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Teagan (Dynostic Rex) is 686 days sober and still putting out some of the most extreme content in the space. We talk about his first time on camera post-breakup, the Chute 100 moment that hit 10K followers, his prolapse journey, getting fisted for the first time in Vancouver, collabs with RomeoDavisXL and Canadian Lifter, and what it looks like to build extreme content while staying grounded. Free abbreviated version — full uncensored audio and video exclusively for Spotify Subscribers ($2.99/month) and HungerFF.com members. Follow Teagan: X / Bluesky @dynostic93. New episodes drop Fridays at 8 PM EST.

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Four days before my colostomy reversal, my colorectal surgeon Dr. Elie Schochet comes over for his second time on Brolapse. After four delays, this is attempt number five, and I asked him everything.

We get into:

- How one day in pediatrics sent him to surgery, and why his practice is about 80% LGBT

- Why lying to your doctor about what you do in bed can get you a surgery that ends your ability to bottom

- How to find a doctor who won't flinch, from word of mouth to the GLMA directory

- The South Florida ostomy peer network, and playing with a bag

- What a reversal actually is, and why the stars have to line up before he'll operate

- Blood clots, compression sleeves, and why I'll be frog-legged in stirrups for hours

- Staples vs. hand sewn, and why we chose staples for me

- The "double barrel" connection, and why going in blind means you won't feel the wrong fork until you're through it

- How my prolapse is the same size and structure it was before the accident

- Why some people keep the bag for good, and why I'm not

- Leak rates, and why day four or five matters most

- The six week minimum before any play, and how to start back

- Why most perforations he sees come from firm toys, not fists

- Losing Wrex Wylde, and finding support when recovery gets hard

Find Dr. Elie Schochet at South Florida Colorectal Institute in Fort Lauderdale: sflcolorectal.com | IG: @sflcolorectal | FB: @SFLCRI

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Chicago's Logan Bell went from a bored kid in small-town Michigan with a dial-up connection to the guy Oxballs publicly crowned a "meat tenderizer." He and Ryan compare notes on growing up in the same corner of Michigan, figure out they ran in the same circles years before they ever met, and get into how Logan built Hand Ball: 19 parties in 20 months, never a financial loss, and a door that stayed open to everyone. Plus his rules for sober play, his case against punching a zombie, and the darkroom photography he picked back up when an injury took him out of play for two years.

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Find Logan: Instagram @loganbellchi | X @Logan_BellXXX | Bluesky @loganbell.bsky.social | Photography at logansdarkroom.com

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Girth Academy is five years into cam work on Chatterbait, building a massive following with one guy, one machine, and extreme content that actually puts the work in. He talks about how it started when his wife bought camera gear, the machine walk-away story that ended with a kettlebell solution, why he's never actually bottomed for a person (yet), and the collab that's actually happening now.

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Alexxx Hart locked her first cage when her trans partner was still presenting as a man. Now she's breaking toys and winning awards three years later with zero studio backing. She talks chastity, her wife's transition, the XBIZ Expo, and why the girl-next-door persona actually works.

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Yoga Pirate (Larry) on the night a monastery in France changed everything. Sixty-one years old, walking with a cane, barely functional—until one moment at the top of 360 steps. What happened next: hot yoga, a complete body rebuild, and the beginning of a decade-long journey that would lead him from traditional practice into territory most yoga teachers never touch.In this first half, Larry walks through the 2018 stack (diabetes, chronic pain, falls) and how a physical therapist suggested something radical. The first three classes nearly broke him. By January 2019, he was taking 35 classes a month.Then COVID hit. Studios closed. He took his practice home, stripped down, set up a camera—and discovered an audience waiting.Full uncensored episode exclusively on Spotify Premium. New Brolapse episodes drop Fridays 8 PM EST.

Buck Hunt on vacuum pumps, his first fisting experience, and why the journey is more important than the destination. A taste of what's to come in the full episode—available exclusively on Spotify. (Note: We had some technical difficulties during this one, but I cleaned up the audio as best I could. Ignore the occasional delay—the conversation is solid.)

Follow Buck: @punkdogxx (Twitter/JustForFans) | @punkdogx.bsky.social (Bluesky) | @lupus.insanus (Instagram)

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This is the FREE Radio Edit of my conversation with Rob Montana, available everywhere podcasts are found. It's an abbreviated version featuring the first stretch of our talk. The complete, uncensored interview is available exclusively to Spotify subscribers and to members of my official website (HungerFF.com) and my JustFor.Fans page.

In this edit, Rob takes us back to the beginning: a worn-out VHS tape from an arcade booth in his early twenties, the FFA fisting houses of DC that first opened this world up to him, and the "expert" who told him he didn't have the anatomy to ever bottom for a fist. We get into the duality that hooked him, the masculinity of surrender, how the kink scene has changed from Tom of Finland leather to everything under the sun, and how a Montana kid ended up here at all. And that's just where it starts.

The full conversation goes somewhere much deeper: the cosmetic surgery that nearly cost him everything, a relapse and recovery, and the hard-won line he lands on at the end. You'll have to subscribe to hear it.

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For the first time in 100 episodes, Brolapse leaves the studio and goes LIVE. 🎙️🔥

Ryan James (HungerFF) and Alotta McGriddles take the stage at the JustForFans Conference in Palm Springs to celebrate Episode 100 in front of a live audience—with special guests Ricky Cage and Tina & Brandon of Fit Naughty Couple.

Ricky kicks things off with a hilarious and surprisingly thoughtful conversation about building a career around niche fetish content, chastity, fantasy, content censorship, running a one-man production operation, and the wonderfully weird creativity behind his work. Then we put him through the inaugural Brolapse: Myth or Fact, testing what he actually knows about the culture he's made a career exploring.

Then Tina and Brandon take the stage for a conversation that becomes about much more than sex. The married duo talks candidly about discovering kink together, overcoming jealousy and insecurity, building trust, communicating fantasies that couples are often afraid to say out loud, and how embracing each other's sexuality ultimately brought them closer together. They also discuss sexual-health conversations, testing, stigma, and why they believe curiosity shouldn't automatically come with a label.

And because this is Brolapse, we finish by throwing Tina and Brandon into Hot Takes, where the audience gets involved and pretty much all remaining structure disappears. 😂

Beneath the jokes and chaos, Episode 100 gets back to the reason Brolapse exists in the first place: to document this community, celebrate the people in it, talk openly about the things we're usually told not to talk about, and make sure these stories don't disappear.

Thank you to JustForFans for giving us a stage, to Ricky Cage and Fit Naughty Couple for jumping into the madness, to Alotta McGriddles for helping me bring Brolapse LIVE to life—and especially to everyone who has listened, watched, shared, subscribed, or appeared on this show during its first 100 episodes.

This special Episode 100 release is FREE for everyone in both AUDIO and VIDEO.

100 episodes down. We're just getting started. 💗

🎙️ BROLAPSE LIVE — EPISODE 100

Featuring Ricky Cage + Fit Naughty Couple

Hosted by Ryan James / HungerFF

Co-hosted by Alotta McGriddles

Recorded LIVE at the JustForFans Conference — Palm Springs, California

For the first time in 100 episodes, Brolapse leaves the studio and goes LIVE. 🎙️🔥

Ryan James (HungerFF) and Alotta McGriddles take the stage at the JustForFans Conference in Palm Springs to celebrate Episode 100 in front of a live audience—with special guests Ricky Cage and Tina & Brandon of Fit Naughty Couple.

Ricky kicks things off with a hilarious and surprisingly thoughtful conversation about building a career around niche fetish content, chastity, fantasy, content censorship, running a one-man production operation, and the wonderfully weird creativity behind his work. Then we put him through the inaugural Brolapse: Myth or Fact, testing what he actually knows about the culture he's made a career exploring.

Then Tina and Brandon take the stage for a conversation that becomes about much more than sex. The married duo talks candidly about discovering kink together, overcoming jealousy and insecurity, building trust, communicating fantasies that couples are often afraid to say out loud, and how embracing each other's sexuality ultimately brought them closer together. They also discuss sexual-health conversations, testing, stigma, and why they believe curiosity shouldn't automatically come with a label.

And because this is Brolapse, we finish by throwing Tina and Brandon into Hot Takes, where the audience gets involved and pretty much all remaining structure disappears. 😂

Beneath the jokes and chaos, Episode 100 gets back to the reason Brolapse exists in the first place: to document this community, celebrate the people in it, talk openly about the things we're usually told not to talk about, and make sure these stories don't disappear.

Thank you to JustForFans for giving us a stage, to Ricky Cage and Fit Naughty Couple for jumping into the madness, to Alotta McGriddles for helping me bring Brolapse LIVE to life—and especially to everyone who has listened, watched, shared, subscribed, or appeared on this show during its first 100 episodes.

This special Episode 100 release is FREE for everyone in both AUDIO and VIDEO.

100 episodes down. We're just getting started. 💗

🎙️ BROLAPSE LIVE — EPISODE 100

Featuring Ricky Cage + Fit Naughty Couple

Hosted by Ryan James / HungerFF

Co-hosted by Alotta McGriddles

Recorded LIVE at the JustForFans Conference — Palm Springs, California

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Edge, the voice behind The Full Cow podcast, has spent three decades in the leather community, and this one starts exactly where a good leather story should: a terrible date in the French Quarter, getting deliberately left behind at the bar, and getting adopted on the spot by a leather couple who changed his life. We get into the gear obsession (a whole cabinet just for boots), the one pair he'd never sell, the slow road from boy to Sir, and why he thinks extreme content has quietly become one of the only real entry points left into leather culture. Plus the origin of that famous ASMR podcast voice.

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Episode 98 brings on James OTownKinkster, the man who beat me for Mr. Florida Rubber back in 2019 and has been living rent free in my bitterness ever since. James is a rubberman, a contest producer, a former club president, and a proud non-practitioner of the thing I'm best known for, which makes him the perfect person to talk to. We get into how he found the scene through bondage at eighteen, the day he pulled his first rubber tank top on over dry body hair with no lube (rookie mistake, iconic outcome), and how a fabric that terrified him turned into the reason he finally felt good in his own body.

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This is the free Radio Edit of Episode 97, featuring the opening portion of HungerFF’s conversation with independent performer, director and producer Axel Abysse.

Axel recently crossed the ten-year mark with his own platform—but the milestone arrived more quietly than he expected. He reflects on how quickly the decade passed, how the pandemic distorted his sense of time and why he never imagined porn would become his career.

What began with a few videos and an unexpected opportunity to launch a website became ten years of making exactly the work Axel wanted to see. Rather than imitating traditional studios, he built his identity around a polished but deliberately bizarre aesthetic: beautiful, freaky and unmistakably his own.

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This week's Brolapse Radio Edit features the opening chapter of my conversation with Cubby Peach.

In this abbreviated episode, Cubby shares how a lifelong curiosity evolved into a passion, the experiences that shaped his journey, and the moment he realized he wanted to dive deeper into the world of fisting. It's an honest, funny introduction to one of my favorite conversations we've had on the podcast.

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• Finding community within kink
• Behind-the-scenes creator stories, aftercare, and much more

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Life has had other plans lately.

In this special solo episode of Brolapse, Ryan James (HungerFF) opens up about the unexpected series of events that have delayed his long-awaited colostomy reversal surgery yet again. After fracturing his ankle during a rainy walk with Eightball, he thought the worst was behind him—until a slip at home resulted in a dislocated kneecap and another trip to the emergency room.

With this week’s scheduled guest postponed, Ryan decided to turn the episode into a special edition of the HungerFF Sound Initiative, sharing an honest life update before giving listeners an exclusive preview of several upcoming tracks.

Hear the stories behind:

• Pass Around Party Bottom — the surprise breakout hit that has become the most-streamed HungerFF Sound Initiative song to date.

• Take a Hit (unreleased) — an energetic club anthem inspired by the idea of a tongue-in-cheek “poppers training video.”

• FFinal Boss (coming soon) — a video game-inspired track where, for once, the boss wins.

• I’m Just a Hole, Sir (coming soon) — a playful anthem built around one of the community’s most recognizable phrases.

Ryan also reflects on the incredible response to the HungerFF Sound Initiative after surpassing 100,000 streams worldwide, discusses creating music with AI as a creative tool, and previews what’s coming next for both the podcast and the music project.

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This is the FREE Radio Edit of my conversation with Patrick Davis, Editor-in-Chief of Unbound Edition Press.

Patrick returns for Part 2 to talk about the realities of independent publishing, editing deeply personal memoirs, censorship, queer literature, and why authenticity matters more now than ever. We also revisit the journey behind Deeper, what it takes to tell difficult stories honestly, and why some books stay with readers long after they've finished the last page.

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This is the FREE radio edit of this week's episode. You're listening to an abbreviated version featuring highlights from my conversation with Patrick Davis, Editor-in-Chief of Unbound Edition Press. The full-length, uncensored interview—including over an hour of additional discussion—is available exclusively to Spotify subscribers and on HungerFF.com.

This week, Patrick and I dive into fearless publishing, queer storytelling, memoir writing, and the responsibility of preserving stories that challenge convention. We discuss discovering fisting culture, the importance of authenticity over marketability, and why the books that matter most are often the ones mainstream publishers are afraid to touch.

Patrick also shares the philosophy behind Unbound Edition Press, how authors like Alexander Cheves and Stephan Ferris helped shape its identity, and why vulnerability is the foundation of great writing. Along the way, we explore the fine line between being fearless and being reckless—both on the page and in life.

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This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with longtime performer, producer, DJ, and fetish icon Dominic Pacifico for a candid conversation spanning nearly three decades in the adult industry.

In this special radio edit, Dominic reflects on breaking into porn at just 18 years old, navigating the studio era of the late 1990s and early 2000s, and the mentorship he received from industry legends like Michael Brandon during his early years at Raging Stallion.

The conversation explores how attitudes toward fetish content have changed over time, the rise of creator platforms, and why longevity in adult entertainment has become more challenging—and more rewarding—than ever before. Dominic also shares how the pandemic unexpectedly launched an entirely new chapter of his career, transforming him from a performer known for versatility into one of the most recognizable names in modern fetish content.

Along the way, Ryan and Dominic swap stories from the industry’s golden era, discuss the difference between “porn stars” and “content creators,” and reflect on what it takes to build a lasting career in an industry that never stops evolving.

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This week on Brolapse, Ryan sits down with longtime friend and performer Ray Diesel for a conversation that spans more than a decade in the adult industry.

The two reconnect after running into each other at the JustForFans Conference and dive into Ray’s unforgettable introduction to a side of gay culture he didn’t even realize existed at the time. What starts as a hilarious story about a hot military daddy quickly becomes a fascinating look at how much queer sexual culture has changed over the years.

Ryan and Ray also reflect on filming together for the first time, how the industry evolved from long studio shoots to creator-driven content, why Fort Lauderdale became an unexpected hub for adult production, and the realities of navigating content creation in cities like Los Angeles, Miami, and Atlanta.

Along the way, Ray shares stories about working with creators including Axel Abysse, why he has become more selective about the projects he takes on, and how his approach to content has shifted from chasing quantity to focusing on genuine chemistry, authentic moments, and collaborations that actually excite him.

The conversation also explores the behind-the-scenes reality of creator events and conferences, the pressure many performers put on themselves to maximize every opportunity, and why sometimes the best content comes from slowing down, being present, and enjoying the experience rather than treating every encounter like a production schedule.

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Funny, insightful, nostalgic, and surprisingly thoughtful, Episode 91 offers a rare look at the changing landscape of queer adult entertainment through the eyes of two creators who have witnessed the industry’s transformation firsthand.

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Alex Tikas returns to Brolapse nearly 90 episodes after becoming the very first guest on the show, and this time the conversation goes way deeper than Mexico stories.

Ryan James and Alex unpack what it’s really like to live as two of the most polarizing figures in adult entertainment — from parasocial relationships and online pile-ons to public misconceptions, fisting stigma, fame without fortune, and the emotional toll of constantly being perceived through fantasy instead of reality.

The episode dives into fan entitlement, internet outrage, hookup culture, and the strange disconnect between the personas performers create and who they actually are behind closed doors. Along the way, they revisit the shared betrayal that once made them enemies before eventually bringing them together as friends.

Funny, brutally honest, self-aware, and surprisingly emotional, this episode becomes less about porn and more about identity, projection, loneliness, ego, survival, and trying to hold onto yourself while thousands of strangers think they already know who you are.

In Part 2 of my conversation with FFalconPunch, we dive into some of the most meaningful topics we’ve ever discussed on Brolapse.

We talk about mentorship, community building, and why belonging shouldn’t be determined by follower counts, party invitations, or perceived status. FFalconPunch shares his philosophy that “if you’re interested, you already belong,” and explains why connection, curiosity, and shared experience are far more important than competition or comparison.

The conversation also explores friendship, loyalty, and standing up for the people you care about. FFalconPunch opens up about being bullied growing up, how those experiences shaped his protective instincts, and why he believes community members have a responsibility to look out for one another—especially when safety, consent, and trust are at stake.

We also tackle one of the most serious discussions ever featured on Brolapse: substance use, harm reduction, and the dangers of Maximum Impact. Drawing from personal experience and heartbreaking loss, FFalconPunch shares why education and honest conversations can save lives, and why silence around these issues helps no one.

Finally, we reflect on our decades-long friendship, the evolution of queer spaces, the changing nature of online content creation, and the importance of protecting intimacy in a world that increasingly encourages us to monetize everything. Thoughtful, funny, emotional, and surprisingly vulnerable, this episode is a reminder that the strongest communities aren’t built on status—they’re built on people showing up for one another.

🎙️ Guest: FFalconPunch🖤 Part 2 of a two-part conversation.

This week on Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with @Beatrush94XXX for a hilarious, surprisingly thoughtful, and extremely relatable conversation about toys, self-play, fisting culture, and the strange journey from curiosity to obsession.

The two dive into giant “door stopper” plugs, Seahorse toy addiction, solo play routines, Denver’s growing fisting scene, “alpha bottom” energy, and why the modern fisting community feels more relaxed, playful, and social than ever before. Along the way, they talk about the balance between pleasure and performance, why humor belongs in the bedroom, and how COVID accidentally created an entire new generation of fisters.

What starts as a conversation about giant toys quickly turns into one of the most natural and chemistry-filled Brolapse episodes yet — complete with war-zone bedrooms, Netflix-and-toys sessions, Telegram fisting clubs, and enough oversized silicone to qualify as furniture.

Expect laughs, chaos, surprisingly wholesome moments, and a very serious discussion about why every experienced bottom eventually develops strong opinions about the Seahorse. 🐴👊

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This week on HungerFF Presents: Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with @FistPit for a funny, thoughtful, and surprisingly heartfelt conversation about curiosity, connection, fantasy, and the path from private exploration to becoming one of X’s most recognizable fisting creators.

What begins with “the toys just kept getting bigger” turns into a wild origin story involving a suburban pool party, a spontaneous tutorial from trusted friends, and the moment Stephen realized an entirely new world had opened up to him. From there, the conversation dives into the evolution of his online presence — starting as a private “digital memoir” of personal milestones before eventually embracing visibility and community online.

The two also explore the psychology behind roleplay, gear, and fantasy-building, including cowboy scenarios, football-themed sessions, chastity, and how creating immersive atmospheres can completely transform the experience. Stephen opens up about the hidden but thriving Salt Lake City fetish scene, monthly Red Hankey socials, neighborhood play parties, and the hilariously supportive suburban neighbors who know exactly what’s happening down the street.

Elsewhere, the episode gets reflective as they discuss vulnerability, chemistry, trust, and the emotional intimacy that makes fisting different from almost any other sexual experience. From double-fisting stories in Palm Springs to competitive cheerleading backgrounds and unforgettable moments of connection, this episode balances humor, honesty, and genuine warmth.

Raw, funny, weirdly wholesome, and full of memorable stories, Episode 87 is ultimately about finding your people, embracing what excites you, and discovering that community can exist in the most unexpected places — sometimes right across the street.

In Episode 86 of HungerFF Presents: Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with a true pioneer of modern fisting culture — Jeff Carter, also known as Dyn0, co-founder of StudFist.com.

What starts as a long-overdue reunion quickly turns into something deeper: a candid conversation about growth, accountability, and the evolution of an entire subculture. Ryan opens with a heartfelt acknowledgment of their past, setting the tone for an episode rooted in honesty and mutual respect.

Jeff takes listeners back to the early days of StudFist in San Francisco — from accidental cam room success to building one of the most influential platforms in the space. Together, they unpack how authenticity, “fly-on-the-wall” realism, and a refusal to follow industry norms helped reshape what fisting content could be.

The conversation expands into the broader evolution of the scene — normalization, technology, generational shifts, and the rise of creator-driven platforms like StudFist.fans. Jeff offers rare insight into sustaining a niche brand for nearly two decades while staying true to its original spirit.

They close on something real: aging in the industry, relationships within it, and the importance of having a plan beyond it. It’s raw, reflective, and unexpectedly heartfelt — a full-circle moment between two creators who helped define the culture from different angles.

art two picks up right where we left off with Chris Wydeman — and this time, we go deeper, looser, and way more unfiltered.

Ryan and Chris dive into how the scene has evolved from underground and niche to something far more visible and accessible, especially among younger generations. They reflect on the shift in culture, the changing dynamics at events like FistFest and IML, and what it feels like to now be the “veterans” that others look up to.

The conversation gets personal as they unpack the realities of sex work — the toll it can take, the blurred lines between performance and authenticity, and what it means to reclaim intimacy outside of the camera. Chris opens up about stepping away from the industry, while Ryan reflects on the challenge of separating HungerFF from his real identity.

They also confront heavier topics: addiction, trust, and how substance use can distort connection, both emotionally and physically. There’s honesty here about mistakes, broken trust, and what it takes to rebuild meaningful relationships — including a heartfelt moment of reconciliation between the two.

And because it’s Brolapse, it wouldn’t be complete without some absolute chaos: wild party stories, unexpected moments, and the kind of absurdity that only exists in this world.

At its core, this episode is about connection — the kind that goes beyond the surface. Brotherhood, boundaries, forgiveness, and finding balance in a life that’s anything but ordinary.

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Episode 84 of HungerFF Presents: Brolapse is here—and this one goes all the way back to the beginning.

In Part 1 of this two-part conversation, Ryan James sits down with longtime friend and collaborator Chris Wydeman (@wydemanxxx) to unpack the origin story behind one of the most respected names in the scene. What starts as a conversation about curiosity and self-exploration quickly evolves into something deeper—touching on connection, discipline, and the mindset that separates experience from intention.

Chris opens up about discovering everything on his own at 18, long before he even had a name for it, and how that journey led him into community, mentorship, and a more methodical, almost spiritual approach. Together, Ryan and Chris reflect on their early experiences, the evolution of the culture, and what’s been lost—and gained—as things have shifted toward a more content-driven world.

They also get into:
• The difference between exploration and performance
• Why slowing down can take you further
• The importance of intuition, trust, and safety
• How practice, patience, and awareness shape real growth
• The balance between physical and psychological connection

This is a conversation built on years of shared history, mutual respect, and lived experience—and it sets the stage for an even deeper dive in Part 2.

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This week on Brolapse, I sit down with one of my longest-time friends, FFalconPunch, for a conversation that goes way beyond where it all started.

We get into his origin story — from a spontaneous first experience that changed everything, to the unexpected moment he landed on the name “FFalconPunch” and how it stuck. What starts off funny and chaotic quickly turns into something deeper: a look at identity, growth, and how we find ourselves in spaces we never expected to belong to.

We also talk about how the scene has evolved over time — moving away from ego and hierarchy toward something more inclusive, more connected, and more rooted in shared experience. It’s about community, learning from each other, and understanding that the people and moments you don’t expect can end up shaping you the most.

This is Part 1 of a much bigger conversation — and trust me, we’re just getting started.

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Max Muscles joins Brolapse for an honest, funny, and surprisingly thoughtful conversation about how curiosity turns into confidence—and how pushing limits isn’t always what you think it is.

What starts as a simple story about a weekend hookup quickly becomes something more. Max walks through his first experience, how it shaped his perspective, and how that moment opened the door to a whole new side of himself. From there, we dive into his evolution—from shy and private to confidently creating and sharing content with a growing audience.

We also explore the connection between bodybuilding and personal progression. The same mindset that drives growth in the gym shows up in other areas too—but as Max shares, it’s not always about going bigger or further. Sometimes the real lesson is learning to slow down, stay present, and actually enjoy the experience.

Along the way, we get into everything from collaborations and creative setups to the realities behind preparation, discipline, and consistency. It’s a mix of humor, honesty, and real insight into what it takes to grow—not just physically, but mentally.

If you’ve ever been curious about how people evolve, push boundaries, and find their lane while staying grounded, this episode delivers.

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This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with a true icon — Chi Chi LaRue — for a conversation that spans four decades of gay porn history, creative evolution, and what it really means to stay relevant in an industry that never stops changing.

After stepping away from directing, Chi Chi returns behind the camera for the first time in years — and opens up about why the set has always been her “happy place.” From her early days in the 1980s working under pioneers like William Higgins to becoming one of the most influential directors in adult film, she reflects on the eras she helped shape — and the ones she helped redefine.

The episode dives deep into the evolution of performer safety, from the height of the AIDS crisis to today’s testing culture, as well as the dramatic shift from structured studio systems to creator-driven platforms. Chi Chi shares her perspective on how the rise of OnlyFans-style content has disrupted the industry — and what’s been lost along the way.

Ryan and Chi Chi also get into the art of directing itself — especially when it comes to capturing acts and fetishes outside your personal experience. For Chi Chi, it’s never been about personal preference — it’s about the visual, the chemistry, and knowing when to step back and let performers create something real.

Along the way, the conversation blends humor, chaos, and honesty — from wild on-set stories and unforgettable shoots to sobriety, survival, and the reality of building (and rebuilding) a life in this industry.

This isn’t just a conversation — it’s a rare look at the past, present, and future of porn, through the eyes of someone who helped define it.

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This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with UK creator PeteLDNFF for a conversation that goes way deeper than you’d expect.

What starts as a story about discovering fisting turns into something much bigger—growth, resilience, and learning how to trust your body. Pete opens up about his early struggles, from painful setbacks and injuries to nearly giving up altogether, before finally finding his rhythm during lockdown. Like a lot of people, COVID became an unexpected turning point—but for him, it unlocked something real.

The two dive into how access to better tools, patience, and consistency completely changed Pete’s experience, and why so many people get it wrong in the beginning. There’s a candid discussion about ego, pretending to be more experienced than you are, and why that mindset can backfire fast.

They also get into the mental side of it all—body confidence, putting yourself out there, and how content creation became a way for Pete to take control of how he saw himself. Losing over 80 pounds wasn’t just physical—it was the start of a bigger transformation.

Plus: chaotic toy sessions, the reality of editing burnout, wild event stories from Europe, and why chemistry and trust matter more than anything else. Whether you’re experienced or just curious, this episode is packed with real insight, humor, and a lot of “yeah… we’ve all been there” moments.

New episodes of Brolapse drop every Friday at 8PM. Spotify subscribers get early video access.

This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with Sofftpaw for a conversation that goes far beyond a typical guest interview.

Sofftpaw is the founder of the Fist Council — a nationwide forum made up of leaders from over 35 fisting clubs and organizations. What started as a simple idea—connecting event organizers—has evolved into a powerful network focused on collaboration, education, and building safer, more sustainable spaces for the community.

The episode begins with Sofftpaw’s personal journey into fisting, from a post-pandemic “guilty pleasure” to a defining part of his life. With guidance from mentors he calls his “fisting dads,” he developed a structured, methodical approach rooted in anatomy, training, and intention—something he believes many newcomers are missing.

From there, the conversation expands into how the Fist Council was formed: not as a “shadowy organization,” but as a grassroots collaboration between organizers who wanted to share knowledge instead of compete. Together, they exchange best practices, support new club founders, and work toward creating consistent standards for safety, consent, and event production across cities.

Ryan and Sofftpaw also dive into the evolution of the modern fisting scene—from the post-COVID boom in participation to the growing visibility of fisting within larger kink spaces like IML. They explore the diversity of club models, the importance of community, and how chosen family often emerges from shared experience.

The episode closes on a deeper note, examining how kink intersects with mental health, neurodivergence, rejection sensitivity, and personal growth. At its core, this conversation isn’t just about fisting—it’s about belonging, connection, and what happens when a community learns how to build itself from the inside out.

🎙️ A thoughtful, funny, and unexpectedly emotional episode that captures a pivotal moment in the evolution of the scene.

In this episode of Brolapse, Ryan James (HungerFF) sits down with Belgian creator Pup Davey for one of the most wide-ranging and honest conversations the show has had yet.

Davey opens up about discovering fisting long before he ever saw it in porn, experimenting as a teenager and realizing early that anal stretching and depth play were going to be a major part of his sexual identity. Puppy play came later through Tumblr’s aesthetic kink culture, where a cheap hood from Amazon eventually led to a full-blown pup identity.

The conversation explores the psychology behind kink discovery, how identity evolves through community, and the role aesthetic and headspace play in puppy culture.

Davey also talks openly about his gender journey and describes himself as a “hyper femboy”, sharing what it’s been like to explore gender fluidity and start estrogen while navigating a large audience in adult content.

Other topics include:

• The difference between instinctual kink discovery and community-driven kink culture

• How exposure fetish content once became addictive and the real consequences it caused

• Toy training, depth play, and how limits evolve over time

• The reality of maintaining a massive online audience

• The changing dynamics of kink events like Darklands

• Balancing authenticity, humor, filth, and vulnerability online

It’s a conversation that moves between hilarious, chaotic, thoughtful, and deeply human moments.

As always, Brolapse aims to humanize the performers people obsess over online and show the real lives behind the content.

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In Episode 77 of Brolapse, Ryan James (HungerFF) sits down with Chicago-based creator Grayson Howell to talk about the unexpected path that led him into content creation, kink culture, and the world of fisting.

What starts as a conversation about a viral scene with Wyld Rider quickly turns into something deeper. Grayson opens up about his past working as an LGBTQ addiction counselor, the burnout that came with that career, and the moment he decided to finally take a leap and start posting adult content online.

Along the way, the two discuss body confidence, therapy, and how the bear community helped Grayson find a new sense of self. He also shares how experienced friends in Minneapolis guided him through his first fisting experience, turning what started as curiosity into a passion.

The conversation explores Chicago’s massive fetish ecosystem, long-running kink communities, IML, the rise of fisting culture in modern porn, and why mentorship and trust are central to the scene.

Grayson also breaks down his philosophy as a soft dom fisting top, including why training partners slowly, prioritizing chemistry, and emphasizing aftercare makes for the best experiences.

The result is an episode that is funny, thoughtful, and unexpectedly wholesome for a podcast about punching holes.

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🎙️ Brolapse is a podcast exploring sex, identity, kink culture, and the people shaping the community from the inside out.

In this raw and deeply personal episode of Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with one of his closest friends and former roommate, Josh Mikael, for a conversation that spans decades of history, hard truths, and unconditional love.

Josh shares his fisting origin story—one that began earlier than most—and reflects on it now with the clarity that only time and experience can bring. What starts as a wild, chaotic introduction quickly evolves into a broader conversation about consent, growth, and the reality that not every formative experience is meant to be repeated.

The two revisit the night they first met at a Leatherworks Red Hanky social in Fort Lauderdale, a moment that would lead to a lasting bond, a blown-out set of tires, and a friendship built through shared experiences, tension, and ultimately, understanding.

The heart of the episode centers on Deeper—Ryan’s memoir—and Josh’s decision to write the foreword. He explains why he felt it had to be him: someone who has loved Ryan, challenged him, called him out, and never wanted anything from him in return. The result is a foreword that doesn’t protect, doesn’t condemn, but instead tells the truth.

Together, they unpack addiction, the ripple effects it has on the people around you, and the complicated reality of loving someone who is struggling. They also dive into content culture, performer value, and why Josh drew a hard line when others didn’t—refusing to give away his image for free in an industry that often expects it.

This episode is funny, painful, reflective, and honest in a way that’s rare. It’s about friendship, accountability, survival—and the idea that telling your story might be the first step toward understanding it.

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This week on Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with Ian Greene for a long-overdue conversation that spans years of crossing paths, shared experiences, and personal evolution.

Ian opens up about his fisting origin story — from early curiosity and pushing his limits, to training his body and discovering what he was truly capable of over time. What starts as a pursuit quickly becomes something deeper: a journey rooted in patience, self-awareness, and learning to listen instead of force.

The conversation expands into body confidence, growth, and the reality behind what people see online. Ian reflects on stepping away from the industry during COVID, reconnecting with family, and how that time away reshaped his perspective on health, boundaries, and longevity.

They also dive into collaboration, chemistry, and authenticity in content creation — why chasing numbers doesn’t compare to real connection, and how trusting your instincts can define your path both on and off camera.

This episode is about evolution — not just physically, but mentally and emotionally — and what it really means to grow into yourself.

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In Episode 74 of Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with ⁠John Thomas⁠ for a conversation that goes far beyond the surface of porn.

John opens up about his fisting origin story, growing up with religion, guilt, and desire colliding early, and how kink evolved from curiosity into identity. From London sex clubs to navigating HIV, relationships, and self-acceptance, his journey is deeply personal—and unexpectedly relatable.

But this episode doesn’t stop at the origin story.

The two dive into the reality behind extreme content: the difference between performance and pleasure, why group dynamics can shift intimacy into spectacle, and how constant content creation is changing the industry itself. John speaks candidly about burnout, authenticity, and why making fewer—but more meaningful—scenes matters.

One of the most powerful moments comes when the conversation turns to responsibility. In a world where porn is often used as education, John reflects on the importance of context, honesty, and showing real pleasure instead of pain or performance.

This is a thoughtful, self-aware, and deeply human episode about identity, boundaries, influence, and what it actually means to live inside the body everyone is watching.

In this episode of Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with Chicago-based creator Wyld Ryder for a candid conversation about confidence, kink, and the slow burn of becoming fully yourself.

Wyld opens up about his journey from a quiet corporate life to embracing his deviant side online, how fitness and self-acceptance became the gateway to content creation, and why piggish desire was always there—just waiting for permission to surface. Together, they unpack how fisting moved from fantasy to reality, why trust and intimacy matter so deeply in kink, and how submission can be an act of empowerment rather than erasure.

The conversation also explores authenticity in an oversaturated content landscape, navigating relationships while being publicly sexual, and the importance of genuine connection—both on camera and off. Wyld shares how his dynamic with Brogan helped shape his confidence as a creator, and why staying true to what actually turns you on is the key to longevity.

It’s an episode about growth, honesty, and choosing depth over performance—inside and out.

Episode 72 completes the two-part HungerFF Sound Initiative.

Following last week’s introduction, Part Two leans fully into execution, featuring four complete track drops that expand the project’s sound, humor, and erotic logic. Recorded as an audio-only episode, this installment blends commentary with music, allowing each track to stand on its own while remaining part of a larger arc.

This episode includes “Schlop Schlop,” “I Cleaned Out for This,” “Assgasm,” and “Built to Fist.” Together, the tracks move from playful and visceral to hypnotic and industrial—exploring the sounds of fisting, shared community tropes, the pursuit of anal orgasm, and the fantasy of the perfect fister as something engineered rather than accidental.

With Part Two, the Sound Initiative shifts from concept to payoff. Next week, Brolapse returns to its regular interview format.

In Episode 71, HungerFF steps away from traditional interviews and introduces a new music-driven project that blends kink, humor, masculinity, and AI-assisted production. Recorded as an audio-only episode, Part One features full track drops and commentary, giving listeners a guided introduction to the Sound Initiative and the creative mindset behind it.

The episode includes complete plays of “Fisting in the Moonlight,” “All Men Love Rosebuds,” and “Cunt,” along with a preview of the upcoming industrial EDM track “Obsessive Fisting Disorder.” Spanning genres from country and 1950s swing to warehouse EDM, the project explores fisting culture through unexpected musical styles—leaning into contrast, camp, and unapologetic masculinity.

Part Two arrives next week with additional tracks before Brolapse returns to its regular interview format.

Some episodes are fun. Some are loud. And then there are the rare ones that feel like a real conversation you’re lucky to witness.

In Episode 70, Rocco Steele joins me for an honest, reflective talk about stepping away from the industry and what it means to finally let a public persona become a smaller and smaller piece of your life. Rocco shares how a serious health scare shifted his priorities, how his husband showed up for him in a way that reaffirmed everything, and why he’s been planning a gradual exit for the last couple of years. Not out of bitterness, not out of shame, but out of clarity.

We get into the unseen work behind being “on” all the time. The toll of appearances. The burnout. The pressure to keep up with an online machine that never stops. Rocco breaks down the boundaries that mattered most to him, especially protecting his sobriety and his marriage, and what it feels like to move through the world when people recognize you in places where you’re just trying to be a person.

This conversation also goes deeper into chosen family, grief, and aging as a gay man. Rocco talks about coming out in the 80s, the losses that shaped his generation, and how getting older has changed what he values, what he gives his energy to, and what “grace” looks like in real life. We talk about the mental health cost of growing up online, and the quiet reckoning that hits when you’re trying to untangle your public self from your private self.

And yes, we revisit a full-circle moment from early HungerFF.com history, including why Rocco said yes to filming his first and only fisting scene and what that trust represented at the time.

This one is about legacy, integrity, and what happens when you stop performing and start living.

New episodes every Friday at 8 PM.

Pre-order Deeper (drops March 1, 2026): https://www.hungerFF.com/deeper

For Episode 69 of Brolapse, Ryan James does something different.

Instead of a guest, this episode offers a first listen to Deeper—his forthcoming memoir—presented here in its unedited author’s version. Ryan reads the full prologue, No Safe Words, followed by the first chapter, Impact, giving listeners an intimate introduction to the book’s voice, structure, and intent before final editorial revisions.

Deeper is not a traditional memoir. It rejects clean arcs and easy redemption in favor of fragments, contradictions, and lived texture. These opening chapters explore survival, addiction, performance, porn, identity, and the cost of turning pain into currency in the age of algorithms—without smoothing edges or offering answers that don’t exist.

Starting in March 2026, the Deeper audiobook will be released chapter by chapter as bonus episodes for Spotify subscribers, before eventually becoming available in full on Audible. If you’ve ever wondered what it sounds like when someone tells their story without a safety net, this is where it begins.

Pre-order the book now at https://HungerFF.com/Deeper

New episodes of Brolapse drop Fridays at 8 PM.

In Episode 68 of Brolapse, Ryan sits down with Brogan for a rare and deeply thoughtful conversation from the perspective of a fisting top—a voice we don’t hear nearly often enough.

Brogan shares his unconventional journey into fisting, from spending years unsuccessfully trying to bottom, to discovering that topping opened an entirely new sexual and psychological path for him. Together, they unpack how intuition, responsibility, communication, and consent shape truly connected sex—especially in practices that are often misunderstood or sensationalized.

The conversation dives into authenticity in content creation, burnout from performing what you think audiences want, and the freedom that comes from returning to sex that feels real. Brogan reflects on why fisting can be one of the most romantic and intimate sex acts he engages in, why cameras can sometimes disrupt that connection, and how presence matters more than performance.

They also explore training versus play, the dangers of inexperience masquerading as confidence, how the fisting scene has evolved post-COVID, and why normalization is powerful—but still requires care, accountability, and listening. From bratty bottoms to aftercare, from live events to private sessions, this episode is about slowing down, checking in, and making sure every moment is a genuine “fuck yes.”

This is a conversation about sex—but also about growth, trust, and what it means to truly take care of someone when you’re the one “driving the car.”

🎙️ HUNGERFF PRESENTS: BROLAPSE

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It’s the very first Brolapse Holiday Special 🎁 — and we’re flipping the script.

Inspired by the UK tradition of Boxing Day (a day rooted in role reversal), Dolan Wolf returns—this time as guest host—and puts me in the hot seat 😅🎙️

We get into the real stuff and the fun stuff:

✨ what the holidays mean to us (and what we can’t stand)

🍽️ favorite holiday foods + gift/collectible obsessions

🐶 what a “non-sexual day” actually looks like when your brand is HungerFF

🧠 burnout, work-life balance, and learning to take the “latex vest” off

📘 Deeper — what I learned writing my autobiography, why it was the most cathartic thing I’ve ever done, and the advice I’d give my younger self

👊 plus… classic Brolapse detours into pop culture, guilty pleasures, and unexpected questions that hit hard

If you’ve ever felt like you have to be “on” all the time… this one’s for you. 🖤

📘 Pre-order Deeper: https://HungerFF.com/Deeper

🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa

🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)

🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX

📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse

❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273

🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)

🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!

HungerFF reconnects with Alex FFire, a professional fisting top and content creator, for a candid catch-up that covers how Alex first got into fisting, why reassurance and praise are central to his “body worship” style, and what it means to be a rare fisting top in today’s scene.

They dig into identity (poly, non-binary), navigating frail masculinity, and the generational shift around filming sex, shame, and power. Alex also talks FistFest nerves vs. comfort, finding the right kind of play partners, and how he approaches safer sex in 2025 — including PrEP and DoxyPEP — while staying unapologetically slutty.

🕗 New episodes drop Friday nights at 8 PM

🎥 Early video access for Spotify subscribers

🔥 Full video available on HungerFF.com

Ryan James is in Fort Lauderdale, bringing in a guest from Mexico City for a Brolapse episode that turns into a full-on “wait… WHAT?” moment.

Masked FisterX reveals that his first-ever fisting session was with HungerFF—after a Grindr message in Puerto Vallarta—where Ryan literally gave him the starter instructions (“go file your nails” 💀) and helped set the tone for how he’d approach fisting content from that moment forward. The wild part? The mask didn’t even exist yet.

From there, we get the real behind-the-scenes evolution: how he went from unsure and inexperienced, to finding his balance between “too rough” and “too soft,” learning to read partners, build a dominant persona, and still keep the foundation where it belongs: communication, consent, and checking in—even on camera.

We also get into how he vets potential collaborators (and why he won’t do endless DMs), what makes a partner “ready,” how power exchange actually works when it’s consensual, why he prefers full-session context over short clips, and why he avoids the chems-first culture even while navigating scenes where it’s common.

It’s funny, weirdly wholesome, and honestly kind of mind-blowing: the before and after of a persona that went on to become a whole brand—plus a reminder that the hottest sessions aren’t just “pound town”… they’re the ones where people actually talk. 👊💦🖤

🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse

🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa

🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX

📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse

📻 iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273

🕗 New episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM (Spotify gets early access)

This week on Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with Andrew Phoenix (@AndrewFFoeniXXX) for a raw, funny, and deeply honest conversation about finding himself through sobriety, kink, and community.

Andrew opens up about being raised religious, getting bullied, and having early partners shame him for loving fisting — only to discover, in 2018, a community where he finally felt accepted exactly as he was. He talks about how sobriety reshaped the way he plays, how being fully present made his connections richer, and why the fisting world feels more like family than a fetish.

We dive into the culture outsiders don’t understand, the friendships forged over gloves and laughter, and why fisting isn’t “weird” — it’s meaningful, bonding, and sometimes downright hysterical. Andrew also shares why the Andrew you see in videos isn’t a persona at all… it’s actually the truest version of himself.

A mix of heart, humor, filth, and honesty — this episode goes deep in every way possible.

Follow Andrew:

🐦 X: @AndrewFFoeniXXX

💙 BlueSky: @AndrewFFoeniXXX.bsky.social

New episodes drop Fridays at 8 PM. Early video access available on Spotify.

In this episode of Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with BottomGuyNYC—NYC bar manager, shameless fister, and proud red-hanky flagger—to talk about why, for him, fisting isn’t sex… it’s a sport.

They dig into what it means to “train” for play, why a hand in someone can feel less intimate than dick-and-butt sex, and how he balances a 21-year open relationship where his husband is his emotional home—but the kink happens elsewhere.

From nervously sitting in the car before his first Fist Fest to organizing fisting meetups on Atlantis cruises and Telegram, BottomGuyNYC breaks down the bond between fisters, the power of living openly at work, and how mentorship in kink still survives in the age of algorithms.

If you’ve ever felt “weird” for how you experience sex, intimacy, or kink, this conversation might make you feel a little less alone.

In this episode:

• Fisting as a sport vs. “real” sex

• Navigating an open relationship after 20+ years together

• Flagging red at work and stripping away shame

• Fist Fest as the “Olympics” and family reunion of kink

• Telegram, cruises, and building offline community in an online world

• Mentorship, safety, and why only showing the extreme 45 seconds can be dangerous

Follow BottomGuyNYC:

• X (Twitter): @bottomguynyc

• BlueSky: @BottomGuyNYC

• JustFor.Fans: https://justfor. fans/bottomguynyc1

🎧 LISTEN & SUBSCRIBE:

YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa

Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse

Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX

Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse

iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273

🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM.

🎥 Early video access for Spotify subscribers.

🔥 Full video available exclusively on https://HungerFF. com 🔥

Manchester’s own Jake Rockard joins Brolapse for a raw and revealing conversation about fisting, chems, workaholism, and the underground networks that shape the UK kink landscape. Jake opens up about discovering fisting young, how early experimentation shaped the way he plays today, and why he rarely engages in casual fisting in the UK outside of camera work or international travel.

We dig into the Manchester scene — a tight, clique-based ecosystem built on private invites, house sessions, and community trust rather than big public events. Jake explains how these groups form, how new players get pulled in, and why the North feels so different from London’s isolated, every-man-for-himself vibe.

Jake also speaks candidly about chems and harm reduction, sharing how he shifted from chaos to productivity and why calling himself a “workaholic” feels like reclaiming his life rather than losing balance. He breaks down Bump, the hookup app he designed himself, why he refuses to drown users in ads or forced paywalls, and how he aims to give players a cleaner, more respectful space to connect.

Follow Jake:

🐦 X: @jakeywakey0

📸 Instagram: @jakerockard

🔗 JFF: https://justfor. fans/ jakeywakey0

🎧 YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa

🎧 Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)

🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX

📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse

❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273

🕗 New video episodes every Friday at 8 PM

🔥 Full video exclusively on https://HungerFF. com

LISTEN & SUBSCRIBE

For episode 61 of Brolapse, Ryan sits down with solo-named stunner Ridick (one D, like the Vin Diesel character) to trace how a shy model with a pushy best friend turned into a full-blown creator brand. He talks about being dragged onto Instagram, getting scouted for the Box Menswear tour across Texas, and what it felt like to be the 35-year-old with a real work history surrounded by chaotic twenty-something boys on the road. That tour, plus a jump to OnlyFans, blasted him from Dublin obscurity into a quarter-million-follower career.

From there, the conversation goes deep—literally. Ridick explains how a lifelong fetish for big toys meant that when fisting finally showed up, it “just worked” the first time. He walks through how experimentation led to his now-famous prolapse, why he sees it as a “wow effect” at the end of a scene, and how fans’ reactions taught him that what felt normal to him was actually rare. Ryan and Ridick compare notes on party tricks, rosebuds, and that strange joy of shocking a room that isn’t quite ready for what you can do.

We also get the geeky, tender side: Marvel Zombies binges, Alien and Predator lore, gadgets and drones, and the split between “Ridick” the entertainer and Kuba the introvert who’d rather stay home and cuddle. They talk about being the product and the person, learning how to handle fan interactions in public, and finding a balance so that the performer doesn’t swallow the human being underneath. By the end, it feels less like an interview and more like two future scene partners plotting something dangerously fun.

Find Ridick online:

• JustFor.Fans: https://justfor.fans/ Ridick_7

• OnlyFans: https://onlyfans.com/ ridick_7

• X (Twitter): https://x.com/ 7Ridick

• BlueSky: https://bsky.app/profile/7ridick (if you don’t want this line, you can delete it when you paste)

🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa

🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)

🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX

📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse

❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273

🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)

🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!

🔥 Full video available exclusively on https://HungerFF. com 🔥

This week on Brolapse, I sit down with one of my favorite people in the entire industry — performer, lawyer, and author Blue Bailey (@bluebaileysf) — for a raw, unfiltered conversation that goes deep into everything from porn ethics to chemsex recovery. We talk about our first wild shoot together in a sleazy San Francisco hotel, the infamous Viral Loads era, and how Blue turned his lived experience with addiction and HIV into the powerful memoir Blue Movie.

From discussing the realities of consent paperwork and performer rights to finding self-worth after meth and the blurred line between pleasure and pain, this one hits every nerve. Blue opens up about life after porn, his law career, and what it really means to survive the industry — not just physically, but emotionally.

🎧 LISTEN & SUBSCRIBE:
Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)
Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX
Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse
iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273

🕗 New episodes every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers.)