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january 2025 has led me to be the make the most unintelligible podcast episode ever which is this sorry in advance

why i think the bachelor/bachelorette franchise ruins lives

rachel kirkconnell and matt james

we need pmdd documentary to go viral on Netflix like NOW

people dont understand periods at all

trumps presidency thoughts compared to mia in princess diaries

why i think we should unite and separate

my issues with physicality versus emotional shallow has vibes

petite light skin comment wtf

shari franke book the house of my mother thoughts

mufasa

babygrirl

the last show girl

beauty and pain and jobs i hate working nyc influencer talk and cancelled podcast

the state of the world

spending time with my parents stavros halkias podcast

fire conspiracies

my obsession with watching real people

the rise of real people celebrities and how it could all fall

my hypocrisy

helping people and it ruining your life bc you care so much

wanting to create but feeling powerless and a lack of creativity

sister wives kody and janelle being step siblings and that being kept under the rug and weird

traitors sucks but i love it what i would change

the pre period working vibe and then the slump wanting to off myself

life doesnt wrap up in 30 minutes keke palmer quote

the black burn when you hear something and instantly feel unsafe

going to the house tour and the door getting slammed in our faces

listening to some of the musicals ariana grande recommended

people want a place where they can speak freely but why do we often speak in a way that offends others

carrie underwood and country music i want to make more art that doesn’t make people feel the black burn. but maybe wrestles with the idea of the opposite

why i’m scared for trumps america is im scared that more of those black burns will happen

the balance of someone telling you something that makes you assume something else and then having to unlearn it feeling bad at design

RPDR Rupaul’s Drag Race s17 love shipping kori and lydia i love the girls i love reality tv seeing people bond over a shared experience i want more shared experiences in my life

cities show indicators to society but also utopia i can tell people are struggling here and the divide is growing deeper and it’s scary but also the way we talk about it and i talk about it has to change

sex and the city carrie vibes

my NYC trip

tragedy and lessons

sister wives kody brown is wild af

britneyandbaby britney morrow change in content

what religion taught me about false idols

my obsession with taxi cab drivers and how i wish i could hear more of their stories

new year’s resolutions ish

i want to create stuff

astrology stuff

TMI about my entire life menstrual cycle things i’ve learned talking with old friends during mercury retrograde… hearing how people are talking about homeless people… pluto in aquarius i hope all the people get power and power shifts

the episode cuts but i’ll post the other part lol these are my crazy dreams just examples of what i’ve been struggling with all NOT REAL: dating caleb heron talking about wicked talking to cynthia erivo my friend from ha in audience needing to pee people rushing out of th theater to pee

(watched caleb heron podcast w ziwe) (my friend from hs got married she was in the dream too robbie and gabby winder pod w shannon and becca moore)nyc musicals a stand up taking you on a date to their set

living in the front of a building where everyone needed to walk through your apartment un the morning and the receptionist worked in it and the next door was a weird place where people like paid for people to get raw meat thrown on them (saw lady gaga meat dress before bed) being a single women single mom the worker coming home and seeing gross shit everywhere throw on the window covering and the babies having to go in the meat center when they clean it out (apartment concerns) (trisha paytas podcast) parentheses show what made my dream like that

My 2024

snl hyper fixation trisha paytas on snl

regal unlimited pass

my reddit darkness era so gross

seeking male attention / validation not wanting something and getting it instead of vice versa

being yourself

mercury retrograde

the understanding you have with people you grew up with

being triggered by changes and the importance of shared history

standing up for your life

jumbled and crazy and incoherent probably misspoke a few times and am definitely biased #mochagrande vibes!!!

i’m sorry if i misspoke in this podcast. i had so much to say. i am not trying to offend anyone with my words at all. this has been such a sad time. i just hope his family and friends are doing okay. i wish everybody the best. life is hard out here.

thanks for listening .

i loved it kind of!!!! i think so!!!! i don’t know!!!!

Kehlani Victoria Monet

Relationships in the same job field

Britney Spears

Movies Rapid Fire Thoughts

Megalopolis

Beetlejuice Beetlejuice

My Old Ass

Reagan

The Forge

Chappell Roan Moo Deng Skit

Political Candidates and Going After People's Characteristics

Welcome back to the podcast! Of course I have been watching big brother this season and I think this is the longest in a season I have gone during this podcast without talking about this great game and the reason is because I have had nothing to complain about until Jankie world and this endgame 

I have to tip my hat off to production this season has been amazing 

The cast is awesome i have to say it now before i forget tucker reminded me of meredith marks all season they sound the exact same to me 

But I loved the AI arena twist I like the design of the house the competitions have been so equitable but i feel like the feel and vibe of the modern era came back during jankie world 

I have PTSD from Dyre Fest so once that happened i stopped watching feeds and caring as much about the game i also liked tkor and the battle of the trios so i was sad to see her go 

I really think Jankies world and that weird hoh comp should’ve been the actual pressure cooker comp like not with a twist that relates to the season literally going back to season 6 

it was a delight to see how angela graced the crowd and julie last night its been awesome to see a season where the veto is used so much where there weren’t any unanimous votes until last night julies first time not being there on a live eviction but during all of these moments i wish the show digged deeper instead of staying so rehearsed and the same to its detriment 

when i think of an eviction its literally the death of. someones game and someone as polarizing as angela it wouldve been nice to go back to basics and see how her family feels about her divisive game clips of her family reacting to her best moments and clips this season

i was thinking about this when i realized dave ramseys show is technically jerry springer like as much as i hate change i wish the producers took some elements from other shows and incorporated them into bb to make it better i miss hearing from old houseguests i miss them hosting competitions 

like this was julies first time missing a show in over 20 years one she could’ve zoomed in two it would have been nice to hear production scrambling when they found out what they did how she felt how that went down like maybe i think of breaking the fourth wall too much but i feel like it would be so entertaining 

especially considering the state of house when it gets boring build it up make it funner i think it would also be cool to compare the season to others like when you flash and see the final five theres a montage to final fives in the past five seasons and cbs invites them to the double eviction like hearing tiffany and hannah chaddah saying they have ptsd like sometimes i hate that its a live show and it doesn't feel live really anymore 

like i saw that julie said the houseguests came up with a song for her last night and production said cut it out like i would loved to see that everyone else would too i know precautions are in place to make a great show but sometimes i just want to see people be messy like a SNL. im so over things having to be so polished and perfect i feel like in a world of everyone trying to be perfect i have fallen in love with the imperfect 

i automatically thought of a mtv trl clip maybe this is ahead of my time but when i was little mtv had the countdowns of the top songs same with the country channel and i think this season has been a season of songs commercials etc they could literally do a whole hour mtv style and i would tune in and probably download their songs onto my phone like they are so good 

anyways thats just some things i've been thinking about lately hopefully i can come on here when the season ends and give the rest of my thoughts 

im so happy to see how the show is progressing like this season is a step in the right direction jankie tried to ruin it but at the end of the day this is my favorite season since the cookout bb23 for sure!!! 

thanks for listening :) 

welcome to the book of hailey!! just kidding the show was so good i’m obsessed!! - what i want to see discussed in the future

- ruby franke of it all how old mormon influencers progressed into the tiktok moms now

- daily routines how tf do they all have clean houses

- the drug addiction in the mormon culture

- what is their goal with the show

- what does the show become if they all leave the mormon church

- break down the rules of mormonism why do they cuss so much

- stop eating with your mouth openb and talking ive NEVER seen that done on reality tv

- homophobia in the mormon church

- episodes designated to backstories how did demi get divorced what was her story i didnt even realize her family was blended until i went on tiktok i need more info i need family trees ASAP

- why do people feel so tied to the church after going against the rules

- how common is it to have sex out of wedlock in the church

- like i need statistics

- go to the doctor and get your levels tested based off of all the soda you drink

- document tiktoks in a more appropriate wy behind the scenes the dancing makes it look so cringey and weird

- WHO ARE THE SWINGERS

- they should have to like go to other churches and see how they do stuff to kind of like compare and contrast to the mormon church

- i want to hear the parents of everyone involved has anyone left the church like the parents how do they feel about the situation

- what was laylas parents reaction to her joining the mormon church

- need to see these girls go to LA MIAMI OR NYC OR A DIFFERENT COUNTRY

- I need to see some of the homemaker stuff like i dont get how they have time to be breadwinners and moms at the same time

- what are their goals and hopes and dreams

- they should take a feminism class at BYU i feel like it would be a fucked class straight up but like they need to learn

- marriage counseling episode FR

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i was thinking about chappell roan and how she’s come out a lot recently about being stalked and followed and it got me thinking about like marshmello and orville peck and how men can kind of shield their faces and reach success and not have to deal with what being famous means in terms of like being stalked and recognized in pub lic to the same levels as people who do show their face

i think about drag artists and how chappell is a drag queen pretty much and how a lot of people can’t recognize drag queens outside of their drag and they feel like they can kind of shape shift and turn it off and blend into normal life a lot easier but how chappell roan isn’t really afforded that opportunity even though she literally looks so different when performing

i feel like with how society is progressing and the importance of unique art there should be a compromise

in a perfect world i would just want people to be like fucking normal to celebrities but people are just crazy like when chappell roan said the comment about like random people coming up and hugging her and taking pictures to me i was like okay a picture i get i also understand saying no but if random people came up to me on the street asking me for a hug i would freak out like that is so weird to me i would never do that to someone

anyways i feel like we should use ai and technology to our advantage in situations like this like imagine if chappell roan appeared as an AI or had someone who wants to be famous be her publicly but wasn’t actually her and maybe it was like a known thing like chappell roan doesn’t reveal her identity

like i know this doesn’t fully work like she’s q performer obviously but i wonder how many talented people are very good at one aspect of their job but not all of it let’s make it like a co-op idk

this reminds me of SIA also using maddie ziegler as a muse and shielding herself with her hair

like i feel like this is something we are going to start seeing more in the future and i think it would actually be really interesting

i feel like with the pop girlies and famous people we always want to see triple threats but sometimes i feel like i prefer someone who stands and barks like sometimes true talent is limited to one area this is also something that isn’t expected of men or even pop men like i think about the dua lipa hate a few years ago and back to the behind the scenes thing i think about the ashanti jlo lip syncing thing jlo is a perfect example she loves being famous she takes any avenue she can to keep her fame and relevancy this is a compliment i’m honestly not a jlo hater but like she can’t sing like that’s people critique of her she is beautiful a great actress it’s like nice clothes were made for her to wear jlo is someone who should be seen by the world i don’t think this is true but maybe sometimes like ghost writers and background singers and people who do demos for artists want to just stay in the background and work on their craft

and sometimes when they try to become a triple threat and do every part it all falls apart and they lack longevity and success i think about megan trainor who’s solo music i love but i also don’t fully know if she was meant to be pop star famous like it seems like her personality gets her in trouble a lot like that’s someone that you shouldn’t hear from as much

i also think that telling celebrities that they don’t have to interact with media outlets or do press junkets or perform is an answer to this question too like more people should be doing what they love but again at the end of the day chappell should be able to perform and be herself and be seen and not feel anxious and watched and stalked 24/7 but this was just something i was thinking about at 3:30 am thanks for listening

i would make this real housewives-esque four parts need an impartial guest and to be on a platform that allows them to break the fourth wall

i would get overwhelmed hosting but i would write the script also i really think they could lead it themselves with a producer off camera guiding questions just more focus on the cast and their answers to questions

question people follow up questions

andrea - defend yourself from leah’s comments about being there for the wrong reasons, open up about how it looks like you want to be an influencer based off of your content on tiktok if leah’s comments weren’t wrong why would you do that? what changed how can we not credit your switch up to social media when you were singing a different tune right after you got versus now which is true? how hard was it for you to see rob embarrrassed of you why don’t you have smoke for him like tell him how he made you feel and what if felt for someone to like love you so much and then turn away from you when you se going through so much getting so much hate

kenny take us through your head during casa what conversations did you have with catherine that made you want to bring her back what did bringing her back mean to you personally do you regret it talk about the things you had in common did you expect jana to bring someone back talk about josiah and hip ripping your shirts how it felt to see so many men talking poorly about jana all season and dragging her through the mud have you stood on business outside the house what do you say to people saying you and jana’s relationship is fake?

kordell

how did it feel to hear the tweet about daia do you regret your casa amor experience how does it feel to be winners of love island did you expect your brother to be a plot point this season? what are your thoughts on this season and the couples and the drama post villa

kendall

do you feel comfortable about talking about the video? if so take us through the feeling of that moment are you pursuing legal action who from the villa has supported you during this tough time who has switched up how do you feel about people questioning your sexuality what would your advice be to someone going through this situation you have been out a lot since the villa and have gotten to a little bit of drama concerning colorism in sections do you know what colorism is and have you learned anything about it since this situation what was your mindset going into casa amor and going into the villa it was giving friendship island or boys island for you

honing i’m on the final four love story more in depth understanding of the casa decisions girls versus boys how they acted.

insert clips post villa and rise to fame infographics. statistics about this season

how social media has impacted the season the party with kendall and kenny

microagressions call her daddy and cancelled of it all uncomfortable conversation about race and how women were treated

bullet point list ot jana’s points sped up so people can pause and read at the end

montage of all the things filmed right after casa universal flashes of social media clips

the rob island of it all productions interference questions things people were upset weren’t included and were misconstrued

apology chair everyone picks someone to say an apology from and everyone asks someone to explain why they did xyz

this is so crazy but i also would have had a intense theme like i know people say this vast reminds them of like a jersey shore or something maybe if make that the theme like 2000s reality tv a lot of people looked like they were going different places a theme would’ve been so funny for the clips people would be like why are they stressed like snooki in 2011 it would’ve made it so much more iconic also this cast is so fashionable i know leah kordell serena and jana would’ve ate with a theme also they are fucking funny the jokes they would be joking when asked about the theme who styled them

Ballerina Farm Thoughts, Kamala Harris J.D. Vance, The Olympics and Simone Biles

in a world of bachelor seasons being the same shitty fake shit love is blind being a dumpster fire mess and drama and unwatchable too hot to handle love island swooped in and saved me i was GIDDY binge watching this season i was on a high i couldn’t come down love island hands down is better than any of the other dating shows right now and i think always i have literally no notes for production no ways to get it better except maybe for the heart rate challenge it shouldn’t just be who’s heart beat is raised it’s also who’s stopped idk if that makes sense but YEAH let’s get into it!! i’m so excited!!!!! the challenges were actually interesting i never say that about like any show ever i was actually tuned into them because they were MESSY i think moving love island to peacock might have removed a layer of like fakeness and people over doing it because maybe they didn’t expect as many people to watch it but they obviously are but it just felt more real and better casting and a lot less of people cast for the wrong reasons vibe to me!!! we do need to talk about the idea that black women always need to be hulmbked like people love to support them when they are down but hate to support them when they are up if kenny is a scammer kenny is scammer i’ve been listening to gabby windey a lot and she’s like i would never actually want to date a guy who goes on reality tv like what do we have in common like why are you doing that and it reminds me of serena’s opinion of kordell like what are your goals….. if kenny and jana workout that will be pretty standard for reality tv relationships it doesn’t mean kenny’s a scammer it doesn’t mean that men can’t love black women like what type of argument is that and why are you trying to use reality tv to prove that i think no matter what having diversity in love related shows is helpful and doesn’t reinforce the idea that black woken aren’t women that you marry get into relationships with whatever logic that is paraded around in celebrity culture like sports if you are picking up what i’m picking down when people make this the conversation it adds a wave of anxiety women of color but more importantly black women have to have when going onto relaity tv and let’s face it makes them not want to go on!!! JANA is a catch and deserves to be shown on tv and find love i didn’t like how the guys wanted to get rid of her like fuck them i 100% get why they got rid of andrea y’all need to stop looking as people as disposable definitely not a woman like JANA it reeks of jealousy because she looks good Af Made for reality TV rob has the most insane reactions love the female friendships that form at love island they seem so genuine but leah is what we need to see on reality tv because she just doesn’t give AF and she’s kind of like kardashian inspired but normal enough to make good tv and be messy and be awesome and i’m surprised reality tv hasn’t tried to find more people kardashian es que for reality tv show my second archetype like i think they should try to find is like jersey shore esque woman as well

i think binge watching has ruined tv actually like i have been really obsessed with greys anatomy recently like i keep thinking about and it wa son at the hair salon yesterday and about that i almost passed out at the hair salon like it was a mess i swear eating less calories and dieting makes me susceptible to so many more like issues like i think it’s worsening my immune system and like making it easier for me to like pass out and stuff idk maybe that’s just me anyways in greys i’ve never liked the denny duquette stuff i think it went on for way too long in scandal i didn’t like when she was captured in out by i didn’t like vee’s storyline like that entire season but a bad taste in my mouth i loved season one and two of the bear so much do i have the same love for season two probably not put in comparison to all the seasons of other shows discussed prior it’s leaps and bounds ahead of them like i can’t name anything in particular that i didn’t like specifically except maybe claire this is so contradicting of me to say but i think its so fucked to give negative reviews of a season when there was so much beauty in this season like two captivating episodes in my eyes a larger focus on the background stories of sugar, tina, and ayo . seeing sydney eat carmy’s dish, see a mother daughter dynamic that is so compelling and relatable for a lot of women including myself like the idea of calling your mom when you need help even when you don’t want to because she also brings you so much pain like that’s a gut wrenching thought to see tina fighting for a job a routine the amount of relatability like people loved the relatability the first two seasons but are rolling their eyes the third season this season was real carmy slowly becoming who he hates the most literally turning into joel móchales character and practically tormenting. sydney in order to achieve a star it makes sense when you want something so bad that you turn into a monster to get it you ruin your relationships you only focus on yourself you are yelling and fighting with everyone in your way. your vision is only at the goal whether it’s a good thing or not. the feeling i felt when you see tina come into the shop when mikey is still alive and she wants a job so bad she’s crying and they are like get her out of here get her out of here like men not being able to understand women being emotional and mikey going over there and really getting it and being honest my job feels like season three of the bear constantly i am carmy in my head and sydney to the world wanting to change it ve creative and do things that are inspiring and reach my goals and have a more positive mindset but in my head it’s a prison and i’m cussing myself out ruining my self esteem so obsessive controlling and focused on doing the best to see that is important working is hard what do you expect to happen when a family restaurant turns into one going after a michelin star it wouldn’t be perfect it wouldn’t follow a set plot it would just happen and it would probably look a lot like the bear season three - [ ] i didn’t prep in this episode and i didn’t think i had a lot to say but idk also maybe this sounds stupid but it was kind of interesting how a major plot point this season was like the reviews of the restaurant and what they wanted it to be and how that kind of determined the restaurants next steps and the same things happening with the show also i wonder if they will do another part of the bear or like a holiday episode idk thanks for listening i still love the bear and have faith in it also like in the grand scheme of things like everything doesn’t have to be summed up if you know there is going to be another season like the idea that this is a perfect set up for season 4 is so valid…. bye :)

it’s just so nasty and mirrors so many things in life how youth is like envied and older people use their observed power over younger fighting to be the prettiest and the best to be praised like so many mother daughter dynamics falling into your parents footsteps like sororities something you see in men a lot too but like working so hard to be like your parents look like your parents it reminds me of a conversation i had with my coworker about how we feel like we are almost in competition with our parents and how similar it is to compare yourself with their schedule and your schedule like for me it was finding a husband on college for these girls it’s making the team it’s just so sad the parallels to ANTM like you need a makeover to get this something about you needs to change to be enough for this to be good enough it’s like every girls dream and nightmare how princess diaries hurt girls with curly hair into thinking they need to straighten it as a woman i know how much your face can transform with makeup and seeing these women before and after idk why even myself i’ve been struggling so much lately getting ready in the morning and haven’t been able to put on the small amount of makeup i wear and i feel shitty for them to make her dye her hair and then CUT her like are you insane irs so tyra banks ANTM it’s just such a trap i’m so sad for these girls and women The low pay of it all coupled with all the injuries or is so sad and the parallels to sororities to be paying to be apart of something as i get older i see why people do things like that to get a solid friend group also like even how people talk about church like lacking community is so hard but compromising your body and time is NOT worth it when they talked about the main song and the jumping splits and stuff and how they are like we can’t NOT do it but like they totally can and they can evolve to better suit their bodies in the long run seriously it’s so sad the adduce from lexi when peoplecsense that your scared that’s when they attack k relate to victoria how it shows how beauty is a blessing and a curse the religious ties making women think they should pray and wish well for people who hurt them the scene when they’re taking their makeup off at the end is so powerful to me and the episode when. they zoomed into kelsey i think her eyes i’m just so sad for everyone involved i think the south often praised tradition and looks like back fondly on things that should evolve and change and have rose colored lenses to practices that harm people and hurt people just because it’s nostalgia like the idea of my parents did XYZ to me so i’m gonna do it to my kids too like why? you don’t want better for your kids idk? even like when she was getting mad at the cheerleader for looking for her ornament and stuff like these girls are young at the end of the day do they deserve to be reprimanded maybe but just seeing the cheerleader cry and knowing how stressed ALL of them are not just judy who let’s face it was AWFUL to victoria all season i also hate the idea of respect your elders when it seems like the elder thrives off of power and again assumes people did and said xyz to me when i was little and they weee adults so i’m gonna do the same or just being like a mean girl and never growing out of it i relate to victoria so much how long do you put yourself through something where people question your ability to where you just say NO MORE i know who i am i’m strong enough

also i recorded this at literally 530 am i misspeak so much please watch the show! i want to see what happens next cheer season!

travis scott arrested. justin timberlake arrested. “it’ll never be the past keep going forward and find your new normal.” i love kimora lee simmons. luke combs why do i relate to you? obsessions to dopamine and serotonin. my depression week vibes and happy weekend vibes! walking outside yas! i’ve been crying a lot lately. i love australian accents yas. boyfriend asmr look into that…. trying to find things that lessen pmdd symptoms. i want my trisha paytas full circle moment. i finished SATC. i have thoughts!! big and carrie my one qualm with them! it gives the blue hearts video to me if you haven’t seen that here it is it’s INSANE. https://www.tiktok.com/@kevonstagetiktok/video/7336894862484311342?lang=en samantha got fat in the SATC movie??? FAT WHERE i must look like a f*&!@#* &^%@! &@#^ $*#(^$. i finished watching it was so good even when it was problematic. those girls give me hope for my thirties. rage baiting matt and abby. ugh i’m sorry in advance. i’m so boring i’ll see y’all next week? sunday? girl i don’t know at this point. the housewives DUI curse. generational responses to drinking. i've gotta get offline.

i’m so grateful for dolly parton. i love coco from ice r and coco. i love kim zolciack biermann obviously i grew up pretty white washed. when i was a kid i wanted to be a tomboy but as an adult i’m girly girl and i love it. dolly parton makes lover girl music fr. go listen to lovin you by dolly. megan thee stallion and dolly are similar in my head. i’m praying for megan thee stallion. stop treating aquarius women like that. people are so evil. go listen to boa by megan thee stallion. saturn square venus maybe i’m just broken. idk i want a lover maybe that’s my goal for summer. my bridgerton story and parallels to colin and penelope. the guy who stands on the corner on my way to work everyday. he lost his wife to cancer. i almost cry every time i see him. i’m thinking about him a lot. our medical system is fucked up. price gouging is crazy. reddit snark is so insane. people care more than they want to admit. shout out to kyra from ok baby again at least she’s happy. my dream traitors cast. my obsession with just jasmyn. i feel bad that it’s gotten to this point. i hope she’s doing okay. why does religion sometimes prey on poor people and demonize secular culture? i feel like secular culture teachings can help people grow and become independent. i think what i was trying to say in the podcast is sometimes you need action to grow and have a result not just a belief. i believe in prayer and manifestation. but sometimes a goal combined with those efforts is what allows you to teach it. i only attract men who watch anime. i tried to watch your lie in april last night and started crying so hard. i felt very heartbroken yesterday. but i’m going to put it out into the universe that maybe one day soon i won’t feel that way. i will believe in love again and denounce all my crazy takes on monogamy and love. i’m still a lover girl at heart. thanks for listening folks. hopefully i will see u next week :) <3

every addiction is an additction to pleasure katherout loving to gain serotonin from working out i spent sp much not walking not moving and it changed my life when i started moving again even it i didn’t know where i was going i kind of relate it to driving around not knowing where you are and then you find this new cool place or a place you want to go do it for you not for them the power of walking modeling drag race yoir walk is so important in all facets of life when you are having your biggest moments and some of your first accomplishments you are what you listen to walking vs running during an important moment it draws too much attention you’ll be told to slow down you’ll be in trouble your walk is so important that feeling of walking near your crush and brushing shoulders walking across the stage at graduation my steps music video things the wet footsteps that were ingrained into steps by a lover and after they divorced he changed it to a dogs the power of walking away i always say i’m jlo in that meme when she’s walking on the beach and taking her clothes off on my walking pad when i walk on the walk pad i become h lo like i literally have fallen off of it so many times it’s not funny um surprised i haven’t gotten super hurt walking means so much seeing someone and saying their name and seeing them continue walking how you walk when you are insecure miley cyrus in the gym in heels the levels of confidence with posture some people have a foot fetish this week i’m obsessed with walking grounding yourself into a location - [ ] having to walk in a straight line means obedience and doing opposite is seen as a form of rebellion instead of art parades changing of the guards in buckingham pállace walking commands or demands respect when you are sitting in a conference room and see someone walk by and you’re just loookomg at them seeing someone with differences walk proudly is commanding how it allows conversations to flow music videos like 360 by charli xcx twerking latto vs glorilla megan thee stallion

palestine kehlani and nicola coughlan selfishness and lack of community intergenerational housing dua vacay album the poor family dating debate people are heartless why do i assume everyones life is perfect if something is for you it will give you clarity if something isn’t for you it will give you confusion SATC the convo with miranda and berger human design motivation desire ijaadee and samantha from sex and the city uncomfortable feeling = good or not good i’m gonna guess not good maybe a NO i always have it around men like i’m gonna barf people’s obsession with megan thee stallion eminem wtf nara and her eczema maybe we should start shutting the fuck up seeing so many weight loss influencers give up and get WLS wondering if it’s my destiny struggling with losing weight talking about phentermine and the push for weight loss medicine after literally acting like fannita at 22 targets plus size section…… 25 = CONFIDENCE running group dating discourse oh you want me to kill myself

talking about my change in mindset my obsession with men my relationship with my family profection years in astrology turning 25 the situation with fannita or nitababy and the parallels to gabbie hanna and tinashes success rose colored glasses nostalgia character in inside out 2 seeing lamar odom at the beach the wedding that made me cried walking down to a violin rendition of perfect ed sheeran ugh i love him my memorial weekend beach trip

taylor gives old music vibes challengers second watch pick ups the SWEAT if movie john krasinski ryan reynolds and creativity kaarin joy tiktok hobbies and channeling child like joy inner child jupiter in gemini what the camizi was like for me i’m like an ipad baby about justin timberlake https://youtu.be/h6JzX-e-J2E?si=QuFjfJGe8sYD4SsK azealia banks video baby watching it https://www.tiktok.com/@tanaslaughtr/video/7235969297233792283 the thought of old it coming on like i know i’d be like shit ugh like a skit like i can’t stop how it makes me feel like can’t stop the feeling word to him like twerking slowly to the music m loved music needs to make comeback nicola cough jan my it girl queen who fucking cares. kyra pregnant wtf influencers getting to upload whatever the fuck how hard it is to not care about your job what i’m struggling with now do people believe i’m crushes anymore none of my are valid how hard it is to pinpoint that trait you want to have or admire i feel like mine is just masculinity and being bold outspoken and not giving a fuck for someone to blame a women’s period on not being able to lead a country when this country thrives off of women is so wild like my life would’ve been complete shit without my mom in it my best relationships in my life are with women when i’m down women support me it’s giving SATC birth rates down but everyone is pregnant right now wtf turning 25 i realized how NOT ready i am for kids and to be parent bumble i think we need to think more about why are becoming an anti sex generation instead of just trying to change it straight away let’s brainstorm a little bit role model ? tucker his podcast on zach sang ive been hatewatcjing a youtuber and its going too far i think she poses a mirror but also highlights my control issues kendall………khloe……….the kardsashians being booed BRIDGERTON……TO BE DESIRED francesca and her man sitting in silent YASHFJDJEUFIDOSLDK kate and anthony’s chemistry is scary i wish i was irish NICOLA KELLY CLARKSON

i loved challengers so much i can talk about it for hours i will probably talk about it on here again. i love the tortured poets department so much. i hate being a music grower. gabbing about my trip to london it was so fucking fun shout out london. LONDON IS MY CITY work to nick crompton from team10. also, since leaving in my rachel chinouriri phase like her music gives london it’s so fucking good! i’m eating it up!!!! GO LISTEN TO HER. i feel like old school jenna marbles writing a description like this… might go back to weekly episodes again. ZENDAYA’s body in challengers also inspired my recent body. Her body is tea. I was fucking gagging. Weight loss era I felt fat AF in London. Seriously, I have never felt more like a monster. I can’t believe I have been wearing rain boots a size too big for 2 years. Quote of this episode: “I love a flawed woman.” I am a flawed woman. Talking about my fucked up astrological chart.

It was very eye opening to see the protests going on against the ongoing genocide happening in Palestine right now.

Places to support:

https://asianamericanadvocacyfund.org/resources-for-palestine/#palaccounts

i’ve only gotten what i deserve when i learn to be a better person that’s when blessings will come grappled with religion and realized im the villain a lot of previews this year sneak peek into 2nd and a sneak into saturn return you know the changes you need to make you are seeing what people need to change will you change too or get slapped in the face in 4 years i woke up on april 19th wondering if my brain had changed for 25 yet 10 days before my birthday i thought nope i put on taylor swifts new album oddly enough and everything flooded to my head i wanted to talk about taylor swift previously because of all the statements she made about her 24th year and i can’t help but wonder if she knew and leaned into it i have been trying to write this episode all year but no feeling felt permanent none of the words felt perfect but honestly i thought this year was going to be an external glow up but instead it was very much internal i get sad and complain sometimes i act to fast and come on here when i’m angry but honestly i think i’ve spent this year trying to undo the victim mindset i’ve always had im making slow changes to change to become hopefully a better version of myself back to the taylor swift album i’m the antithesis of her it seems like similarly fueled by spite i guess but when i look at my past rarely and i honing in on how i was hurt by other people it’s more about how i hurt people and it’s been so hard to grasp my adult life has been challenging because of my past i am only getting what i deserve like i have said many times this year is karma is slapping my ass shout out jojo siwa but seriously i can’t help but think this is my lesson that i need to learn and like stick with i got a preview to my childhood from a distance this year for a while my sibling really struggled at home and it took me back to where i was as a teenager how different we are and compartmentalize what we dealt with at home i was manipulative calculating with how i let my steam blow but it still is impacting me now they have outbursts i contained it and let it out on people who were undeserving they went to the source and said you will literally hear me roar i feel so much older now it’s so hard to talk to someone going through something you went through who doesn’t act and think like you i’ve judged parenting a lot and my parents for sure and even if they didn’t do the best jobs i don’t think i could do it even close to as well as they did this year i did find what makes me me i guess i read books that made me feel happy listened to music that made me feel free and honestly that’s all i wanted i focus so much on what i don’t have instead of focusing on what i do and i don’t know where my little religious stint will go i don’t know if that is offensive i don’t know how else to describe it but i think i finally am letting all the overthinking and manipulating and controlling tendencies i’ve got to and giving it to god i guess is the best way to put it. i ended friendships that didn’t bring me joy, adopted habits to add joy like walking, i tried to focus less on the material world and more on finding myself, i played around with new hairstyles with my locs and dressing differently but i think the main thing i realized so far is that life is hard people make mistakes and you can judge people all day but maybe think about your vices and addictions and mistakes before you vocalize your thoughts or say something mean i don’t know thanks for listening

listen to me yap with a throbbing headaches. i’m back on twitter y’all if i had a sound board i would be pressing the boo button. anyways getting back on twitter reassured the fact that i am easily influenced by others. I listened to taylor’s new album and wasn’t loving the first part but really liked the vibe of the double album.

In the words of Candiace Dillard Bassett, the line is always moving. I’m back y’all if you listened to the last podcast my tire pressure came on the next day after getting the new one. But today I wanted to talk about something that has been on my mind lately. I feel like my generation is having a hard time with adulthood i dont know if its more than others but let me tell you it feels like it is i have had this weird feeling lately and have tried to put two pieces together that im not sure align i feel like sometimes those above me love to change me to mimic them like ive said on the podcast before i make a lot of mistakes but i also have always been like different than everyone around me i talk differently i do things differently like always its like a given but recently, i feel like people have been trying to change me to do what they do when it doesnt need to be called out its like when someone calls another person out on their regional accent and corrects them like just because you dont say it like that it doesnt mean the other person is wrong but weirdly i feel like as kids we were always told to listen and to follow directions and do this and that and grade school is pretty much follow the leader copy the teacher memorize what the teacher tells you and i think as much as i struggled with college one thing i loved about design school is that it was never really that it was here are the tools now use them in conjunction with your imagination and create soemthing amazing i get into the real world and its follow what i do im your boss you have to follow me and i really dislike it sometimes of course i suck it up and comply but i think i was so excited to have that taste of creative freedom in college and the real world took it away from me but i also feel like as a kid i was so excited to be an adult to have less rules in a sense to not have to run my household like it was run as a child to break rules sometimes and my job just feels like grade school but im struggling to memorize what my bosses and authority figures are telling me to copy i feel like i picked a design job so i could live as a creative so things didnt have to be perfect and follow a concise set of rules and. i think ultimately thats why im struggling i think the 9-5 is so confining and restricting and so opposite then college i just felt so free in college in a sense and now i feel so controlled. i dont want to become numb to that feeling and fall in line with the corporate ladders i want to live a life where people recognize that some of the 9-5 rules are excessive and boring and lack fun and change and newness if that makes sense. i guess what im trying to say is i lived my entire life being a rule follower and doing what older people told me with the hopes that when i became an adult the rules wouldn’t continue but they haven’t stopped yet. i know this is contradictory but sometimes i just wish i felt like i fit like sometimes it feel so cool to be unique but when everyone in the room is loving following the rules and you are breaking them in THEIR eyes by being yourself its hard to not feel. like a criminal. I ate the donut that everyone else thought was too sugary and bad for you. I use powerpoint instead of bluebeam. I love doing things in photoshop when possible. I like the amish looking target clothes. I think plastic surgery is beautiful. I shop at Aldi. Like everyday a conversation comes up and my answer is different than everyone else’s and i just feel more like weird and alone. i don’t know if this makes sense but ive just been thinking about it recently. And the thing is i love my job i think.. and i am so grateful for it but it doesnt mean that i dont have thoughts like this pop up sometimes. Anyway thanks for listening.

ALSO RHOP TEA

congrats candaice

why is crystal kung mingkoff off rhobh

someone could've led a colorism convo on reunion.....cmon andy

women can change the world seriously they have done it so many times i have been a little angry lately but today something happened today something was ignited that i have thought about many times but never like put all the pieces together car troubles and misogyny how can we change the system i went on a trip for work and had to drive over 500 mike’s and when i got home my tire pressure light came on my car so in the back of my head all week i was like oh i need to go stop where i got oil changes to get my tires filled up so i got up bright and early this morning to go for a walk and then o was like let me go to take 5 it’s open so i went and the guys there are so nice it’s so expensive and the guy filling up on my tires was definitely on a pre workout high he literally said it to the other workers he was like oh i think you have a slow leak on this tire go to this place down the road and oh i went because i was concerned - [ ] when i went in these people were so hell bent on me getting all 4 tires and i was like no and he was like why and i was like uh i don’t want to pay the guy next to me started laughing i waited while they changed the one faulty tire and another man came out and said my name i was like awesome let me get out of heee but no he’s like you should fix this and this when are you gonna get new tires i tell him later like in a month or two and he keeps saying do you have any questions i heard this a lot today and the thing is let me honestl i don’t know shit about cars and this is my dilemma i’m stubborn i’m on my period i’m angry i’m black i was raised. to go with my dad to do car stuff and i don’t think he knows stuff either but things always. go smoother when there is a man present but here’s my issue when do i know when i - [ ] being jacked or when it’s serious like were they trying to me to pay more money or were they being nice and trying to help me i’ll never know me i have an old episode called SNL SKETCH ideas don’t go listen to it or sucks but this could literally be one bowen yang recently did an episode where he reviewed the sketch bowens gay with sydney sweeney and she talked about how she wanted to give america what they wanted and do tit jokes and yea love that but sydney!!!!! girl i need your help with the car stuff! like i had this idea a few years ago to learn how to things that society has categorized as masculine to help girls im general and single women i think we need car shops that are all female mechanics we need more transparency with what it takes too own a vehicle and maybe i’m just the isidro and everyone else knows but i think it’s so important i know gabbie egan is also a trained mechanic i would subscribe so quickly to a female mexhanic teaching girls how to change their oil change their tires and stuff maybe i need to just go to a trade school or something but this like ignited a fire in me misogyny is so rampant in society right now and i’m done with it i will be going with my dad next time i see him to assess my tires and maybe get new ones but this little event really pissed me off because it seems like everything jnvolved with cars is so predatory and scammy most people have debt from cars most people go into debt to get cars and we talk about things like rent that beee to be stabliliRd and i agree whole heartedly but a lot of things need to be reformed i also think jobs that are based off commission negatively impact poor people and are predatory there is something about the business side of thing and people just being so gross that makes me so mad i don’t know why i’m sorry maybe this sounds insane but like sydney please do somtbintg!!!! but like no women were wiring in that entire shop and it was big and i’d like to see that personally like i would’ve felt more comfortable talking to a woman i don’t know we live in a man’s world and there are so many boys clubs let’s make some more girls ones

If you’ve listened to the podcast before i have often come on here talking about the most random things that like ignite a fire under my butt and this is the lqtest one i don’t know but it bugs be so much The quick run through is that Tana Mongeau had Trisha Paytas on her podcast and they talked about Brittany Broski declining and invite to cancelled Everyone was quick to say that’s not cool that’s kind of fucked up not to mention that all three of the women sitting there have had racist pasts Brooke Schofield the quickest to get upset hasn’t acknowledged her racist past at all I don’t like this conversation and airing it out on the podcast for a few reasons Tana constantly gives grace to terrible men and when she has the chance to attack a woman she is first there in the past tana has said oh this person is my best friend hung them out to dry drops them and goes where the wind blows in terms of clout when it deals with other influencers and rising fame levels too which just rubs me the wrong way in comparison brittany gets a lot of hate whether that be because she’s not conventionally attractive in societies standards or was plus size at one point and i think this adds to it i’m just thinking about brittany being asked to go talk about palestine and tana mongeau tellinf a story about recently blowing up a mcdonald’s bathroom i feel like if brittany did the same she would get cancelled for going to mcdonald’s during the boycott this also truly upsets me because it seems like brittany broski has a higher tolerance for collaborating with problematic men then problematic women

my quote of the week: once you stop caring results will come; also no shade but if only we put terrible men under as pressure as women who share their lives. there is so much going on the world right now… thanks for listening also go watch oh! stephco https://m.youtube.com/@OhStephco

dating discourse, high standards, being a pick-me

teacher stories, spite, ohstephco, 

4b movement, 

angel reese, coaches, misogyny, kim mulkey, dawn staley

cancel culture

march madness

sports, makeup, force, fitting in,

i want to start this off by saying i am not some music mogul i can’t spot references i don’t know how to produce music but i do like to review it when it makes me feel something and this album did that fully my first listen to this album was met with me wondering when i was gonna like burst out crying like i was on the verge of tears the entire first listen i also wanted to highlight my like thoughts when seeing the artists hearing that tiera kennedy and tanner addell featured was utter happiness when i was still on twitter tanner tweeted something saying beyoncé i would love to be featured on this album and people were kind of poking her and something i love about beyoncé is she does these things that make her seem so connected to the online world when i saw tanners tweet i was like why couldn’t she be on the album? like that would make sense i want to shout both her and tiera out i love there music a lot! i think i need to deep dive jnto a lot of artists who are featured on cowboy carter but something that intrigued me about a lot of the artists featured was there relationship to traditional music genres i think about miley cyrus who i fucking love who i think while in the past it may have teetered the lines of cultural appropriation to me personally i considered it cultural appreciation to me with plastic hearts she jumped in head first with rock and that album is perfect and i think it deserved more praise i recommend everyone to to listen to it and in my opinion i feel like beyoncé picked artists who are here for looking at genres as outdated and being able to switch and take inspiration and for people who could be considered the black sheep in their respective genres to me that is miley to me that is post malone i feel like as much as post malone doesn’t face criticism in a way he always will for being primarily in rap and hip hop i had heard a clip of a country es que song swirling around on twitter and i was so amused with roots in texas like bey post malone has jumped around a little bit too and it’s very inspiring to me as well to me beyonce doing a cover/ newer version of jolene is like the inverse of what happened with luke combs and tracy champán with fast car last year and i hope that dolly and beyonce can hopefully take the stage together soon maybe at the CMA’s maybe not willie jones from x factor to magcon to this like it’d awesome to see people from my generation people who started out so young in the industry like beyonce, and ryan, and miley and willie and to see them now it’s awesome i feel like i also learn so many things from beyonces music through references that i’m not aware of like the linda martell show and with dolly parton obviously someone with so much pull in the country music space who has used her fame to uplift and help so many people i remember how much she helped with the vaccine during covid and just how cool she is how she talks about other artists like whitney houston her mannerisms everything it’s so girly and fun and just herself i feel like i love hyperfeminine people who don’t stray from it even how it can be discussed in pop culture or by men it’s inspiring to girls who love pink and big hair and makeup and looking like dolls like i love it i love dolly parton so much i think it’s the the confidence in the sexuality on renaissance beyonce used sound bites from people like TS madison and big freedia and honed in on the importance of uplifting black people im the house music genre and i think with using the little willie nelson radio esque intros and similar ones from dolly parton with references to lemonade like i just love it and i wonder how act iii will do the same i always think of my favorite music album review it was done by kingsley on youtube about pink print by nicki minaj and he looked at each track and said his favorite verse or lyric so i wanted to do the same with some of mine!!!

beached whales tea  ayo edebiri paul mescal emily henry book adaptations for book lovers, beach read, people we met on vacation romcom renaissance sydney sweeney snl reactions anyone but you alcolades beyonce cma’s spotify audiobooks 15 hour free for premium users kelly Osbourne Sharon osbourne ozempic  my phentermine journey anti hero vibes and love gabbie hanna's return cowboy carter

don’t mind me i’m just talking passionately about music right now and this weird phase i’m going through before turning 25…. everything is changing…. please go listen to these albums like…. i’m gagging seriously

my year of no self help spiral

my thoughts on this sunday morning

I have been really obsessed with saving money and pinching pennies this year because of how expensive things are and because of how important it is to save money and i feel like money is a weird thing to talk about but i’m not going to get too specific but im just going to give my tips and tricks because i wish i knew about some of this stuff earlier and people like to gatekeep when it comes to finances and it drives me crazy - High Yield Savings Accounts - ROTH IRA - Traditional 401K - Separate accounts on checking - Dividing your check once you get it - Saving bonuses and money you get randomly - Not touching your savings - Building an Emergency Fund - Cash Stuffing - Keeping some cash in general Things that jeapordized my savings goals - Klarna and Afterpay - Big Shopping Purchases - Feeling like i needed to shop on the weekends and to do something fun - Eating out and not grocery shopping at aldi - Getting side tracked going into stores i know ill spend $ in like target - Not using what I had at home Things i still struggle with - Strict budget - Spending on food Things to kickstart saving $ - No buy month or weeks - Frozen fridays - Getting outside and exercising finding ways to have fun with friends while saving money - Making your favorite meals and realizing its better than eating out - Sometimes restriction creates innovation making meals just from aldi stuff - Movie pass a guaranteed way to have fun at a discounted price - Getting deals on entertainment - peacock deal for a year - Deciding to cut things that aren’t serving you if you really like using a service use it for a short amount of time canva when im heavy on youtube paramount when big brother/survivor is on etc.

I don’t think you understand how much this means to me. I’m so excited for act ‘Cowboy Carter’. Listen to 16 Carriages and Texas Hold ‘Em Wherever You Listen To Music :)

im back from my break heyyyyy what's up!!!

Rich People Don't Know What It's Like To Be Broke

- Dave Ramsey, Caleb Hammer, Graham Stephan

- My No Spend Month Results

- Mortgage Rates

- Budgeting and Gen-Z

- Taxes

- Inflation

- Adult Realizations with Capitalism

- You can't budget your way out of poverty

- Equity

- One Day On Netflix Leo Woodall

- UK Love Tv Shows and Yearning

- The flatshare Amazon Prime - Soundtrack SUPERIOR

- Relatable Love Based Shows

- Bruce Survivor 44 and 45 https://x.com/Perrbruce/status/1750934564640334311?s=20

- Austin McBroom

- Dog with Button https://x.com/jennytheleo/status/1751810344522035289?s=20

- Dog on Treadmill

- Jlo https://x.com/FilmUpdates/status/1747635372345934082?s=20

- Anthony Ramos as Bob The Builder https://x.com/kirkxxs/status/1724464002506362888?s=20

- Grace Reiter https://www.tiktok.com/@reitergrace?lang=en

- Nicole Byers has chemistry with EVERYONE

- My ghetto black history month

- Mr and Mrs Smith on Prime Video

- Donald Glover Praise

- Loudermilk on Netflix

- My IDGAF era

- I hate when people critique mothers im over it

talking about pete davidson and bipolar disorder for too long probably. - mental health - selena gomez - kanye west - celebrity culture - the holdovers - military school stories/boarding school stavros halkias paris hilton bhad babie - halle bailey and pregnancy - grand crew praise luv my walking pad - im sorry this episode is so .... idk bupkis and meet cute were cool idk

like with technological advances comes an ease with life here are some things i need i understand a lot of this shit won’t get fixed because we live in a capitalist society and the things we consume get worse and worse quality and quantity wise so we will need to buy more and more but im sick of it im going to talk about what i hate

something that makes taking the trash out easier

wrapping paper that is reusable

pictures should come with something that adheres to the wall and doesnt leave a mark this can be created this can be done i believe in you

all kitchen appliances should be dishwasher safe no questions

you should be able to dye your nails like you dye your hair or like permanent nails

we should be able to stop our periods l

i want my body to literally be an iPhone lets evolve that i can just plug something in and see all my levels like literally an app that sees everything going on this is the future that is healthcare to me 

we have evolved the need for glass i have broken so many glass things there should be something else i dont know what im trying to say with this one but you catch my drift… hopefully 

i was thinking about this the other day tires should be able to not get punctured by nails i do not know how but like lets fix it 

i was listening to white noise while reading and it made me feel like they were actually in a rainstorm for a second and it was so peaceful and cool and i thought like the online book reading devices should do like podcasts and playlists synced with pages with different sound related to the text kind of like how its done in audiobooks sometimes i dont know 

artists should be able to bring in their music sound into the roles they take when artistic interpretation is up for discussion like i was imagining jailen josey being princess tiana and how her sound would tackle tiana classics and even just like an album with their spin after doing the project like chloe x halle production of the little mermaid soundtrack everything reminds me of the hamilton mixtape because i think that project is just so cool and should be done more often!!!

side note artists need to do pop ups once they create albums albums listening parties concert tours that mimic the state they were in when they made it what was your house like at that time what was your vibe what was a studio night like i need more music videos made in the studio the night the song was made i feel like albums are so distinct they give such a time such an era i need more information like i would love to know everything about how an album i love was made one of my favorite things is going to artists pages and seeing their musical influences like rina saywama i believe has a playlist talking about what inspired songs on sawayama and its brilliant like i want to be in your mind when you came up with this album i want to see vlogs i know this probably sounds so creepy but this is how much i love music like im obsessed i would eat up all that conten

rina’s playlist https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3ZBj2iKJgeCPDg0AGibAXk?si=6e0b41487572423f 

MY SISTER WIVES DEEP DIVE IM OBSESSED

saw anyone but you cute but not quite there i’m such a movie critic these days but i think my answer is i just have to try to write a rom com that’s like one of my biggest goals 

the needle that weaves it through like what makes it funny like i would love to find that perfect formula snd bring rom cons back 

• saw iron claw and it was beautifully shot like i know it’s ironic saying this if you watched the movie but the camera views were great 
• the story is so tragic and sad and if you’ve watched the podcast before this is a story i wish i knew when i talked about how much i hate controlling sports parents i hate it because i had one to a small extent 

resume is a great name like it’s so pretty 

- social media break part 1000

- vision board issa rae

- the color purple praise

- found nbc praise

- what happened in 2023 video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJs_64OUpEs 

- dream crumbl menu

- paris hilton obsession

- kathy and paris singing to north west https://www.instagram.com/reel/C1RSE3BratJ/?igsh=NjZiM2M3MzIxNA%3D%3D

my new years goals/resolutions

• to buy a house 

• to become healthy overall

• to be active 

• to have successful side hustles

• to learn spanish

• to have consistent hobbies

• to be mentally stable

• to be financially stable 
  
• to be happy, inspired, and content 

• to excel at my career and move it forward positively 

hopefully it will be bigger and better in 2024 :)

okay maybe i’m just annoying but i watched the labrants newest video announcing the birth of their newest baby and i was immediately angry just imagine you are this baby in the following situations you are like 9 years old and you figure out what youtube is and you’re so excited to learn that your parents have vlogged your entire life and you can’t wait to go to see old pictures and vlogs and you see announcing baby number 5 and you are like wow this is when my parents got pregnant with me and you watch that fucking video i would be pissed as hell i’m sorry even if it’s the truth it doesn’t make it hurt less the whole world knows you were an accident they talk about how did you slip up in reference to your recreation your parents talk about how you weren’t apart of their plan in detail and how shocked they were that you were brought into this world they were happy kind of but you feel like kind of weird seeing your siblings announcement videos and then you wonder what was the first instagram picture let’s go look at that and your dads head is sitting on the ground in disappointment and belief that you have been created that suck’s your parents could tell you they just did it for content it’s not true they could tell you it’s just a funny joke but deep down you feel resentment you feel like something no one ever wanted but that your family decided to capitalize on their disappointment with your conception the labrants kind of suck i’m sorry seeing the video of savana talk about how spoiled her kids are compared to the kids in uganda like either sets of kids have a choice for the circumstances of how they act but how at the end of the day she is who controls how her kids act and are raised it’s just off putting i didn’t know that their eldest daughters father had passed away but to hear about cole doing a joint channel with her exploiting her even more after the death of her biological father rubs me the wrong way to see the eldest daughter become a meme because their parents allowed them to sing and do music videos there’s something about the lack of thought about the future when it comes to child vlogging no one thinks about how things will be perceived in a long time how will she feel as a teenager how will she feel as an adult how will she feel when she becomes a mother and she remembers how her whole entire life was documented and judged by people online when she will never know who has seen her face or heard her talk because it’s impossible to even count maybe it’s the over thinker in me maybe it’s because i’m overly cautious maybe it’s because their are things i went through as a kid that i wouldn’t want anyone else to do but no child deserves to have their parents occupation impact their lives in the way child vlogging impacts the children i’m kinda done with just talking about how much i hate child vlogging i think these parents need to like be ashamed of themselves when sites like reddit do a better job and protecting your kids… you know it’s a problem also shout out to reddit because i was snooping a few weeks ago and they predicted this baby months ago they knew it would happen like clockwork and that’s kind of sad too also if you don’t believe me and think maybe i’m overreacting i would recommend you listen to this tweet i saw the other day it’s from @lipstickandjays So I work in 2 high schools and we're planning a youth-led youth conference for all Ohio HS students. They get to choose the topics and lead the workshops. You know what a resounding topic is they asked for advice on? How to deal with their parent's social media persona. also for podcasts go listen to honey i monetized the kids by binchtopia thanks for listening and happy holidays!!! the caroline calloway documentary https://youtu.be/RUfIYBrODX0?si=t3mNEOPtK7OJ0ka7

cardi b and offset joint album with megan thee stallion that would be awesome for summer quiz lady on hulu neuro divergent representation simone biles and her husband george santos zíwe survivor finale reindeer games finale the holidays are hard everyone leaves but i feel like that’s when people need help the most eliza mclamb only fans around the holidays leave the world behind julia roberts SAD seasonal depression oprah-zemic ozempic my scandal of the fucking year the podcast i forgot is maintenance phase it’s so good go listen ruby franke is awful steamies drama jeff wittek tana weird survivor sia award katurah and jake queens go fund me crowd funding company crwodfunding car venoms for major life moments death and rebirth even involve money when they should involve physical and mental support sadly in our generation its linked to finances people should be happy for their life accomplishments and instead they ar thinking about how they need money so many people are struggling and are so scared to ask for help i feel like its hard to imagine aging any more like im living my life so wrong luke combs taylor swift etsy debate can you just tell use lawyers no asa creative like i feel like its inspiring for someone to create art based off you art would it be insane to get famous without a lawyer and let people just be fucking inspired like no i wouldn’t sue someone from using my likeness on a tumbler i guess its like i always want to write something and i also am always trying to manifest something what if i just write what i want to manifest my writing block era things that make me laugh chronically online thins is ts madison episode with nicole byers why won’t you date me dcp episode reacting to bramty reacting to him https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=dad+challenege+podcast+bramty

i forgot to say my favorite shows.... ive talked about my love for them all year lol  gen v  rpdr season 15  queen charlotte  the bear  favorite movies  theater camp  wonka barbie  little mermaid  favorite artists  amber mark her newest album  troye sivan his new album  luke combs in sorry  taylor swift  coco jones crumbl thoughts where is the fucking pink sugar!!!ijaaddee uranus in taurus the black hair debate jacob elordi v rachel zegler movie trailers are so important my life with the walter boys  YouTube to twitch streamer pipeline britt robertson praise big little lies s3 drue basham mercury retrograde matt rife.... lexie lombard and meghan hughes drama surrogacy shane dawson ryland adams parish hilton paris in love youtube trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vZvm0IaKA5I

i think i have ocd how to make reality tv end games more exciting  endings all around me i didn’t know mine was coming  beyonce's renaissance film experience

• hippie festival documentaries (very ape). my hippie realization
• wooks documentary: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2lBV4KK7pJA
• florida man documentary: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tB5C5P9qveE&t=646s
• oxyana documentary: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X5xAu1csU_c&t=2640s

• emma chamberlain bank account
• caleb hammer + dave ramsey
• rhobh is amazing sutton is queen erika is insane i like crystal and garcelle
• kyle and morgan = gflip and chrishell to a tee 
• SUTTONAH NOWSAH YOUR CHANCEUH TO APOLOGIZEAH 
• NAME ‘EM 
• sutton literally reminds me of so many woman from my hometown just rich and crazy and southern i tucking love it 
• andy cohen 
• kim zolciack biermann
• annemarie wiley new housewife
• peacock black friday deal $20 for a year
• it’s crazy that the world is crumbling and rich influencers are telling us to buy stupid shit 
• the bird at my window at home the birds are weird in chesapeake norfolk va beach my animal obsession is insane 
• why does your kitchen look like her kitchen is my nightmare i want to teach people to like put thought into what they do in their house and design 
• delayed gratification the effects of 2020 raw  beauty kristi’s video
• i don’t want to be martha stewart i want to be ms frizzle 
• instant gratification has definitely ruined dating and created control issues 
• growing up not really having the kids colors and vibes and having the 2000s version of the beige mom like everything was adult as a kid so weird to realize i see it in designing like i don’t think shit has to be crazy colors aspyn ovard ferris paw patrol style

they talk about pluto in aquarius as the haves versus the have nots and that it will be come very like aggressive and violent and the new age also will be a like surveillance state where everyone is constantly being watched no privacy and it’s like you eat and get eaten and it’s so weird because i don’t like the idea of playing the game to win and watch everyone lose and it’s very squid games and hunger games and i feel like a savage for peoples reactions the squid game because that’s what reality tv is like i love it but also i can still see why it’s fucked up does that make me a bad person idk 

anyways i wanted to start this episode off with some snl sketch ideas i personally love snl i know that is problematic of me i think its funny af and i think a lot of the controversial sketches are funny sometimes i can see through the problematic of it all and other times i thoroughly get why people are offended 

anyways whenever something funny happens in my life my first thought it this should be an snl sketch and i wrote them down in my notes document and i want to share them here after speaking them out loud i realized hey mine are problematic too i thought i could be funny and not say crazy shit but it was kind of difficult 

anyway i wanted to share my ideas with you and in similar fashion to my episodes ask lorne michaels to hire me why i dont know what could i contribute not sure i dont act i dont write but i do come up with ideas sometimes and am younger and chronically online anyways here are my ideas 

they all come from something that has happened to me

media i have been loving

thoughts on north wests attitude and the next generation of kardashians

rachel zegler and megan markle i am the anti-hero and i love flawed outspoken women oscar gracey's sentiment on just trish

i thought pain hustlers was cute

the squid game reality tv show was soooo fucking good

i got pretty nasty this episode and i need to stop but i think talking through it i understand that like not all content isn’t for me and i need to stop being so rude but walk with me this episode it’s not ALL negative. thanks for listening. matt rife's netflix special thoughts

brittany broski the pandas https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WFe74Ut2ois  naproxen and period pain helpful versus reliant  gen z is miss independent  sabbatical thoughts  invincible  kyra - okbaby diddy + cassie lawsuit im a bad friend  apple tv shows are so good  1989 tv  limerence described in a song is foolish one from speak now TV  done  my lack of black show knowledge family business on netflix and BET reddit snark era limerence vibe people come back when your over it emma chamberlain podcast stage names  accents dcp kyra sivertson new video sag strive is over yay religious trauma  darius jackson and keke palmer  womens sexuality debate

history was made tonight and i don’t want to discredit jags win! he broke records played an insane game! he was evicted came back and won! that’s insane. i’m so happy that he was big brothers first sikh winner. (and that we have had three POC win back to back! )it’s easy to get upset when your favorite doesn’t win, but i’m still very happy for jag !!! in this episode i talk about how competitions can change for next season, what i want to see next season, and my thoughts on finale! i also propose two ideas: CBS hiring me and a new show called the eldest brother? listen to hear more. #BB25 this episode i was kind of all over the place but honestly i want to just close this big brother chapter… it’s been a long 100 days!!!

i ended last week saying i would come back on here and be full of light and positivity girl that is not happening i get on here to share all my emotions good or bad you’re getting it all welcome to my darkness corner honestly!!!  podcast 3 year anniversary congratulations y’all i still haven’t taken a dance class but dancing in my kitchen is the most therapeutic thing i’ve ever done  i remember my smoothie recipe coconut water and bananas are key platonic on apple tv captures all my issues limerence issues and i’m so over that chapter in my life god please let me grow tf up  still up on apple tv similar premise i just don’t think chasing someone is fun and knowing that i only relate to these relationships because it’s one sided is so fucking dark sided it’s good how does her phone never die  laughing about steve lacy hating his life on tour and how i love when an album or artist defines a certain time period like he was running 2021 2022 keith lees atlanta food adventures so sad and embarrassing halloween costume ideas couple ideas that are a lock if i’m in a relationship obviously jessica day and nick miller new girl, blair and chuck or gossip girl blair and dan to be the superior ship duh. sydney and carmy the bear little mermaid and prince eric duh like so cute omg niche taylor and joseph big brother taylor’s finale outfit oh my god olitz olivia and fitz scandal i would die!!! danny and mindy the mindy project im pretty just giving y’all my favorite ships laura jean and peter kavinsky!!!!!!! mía thermopolis um YEAH about my favorite ships i realized i like toxic awful ships like my issues are very clear when i start talking about my favorite ships like i didn’t realize shipping mindy with fanny was so problematic until i was older  kai cenats prison live stream wtf people love forced proximity i think that’s because we lack structure in our lives and shit it’s just a mess i have so many thoughts on this mr beast type videos matt jag and bowie jane  -cbs the pearl video omg fundie fridays just pearly things the inevitable apoloclypse im scared  self sabatoging envy cycle of depression halloween w/o moi  loving uk tv i want to move to london BAD how do you know it’s time to get a new job? my anti vaxxer opinion like i just don’t get it  i want to just throw shit and break shit before i wanted to like jump off walls  gen v finale  survivor 45 is awesome 

Lebron james bronny james pipe dream versus genetic destiny carmelo anthony and eras was so good taylor swift is insane music videos are fucking awesome bring back mtv just showing them all day i used to love watching the countdowns at the gym - oliviva rodrigo - taylor swift creative director of her music videos - troye sivan the way he’s stories and projects shape my life literally and the confidence i exude when listing to her like i am a black swiftie fr my friend came with me and she loved it she was like i didn’t realize i knew so many taylor swift songs and i feel like a lot of people would say the same if they went i only didn’t know like 5 like pop music is back!!! people are so talented why don’t i see positive discourse like it’s crazy shit is literally out there if you want to talk about it how could would it be to just design and direct music videos for your job did you waste your 20s or did you just survive them (so many suggested youtube videos which is like why are those directed at me… lol” - maybe 30s are where it’s at disconnect between old people and young college sucks in real world preparation no work is applied to real world scenarios a lack of memory of college studies because of online learning and covid :/ debt to still be dumb limerence i can’t stop thinking about those who don’t gaf about me im obsessed with the acronym IDGAF this week idk why it’s just so satisfying to me but like i gotta get over it making friends is fucking hard im just an introvert trying to make it and i’m okay with that…. big brother sometimes the critiques go a little to far a lot of people would act completely different with 750k on the table jonathan majors the upper limit problem simu liu like you have it all and you feel like you don’t deserve it doja cat ijaadee theory haley’s comet tj maxx sentiment analogy people talk about homeless people like they aren’t a person at the end of the day they try to take their pets and i understand they aren’t living the best lifestyle to care for a pet but fuck neither are those who work 9-5s and go in each day and they group them together like they all share the same experience and have gone through the same things when that’s just not the case and when people are like yup they walk off the streets pan handling and go to their BMWS BFFR like i hate it i hate it so much if you were struggling you would want people to help you i think about all of the articles of people in like seattle making 140k a year not being able to afford rent and having to live in their cars this world is HARD to live on like let’s make this clear why aren’t you talking about that instead of shitting on homeless people this is something to my core that makes me completely sick i hate having issues like i just wish i could not be so freaking weird and when i get sad about it all i want to do is like binge eat so bad something high carb like a ton of pasta just so my feelings can go away i don’t get date culture cheesecake factory is a good date to me idk i like to eat it’s fancy to me where tf else are we gonna go is there something wrong with me i didn’t understand what dating and official meant until 2022 i was so confused i see why late bloomers get love bombed gaslit and manipulated because i would be eating it UP at the cheesecake factory lauren manzo rhonj and her ozempic divorce so over people being mean to reality tv stars when their job is to be entertaining im understanding that as i get older like we always need a villain im not sure exactly what she did my eclipse season dreams have been bat shit crazy and my sleep schedule is weird tyler the creators tweet about youtube he fucking gets it their algorithm FUCKING SUCKS RIFHT NOW the young girl talking about 9-5 and not doing anything around it and i just can’t help but i agree i don’t date i don’t go out i just go to work it is depressing but idk i don’t want kids and maybe i would be a bad mother