ministry to creating tantric play parties and a thriving conscious community in Houston, Anthony shares the radical journey of transforming guilt into grace and discovering how sex can be a prayer and pleasure can be devotion.

🎧 Inside:

  • What happens when a pastor discovers Tantra
  • Healing religious shame and sexual repression
  • Why “safe masculine presence” makes the feminine bloom
  • How divorce, desire, and devotion became his catalysts
  • Finding God in orgasm
  • The divine masculine, safe presence, and embodied leadership
  •  Rewriting your gospel through love, wholeness & desire
  • The surprising overlap between theology and sexuality

A conversation for anyone who’s ever felt torn between God and pleasure, holiness and wholeness. Spoiler: they might just be the same thing.

Timestamps:
00:00 – Welcome & “What’s turning you on right now?”
02:00 – From pastor to tantra: the safe masculine presence
05:30 – Growing up in the church & early call to ministry
09:00 – AOL chatrooms, Jesus moments, and hearing “the call”
11:00 – Seminary stories & inclusive churches
13:30 – Divorce, sexual awakening, & first casual encounters
17:00 – Getting fired from church 
20:00 – Redefining sex, casual connection, and healing codependency
22:30 – Meeting Samantha on Tinder & birth of Houston’s Tantra community
26:00 – From sermons to sacred sex: ministry of pleasure
31:00 – Codependency, control, & inner work
33:00 – Reimagining Jesus, Christ consciousness, & inner divinity
37:00 – God in the bedroom: “Jesus would fuck—and he’d be good at it”
40:00 – Mary Magdalene, Gnostic Gospels, & divine union
44:00 – Creating safe spaces for sensuality & shadow
46:30 – Potential vs. kinetic energy: the physics of a play party
49:00 – Breath, sound, & grounding in Tantra
50:00 – What his younger preacher self would say now
51:00 – If I preached today… “The gospel of oneness and sex as sacred”
01:02:00 – Divine masculine/feminine and shifting collective energies

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Microdosing for Healing: How Mushrooms Can Rewire the Nervous System with Kayse Gehret10 Nov 202500:55:36

In this episode, I am joined by Kayse Gehret to dive into the transformative world of microdosing for healing — from psilocybin’s subtle power to its impact on nervous system regulation and emotional resilience. Kaycee opens up about her personal journey using microdosing protocols to move through a seizure disorder.

Together, we explore how psilocybin can support those navigating anxiety, grief, and the slow unraveling of trauma.

From dream work to community integration, Kayse and I shed light on how healing nervous system dysregulation through microdosing can open the door to deeper intimacy, creativity, and connection with spirit.

Whether you’re curious, cautious, or already journeying with plant medicine, this conversation invites you to tune into your body’s intelligence and the whispers of your soul.

Timestamps:
00:00 – Welcome & playing in the dirt 
02:30 – Kayse’s origin story: from seizures to psychedelics
05:00 – The nervous-system magic of microdosing
07:10 – Beyond psilocybin: Amanita & San Pedro medicine
08:30 – Emotional & spiritual shifts people experience
09:50 – Intuitive vs structured dosing
11:00 – How to begin safely if you’re nervous
12:20 – Building the Microdosing for Healing community
14:00 – Intention setting & the frequency of feeling
16:10 – Human Design, energetics & mushroom medicine
19:30 – Integration & dream work
22:30 – Recurring dreams & reconnecting with the wild self
26:00 – Big myths & misunderstandings about microdosing
30:00 – Can microdosing help reduce pharmaceuticals?
31:10 – What people come to heal – from anxiety to fertility to faith
33:00 – Mushrooms & grief as a path to connection beyond death
36:40 – Beautiful client story of ancestral communication 
41:40 – Training the next generation of microdosing guides
44:40 – Egypt downloads & divine feminine activations
49:20 – Grief as a gateway to spirit connection
53:00 – Lightning round + final medicine message: 

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What is a Dakini? | Liv Pavlov on Tantric Bodywork and Sensual Alchemy03 Nov 202500:32:26

In this episode, Liv Pavlov, dakini, tantric guide, and sensual alchemist, returns for a third round to explore tantric bodywork. We dive into what it means to be a dakini, how trauma and desire manifest in the body, and how presence, breath, and pleasure can become a form of medicine.

Liv shares her four-step sensual medicine therapy process, how to expand your capacity to feel, and the truth about the body’s innate wisdom to heal through sound, movement, and conscious touch.

Timestamps:
00:00 – Welcoming back Liv Pavlov: the first three-peat guest
01:24 – What is a Dakini?
03:37 – Tantra defined: weaving together all parts of the self
06:02 – The deeper purpose of tantric bodywork beyond the erotic
07:28 – How to bring more presence into intimacy
08:54 – The power of breath and awareness
09:44 – Liv’s 4-step Sensual Medicine Therapy method
12:06 – Eros as life-force energy: reclaiming your erotic aliveness
13:10 – Tantric practices for mothers and busy women
15:34 – Mirror work and five-minute sensual practices
16:43 – Yoni eggs, postpartum healing, and energetic cleansing
18:08 – Trauma and ancestral memory in the body
20:23 – How Tantric touch releases tension and stored emotion
22:46 – Why the body doesn’t need the story to heal
24:39 – What to know before receiving Tantric Bodywork
26:16 – The naturalness of Tantra and returning to ancient wisdom
28:09 – Lightning Round: hips, pleasure, and peaking practices
30:19 – How to work with Liv and learn more

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How to Navigate Life as a Highly Sensitive Person with Todd Smith 27 Oct 202501:09:50

Ever felt like you’re too much? Too emotional, too intense, too sensitive for this world that keeps telling you to “get over it”? What if your sensitivity is actually your superpower?

In this conversation with Todd Smith, we discuss what it’s like to feel everything so deeply and how to transform that sensitivity into strength. We explore routines that keep you grounded, what it truly means to take care of yourself, and how to stop losing yourself in the name of love or approval.

This episode is for the feelers, the deep thinkers, and the ones who are learning that being sensitive doesn’t make you weak. 

Timestamps:
0:00 Intro
9:00 The Origins of High Sensitivity
10:48 Pillars of Stress Management for HSPs
15:55 Outer Work: Creating Balance in Daily Life
22:05 Inner Work: Emotional Awareness and Acceptance
27:00 Exploring Triggers and Reactions
30:58 Finding Freedom Through Questioning Beliefs
39:57 Exploring Consideration in Relationships
42:13 Self-Reflection and Personal Responsibility
45:13 Understanding People-Pleasing Dynamics
50:18 The Connection Between HSPs and People-Pleasing
52:00 Navigating Intimacy and Connection

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https://trueinnerfreedom.com/

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From Ink to Canvas: How Recovery Catalyzed Jon McKenzie's Artistic Evolution20 Oct 202500:51:49

This week, Austin-based artist Jon McKenzie is on the pod!

We explore how creativity becomes emotional nutrition, the importance of expressing your voice in a noisy world, his thoughts on AI, and how recovery ignited a new level of purpose and dedication to his craft.

Timestamps:
00:00 — Introduction: From tattoos to artistry & recovery
02:00 — How Jon’s apprenticeship shaped his creative ethos
04:00 — Getting sober in Austin & the turning point that changed everything
07:45 — The first commission piece and finding purpose after detox
10:30 — Balancing paid work with creative passion
12:15 —  Art as “emotional nutrition” and creating amidst chaos
15:00 — The trap of productivity vs. the call to create from the heart
17:00 — The purpose of art: conversation, curiosity, and connection
20:00 — When clients see you in your work (even when you don’t)
22:45 — Anxiety, childhood, and art as an outlet for emotion
26:00 — Shifting from realism toward emotional expression
28:30 — Revisiting the inner child through art
31:00 — Old-school inspiration, vintage ads, & retro aesthetics
33:00 — AI & art: tool or threat?
38:00 — The optimism we need in a pessimistic world
41:00 — Safety, tattoos, and the art of being unapologetically yourself
44:00 — Values, courage, and creating what you believe in
48:00 — Behind-the-scenes of Jon’s next chapter & how to follow his work

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Faith Over Fear: Self-Love, Signs, & Spiritual Freedom with Veronica Kelly12 Oct 202501:01:04

A little soulful Sunday, featuring my girl Veronica Kelly, is coming out a day early in case you want to hop into her free event, 'Finally Breaking Free,' which starts on October 13th!

What happens when you start choosing and feeding faith over fear?

In this heart-opening episode, I sit down with my soul sister Veronica Kelly, a Self-Love and Freedom Master Coach, to explore what it means to trust divine timing, heal your relationship with your body, and walk through the fire (literally) with grace.

We talk about receiving signs from spirit, breaking free from perfectionism, and finding safety, acceptance, and love for our bodies after years of judgment, diets, and shame.

You’ll hear stories of synchronicity, body image healing, and a guided EFT tapping session to help you soften your nervous system and come home to love.

Timestamps:
00:00 Red Clay Strays, faith, & asking for signs
03:58 Veronica’s early encounters with Jesus
09:25 Faith vs. fear: choosing what you feed
12:32 Baptism, fire, & a miracle in Costa Rica
17:26 Leaving Hollywood to follow a divine calling
24:25 Mold, intuition, & moving through fear
33:08 Stonehenge, sacred sisterhood, & implementing rituals
40:23 God in the bedroom
48:42 Guided EFT tapping
55:19 Healing body image & self-acceptance
58:01 Veronica’s “Finally Breaking Free” challenge

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Website: finallybreakingfree.com 

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Modern Masculinity, Intentional Intimacy, & Choosing a ‘Good Enough’ Partner | A No BS Convo w/ Jordan Bowditch06 Oct 202501:00:54

“My relationship is the most important aspect of my life. Everything overflows from that. It is the most tangible way of communing with God & experiencing heaven on earth.” #goals

Men’s coach and intimacy guide Jordan Bowditch joins for a playfully sincere, no BS talk on modern masculinity, intentional intimacy, radical honesty, and choosing partnership in today’s world.

We get into how he and his wife keep passion alive after kids, navigating grief, their monogamish chapter, sex check-ins, and why scheduling intimacy is a game-changer. We also explore masculine/feminine dynamics, the “good enough partner” philosophy, and how faith and mysticism shape our outlook.

Jordan shares personal stories, realistic practices, and insights that make this one both grounded, playful, and valuable... great one for anyone navigating love, dating, sex, and commitment in a modern landscape.

Timestamps:
00:00 – Icebreaker: What’s turning Jordan on in life right now
02:00 – Fatherhood, aliveness, and marriage expansion
03:20 – Monogamish marriage and defining their container
07:00 – Weekly relationship check-ins & honest communication
10:00 – Scheduling sex and keeping intimacy intentional
13:00 – Building a sex dungeon (permission to play 😏)
18:00 – Relationship practices after kids
25:00 – Masculine/feminine dynamics and modern masculinity
39:00 – “Good enough love” and relationship clarity
44:00 – Deal-makers, deal-breakers, and choosing a partnership
48:00 – Shared vision & calling in committed love
50:00 – Faith, mysticism, and Jesus
56:00 – Jordan’s offerings & playful closing

Books Mentioned:
No More Mr Nice Guy - Dr. Robert Glover
The Way of The Superior Man - David Deida
Radical Honesty - Brad Blanton

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What Can Our Fantasies Tell Us? | Justin Gottlieb on Tantra, Fantasies, & Desires29 Sep 202500:57:40

Some of my favorite quotes from this episode: "Where there's horniness, there's healing..."  & "Vulnerability is the gateway to intimacy."

Justin Gottlieb, a sexual freedom coach and tantric facilitator, joins this week for a deep dive into fantasies, tantra, and sexual liberation. 

We explore...

  • What is Tantra, really? Justin’s take, why it’s not just about sex, and how to apply to everyday life
  • Healing through desire: How fantasies can open deeper pathways of self-understanding & unlock deeper intimacy, connection, and healing
  • The role of vulnerability and why it deepens connection
  • Why fantasies aren't random, what they may reveal, & what is possible by exploring them
  • The difference between keeping fantasies in the mind vs. exploring them in reality
  • How to talk about fantasies with your partner without blame or shame
  • Why all events are emotionally neutral, until we assign meaning
  • Why jealousy is an invitation instead of an enemy & embracing the full spectrum of emotions 
  • The truth about taboo fantasies
  • Creating a safe space for exploration & fantasy fulfillment
  • Justin’s formula for a fully-lived life: Healing → Exploration → Mastery

Whether you're tantra-curious, exploring your edges, or simply love honest conversations about desire, this episode will leave you inspired, informed, and maybe a little turned on. 😉

Timestamps
02:30 — Justin’s journey: From finance to tantra facilitation
08:40 — Family, acceptance, & stepping onto a new path
10:20 — Fantasies 101: “Where there’s horniness, there’s healing”
12:00 — Curiosity, vulnerability, & sharing fantasies with partners 
15:50 — Neutrality & the stories we attach to events
18:00 — Taboo fantasies, porn trends, & cultural shame
22:30 — Releasing shame and finding safe spaces to share
24:45 — Reigniting relationships through communication & fantasies
26:10 — Navigating jealousy consciously
30:00 — Living truth, leaving others better, & hard conversations
36:30 — Tantra retreats, partnership, & expansion
41:20 — Introducing tantra & fantasies to your partner
45:36 — Awakening, truth, and not settling in relationships
47:22 — Healing → Exploration → Mastery
51:08 — Staying together for the kids? Honest talk.
52:35 — What’s turning Justin on in life right now

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Tantric Daddy Take Two: Dennis Hull on Control, Surrender, & Letting Go22 Sep 202501:08:00

Tantric Daddy Take 2! Dennis Hull returns for an unfiltered conversation on conscious masculinity, emotional availability, and the power of slowing down. 

We talk about...

  • The emotional toll of hyper-independence
  • Finding a rhythm between doing and being
  • The shadow side of polarity & performance
  • Rest as an act of rebellion in hustle culture
  • Holding space without trying to fix or rescue
  • Discomfort as a path to deeper pleasure
  • The attraction to the unavailable
  • Dennis’s transition into stewarding the Naked Soul Society, how he navigates leadership, & what it means to offer presence as a form of protection. 

This episode is a permission slip to take your hands off the wheel, honor your emotions, and trust your own inner timing. It's also an honest glimpse into the kind of masculinity that doesn’t dominate but protects, witnesses, and honors.

Timestamps:
00:00 – Tantric Daddy returns & existential crisis is present
04:50 – Rest as rebellion & releasing urgency
08:00 – The art of thinking as doing & how creativity brews in silence
13:00 – Tantra as energy, not just touch: what true co-creation looks like
17:00 – Holding space vs. fixing: the masculine lesson Dennis had to unlearn
20:30 – Women as storms, thorns, and sacred experiences
24:00 – Control, hyper-independence, & unconscious manipulation
27:00 – The “idle boat” metaphor for letting life guide you
30:00 – Steak, stillness, & knowing when to flip it
32:00 – What’s turning Dennis on in life 
36:00 – Stewarding the Naked Soul Society & honoring Leola’s vision
40:00 – Shadows, saboteurs, & the real work of integration
43:30 – Discomfort as a doorway to pleasure
46:00 – Hope, faith, intention, & spiritual cynicism
49:00 – ChatGPT as a tool vs. a crutch
52:00 – Hyper-independence & the quiet desire to be held
55:00 – Why we’re drawn to the unavailable (ouch)
57:00 – Polarity, men’s work, & the difference between dance and game
60:00 – Daddy wounds, dating patterns, & rewriting the script
63:00 – Grace, epiphanies, & healing after the death of a loved one

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Naked Soul Society: https://dennishull.com/naked-soul-society

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Conscious Kink 101: Kimi Inch on Awakening Erotic Energy & Leading with Heart15 Sep 202500:50:15

“Your reality is a result of your nervous system and how you see life. Let’s shift that and be the doms of our lives.” - Kimi

This conversation with Kimi Inch, The Creatrix of Erotic Leadership™, is one I’ve been dreaming about for over a year. Kimi is a renowned expert with 20+ years of experience in the realm of intimacy, conscious kink, and unlocking your body’s untapped erotic energy. Featured on prestigious platforms such as The Oprah Winfrey Network, SXSW, Princeton University, and Nightline, Kimi’s goal as a pro-Domme, Somatic Therapist, and Sex-Positive Edu-tainer is to provide a safe and pleasure-filled space for exploring parts of ourselves that we rarely dare to look at.

It’s been a heavy week, both individually and collectively, and after we wrapped, she thanked me for my vulnerability and said, “The world doesn’t need more smart… the world needs more heart.”

I invite you to explore, be open to possibilities, and press play to discover how conscious kink might weave more heart into your life and, consequently, ripple into the lives of others.

Full episode on YouTube.

We Explore...
▶Being turned on by the taboo
▶Kink as a pathway to altered states of consciousness
▶Why pain can be of service (and how to alchemize it)
▶Ego death, surrender, & liberation in play
▶Archetypes, Eros vs. ego, and erotic leadership
▶Spanking, chakras, and awakening life force energy
▶Dirty talk, erotic language & using your voice
▶How to get your man into his heart during sex

🕰️ Timestamps
02:30 What is Conscious Kink?
04:30 Being turned on by taboo & the thrill of aliveness
05:45 Heart-centered kink: connection over performance
07:30 Why kink scares people
09:00 Surrender, ego death, & liberation through play
11:00 Mistress Nina Payne: Kimi’s dominatrix persona
13:00 Archetypes, eros vs. ego, & reclaiming power
23:00 Erotic leadership vs. dominance/submission
27:00 Pervertibles: turning everyday life into play
29:00 Spanking, kundalini, & chakra awakening
31:30 How to get a man into his heart during sex
33:00 Alchemizing pain into power
35:00 Dirty talk, erotic language, & the power of words
40:00 Sacredness in transitions, aftercare, & integration

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From Purity Culture to Pleasure Preacher | Lauren Elise Rogers08 Sep 202500:55:41

“Sex isn’t everything, but it’s part of everything.”

What happens when a virgin bride raised in purity culture becomes a pleasure preacher?

In this raw conversation, I sit down with Lauren Elise Rogers, sexuality educator, intimacy coach, and founder of SexEdForYou.com. From growing up in the confines of religious purity culture to reclaiming her voice and becoming a sexuality educator, Lauren embodies the journey of the wounded healer by turning pain into wisdom and shame into possibility.

Together, we dive into:

  •  Growing up in purity culture and reclaiming sexual autonomy
  •  Divorce, loss, and the messy middle of healing
  • Rage as a sacred force for healing and transformation
  • Navigating grief, divorce, and the power of reconciliation in relationships
  • Indigenous attachment styles and a more expansive view of intimacy
  • Theater and play as revolutionary tools to renegotiate trauma
  • Vulnerability, choice, and aftercare as foundations for deeper connection
  • The power of play, embodiment, & rewriting trauma through somatic practices
  • Building relationships rooted in choice, freedom, and joy

This episode is for you if you’ve ever questioned the stories you were handed about sex, struggled with loss, or longed to step into a fuller, freer version of yourself.

02:25 | Growing up in purity culture, Liberty University, & courtship model 
06:30 | Dreams, divorce, & losing everything in the church fallout 
09:00 | Basement floor epiphany: from shame to “what’s missing?” 
11:20 | Mary Magdalene, Council of Nicaea, & reclaiming faith
15:20 | Attachment theory, ancestors, & the “cloud of witnesses” 
19:20 | “Sex is not everything, it’s just part of everything” 
22:40 | Rage, repair, & renegotiation with her ex 
27:50 | Play, theater roots, & rewriting trauma through somatics 
34:00 | Client story: pushing back & reclaiming her voice 
42:40 | Dating apps & divine timing 
46:30 | Lobby sparks, suitcase moment, & the first kiss 
48:14 | The 8-second kiss & body chemistry magic 
51:07 | From “don’ts” to hell-yes choices

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Website: https://sexedforyou.com/
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sex_ed_for_you/

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My Fave Jewish Friend is Getting Turned on by Jesus | Sammi Sadicario's Healing Journey Through Music, Voice, & Faith01 Sep 202501:00:50

Can music heal anxiety? 

In this conversation, Sammi Sadicario, vocalist, voice coach, and radiant creative, shares her powerful transformation from Jewish roots to a profound connection with Jesus and how she is navigating this shift in ideology. 

Through music, neuroscience, and spirituality, Sammi reveals how voice becomes a sacred tool for healing, identity, and awakening.

We explore:

  • How singing and sound regulate the nervous system and heal anxiety
  • The science behind vocal vibration, vagus nerve activation, & emotional release
  • Cultural identity, reparenting, and the courage to evolve spiritually
  • Using voice as a portal to presence, purpose, and Divine connection
  • The “messy middle” of transformation, creativity, and soul expression
  • How faith, music, and frequency help shift emotions and open the heart.

This episode is for you if you’ve ever struggled with anxiety, questioned your beliefs, or longed to reconnect with your voice—both literally and spiritually.

✨ Watch now to discover your voice as medicine.

👉 Don’t forget to like, subscribe, and share with someone ready to reclaim their voice and rewrite their story.

Time Stamps:
00:00 Intro – Anxiety, Voice, & Relationships
02:54 Spiritual Awakening Through Music
05:58 Cultural Identity & Faith Deconstruction
08:58 The Messy Middle of Creative Transformation
12:07 How Music Impacts Emotions
15:05 Frequency Healing & Sound as Medicine
18:01 Creative Process & Divine Downloads
31:41 Music, Lyrics & Emotional Alchemy
33:04 Singing for Nervous System Regulation
34:30 Vagus Nerve & The Power of Voice
36:51 Collective Consciousness & Sacred Expression
39:50 Voice as a Healing Tool for Trauma
41:39 Authenticity vs Fame: Staying True
44:50 Reclaiming Self Through Sound
51:12 Boundaries, Relationships & Visibility
55:05 Personal Growth Through Faith & Voice
56:59 Voice, Spirituality & Intimacy Integration

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YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@thevoiceexpert

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BONUS: What Is Pussy-Centered Living? Reclaiming Desire in Sexless Marriages | Jenny Braxton18 Aug 202501:03:19

In this heart-opening, libido-reviving, shame-shedding convo, I sit down with Jenny Braxton, a somatic sex, love, and relationship coach and founder of Pussy-Centered Living. We cannonball straight into the deep end (no weather chit-chat here) to talk about sexless marriages, postpartum pain, desire dips, and the radical reclamation of our sensuality.

00:00 Cannonballing into sexless marriage + libido convo
02:29 Jenny’s postpartum libido crash + painful sex & healing journey
06:19 Responsibility, sexual shame, and reclaiming desire
11:55 From pain to portal: Jenny’s sexual awakening + self-pleasure path
19:28 Birth as ecstasy + discovering Mama Gena & Pussy: A Reclamation
26:49 What is Pussy-Centered Living? Reclaiming the word & the wisdom
32:31 Emotions, ragegasms, & the full spectrum feminine
41:16 Pleasure as a nervous system regulator
49:03 Simple first steps to connect with pussy
53:07 Life, love, and business ripple effects of pussy power

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BONUS: Filthy Little Secrets x Sex, Drugs, & Soul Collab 04 Aug 202501:07:48

Before the next season kicks off, we are mixing it up! In this bonus episode, I chat with Marvin of Filthy Little Secrets! Filthy Little Secrets is a podcast where real, everyday women get real about sex to shatter stigma and trample taboo—one candid conversation at a time.

This conversation feels like church, confession, and a late-night skinny dip all in one! We get into...
✦ What happens when you stop pretending to be the “good girl” and start living as your fully expressed self
✦Writing as a ritual of reclamation
✦Using sex as a spell, pleasure as prayer, and storytelling as shadow work
✦Body image, grief, and the power of being deeply seen
✦My first tantra temple experience (I was nervous AF!)

We’re talking taboo, transformation, and the kind of intimacy that tastes like freedom. Whether you’re healing religious shame, redefining what turns you on, or just curious how I went from cybersex in AOL chatrooms to sacred seduction and spiritual growth… this one’s for you.

Expect laughter, truth bombs, a little blushing, and a whole lot of permission.

0:00 – Opening Confession + Childhood Roots
6:00 – First Experiences with Cybersex & Early Shame
14:00 – Religious Programming & Sexuality
23:00 – Discovery of Tantra + First Temple Experience
31:00 – Writing the Book as a Healing Portal
39:00 – Sugar Daddies, Seduction, and Sovereignty
47:00 – Body Image, Being Seen, and Sacred Touch
54:00 – Grief, Loss, and Spiritual Awakening
1:00:00 – Erotic Storytelling + Reclaiming the Voice

Listen & Subscribe to Filthy Little Secrets:

Website: https://filthylittlesecrets.com/
Spotify Link: https://open.spotify.com/show/5nWVlbE1EIgOm0MNWsgzGA?si=373adb3365464b91
Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/filthy-little-secrets/id1809281715

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Four Types of Sex, Inner Union, & Power of Transformational Pleasure | Tantra Talk with Juan Es Alzate28 Jul 202501:04:40

In this powerful episode of Sex, Drugs, & Soul, we go all in on transformational sex, shamanic intimacy, and sacred union with luminous healer and modern shaman Juan Es Alzate.

We explore:
💋 The 4 types of sex: procreative, recreational, restorative, & transformational
🌀 What makes sex “shamanic” and how intention, breath, and energy change everything
💓 Inner union & the dance of the masculine and feminine within
🌬️ Solo pleasure practices & the magic of self-sourced love
🌎 The Aquarian Age, global chaos, and the power of choosing love over fear
💫 How to reconnect to your wholeness and remember that you are the miracle

This one is part medicine, part masterclass, and a reminder of your divine erotic truth.

👉 Don’t forget to like, subscribe, & share with a fellow sacred rebel.

#sacredsex #shamanicsexuality #tantra #soulsex #transformationalsex #spiritualgrowth #innerunion #pleasurealchemy #aquarianage #healingthroughtantra

00:00 Setting Intentions and Invocations
07:46 Exploring the Four Types of Sex
12:16 Transformational Sex and Healing
16:28 Solo Practices and Energy Circulation
23:02 The Inner Union of Masculine and Feminine
27:15 Self-Pleasure and Inner Harmony
29:04 Exploring Self-Discovery Through Touch
31:26 Navigating Chaos and Transformation
35:18 The Detox of Society and Individuality
38:50 Moving from Love: A Call to Action
42:53 Reconnecting with Our Inner Angels
48:20 Practices for Emotional Release and Growth
53:33 Embracing the Present Moment of Healing

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Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/juan.es.alzate/

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How to Find Balance, Heal, & Trust Your Intuition | Josh Brinkman on Happiness & Self-Growth21 Jul 202501:12:15

What happens when you mix East Texas charm, soulful wisdom, and a baddie on a mission to stay balanced in a chaotic world? You get this heart-opening convo with Josh Brinkman.

We explore it all from healing and happiness to the woo-woo wonder of soul contracts and full moon energy spikes.

In this episode, we talk…
✦ What balance really looks like in messy, magical real life
✦ How your words impact water, your body, and your beliefs
✦ Turning pain into rocket fuel and heartbreak into growth
✦ Soul contracts, déjà vu, and angel kisses from beyond
✦ Coming out stories, strong moms, and Bible Belt resilience
✦ Masculine vs feminine energy (and how to protect your soft center)
✦ Plus: A juicy lightning round of questions you didn’t know you needed.

00:00 | Finding Balance in Life
03:03 | The Power of Positive Thinking
06:05 | Happiness: A Personal Journey
08:59 | Manifestation and Intentions
12:05 | The Role of Relationships in Growth
14:59 | Navigating Grief and Loss
17:55 | Signs and Synchronicities
20:50 | The Nature of Happiness
23:40 | Soul Contracts and Life Choices
38:13 | Exploring Soul Contracts and Family Connections
41:01 | Intuition and Energetic Connections
43:09 | Reconnecting with Family and Personal Growth
45:30 | Navigating Identity and Coming Out
51:09 | Balancing Masculine and Feminine Energies
53:17 | Lightning Round: Quickfire Questions and Insights

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The Future of Addiction Medicine: Psychedelics, AI, and Rewriting Your Story | Dr. Jason Giles14 Jul 202500:58:00

“When courage overcomes habit, your story begins to change.”

In this episode, I chat with Dr. Jason Giles—addiction medicine specialist, author, speaker, and a man who has walked both sides of the story.

Once a high-achieving anesthesiologist addicted to fentanyl, Dr. Giles opens up about the addiction, the rock-bottom moment that changed everything, and how he has since helped more than 10,000 patients overcome substance use disorders.

We dive into the future of addiction medicine and explore:

🔥 The power of story: how the narratives we tell can trap or transform us
🧠 Why healing requires presence, not perfection
🍄 Psychedelics as Windex for your beliefs
🪞 Letting go of outdated identities & investing past pain into future power
📱 Mindless scrolling, dopamine traps, & the algorithmic illusion of control
🧬 Why intuition isn’t mystical
🤖 How AI could become your digital accountability buddy

If you’ve ever wondered whether it’s possible to rewrite your life’s narrative… this episode is your invitation.

00:00 Introduction to Addiction and Personal Journey
00:52 The Role of Trauma in Addiction & The Story We Tell Ourselves
02:59 Dr. Giles' Journey into Addiction Medicine
08:50 The Descent into Addiction
14:39 The Turning Point and Recovery
20:26 The Impact of Psychedelics on Healing
25:58 The Intersection of Technology and Addiction Recovery
31:44 The Importance of Intuition and Self-Reflection
37:28 Navigating Life Changes and Personal Growth
43:15 Conclusion and Future Directions

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A Double Priestess Playground: From Devil Dick Energy to Divine Feminine Downloads | Tiff Love07 Jul 202500:56:41

What happens when you blend hillbilly roots, sex magic, grief alchemy, and divine priestess play? A whole-ass tantric resurrection. 

In this deliciously raw episode, I sit down with pleasure priestess and tantric healer Tiff Love for a no-holds-barred convo on reclaiming our truth, embodying our sensuality, and integrating the fragmented pieces of our past for wholeness.

We dive into…
🌑 Owning your “golden shadow,” even the parts that come with 12-toed great-grandmas & outlaw grit
🎤 The womb-throat connection and reclaiming your voice as a sacred instrument
🍑 Sex magic, sacred touch, and healing the masculine through pleasure
✨ Erotic innocence and early sexual exploration
🌌 Grief as a gateway to channeling, creativity, and anchoring heaven on earth
🤸‍♀️ Why play is sacred, not frivolous
👑 Boss priestess boundaries and why love sometimes comes with a karate kick
🐉 Future visioning, synchronicity, and soul-led travel

This isn’t your average tantra talk. It’s raw, fun, and real AF. 
Let yourself be turned on, tickled, and totally remembered:
Your pleasure is power.
Your truth is the transmission.

Welcome to the double priestess playground. 🐉💦

00:00 Embracing Authenticity and Playfulness
09:12 The Journey into Sacred Sexuality and Tantra
18:57 Exploring the Womb-Throat Connection
28:43 The Power of Writing and Self-Expression
39:11 Navigating Relationships and Boundaries
49:40 Manifesting Dreams and Future Visioning

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Research Partners, French Lovers, & Vibrating Suitcases | Intimacy Expert Susan Bratton30 Jun 202500:50:01

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What do vibrating suitcases, ethical non-monogamy, and clit-stroking meditations have in common? They all make an appearance in this juicy episode with the Intimacy Expert to Millions, Susan Bratton.

In this convo, Susan and I toss the script and drop into a behind-the-scenes look at my dating life. Yes, we’re talking a local lover and a possible threesome in Mexico, plus Susan’s wild wisdom from over 1,000 group play experiences and decades of conscious lovemaking.

We explore:
💋 Pleasure as a presence practice
🔥 What to do when jealousy strikes mid-threesome
✨ How boundaries create the conditions to be fully loved
🧠 Expanded orgasm, limbic love loops, and turning pleasure into a spiritual practice
🗣️ Dirty talk, moaning as medicine, and why your yoni deserves a mic
💦 And yes… what to pack in your sensual suitcase 😉

Whether you’re exploring open relating, craving deeper intimacy, or just curious AF about group sex dynamics, this episode blends sacred insight with real-life storytelling in the most delicious way.

Warning: You may need to change your panties.

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Use Life’s Sh*t Moments as Creative Fertilizer | Pia Leichter on Creativity, Pleasure, & Transformation23 Jun 202501:03:03

“Your desires are yours for a reason — they’re data, they’re direction.”

This week, I chat with Pia Leichter, an artist and embodiment guide, to explore how creativity, play, and ritual have helped both of us move through life’s biggest transitions. We talked about the beauty of death ceremonies, romanticizing life, the power of stillness, and how tuning into our bodies can guide us through grief, joy, and everything in between.

Some of what we explored:
✦ How creativity opens up when we stop trying to control everything
✦ How pleasure can be a guide, not just a goal
✦ What death rituals can teach us about living more fully
✦ The importance of play and joy

If you’re navigating change or craving a deeper connection with yourself, I hope this episode gives you space and insight to imagine a new way forward.

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I also have a free audiobook download code for the first TEN people to direct message me on Instagram. 

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A Squirrel, A Bomb, & The Politics of Laughter with Comedian Tony Casillas16 Jun 202501:01:27

In this episode of Sex, Drugs, and Soul, I talk with stand-up comedian Tony Casillas about the courage it takes to be funny when the truth isn't always comfortable.

We unpack how personal experiences, from strict religious upbringings to flawed sex education, inform the jokes comedians tell and the deeper truths behind them. From bombing on stage to navigating audience dynamics, this is a conversation about vulnerability, resilience, and using humor to cope with the chaos of being human.

Topics we explore include:
✦ How comedians use personal stories as social commentary
✦ Why religion, politics, and parenting are comedy gold…and landmines
✦ The role of selfishness and responsibility in today's society
✦ Why we need more nuance (and more laughs) in political discourse

Whether you’re a comedy nerd or someone trying to understand or survive the world through laughter, there’s something here for you.

00:00, Introduction and Banter
02:41, The Courage of Stand-Up Comedy
05:38, The Journey to Stand-Up
08:58, Experiencing Bombs and Resilience
11:48, Navigating Different Audiences
14:58, The Impact of Religion on Creativity
17:52, Substance Use and Creativity
20:52, The Taboo of Sex Education
23:45, The Influence of Upbringing on Choices
26:47, Curiosity and Questioning Society
33:27, The Role of Parents in Children's Lives
36:01, Selfishness and Human Nature
39:17, The Misuse of Children in Political Arguments
41:34, Wealth, Responsibility, and Community
45:29, Nuance in Politics and Social Issues
48:29, Selfishness vs. Self-Care
50:47, Comedy and Social Consciousness
54:55, The Importance of Humor in Difficult Times

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Sex Work, Modern Dating, & the Madonna-Whore Complex: A Peek Inside the Male Psyche with Sexologist Coral Osborne09 Jun 202500:51:37

In this episode of Sex, Drugs, and Soul, I chat with certified sexologist Coral Osborne. Our paths crossed in Austin at various events, and I've been impressed by her advocacy for men and the valuable insights she shares online on topics such as dating, intimacy, and authentic relating. We also share stories from our lived sex work experiences and how they have informed our views on intimacy, personal growth, and relationships. 

We explore everything from the Madonna-Whore complex, eroticizing trauma, and self-inquiry to why men often seek out sex workers, how childhood informs our relationships, and the subtle ways we deflect vulnerability, like making vulgar jokes to avoid being seen. 

If you find yourself feeling disheartened about modern dating, confused by relationship dynamics, or curious about intimacy drivers and lived sex work experiences delivered in a no-BS style, give this one a go. 

00:00 - Introduction
02:08 - Exploring Personal Turn-Ons 
04:04 - Navigating Radical Honesty and Vulnerability
05:46 - The Impact of Past Experiences on Sexuality
09:06 - Understanding Men's Core Desires and Wounds
11:50 - The Madonna-Whore Complex in Male Psychology
14:58 - Self-Inquiry for Emotional Availability
18:06 - Dating in the Modern Age: Apps vs. Real Life
20:46 - Polarity and Gender Dynamics in Relationships
25:04 - Navigating Modern Dating Dynamics
28:03 - The Complexity of Receiving and Giving
30:30 - Understanding Masculinity and Emotional Needs
32:56 - Childhood Influences on Adult Relationships
40:23 - Addressing Common Sexual Struggles
47:20 - Upcoming Projects and Resources

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Psychedelics, Finding Purpose in Pain, & The Creative Process: Emmy-Winning Alex Ruiz on Art as Alchemy02 Jun 202501:03:20

What if the darkest night of your soul (ego) was actually a canvas? Emmy award-winning artist Alex Ruiz joins me for a raw, riveting ride through depression, psychedelics, and creative resurrection.

From The Simpsons and Beauty and the Beast to sacred ceremonies with peyote, Alex shares how he went from burnout and suicidal ideation to finding purpose and birthing a body of work that channels mysticism, mythology, and multidimensional muses. We explore how visionary art becomes a mirror, a medicine, and a means of becoming.

Inside this episode…
🍄 Psychedelics & the art of becoming
🖤 The tortured artist & letting go of the darkness
🎭 Horned women, third eyes & mythic characters
📉 AI vs human soul in art
🔥 From hiding in the art cave to teaching with purpose
🧠 Journaling, visualization, & the neo-renaissance

He also gives us a sneak peek at Delicate Delirium, his upcoming art show in Austin on June 28th, and shares how creating his own fantasy world (language and all) became a portal to reconnection, authenticity, and healing.

If you’ve ever wondered how to alchemize pain into purpose, are looking to rebuild your relationship with art, or if you’re just here for horny forest creatures and psychedelic chats, this episode is pure soul nectar. 

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Turned On & Unapologetic: Rewriting the Rules of Porn with Afterglow CEO & Founder Lilly Sparks26 May 202500:52:41

What if porn could actually deepen your intimacy, spark real connection, and help you reclaim your pleasure without shame?

In this rebellious and radically honest episode, I sit down with Lily Sparks, the visionary founder and CEO of Afterglow, an ethical porn platform created by women. We dive deep into what it means to be turned on with intention from busting the myths around porn addiction to navigating boundaries, fantasies, and the healing power of conscious erotic content.

We’re talking:
✨ Why ethical porn is a game-changer for relationships
🔥 How couples can use porn to enhance intimacy (not escape it)
💬 Consent, representation, & real communication
💥 Reclaiming your sexual narrative without shame, guilt, or apology

Whether you’re porn-curious or ready to start your pleasure revolution, this conversation is your permission slip to explore, express, and embrace your turn-on unapologetically.

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0:00 Introduction to Afterglow and Ethical Porn
8:26 Representation and Confidence in Sexuality
17:18 The Reality of Pornography and Consent
26:01 Behind the Scenes of Ethical Porn Production
38:31 The Reality of Pornography and Consent

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How to Keep Desire Alive in a Long-Term Relationship | Dr. Diane Mueller19 May 202500:57:06

So many of us are craving deeper intimacy, but no one ever taught us how to actually talk about sex, desire, or what turns us on. 

In this episode, I’m joined by Dr. Diane Mueller for a conversation about what it takes to keep passion alive in long-term relationships.

We get into the truth about libido (hint: it’s not just hormones), the impact of the nervous system on arousal, and how communication can completely shift the way we connect with our partners. We also talk about hot monogamy, self-pleasure as a tool for empowerment, and the kind of emotional safety that makes real pleasure possible.

If you’ve ever felt like your sex drive disappeared, or you're craving more depth, connection, or fire in your relationship, this one’s for you.

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Timestamps:
8:30 The Steps To An Open Communication
16:00 Navigating Vulnerability in Conversations
25:05 The Importance of Scheduling Intimacy
34:33 Anatomy and Orgasm: Understanding Individual Differences
40:22 Emotional Connections and Past Experiences

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Don't Swallow The Boric Acid...12 May 202500:35:13

This episode is dedicated to Larro! Love you, brother. Let's roll...

***

In this tender and truth-soaked episode, I open up about my journey with grief after losing a dear friend who left this world far too soon. It’s raw. It’s real. Emotional AF...and wrapped in love.

I talk about the gut-punch of loss, the wild ride of emotions that followed, and the unexpected signs he sent me from the other side. Because love doesn’t just disappear, it shape-shifts. I also share a near-death experience that cracked me open in a way I didn’t see coming, and a powerful, symbolic body-painting session that felt like a creative rebirth. It was like my way of honoring both him, the parts of myself that grief awakened, and the new version of myself. (Rising phoenix, vibes!)

This episode is a mix of courage, creativity, connection, and the kind of healing that only grief can bring. It ends with a tribute poem I wrote for him to honor his spirit and the bond we shared...

I'm still unpacking some of the soul lessons... yet, if you’ve ever lost someone you love, or are navigating the messy beauty of grief, this one’s for you.

If you want to explore courage while connecting with fellow creatives, join me on NABA this Wednesday, May 14th, at noon CST for a virtual, open-mic writing workshop/playshop.

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0:00 Intro
5:16 Courage and Creative Expression
15:42 Near-Death Experience and Personal Growth
22:51 Body Painting and Symbolic Healing

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Tantric Daddy Energy? Dennis Hull Delivers28 Apr 202501:09:26

In this week’s episode, I am joined by Dennis Hull, a trauma-informed coach and tantric practitioner, to explore healing through vulnerability, masculine-feminine dynamics, and the art of emotional connection.

We discuss tantra as a path to empowerment, the role of safe spaces, and how practices like BDSM can support healing when grounded in consent and authenticity. From savoring grief to protecting energy, this episode invites a deeper look at intimacy, embodiment, and the power of being witnessed.

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0:00 Intro
12:00 Feminine Energy and the Art of Receiving
23:47 Embracing Vulnerability and Authenticity
33:49 Navigating Connection and Rejection
45:05 The Role of the Protector

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