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We have finally gotten to the end of our series-within-a-series about the assassination of JFK. We close out with Nikki's favorite theory (shout out to The Last Podcast on the Left) and Joy's final thoughts on if we will ever really know the truth.

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Check out our YouTube channel, Fixate Today: Grey Matters

Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates, RFK Jr.: The Rise and Fall by Vincent Isabel, Marina and Lee by Priscilla Johnson McMillan

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Fort Worth Star-Telegram, Washington Post, National Library of Medicine: National Center for Biotechnology Information, danielpsheehan.com, Wikipedia

Joy accidentally binged an entire semester worth of classes from a college course about the JFK assassination. She breaks it down for us this week.

To learn more, check out these links from civil rights attorney and professor Daniel P. Sheehan: https://www.danielpsheehan.com/ucsc-2013-jfk-assassination/ and https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLRP7xH1KVy4zSZJpRVQr-xwpazTeZDxSq

Check out our YouTube channel, Fixate Today: Grey Matters

Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates, RFK Jr.: The Rise and Fall by Vincent Isabel, Marina and Lee by Priscilla Johnson McMillan

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Fort Worth Star-Telegram, Washington Post, National Library of Medicine: National Center for Biotechnology Information, danielpsheehan.com, Wikipedia

Today, we are continue talking about Jack's philandering during his time in the White House. We talk about the deaths of both Marilyn Monroe and Mary Pinchot Meyers, and how those deaths are linked to the Kennedy curse.

Check out our YouTube channel, Fixate Today: Grey Matters

Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates, RFK Jr.: The Rise and Fall by Vincent Isabel

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Wikipedia

Welcome to our eighth episode in our series on Mica Francis. Today, we chat update and theories.

After we recorded a number of episodes, we learned that Mica's family is fighting to have her last name posthumously changed from Miller to Francis. Mica had petitioned the court for this name change before his death, and her sister, Sierra, is spearheading this fight. Because of this, we will be titling the episodes to reflect Mica and the Francis family's wishes. However, we are releasing the episodes we recorded using Miller as Mica's last name. This is simply because we weren't aware of this court filing before we started recording.

Warnings for domestic abuse, suicide, coercive control, sexual abuse, financial abuse, religious abuse, child abuse, physical abuse, mental health.

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We are back again, following the timeline of events that have happened following Mica's death. We have lots of updates and are beginning to put some pieces together.

After we recorded a number of episodes, we learned that Mica's family is fighting to have her last name posthumously changed from Miller to Francis. Mica had petitioned the court for this name change before his death, and her sister, Sierra, is spearheading this fight. Because of this, we will be titling the episodes to reflect Mica and the Francis family's wishes. However, we are releasing the episodes we recorded using Miller as Mica's last name. This is simply because we weren't aware of this court filing before we started recording.

Warnings for domestic abuse, suicide, coercive control, sexual abuse, financial abuse, religious abuse, child abuse, physical abuse, mental health.

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Welcome to episode 10! We continue walking through the events and discoveries in the days following Mica's death.

After we recorded a number of episodes, we learned that Mica's family is fighting to have her last name posthumously changed from Miller to Francis. Mica had petitioned the court for this name change before his death, and her sister, Sierra, is spearheading this fight. Because of this, we will be titling the episodes to reflect Mica and the Francis family's wishes. However, we are releasing the episodes we recorded using Miller as Mica's last name. This is simply because we weren't aware of this court filing before we started recording.

Warnings for domestic abuse, suicide, coercive control, sexual abuse, financial abuse, religious abuse, child abuse, physical abuse, mental health.

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Today, we are discussing the events that unfolded in the month after Mica's death.

After we recorded a number of episodes, we learned that Mica's family is fighting to have her last name posthumously changed from Miller to Francis. Mica had petitioned the court for this name change before his death, and her sister, Sierra, is spearheading this fight. Because of this, we will be titling the episodes to reflect Mica and the Francis family's wishes. However, we are releasing the episodes we recorded using Miller as Mica's last name. This is simply because we weren't aware of this court filing before we started recording.

Warnings for domestic abuse, suicide, coercive control, sexual abuse, financial abuse, religious abuse, child abuse, physical abuse, mental health.

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In today's episode, we discuss the days leading up to Mica's death, as well as what we have learned about her death, and the strange things JP Miller did in the days after his estranged wife's death.

After we recorded a number of episodes, we learned that Mica's family is fighting to have her last name posthumously changed from Miller to Francis. Mica had petitioned the court for this name change before his death, and her sister, Sierra, is spearheading this fight. Because of this, we will be titling the episodes to reflect Mica and the Francis family's wishes. However, we are releasing the episodes we recorded using Miller as Mica's last name. This is simply because we weren't aware of this court filing before we started recording.

Warnings for domestic abuse, suicide, coercive control, sexual abuse, financial abuse, religious abuse, child abuse, physical abuse, mental health.

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In this episode, we continue to discuss events in Mica's life before her tragic death.

After we recorded a number of episodes, we learned that Mica's family is fighting to have her last name posthumously changed from Miller to Francis. Mica had petitioned the court for this name change before his death, and her sister, Sierra, is spearheading this fight. Because of this, we will be titling the episodes to reflect Mica and the Francis family's wishes. However, we are releasing the episodes we recorded using Miller as Mica's last name. This is simply because we weren't aware of this court filing before we started recording.

Warnings for domestic abuse, suicide, coercive control, sexual abuse, financial abuse, religious abuse, child abuse, physical abuse, mental health.

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Thanks for joining us on our second episode looking into the death of Mica Acacia Francis.

After we recorded a number of episodes, we learned that Mica's family is fighting to have her last name posthumously changed from Miller to Francis. Mica had petitioned the court for this name change before his death, and her sister, Sierra, is spearheading this fight. Because of this, we will be titling the episodes to reflect Mica and the Francis family's wishes. However, we are releasing the episodes we recorded using Miller as Mica's last name. This is simply because we weren't aware of this court filing before we started recording.

Warnings for domestic abuse, suicide, coercive control, sexual abuse, financial abuse, religious abuse, child abuse, physical abuse, mental health.

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Welcome to the first episode of our newest series. We are covering the tragic, avoidable death of Mica Acacia Francis.

After we recorded a number of episodes, we learned that Mica's family is fighting to have her last name posthumously changed from Miller to Francis. Mica had petitioned the court for this name change before his death, and her sister, Sierra, is spearheading this fight. Because of this, we will be titling the episodes to reflect Mica and the Francis family's wishes. However, we are releasing the episodes we recorded using Miller as Mica's last name. This is simply because we weren't aware of this court filing before we started recording.

Warnings for domestic abuse, suicide, coercive control, sexual abuse, financial abuse, religious abuse, child abuse, physical abuse, mental health.

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Welcome to our fourth and final (for now) episode about disgraced YouTuber Ruby Franke and her former business associate Jodi Hildebrandt (I think it's funny to call her "Ruby's former biz associate" because it probably makes her really mad to be known only as that, lol).

We took a bit of time recording between our first two episodes and episode three, as all of the evidence of the case against Ruby and Jodi has not been released. Join us as we walk through the various pieces of evidence in this tragic case. Warnings for discussions of child abuse, spiritual abuse, intimate partner abuse, sexual shame, religious trauma.

We are getting into the JFK of it all. When Nikki wrote the scripts for the JFK episodes, she planned on four episodes. Welp, we already had to make the first episode into a part one and part two. Sure, there's a ton of info and theories and whatever, but the length is more likely because JOY'S BACK!

In part one of part one of the JFK episodes, we talk about Jack and Jackie's wedding, the babies they lost, and Jack's compulsive sexual behavior with women, even in the White House.

Check out our YouTube channel, Fixate Today: Grey Matters

Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates, RFK Jr.: The Rise and Fall by Vincent Isabel

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Wikipedia

Welcome to our second episode! We continue our conversation about disgraced YouTuber Ruby Franke and her former business partner, and trash can woman, Jodi Hildebrandt. Warnings for discussions of child abuse, spiritual abuse, intimate partner abuse, sexual shame, religious trauma.

Join us for our first episode! We talk about disgraced YouTube star Ruby Franke and her former business partner Jodi Hildebrandt. Warnings for discussion of child abuse, spiritual abuse, sexual shame.

On today's episode, we look at the life and death of Joe Kennedy Jr. The loss of Joe Jr. directly led to Joe Sr. putting all of his own hopes for political domination on his second eldest son, John F. Kennedy. Joe Jr.'s death encapsulates how the Kennedy family's trait of thrill-seeking, even when coupled with noble reasons, have ultimately led to tragedy.

Check out our YouTube channel, Fixate Today: Grey Matters

Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Wikipedia

Let's talk about Nikki's favorite Kennedy: Kathleen "Kick" Kennedy. She was a badass who blazed her own trail. But was her untimely death due to a curse or family hubris?

Check out our YouTube channel, Fixate Today: Grey Matters

Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Wikipedia

We are diving into the lobotomy of Rosemary Kennedy, the tragedy of the belief that she needed to be "fixed" in the first place, and her life post-lobotomy. Thankfully, she found peace and joy toward the end of her life. Keep a critical ear out for threads of where we are today with Rosemary's nephew, RFK Jr. and MAHA.

Check out our YouTube channel, Fixate Today: Grey Matters

Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Wikipedia

We are back with a new episode and a format change! Joy and I are reworking how we create and present the pod. You'll hear Nikki's voice more and Joy is doing the heavy lifting behind the scenes, but both of our opinions and ideas will still be heard.

In today's episode, we dive into the "lost Kennedy," Rosemary Kennedy. Could what happened to Rosemary been an early predictor of where we are now with her uncle Robert F. Kennedy Jr.? We talk about Rosemary's early life, her teenage and young adult years, and the dangerous ideologies of the time that led her wealthy parents to make a lot of terrible choices regarding her development and care.

Check out our YouTube channel, Fixate Today: Grey Matters

Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Wikipedia

Welcome back to the Kennedy Curse. Today, we talk about how the Kennedy family ended up in Boston from Ireland and the first generation born in the United States.

Check out our YouTube channel, Fixate Today: Grey Matters

Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Wikipedia

Welcome back to the Kennedy Curse. Today, we talk about how the Kennedy family ended up in Boston from Ireland and the first generation born in the United States.

Check out our YouTube channel, Fixate Today: Grey Matters

Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Wikipedia

Welcome to episode one of our new series: The Kennedy Curse. This is going to be a billion part series. No really. Nikki has been researching and writing since September.

In this episode, we define "the curse," talking about the patterns of behavior we are going to see from the first Kennedy to come to America to today, and talk about the legacy of the Kennedy name in the United States.

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Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Wikipedia

We didn't want to do more episodes on the Duggars. Truly. It would mean they've just faded away. But, here we are. Joseph Duggar was arrested. Let's talk about what happened and what's next.

Please note: Of course, more things happened between recording and posting. I'll do my best to record a mini-minisode with those updates and post soon!

Please note again: My sound probably isn't amazing. I recorded in an echo-y room while hiding under a sweater. Sorry!

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We wrap up talking through the many conspiracy theories around the assassination of JFK. Let us know if you've heard of a conspiracy that we missed!

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Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates, RFK Jr.: The Rise and Fall by Vincent Isabel, Marina and Lee by Priscilla Johnson McMillan

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Fort Worth Star-Telegram, Washington Post, National Library of Medicine: National Center for Biotechnology Information, Wikipedia

We continue walking through Joy's research into possible links between the crimes of Alex Murdaugh and Jeffrey Epstein.

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Sources:

https://www.postandcourier.com/news/jeffrey-epstein-estate-hilton-head-teen/article_a58fcca8-ba02-4303-91df-35665fd69a36.html

https://www.justice.gov/epstein/files/DataSet%2012/EFTA02858481.pdf

https://assets.newsweek.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/03/EFTA02858491.pdf

https://assets.newsweek.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/03/EFTA02858495.pdf

https://www.courtlistener.com/docket/16066603/doe-1-v-jeffrey-epstein/

Joy did some research into a few specific documents from the Epstein files. Did Epstein recognize the value of South Carolina as a key part of trafficking routes?

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Sources:

https://www.postandcourier.com/news/jeffrey-epstein-estate-hilton-head-teen/article_a58fcca8-ba02-4303-91df-35665fd69a36.html

https://www.justice.gov/epstein/files/DataSet%2012/EFTA02858481.pdf

https://assets.newsweek.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/03/EFTA02858491.pdf

https://assets.newsweek.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/03/EFTA02858495.pdf

https://www.courtlistener.com/docket/16066603/doe-1-v-jeffrey-epstein/

Our final episode (for now) on the Murdaugh Murders. We walk through the most recent appeal that Alex's team brought to the South Carolina Supreme Court. If he is granted a new trial, we will be back with more on this case. Until then, onto a new series next week!

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On today's episode, we keep talking through the appeals process and what we think will come next for Alex Murdaugh.

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Welcome back! Today, we talk about Alex Murdaugh's appeals and what the future may hold.

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Welcome back! Today, we talk about Alex Murdaugh's appeals and what the future may hold.

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On today's episode, we talk about Alex Murdaugh's murder trial, and start to explore the depths of his financial crimes.

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We are back to our coverage on the Murdaugh Murders. We are continuing through the timeline of the days, weeks, and months after the deaths of Maggie and Paul.

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We continue walking through the indictment of JP Miller and discuss what we think he will plea.

Note: This episode was recorded before the arraignment. Check out episode 79 to hear Nikki discuss the outcome of the hearing.

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We walk through the indictment of John Paul Miller, and discuss the arraignment. Is justice coming?

Note: This episode was recorded before the arraignment. Check out episode 79 to hear Nikki discuss the outcome of the hearing.

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On this bonus episode, Nikki discusses the similarities in the abuse Michelle Hadley, whose story is featured in Netflix's A Toxic Love Story, experienced with her ex-fiancee Ian Diaz, and what Mica Miller recounted in her journals and to friends and family about her marriage and the abuse that her estranged husband, John-Paul Miller, allegedly inflicted on her. 

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We've got a minisode today to give you an update about JP Miller's January 12, 2026 arraignment. We will be back soon with our regular release schedule, and a deep-dive into the contents of the indictment.

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Happy New Year! We took last week off for Christmas, but we are back with one more episode in 2025!

We continue talking through the events after the night of the murders of Paul and Maggie Murdaugh up to the trial of Alex Murdaugh.

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In this episode, we walk through the minutes and hours immediately following the murders of Paul and Maggie Murdaugh.

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We have a Joy-solo minisode today! We wanted to give a layout of Moselle, Alex Murdaugh's property, before we walk through the events of the murders and following. Joy is way better at spacial awareness than Nikki, so she took the wheel!

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On today's episode, we walk through Paul, Maggie, and Alex's movements on the days and minutes leading up to the deaths of Paul and Maggie Murdaugh.

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On episode three of our series on the Murdaugh Murders, we talk about the tragic death of Mallory Beach, the immediate attempts at a cover-up, and the culpability of Paul Murdaugh.

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On episode two of our series on the Murdaugh Murders, we talk about the mysterious deaths of Stephen Smith and Gloria Satterfield.

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Welcome to our new series! We're doing it, we're deep diving the Murdaugh murders. In this episode, we learn about the history of the Murdaugh dynasty in southern South Carolina.

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Sorry for the delay! We had some technical difficulties, but we're all good now!

We continue talking about updates in the Mica Miller case.

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A grab bag of updates around Mica Miller. JP and Wayne are dealing with lawsuits (not well, mind you), Robbie Harvey is dropping hints that could be explosive, and the FBI is still quiet.

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We talk about some specific conspiracy theories about the assassination of JFK, including a bank robbery, earlier plans, multiple gunmen, a decoy hearse, CIA involvement, and the theory that is the basis of the Oliver Stone film JFK.

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Sources (there's a lot):

Books: The Kennedy Curse by Edward Klein, Rosemary: The Hidden Kennedy Daughter by Katie Clifford Larson, The First Kennedys: The Humber Roots of an American Dynasty by Neal Thompson, After Camelot: A Personal History of the Kennedy Family 1968 to the Present by J. Randy Taraborrelli, Ask Not: The Kennedys and the Women They Destroyed by Maureen Callahan, The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation on Power by Garry Wills, Black Water by Joyce Carol Oates, RFK Jr.: The Rise and Fall by Vincent Isabel, Marina and Lee by Priscilla Johnson McMillan

Media: Grey Gardens (1975 documentary), JFK (1991 film), Thirteen Days (2000 film), Murder in Greenwich (2002 television film), Bobby (2006 film), Grey Gardens (2006 musical), Grey Gardens (2009 film), Parkland (2013 film), 11.23.63 (2016 series), Jackie (2016 film), Chappaquiddick (2017 film), Cover-Up (2018 podcast), The RFK Tapes (2018 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episodes 400-405: JFK (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Relaxed Fit: Marilyn Monroe & The President’s Aspirin (2020 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode Side Stories: The Bullet in the Backseat (2023 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 366: Lobotomy Crimes (2024 podcast), The Last Podcast on the Left, Episode 1046: The Miseducation of Ed Larsen - JFK & Government Conspiracies (2025 podcast), United States of Kennedy (2025 podcast), Dead Certain: The Martha Moxley Murder (2025 podcast), Wine & Crime, Episode 456: Family Curses (2026 podcast), Love Story (2026 series)

Websites: historyhit.com, Scientific America, CNN, PBS, CBS News, BBC, Autistic Self Advocacy Center, InStyle, Best Buddies International, All Things Interesting, USA Today, Today in Civil Liberties, Cambridge Dictionary, Kennedys and King, RJP Books, New York Post, Boston Magazine, Time, The Moth, Vanity Fair, Voices Center for Resilience, Reddit, Washington Association of Black Journalists, NPR, The Ringer, The Daily Express, The Harvard Crimson, Fort Worth Star-Telegram, Washington Post, National Library of Medicine: National Center for Biotechnology Information, Wikipedia

On today's episode, we talk about the poisoners' ring, and how the women were ultimately discovered and caught.

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New series alert! We've got another old timey one for you! Let's talk about Aqua Tofana and head of the Italian poisoners' ring, Giulia Tofana.

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Welcome to the final episode in our series on the assassination of James A. Garfield. We talk about Garfield's prolonged death, the trial and execution of Charles J. Guiteau, and the lasting impact of it all.

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