I can stop beating myself up for quitting.

I get to focus on how sanctuary feels in my body.

Listening for rhymes, deciphering the body language of plants. Being a safe environment for the body to release. Being a safe environment for the body to remember.

You can experience these rarefied, magical moments spontaneously. And, you can melt your cynicism and awaken to the magic of every mundane moment with the heat of your attention. Your attention is Divine Masculine. The world you take in with your attention is Divine Feminine Herself.

I weave some connections between the self sabotaging stories in hetero dating, the ways our ego keeps us small, and how devotion to our hearts' desires in the face of rejection and invalidation is exactly how we evolve. I also really love The Expanse as a Jungian divination tool.

This audio reflection is about my art piece and that process that inspired it. Visit the blog at groundingrose.com to see the art I'm talking about.

In this episode I share my experiments with being present to my discomfort without becoming a victim of it.  The Flexner Repor,t funded by the American Medical Association, Carnegie, and Rockefeller, is what I'm referencing when I talk about our country's de-legitimizing and de-authorizing of herbalism in order to control and police healthcare within the Western medical industrial complex.  

I talk about healing with time travel, the gift in the shadow of landing back in childhood spaces we wanted to escape forever.  My relationship to my backyard weeds and my soul and how I'm glad I've really stopped listening to advice that just never "felt" right.  My boredom with the "raped earth" narrative, and taking responsibility to reclaim our role as stewards for our own sake, because we're the ones we're really hurting, not out of some guilt or hero complex for a victim.  

In this episode I explore how ego engages with erotic and romantic energy from a place of control, turned outward on the people and circumstances outside of you.  In order to allow its spiritual power to blossom, we have to engage it as souls and turn its force inward, and let ourselves be transformed by it.  

In this episode, I talk about how sidereal astrology transits and my own dreams help me become aware that even though I don't work in the strip club anymore, those same entitlements to results and free emotional labor have resurfaced in new faces as I grow my business as an embodiment guide.  

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I talk about how my work experience in the overtly sexual environment of the strip club validated my ability to sense energy accurately.  

I apply Jungian and Hermetic lenses to explore how my customers reflected the core wounds and limiting beliefs in my subconscious.  

I reflect on how they did not align with my conscious self image and conscious desires I had to be an erotic, masterful, self sovereign priestess of sensuous and liberated sexuality, rooted in high self esteem and worth.  

This was the beginning of my intimate relationships with divine feminine deities and the sacred prostitute archetype, through the mythology of Inanna and Ereshkigal.  

Reading

The Sacred Prostitute: Eternal Aspect of the Feminine by Nancy Qualls-Corbett

Women Who Run with the Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estes

Inanna, Queen of Heaven and Earth: Her Stories and Hymms from Sumer by Diane Wolkstein

This episode just introduces you to myself, Rose, and how I arrived at this role of being an embodiment guide and priestess, committed to serving people ready for a journey of transformation.  

Have you ever had to untangle chains with your hands? I have to do it by feel. I have to feel for the slack and follow the chains and somehow they come apart.

Coming into my body, being at home here again, is like that. Tangled up in my true nature, my natural expression, my authentic instincts, are all the slave codes that were written into my body and my foremothers bodies by those who have used us up like so much fodder.

I can’t do it with my eyes closed anymore. I have to surrender to doing it by feel, with my eyes wide open.

Whewwww.

Things look so bad everywhere.

Don’t get distracted by how it looks bb.

You can still do it by feel.

In this first of three parts, I share how I record my dream and the details that are important in my style of dreamwork. It's important to pay as much attention to the pattern of feeling as symbols.